Dani's Pov
Danielle Jones
19 Years old
Real name Amy Mitchell
Stacey Slater
My best friend
I can always count on her
Well most of the time anyway
Veronica Mitchell
Also known as Ronnie Mitchell
Also known as Ice Queen of Walford
And also known as My mother
I wish things weren't so complicated
She doesn't even know
She said her baby(me) was the biggest mistake of her life!
The locket
Ah my locket
The only proof I have that is known to my existence
I mean I have no idea where my birth certificate is
I wear my locket around my neck all the time
I never take it off
I remember I used to get detention all the time in PE because I refused to take it off
I wouldn't
NEVER
Archie Mitchell
My grandad
The dotting father
Pah!
As if!
Him and Ronnie don't get on anyway
I don't like him
He's mysterious
In a bad way
Amy Mitchell
Me!
No I'm talking about my cousin
Shes only 1
I babysit her most of the time
She's gorgeous
Roxy Mitchell
My aunt
She is crazy!
Party type of girl
A bit like Stacey
Actually there quite similar
Both have loud mouths
Get into fights
And can be very stupid at times
I wouldn't say I was boring
I just don't want to be really stupid and end up in trouble
I am the sensible one
Well I cant be that sensible
I got pregnant and the worst part of it is
I had an Abortion!
And actually the worstest worst part is I got my own mother to help me!
Her own grandchild
How could I have let this happen?
Anyway that was the past and this is the future
I want to tell her
More than anything
But I just haven't found that moment
You know when it's the right time
I just can't say it out of the blue
I need to find that special moment
I need to tell her the truth
The whole truth
And nothing but the truth
But my mother
She is very complicated
She pushes you away if you try and get close
She doesn't give you a chance to speak
Just showers you with painful words
Anyway
She phoned me out of the blue
Offering me my job back
I was a bit shocked
I mean when Ronnie had made up her mind she had REALLY made up her mind
I was delighted to be given another chance
Although Stace wasn't to happy about it as you can imagine
She was screaming all sorts
I hope Ronnie didn't here what she was saying
Stace knows that shes my mum
She isn't really to happy about it
But well….theres nothing really anyone can do about it
I love her
With all my heart
Ok It sounds a bit weird but I love her even though she can be a right cold hearted cow towards me
Stacey thinks I'm insane
I don't think she understands she has a mum shes grown up with her real mum
It's different for me though I've grown up unsure of myself , unsure and insecure
Its amazing thinking about it having another family another life waiting to be identified
If only life was that simple
I used to dream about her every night
What fun she used to have
She would take me out
And as I got older my dreams became more serious
But in the morning I was awoken by another dissapointment
It was just a dream
All it would ever be
A dream
A part of my imagination
I wish it was real
I wish my life could be a dream
I wish when I woke up I was with her
In my room
Her waking me up telling me to move it
Making breakfast
And then going to work with her
But when I was little
She'd take me to school
She would be the coolest mum around
And then she'd pick me up
Take me home
And we'd go out into the garden
She'd push me on the swing
&Vice versa
She'd take me inside
Make me my tea
And we'd sit at the table together
She'd let me watch a film
Then I got ready for bed
She made sure I'd brush my teeth
And then she'd tuck me up into bed
Tell me a story
About princesses and princes
She'd climb into my bed until I'd fall asleep
Stroke my hair
And kiss me goodnight
Sometimes I believed it
I thought it was true
But then I looked into my locket
And it was just a pretty face
A pretty picture
Not real
It couldn't move or talk
Just stare
Why? Why would she just stare and smile?!
What was there to smile about?
There was nothing
Was she so happy about giving me up or something?
Here I go again
Theres 2 sides to every story
And I hope her side is a good one
Anyway
At first I had no idea what she wanted I mean the last time we spoke well it wasn't the kindest chat we have had
I said yes in the end
Well Stacey was fuming when I came off the phone as I had arranged to go out with her that night
I know it was mean just bumping her off like that but….Ronnie did need me and I could go out with Stace anytime
The next morning
My alarm went off at 9.30
I got up and had a shower
I didn't start till about 12
But I had to go out and help Stace with the stall
I got dressed and headed out the door
I felt the cold summer wind blow against my face
It was blue skies
But freezing
I walked over to the stall
Stacey had already set up most of it
'About time you got here' Stacey replied putting some clothes on the rail
I helped her
' Sorry' I replied
' Don't worry you're here now' Stacey said smiling
I smiled
I sold some stuff and I left to go and help Ronnie
When I arrived Ronnie was sitting at the bar
I smiled
I was a bit shy for some reason
I was scared I was late and told her that I had to help Stace at the stall
She understood
But then she said those words that made me want to scream ' YES I AM!'
She said I'm not your mother
Newsflash: You are!
Not that I could tell her to my face
I just went ' right'
I dunno why I should have just told her there and then got it over and done with
I cleared up by the bar and that
I helped Ronnie in the office
It was a tip
But then I spotted something that wasn't pleasant
When I was clearing out from behind the desk
I spotted a pair of lacy nickers
Now I don't think Ronnie would wear those
That's something Roxy would wear
I laughed in my head
And then I froze
Oh no!
Please
Not him and her
Roxy and Jack?
Oh god please
Ronnie asked me is everything was alright
I stuffed them in my coat pocket
' Yea' I replied lying
I mean I wasn't going to show her them
She was getting married for god sake
I couldn't help feel jeleous of Jack
I should have been with her
She doesn't deserve him
Cheating on her!
And with her own sister!
My aunt!
I just wanted to scream
But then again I might be wrong
And embarrass my self and Ronnie
Especially Ronnie
Imagine if they turned out to be hers!
But I doubt it
I decided to keep it to myself
She high fived me
After we finished
We both ended up burst out laughing
Now this was the Ronnie I wanted to know
She asked me to come back to hers for lunch
I was delighted
We went back to hers and she made me some sandwiches and my favourite crisps cheese&onion her favourite 2!
Then it got a bit more personal
She asked me about myself
I wasn't sure what to say
Then she reassured me and I was going to tell her
But then her phone ran
Great!
How convient!
It was Roxy
Ronnie was screaming down the phone
I asked her of she was alright when she got off
She said she was fine
She told me that Roxy was needing her to babysit Amy
I offered to help
But then it came
Ice Queen Ronnie returns the sequel!
She asked me if it would be good for me
I was very confused
Then she metioned the abortion
I mean what had that got to do with anything?
And then she made me more angry by saying that she didn't want me here when amy came!
What the hell? I just don't get her
Then I just made her her more mad by asking her again confused
Here came Ice queen Ronnie!
' look I don't want you around amy alright!' she said raising her voice
Then it came Word Vomit ' Yea because your such an authority on looking after kids aren't you?, you couldn't even raise your own!' I said coldly getting off the sofa ready to leave
I was so angry
So was she
'Get out!, get out!' she said screaming at me
I ran out of the house
Screaming ' I hate you!'
I did Stacey was right she was a mean heartless cow
I ran to the playground
I didn't know where else to go
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