Dani's Pov

Danielle Jones

19 Years old

Real name Amy Mitchell

Stacey Slater

My best friend

I can always count on her

Well most of the time anyway

Veronica Mitchell

Also known as Ronnie Mitchell

Also known as Ice Queen of Walford

And also known as My mother

I wish things weren't so complicated

She doesn't even know

She said her baby(me) was the biggest mistake of her life!

The locket

Ah my locket

The only proof I have that is known to my existence

I mean I have no idea where my birth certificate is

I wear my locket around my neck all the time

I never take it off

I remember I used to get detention all the time in PE because I refused to take it off

I wouldn't

NEVER

Archie Mitchell

My grandad

The dotting father

Pah!

As if!

Him and Ronnie don't get on anyway

I don't like him

He's mysterious

In a bad way

Amy Mitchell

Me!

No I'm talking about my cousin

Shes only 1

I babysit her most of the time

She's gorgeous

Roxy Mitchell

My aunt

She is crazy!

Party type of girl

A bit like Stacey

Actually there quite similar

Both have loud mouths

Get into fights

And can be very stupid at times

I wouldn't say I was boring

I just don't want to be really stupid and end up in trouble

I am the sensible one

Well I cant be that sensible

I got pregnant and the worst part of it is

I had an Abortion!

And actually the worstest worst part is I got my own mother to help me!

Her own grandchild

How could I have let this happen?

Anyway that was the past and this is the future

I want to tell her

More than anything

But I just haven't found that moment

You know when it's the right time

I just can't say it out of the blue

I need to find that special moment

I need to tell her the truth

The whole truth

And nothing but the truth

But my mother

She is very complicated

She pushes you away if you try and get close

She doesn't give you a chance to speak

Just showers you with painful words

Anyway

She phoned me out of the blue

Offering me my job back

I was a bit shocked

I mean when Ronnie had made up her mind she had REALLY made up her mind

I was delighted to be given another chance

Although Stace wasn't to happy about it as you can imagine

She was screaming all sorts

I hope Ronnie didn't here what she was saying

Stace knows that shes my mum

She isn't really to happy about it

But well….theres nothing really anyone can do about it

I love her

With all my heart

Ok It sounds a bit weird but I love her even though she can be a right cold hearted cow towards me

Stacey thinks I'm insane

I don't think she understands she has a mum shes grown up with her real mum

It's different for me though I've grown up unsure of myself , unsure and insecure

Its amazing thinking about it having another family another life waiting to be identified

If only life was that simple

I used to dream about her every night

What fun she used to have

She would take me out

And as I got older my dreams became more serious

But in the morning I was awoken by another dissapointment

It was just a dream

All it would ever be

A dream

A part of my imagination

I wish it was real

I wish my life could be a dream

I wish when I woke up I was with her

In my room

Her waking me up telling me to move it

Making breakfast

And then going to work with her

But when I was little

She'd take me to school

She would be the coolest mum around

And then she'd pick me up

Take me home

And we'd go out into the garden

She'd push me on the swing

&Vice versa

She'd take me inside

Make me my tea

And we'd sit at the table together

She'd let me watch a film

Then I got ready for bed

She made sure I'd brush my teeth

And then she'd tuck me up into bed

Tell me a story

About princesses and princes

She'd climb into my bed until I'd fall asleep

Stroke my hair

And kiss me goodnight

Sometimes I believed it

I thought it was true

But then I looked into my locket

And it was just a pretty face

A pretty picture

Not real

It couldn't move or talk

Just stare

Why? Why would she just stare and smile?!

What was there to smile about?

There was nothing

Was she so happy about giving me up or something?

Here I go again

Theres 2 sides to every story

And I hope her side is a good one

Anyway

At first I had no idea what she wanted I mean the last time we spoke well it wasn't the kindest chat we have had

I said yes in the end

Well Stacey was fuming when I came off the phone as I had arranged to go out with her that night

I know it was mean just bumping her off like that but….Ronnie did need me and I could go out with Stace anytime

The next morning

My alarm went off at 9.30

I got up and had a shower

I didn't start till about 12

But I had to go out and help Stace with the stall

I got dressed and headed out the door

I felt the cold summer wind blow against my face

It was blue skies

But freezing

I walked over to the stall

Stacey had already set up most of it

'About time you got here' Stacey replied putting some clothes on the rail

I helped her

' Sorry' I replied

' Don't worry you're here now' Stacey said smiling

I smiled

I sold some stuff and I left to go and help Ronnie

When I arrived Ronnie was sitting at the bar

I smiled

I was a bit shy for some reason

I was scared I was late and told her that I had to help Stace at the stall

She understood

But then she said those words that made me want to scream ' YES I AM!'

She said I'm not your mother

Newsflash: You are!

Not that I could tell her to my face

I just went ' right'

I dunno why I should have just told her there and then got it over and done with

I cleared up by the bar and that

I helped Ronnie in the office

It was a tip

But then I spotted something that wasn't pleasant

When I was clearing out from behind the desk

I spotted a pair of lacy nickers

Now I don't think Ronnie would wear those

That's something Roxy would wear

I laughed in my head

And then I froze

Oh no!

Please

Not him and her

Roxy and Jack?

Oh god please

Ronnie asked me is everything was alright

I stuffed them in my coat pocket

' Yea' I replied lying

I mean I wasn't going to show her them

She was getting married for god sake

I couldn't help feel jeleous of Jack

I should have been with her

She doesn't deserve him

Cheating on her!

And with her own sister!

My aunt!

I just wanted to scream

But then again I might be wrong

And embarrass my self and Ronnie

Especially Ronnie

Imagine if they turned out to be hers!

But I doubt it

I decided to keep it to myself

She high fived me

After we finished

We both ended up burst out laughing

Now this was the Ronnie I wanted to know

She asked me to come back to hers for lunch

I was delighted

We went back to hers and she made me some sandwiches and my favourite crisps cheese&onion her favourite 2!

Then it got a bit more personal

She asked me about myself

I wasn't sure what to say

Then she reassured me and I was going to tell her

But then her phone ran

Great!

How convient!

It was Roxy

Ronnie was screaming down the phone

I asked her of she was alright when she got off

She said she was fine

She told me that Roxy was needing her to babysit Amy

I offered to help

But then it came

Ice Queen Ronnie returns the sequel!

She asked me if it would be good for me

I was very confused

Then she metioned the abortion

I mean what had that got to do with anything?

And then she made me more angry by saying that she didn't want me here when amy came!

What the hell? I just don't get her

Then I just made her her more mad by asking her again confused

Here came Ice queen Ronnie!

' look I don't want you around amy alright!' she said raising her voice

Then it came Word Vomit ' Yea because your such an authority on looking after kids aren't you?, you couldn't even raise your own!' I said coldly getting off the sofa ready to leave

I was so angry

So was she

'Get out!, get out!' she said screaming at me

I ran out of the house

Screaming ' I hate you!'

I did Stacey was right she was a mean heartless cow

I ran to the playground

I didn't know where else to go

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