Chapter 7
Fresh starts
A/N: Warning, Vulgar language, VERY long & detailed lemon and repulsive behavior.
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Bella's Point Of View
All goddamn night I dreamed about Edward's chocolate covered cock. I'd have it for every meal if my ass wouldn't get any bigger.
So far, Sunday had started off relatively simple – eating breakfast and watching TV –something I never did until I met Edward.
Edward was changing a lot of things about me lately and I couldn't help but feel like I was losing a small piece of myself. I knew that most of my life deserved to be put out on the curb – like Tuesday's garbage, but there were things that I just didn't want to give up.
Edward never forced the changes on me of course. I think I may have done them to impress him or be somebody that was up to his standards. Edward liked me before all these changes so why the hell was I changing now?
Fucked if I know.
I got up from the couch without saying anything and headed for the bathroom. Edward eyed me strangely but never said a word. I don't know why I never liked Television - perhaps there was nothing on it but devastation and disaster. My life was already full of that bullshit and I suppose I didn't want to add more to it.
When I got in the shower, I let the hot water trickle down my back. I seriously needed a massage to work out all the kinks but the shower would have to do for now. Soon, I found myself digging my fingernails into the ceramic tile. I was miserable and I had no fucking idea why.
Edward was showing me a world that I believed never existed, and yet I still wasn't happy? I knew what the culprit was but I just didn't want to deal with it at all.
Why can't I just live in my fantasy world with Edward? Why can't I just let him wisp me off into the sunset? What the fuck is wrong with me?
Before long, I found myself sitting on the floor of the tub – wrapping my arms around myself as I sobbed. What I was doing wasn't right. It was downright unforgivable. I was a horrible person.
I'd went from being miserably married – but married all the same… to cheating and leaving my husband for my lover. This morning I'd went from not wanting Edward to change me to wanting to forget that I had problems. I just let him hold me so I'd forget about them and just be content in his arms.
My life had went from complicated to a complex, fucked up, dark twisted flop. How was I going to prove to myself that I could have all of this? How was I going to be someone else and start over? I knew that people did this all the time. Their school sucked, relationship sucked, family sucked so… they moved out of town. They tried a new school, ended said relationship and went on the hunt to find someone new - start completely over.
The problem was I'd never started over before. My life had always been… my life. I'd never had falsified dreams or even just dreams in general.
"Bella," Edward bellowed from the doorway, but I couldn't answer him.
"Bella!" His voice got higher and still I couldn't answer him.
The next few seconds happened relatively fast. Edward pulled back the shower curtain to find me in a fetal position on the tub floor. He scooped me up into his arms and placed me down on the bed then wrapped his arms around me until I stopped crying.
"What is it Bella?" he asked, pulling back a strand of my wet hair and tucking it behind my ear.
I wasn't quite sure what the hell was wrong with me to even start this conversation. I was completely and utterly fucked up. How could I explain any of this to anyone if I didn't understand it myself?
"Bella, you can tell me what's on your mind," Edward pressed.
"I just… I don't know… I just don't know why I can't allow myself to be happy," I blabbered on.
"Happy… do I not make you happy?" He asked the one question that I'd hoped he wouldn't.
"I'm content with you… and I know that you bring happiness into my life but I'm still not there yet."
"I see."
"It's not that you don't treat me well, Edward. It's just that I'm fucked I guess… I've got so much to deal with and yet I deal with nothing. It's just all getting to me." I stated, not quite sure how to explain things to him.
"What does Bella need?" He asked.
How the fuck was I supposed to answer that question when I didn't even know what the fuck I needed? Did he not just hear what I said?
"I don't know, Edward." I stated a little annoyed.
Edward never said much after that - nothing… not even "kiss my ass" or a "fuck you"… nothing. I felt bad like I'd hurt his feelings and I just didn't' know how to fix it. I'd tried to be as honest as I could with him – afraid that something like this might happen and yet here we sit – unmoving and quiet.
Where do we go from here? It seemed like a relatively stupid question but still I'd never had this sort of conversation with Jake. We'd always just argued and after a few hours we'd went about our day like nothing had happened – I'd never dealt with shit.
I watched Edward from the little kitchen lay back on the bed. He looked generally content and at peace. I couldn't help but wonder if I'd be like that someday – without being so uptight all the time? Oh how I wanted that.
"Edward, I think I'm just lonely," I whispered.
He propped himself up onto his elbows to address me but his expression shouted out confusion.
"Lonely? I can't be home all the time, Bella. I'm sorry for that, but once you start working with me you won't be lonely anymore… you'll see." He smiled.
"It's not that Edward, It's the fact that I have no friends or family around and well… as much as I fucking hate their bullshit… I love them none the less." I eyed him.
"What do you want to do?" He asked.
"I was thinking I'd phone my dad… maybe tell him what's going on."
Edward's smile reached his eyes then, and I was strangely taken back by that. Why the hell would he be so happy about this? My dad was sure to give me one hell of a tongue lashing.
"I think that's a great idea. I'll go with you if you like." He smiled and sat up on the bed.
"No… thanks, but I think I need to do this on my own… ya know?" I shyly looked up from the ground at him.
"I'll drive you there. I've got to make a few stops in Forks. Then you can call me when you're ready to leave." He got up from the bed to put his shoes on.
I was momentarily shocked and my feet felt like they were cemented into the ground. I'd wanted to tell my father for such a long time about Jake but I always feared that he wouldn't believe me. Well, I guess I knew he wouldn't, but it was time – if I'd planned to move forward with Edward.
What the fuck am I saying?
I don't know if I'm moving on from Jake or moving on with Edward. I wasn't even sure if I was ready to move on at all – period. I couldn't understand why Edward thought this situation was easy – just be with him and poof everything is all wonderful? I had shit to deal with and it wasn't going to be an overnight change.
My mind for the last few weeks has been all over the damn place and I could feel myself falling into depression… perhaps I was already there but was never aware of the fucking thing.
When we got in the car to go, Edward seemed like a little kid anticipating Santa Clause.
"What's with you?" I asked.
"I'm sorry, Bella, I know this'll be tough for you but I think it's time your father knows the truth. He's so blinded by what's right in front of his eyes, and I guess… I hope that he'll step up and plant that asshole in jail where he belongs." He whispered at first and then his voice got just a little bit louder.
I watched as a very evil little grin became prominent on his face as his eyes squinted up like he was focused on some damn prize. Edward was getting a cheap thrill out of my father possibly shooting Jake.
Is it fucked for me to enjoy the thought as well?
As we passed the "Welcome to Forks" sign, my heart had now left my chest and was beating rapidly in my throat. I wasn't at all sure how to start this conversation with my father nor was I sure how he'd react, but it had to be done.
As much as I was scared, I was also anxious to get this out.
I gave Edward the directions on how to get to my father's house but asked if he'd drop me off just a few blocks down the road. He never questioned my plea he just did as I asked – as per usual.
Sometimes I wished he'd say "hell no," but this time, I was glad he didn't argue with me. Today was going to be a hard day as it was, and I didn't need it to be worse by arguing with Edward.
Edward dropped me off a few blocks down from my father's house and instructed me to call him "no matter what" when I was ready to go. I nodded and watched as his car left me standing there on the sidewalk. A part of me wanted to run after him – flailing my arms until he stopped. I wanted to runaway and never look back on this place but I knew that this place – no matter how bad – held a piece of my heart.
I wasn't even sure if my father would be home. Normally on Sundays he goes fishing with Jakes dad, Billy Black. That was the other thing that was going to be hard… Billy. He was like a father to me. A father that I'd always wished I had. Charlie was my dad but he never truly paid much attention to me. I was just simply in the room and that was it.
Billy had even explained my period to me and the changes of womanhood – the importance of love and sex and how I should dress if I wanted respect from a man. He was a great father and I wondered how the hell Jake had turned out the way he had –having a father like Billy.
As the small little white house came into view, I found myself dragging my feet along the cement – I was stalling. I stopped dead in my tracks, looked at the house, and took a deep breath before walking up the driveway.
When I arrived at the front door I heard the music of Toby Keith coming from the backyard. I smiled then – Dad and his country music. As I approached the backyard my dad was laying back in his lawn chair. The radio was beside him on a beer box and he had a beer in his hand.
He heard me approach.
"Bella!" He shot out excitedly as he placed his beer down and engulfed me in a hug.
"Hey dad, what are you up to?"
"Just taking in some sun," he chuckled. "Want a sandwich?" I smiled and nodded.
When we entered the house, things got a little quiet. My father, being a police officer, could sniff out trouble a mile away… but oddly enough he never sniffed out Jake. I think it was just because Jake meant so much to my dad, and to be fair to my dad… not only did Jake pretend to be someone else all these years but he was good at manipulating everyone – including my father.
I knew that this news was going to break my father's heart but he needed to understand why I did the things I did – why I'd left Jake and why I'd never told him about it.
"What's going on Bells?" He asked across the kitchen table.
"Dad I left Jake." I said. I stopped to see how he took that first.
"For that Edward guy?" He eyed me.
"No, I mean maybe… Jake and I just aren't working anymore." I sighed.
"Marriage is hard work… you've got to work at it," he said.
"Like you and Mom did?" The words spewed out of my mouth before I had a chance to stop them.
Great! Now he's looks sad.
"I would've worked things out with your mother if she would've given me the chance." He spoke looking out the window.
"Dad she left you for another man. You deserve better." I placed my hand on his while he looked me in the eyes.
"Yes, and so does Jake." His eyes narrowed in on me, and even though I knew what he meant, the words stung.
"Listen, I have to tell you something - something that I've been keeping secret for so many years. Can you listen to me? I mean really listen to what I have to say?" I asked as he continued to stare – unmoving.
"Dad, I'm not leaving Jake because I fell out of love with him and in love with someone else. My actions are not the same as Mom's. I know this is hard to understand right now but please know that I love you and I can no longer put up with Jake's mess."
"How can you say that you're not acting like your mother, Bella? You're acting like a little tramp! You married a man for better or worse and you don't just toss everything aside so you can get fucked!" He screamed at me and stood up from the table.
Tears started to well in my eyes. How could my father think I was a tramp? Didn't he know me at all? I guess not. I knew that I didn't give him many options because I'd hidden the truth from him all along, but this… this was just cruel.
I stood from the table calm and collected before I spoke the next words that came out of my mouth. It was now or never, and I was so tired of it all.
"Well daddy, the son you never had beats your little girl! He has beaten me on many occasions, tells me how to dress, how to live! He cheats with anything that has a pussy and constantly shoves that white powder up his nose – which has resulted in our financial troubles!" I spewed and watched as the anger reached his face.
"You don't have to believe me because simply put "Father…" I don't give a damn what you think. I've met someone extraordinary who treats me the way I deserve to be treated. I don't know where Edward and I are going but I'm willing to find out." I yelled and headed for the door.
As my hand reached the door handle I felt my father's large hand cup my shoulder with brute strength and spin me around so I was facing him. The rage that filled his eyes was unmistakable and when his left hand connected with the side of my face… I knew that our so called "father/daughter" relationship was over. I'd hurt him in the worst possible way. I'd embarrassed him just as my mother had, and he'd never believe me or forgive me for what I'd done to him.
I stood there staring up at the man that I no longer knew. Perhaps I never knew him and couldn't help but feel that I wasn't losing much. I nodded, turned and walked out the front door – back into the warm sun.
As I walked down the street, this strange smile reached my face. I had no idea why I was smiling or why the hell this situation had made me happy?
Perhaps for the first time in my life I really was free – free from all the restrictions of my past and free to start a new.
I hadn't made it far from my father's house before I had this urge to see Edward. He made everything so much better.
"Bella, are you ready?" He answered his phone.
"Yep… could you meet me at Izzy's? There's just one more thing I need to take care of before we go back to Seattle."
"No, I don't want you going in there alone. Let me come with you?" He begged.
I thought about it for a second and then said, "What the hell. I'm just a block from my dad's come and get me."
Edward was thrilled that I wasn't pushing him away or trying to put myself in more danger.
His words.
A part of me kept asking why I was being so stupid and then the other part was smiling ready to give everyone the show they'd been waiting for.
When Edward pulled up, I was sitting under the shade of a big oak tree on one of my father's neighbor's property.
I watched as he parked the car, got out, and sat down beside me.
He noticed the red handprint that I wore on my right cheek and rubbed the pad of his thumb across it as he swallowed hard and tucked my head into his chest.
We didn't say anything to one another for a while. Instead, we just sat there while I let him hold me the way no one else had ever held me before. I'd dreamed of this feeling my whole life… the feeling of being wanted… needed, and every time Edward wrapped me in his arms I melted away – forgetting about the fucked up world that I lived in. All that existed was the strength of his embrace, the softness of his skin and the fragrance that only he wore.
Once I'd had my fill, I stood up from the ground, wiped my ass off and reached out my hand for him to take. He smiled up at me, took my hand and pulled me hard into his chest for one last embrace before we headed for the car.
I knew what had to be done next. I had to "officially" leave Jake.
Edward's point of view
I wasn't sure what had taken place between Bella and her father. She'd never mentioned anything to me, but I knew that it wasn't a good conversation due to the red hand print that was apparent on her face.
I'd wanted to go back to her father's and tell him how much of a dead beat he was and a piss poor excuse for a father, but I also didn't want to interfere in her personal life – I'd medaled enough.
When she told me that she wanted to go to Izzy's, I panicked. I definitely didn't want her to go there on her own. I was glad she didn't fight me on the issue.
I guess we were making progress. I'd compromised, she'd compromised. Maybe we'd work out after all… who knows.
As we parked outside of Izzy's, I wasn't sure if she wanted me to accompany her inside or if she wanted me to wait in the car. I'd hoped she wanted me by her side because if she didn't I was going to be peeking through the windows.
We sat there silently in the car for what felt like an eternity until Bella sighed and reached for the door handle. For a split second my heart was racing. I wanted to reach out and grab her by the arm and beg her not to go in but I didn't.
When she finally was standing on the pavement, she looked back at me and asked me if I was coming. I smiled, shut the car off, locked the doors and stood beside her on the other side of the car. What shocked me the most was when she looked down, bit her bottom lip then took my hand into hers.
I realized in that moment what she'd come here to do. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't happy as shit that she'd chosen me over Jake, but there was this part of me that was scared for her. Everything she'd dreaded saying and doing, she was about to do, but she wasn't going to do this alone. I was going to be right by her side and so help me god if he touches her… I'll kill the motherfucker.
She stopped just in front of the door and ran her hand down the handle… caressing it as if it was her long lost love.
"I'd had so many plans for this place. It's a shame that it's come to this and so sad that I've wasted so many years wanting so much from her," she whispered
"It's not over Bella. You can still have her if you want her. You could buy Jake out and have her all to yourself." I stated not quite sure why I said it, but I knew that even though I thought this place was a god damn burden… she loved it.
"No, Edward, I know what I have to do. Although I'd seen so much potential in Izzy's I also can't stand the fact that it's named after a nick name that I loathe and there are no good memories here – just broken promises and heartache. It's time to move on." She sighed.
I stood there for a moment eyeing the place trying my damnedest to figure out what she'd seen in it. It was old and the history I knew excited her, but my God… the money that it would take to fix it up was ridiculous… and for what… for the bikers, drug dealers and the fucked up people in this town to ruin it the moment it was a classy place?
She sucked in a deep breath, closed her eyes and pulled the door open – dragging me behind her.
When we entered, it was dark and gloomy – kind of how the atmosphere felt in that moment. People stared us down like we were the plague as we walked towards the bar.
Jake had his back to us leaning against the bar talking to some blonde that was behind it. The young girl was giggling at something he was saying and then there was Alice standing next to her. Her eyes bulged out of their sockets as we got closer.
Jake must have noticed the strange reaction on Alice's face because his head turned in her direction before he turned to look at us from over his shoulder.
He was no longer smiling.
I was smiling.
"Jake, can we talk in the office?" She asked.
We were standing no more than a foot in front of him when she'd asked the question.
"Sure." He eyed me.
As we started to walk in behind the bar, Jake stopped dead in his tracks.
"What the fuck is he doing?" He bellowed then pointed his fingers in my direction.
"This involves him as much as is does you. I'd like to talk to you both," she stated.
"He's not coming into my fucking office. If you want to talk to me Izzy then we'll talk, but not him… no fucking way!" He screamed and gathered the attention of the whole five customers in the bar.
"It's him and me or nothing!" She huffed back.
"Is that how it is?" He chuckled.
"Yes."
"So you're with him now?"
We both looked to Bella in that moment. I was fuming and wanted to rip his fucking head off for making her blush. She was so embarrassed by his actions. He was so far from a fucking man it wasn't even funny.
"If you'd rather everyone out here know our business, then I'll be glad to let them all know what a fucking asshole you are." She seethed through her teeth.
Jacob didn't like what Bella was asking of him but he also didn't want everyone in the bar to know what he'd done – including the new hot blonde number behind the bar. He gritted his teeth, turned, and headed towards the office.
Alice stared at Bella like she wanted to say something to her but never did. Instead, she glared at me like this was all my fault. I'd gladly take the blame if it lightened the blow on Bella. It was the least that I could do. Everything that was happening to her was my fault. I should've kept my hands to myself that night but I just couldn't. And now, I'd have her to myself… the way I'd intended it to be… but at what cost?
When we walked into the office, Jake slammed the door and the yelling began.
"Where the fuck do you get off… bringing that fucking asshole in here Izzy? Do you think this little of me? Don't I deserve better than this?" Jake screamed.
Bella took in a deep breath to calm herself but the rage was imminent in her eyes.
"Didn't I deserve better Jake? Didn't I deserve a husband that was faithful and loved me more than life it's self? Cherished me the way that I deserved? You've done a lot of things to me Jake that I just can't forgive. I came here today to tell you that I can no longer go on with this marriage. I want a divorce." She said calmly.
"Well Izzy, I'm not going to give you one! For what? So you can be with him?" He screamed again pointing at me.
If he pointed at me one more fucking time I was going to break his goddamn fingers.
"Edward and I are what we are. We're figuring out things as we go along. I don't know where we're going or if we'll make it but I care about him and it has nothing to do with me wanting a divorce." Her voice was shaky now and I wanted to wrap my arms around her and tell her that I'd be here for however long she'd want me.
"What the fuck ever, Izzy, you've wanted money… always wanted money and you're just using him. You'll be back. I know you will." He smiled then reached out and ran his hand down Bella's cheek.
I couldn't help myself. I reached out and ripped his hand from her face then stood between them.
"Don't touch her… she's not yours to touch anymore." I growled as he laughed.
"Wake up douche. She just wants your money. She doesn't love you." He chuckled again.
"What's the matter Jake? Afraid that I can provide all the things for her that you never could? Afraid that I can show her what love really is… what it's like to have a real man in the bedroom?" I grinned back in his face and sent him over the top.
Jake pressed his chest to mine and glared me down while I smiled in his god damn face. We were like two bulls – steam was coming from our noses. Bella got between us then.
"Jake, I don't love you anymore and you don't love me. We might have loved one another a long time ago but that love is tainted now. Let's just cut our losses and move on. You always found someone else. You were never faithful to me, and that alone should show you that you never cared for me. If you did, you wouldn't have done that." Bella started to sob.
Jake took it the wrong way thinking that she still cared for him and leaned in to touch her again. I placed Bella behind me.
"Get out of my fucking way, Cullen!" He screamed.
I shook my head no while Bella pulled my arm. I wanted to stay there. I wanted to smack the fucker around but it was apparent that this wasn't what Bella wanted.
"We're not done here, Cullen!" He screamed as we headed back out into the bar.
"My lawyers will be in touch Mr. Black, and you're right… we're far from done. The next time I see you touch her… I'll break your fucking hands so that you'll never be able to touch another woman as long as you fucking live." I grinned as I whispered into his ear.
When we made it to Alice's side, she tugged at Bella's arm.
"Please Izzy, don't do this. You and my brother will work this all out. Just give him a chance. You loved him once and you love him still. Don't walk away from him," she whispered.
Bella never said anything. She just stared at her sister-in-law and then back at Jake. Tears welled in the corners of her eyes as she took Alice's hand off of her forearm.
"What will your father think?" Alice yelled as we headed towards the front door.
Bella stopped dead in her tracks, turned around, and headed back towards Alice – leaving me in the middle of the bar.
"I'm so fucking tired of this shit!" Bella screamed. This time she gained everyone's attention in the place including my brother's band who stopped playing.
"My father already knows about everything! I told him today!" She yelled – this time gaining Jake's shocked expression, "And he can go to hell along with that motherfucker!"
"Jake is a fucking whore master, likes his fucking coke way too fucking much, and loves to beat the shit out of women. Where the fuck did I get all the fucking black eyes from Alice? Huh? Why was I in the hospital? It sure as fuck wasn't because of some attacker! It was that motherfucker right there!" Bella screamed at the top of her lungs as she pointed at Jake. "You can all go fuck yourselves!" She chuckled then her face turned crimson red as she turned, smiled, and headed right back to me.
When she was in front of me I wrapped my arms around her and kissed the top of her head as I stared at Jake, Alice and the blonde woman who was now shocked as hell. I smiled at Jake while I kissed her hair again and pulled her in that much tighter then let a small moan escape my lips. It was immature, I know, and my male ego had taken over in that moment but I couldn't resist pissing him off.
As we made it to my car, Bella was still tucked under my arms.
Jasper ran up behind us.
"Edward!" He hollered.
When he reached us he was out of breath.
"Edward, I just wanted to tell you that whatever this is that you're doing with Bella… I support you both. I love Bella like she's my sister and I hope that you both find happiness." He rushed out.
"Thank you Jazz." I nodded.
"But you have to be careful. There are things about Jake that both of you don't know. He hangs around some very bad people and I just don't want to see either of you get hurt." He eyed me.
"Thank you" I said again eyeing him.
I knew what Jazz was telling me. We'd warned each other for years… when we needed Felix.
Felix wasn't just my doorman he was also my family's personal bodyguard. We'd used him from time to time but nothing more than seeing who was coming in and out of our residence.
When I took over my father's business, I'd received a few death threats and had Felix watch the door at my apartment. No one knew that Felix worked for me… the old doorman suddenly up and quit and Felix was there to pick up the job. The owner of the apartment pays him good money. It's legit, but I also pay him for his time. He's doing well so don't feel sorry for Felix… he's good at what he does. Now I'd have to tell him about Jake.
What the fuck is one more guy?
I had no idea where the death threats had come from but I knew it wasn't Jake because they came well before Jake even knew that Bella and I were together. But now, I'd have to explain Felix's relationship to Bella. I knew I didn't have to but I wanted her to know in case she was ever home alone and Jake showed up. She'd know that she could call on Felix.
When we arrived back at the hotel, I called Felix and asked him if we could come back to the apartment yet. He said no. They were still fixing up the damages and the fire department was doing an investigation. We'd likely have to stay at the hotel for the week. I wasn't at all happy about that.
"Felix, I need you here at the hotel. I'll explain when you get here. Is there any way you can take the week off from the apartment and be here?" I asked.
"No worries, boss, I've got some vacation time. I'll be there as soon as I can." He hung up.
When I told Bella about Felix, she wasn't at all surprised that I'd have someone like that around me. She said that she assumed something was up because even doormen get some time off. I smiled and kissed her softly telling her that everything was going to be alright.
She was so tired. I laid her back on the bed and tucked her into my arms. When she finally fell asleep, I pulled the blankets around her small frame, kissed her forehead, and heard a knock at the door.
I walked quickly, looked out the peep hole to see Felix, then stepped outside into the hall – lightly closing the door behind me.
"What's going on boss?" Felix asked.
I told him everything from Bella and I having a one nightstand to Jake beating her all the time and Jasper's warning. He nodded then asked me for a picture of Jake. I went back into the hotel room and rummaged through Bella's belongings. No picture. Not even her wallet held a wedding picture of them. I sighed not knowing where to go from there when I saw her cell phone sitting on the counter.
I picked it up and scanned through it. I smiled when I saw a picture of Rosalie, Alice and Bella huddled together – holding up their beers and sticking out their tongues. She looked so happy. I kept going through them and then finally found a picture of her and Jake. He had his arm wrapped around her with a large white smile on his face. He looked like the happiest fucker in the world but Bella wasn't smiling. In fact, she was looking away in a different direction wearing a black eye that even makeup couldn't cover up.
"Here he is." I waved the phone at Felix, disgusted at the picture, and looked back to Bella. I found myself walking back over to her and laying back down beside her and pushed a few fallen strands of hair behind her ear.
"Okay boss, I won't forget his face. I'll be right outside the door." Felix whispered and placed the cell back down on the small kitchen counter then saw himself out.
I never took my eyes off of Bella's sound and peaceful face the entire night. When morning came and she finally opened her eyes to look at me, she smiled.
"Good morning beautiful," I yawned out my smile.
"Did you sleep at all?" She asked.
"I got a few winks." I grinned.
"Edward, you have to work today. You should've slept." She scolded.
"I've got a meeting today… I'll sleep then." I chuckled then yawned again.
"Work… oh, fuck Edward, we're going to be late!" She yelled then tossed back the blankets and ran for the shower.
I chuckled lightly as I watched her run to the bathroom a tussled mess. It wasn't long before my eyes started to feel heavy and I decided that I would rest my eyes for just a few minutes. The next thing I knew, Bella is yelling… scaring the fucking shit out of me.
"What… what the fuck is it?" I hollered sitting up quickly on the bed.
"Edward, we're late… oh fuck I can't be late on my first day." She cried.
I stood up and looked at the clock, it was ten o'clock in the morning we were two hours late.
"Bella, my meeting starts at one and I hired you remember? I'm your boss so you don't have to worry about being late." I grinned giving her a soft kiss on the lips.
"Still Edward, I don't want people thinking that I have special privileges because I'm… um… dating the boss." She giggled, finally making me smile.
As I started to head towards the bathroom, what she'd said finally hit me. I turned around and pulled her into my arms.
"So it's official, we're dating?" I asked.
"If you want to label it… then yes, I suppose we are. Now go get ready." She scolded me again.
I eyed her, removed myself from her probably naked frame under that white cotton hotel housecoat… trust me it was very hard to do… and walked into the shower. When I was finished, I was looking down fiddling with my fucking tie. Fuck, I hate those things.
"Here, let me help." Bella offered.
"You don't have to make excuses to touch me." I laughed looking up for the first time.
She took my god damn breath away. She was wearing a black pencil skirt, black panty hose and white blouse, which showed just the right amount of cleavage. Her hair was pulled back into a bun with a few strands that fell loosely around her ears with long silver dangly earrings and six inch high heels.
She bit her bottom lip and ran her hands up my chest as her fingers ran up and down my tie. I couldn't help but think about those fingers of hers stroking my cock. A small growl escaped my lips in anticipation of her skirt around her hips. She eyed me for a few minutes then took a step back.
"Alright, all done, Edward. We should get going." She smirked then grabbed her small black purse off of the kitchen counter.
She knew what she was doing to me and if we didn't get going we'd be taking the day off because I'd be fucking her tight little pussy all god damn day. I groaned, grabbed my suitcase and walked with her to the door.
"Do I look alright?" She asked taking a step back so that I could get a good look at her.
I swallowed hard and told her that she looked too good. She slapped at my arm and rolled her eyes at me.
Felix held the door opened for us and when he got a look at Bella, his eyes became as big as saucers. I gave him a stern warning and the smile left his fucking face. I felt like a total asshole… someone like Jake in that moment.
"I'm sorry Felix. I don't know what's gotten into me today," I apologized.
"No worries, boss, I understand completely." He grinned even wider.
Felix drove us to the office and when we arrived and got into the elevator, I noticed that Bella was fiddling with her skirt.
"Everything alright?"
"I should've worn something a little less revealing. Noone here is wearing a skirt. It's all dress pants and I just don't feel like I'm dressed appropriately." She awkwardly shifted in her clothes.
"Listen," I tuned to her. "You look wonderful. I'd like to take you right here in the elevator." I grinned down at her and kissed the little nook where her neck and shoulder met.
She chuckled at first and then melted into my touch. When the doors opened, she shyly looked down and softly pushed me away. Rosalie met me at the elevator with my coffee –something she did every morning when the front desk notified her that I'd arrived. She coughed letting me know that she was there and when I looked up to her she was blushing along with Bella.
"Good morning Rosalie." I whispered with a smile.
"Good morning, Mr. Cullen." She smiled back.
"This is the new hire, Bella… Bella, Rosalie." I introduced the two - giving the phony introductions.
"It's nice to meet you, Bella," Rose greeted.
"It's nice to meet you too, Rosalie." Bella giggled.
"I expect you to show Mrs. Black the ropes." I told Rosalie. I hated calling her that but people were looking.
"I will, Mr. Cullen." She smiled and I left them.
When I got into my office, I opened the blinds – something I never do. Before long, James was knocking at my door. I hadn't forgotten what Bella'd told me he'd done at the party.
"Can I come in?" He asked.
I nodded and told him to shut the door.
"James, Bella is working here now and I expect you to treat her with respect… at all times. You will not carry on the way you did at the party. Do I make myself clear?" I eyed him.
"Crystal." He whispered.
"Good, now I'm late and I have some things to get ready before this meeting so if you don't mind." I waved him off.
"I'm sorry, Edward, I didn't know that she was that important to you." He apologized before he headed out of my office.
"It doesn't matter what she is to me. As of today, she's an employee here and I will not allow this behavior to take place. Do I have to remind you of sexual harassment in the workplace?" I asked. He knew damn well what I was talking about.
James had hit on the receptionist before Rosalie and landed this company a rather large lawsuit. My father, of course, loving James, took pity on him and gave him a second chance with only a warning.
"No, I got it. See you at one." He mumbled heading out of my office.
I tried to get to work but I couldn't help but watch Bella push her little cart around –smiling as she delivered the other employees their mail. The men were drooling and I couldn't blame them. She was polite as she introduced herself to them and apologized for being late. The men didn't care. They were just happy that I'd replaced the old busted up lady with a shiny new one.
I continued to stare at her –watching as she'd lean over the cart and fuck me… she had a large slit down the back of her skirt just below her ass. This time, an envelope fell to the floor and when she bent over, her ass was directly in front of my window. She wasn't wearing pantyhose at all. She was wearing black stockings and a garter belt
I'd admired how sexy she looked in her little get up – how it looked on her gorgeous body and that god damn sexy ass walk of hers all morning.
I couldn't take it anymore.
I grabbed the porn magazine that I had in the top drawer of my desk. I stuffed it in my pants and headed for the bathroom.
Don't judge me. I needed her bad and I couldn't do a fucking thing about it.
When I was in the bathroom stall, teasing my cock and thinking about Bella – really getting into it, I suddenly realized that I was late for the meeting. I'd lost track of time.
As I bolted, I nearly collided with Bella.
I started to blurt out a hurried apology about being late for a meeting – fucking choking on my own words when she gazed down at my crotch and licked her lips.
I realized that I still had a partial hard on from my bathroom masturbation but I kept my cool… barely. She quickly straightened herself out of my arms and replied to my apology with a raised eyebrow and a cheerful "No problem."
I apologized again. That time a little embarrassed of my actions, and rushed back to my desk where I quickly stashed the magazine. I grabbed my notebook and headed for the meeting.
As I walked down the hall, I caught the back of Bella swaying her hips. She turned slightly as she heard me approach. She gave me a small little grin and I noticed that her tits bounced as she walked. I found myself staring at her swaying ass and sexy body.
Luckily, the meeting started late and I got there just as the doors were closing. It went on for a couple of hours and was boring as hell. My mind wondered back to Bella and I smiled. Did she really notice my hard on? I sighed and tried to focus on the meeting. It finally ended at three.
Back at my desk, I sat down with the intention of resuming working on the latest building we were trying to snag, but I just couldn't. My mind was back on Bella.
"Mr. Cullen," Rosalie answered the phone.
"Yes, could you send Bella in here please? I haven't received my mail yet today." I lied sticking the stack of envelopes into the top drawer alongside my dirty magazine.
"Sure thing, Mr. Cullen." Rose said with a little bit of a giggle in her voice.
It wasn't long after that when Bella knocked at my door.
"Please come in." I smiled and stood up to greet her.
"I brought your mail, Mr. Cullen. I left it right there on your desk." She practically cried.
"Please have a seat." I pointed to the chair, shut the door, and started working on the blinds.
People were whispering and eyeing my windows but when I gave them all the death stare, they went back to work.
"Edward, I really did bring your mail in here," she stated looking for the damn envelope when I locked the door.
I came up behind her and grinded my cock into her ass while I nibbled on her neck. Her hands cupped the side of the desk to hold herself from sliding on top of it from my hard thrust.
She laughed and said, "I think I know what this is about." She paused waiting for my reply but I was speechless and my lips were otherwise engaged. Her voice was confident and a bit sultry.
I felt a wave of excitement and an awaking in my groin. She pressed her back into my shoulder and I turned her around. Her thigh pressed against mine. My cock hardened to whole new heights. She was smiling when she pushed me down into my chair and stood next to where I was sitting. My eyes were at her chest level and she made no attempt to move.
I wined on about being tired and over worked. It barely made sense and sounded ridiculously lame but that's all I had at the moment. She laughed wholeheartedly, squeezed my shoulders, and pushed slightly against me. I felt her thigh against mine again and this time her breast brushed lightly against my chest.
She slowly lowered her eyes down to my crotch and back up. My cock was hardening and I'm sure that it was visible through my pants. She sat next to some papers on my desk cross legged then gave me a sly look.
"I noticed your hard on earlier when you left the bathroom, Edward. Being curious and nosy of what was sticking out of the back of your pants… I came into your office and noticed the porn. I took it into the bathroom with me and I read it through. I liked it, Edward, you have good taste."
I nervously looked down and thanked her.
Had she masturbated in the bathroom like me?
"I couldn't help myself. You just looked so fucking good today." I stood pressing myself into her core and kissing her neck.
"I was hoping you'd say that," she breathed out.
Slowly, she uncrossed her legs and spread them apart then placed her feet so they were flat on the desk near her ass. Her skirt was now above her hips.
"I want you to jerk off for me, Edward. Right now… in here. I want to see you play with your cock." She tugged at her skirt bringing it higher up on her hips.
I saw the crotch of her red, silky thongs. She seductively ran her fingertips up and down her panties just over her wet pussy.
"Do you have a lot of cum for me, Edward?" She rasped out.
My throat went dry. My cock ached and I had trouble talking. She kept stroking her pussy through her panties.
"Did you cum in the men's room thinking of me?" She whispered.
"Oh…" I couldn't speak. She was rocking my fucking world.
She started massaging her pussy with her flat palm and fingers.
"Did you pump cum out of your cock today, Edward?" She asked again.
"No." I choked.
Bella started pushing her fingers into her pussy as far as her panties would let them go. She moved her hips rhythmically to meet the pressure from her hand.
"So the last time was when you were with me?" she asked.
I couldn't speak. My cock was hard as hell. "Yes." I groaned wanting nothing more than to touch her.
She smiled, "Good. So you have lots for me?" She continued playing with her pussy as her hand and hips moved a bit faster and harder.
She didn't say anything for a minute or two. She just continued to pleasure herself and never stopped staring at me.
"Take your pants off." She ordered in a sultry, throaty whisper. "I told you. I want you to jerk off for me. C'mon Edward… your cock is hard and I can see it throbbing. You know you want to jack off for me. Why else did you call me in here? Just take off your pants so I can see your hard thick cock." She growled.
I groaned and started taking off my shoes.
"That's it, Edward."
I managed to get out of my shoes, stand up. I letting my pants drop and stepped out of them. I watched as she bit down on her bottom lip when my cock sprang forth.
"Oh… so good, Edward." She cooed in adoration. "I want you to stroke it for me."
I started to reach for my very prominent hard cock when she stopped me.
"I want you to do it the way I ask you." She smiled. I nodded.
This woman was going to be my death.
"Now, do as I say. Put your hard cock close to my pussy… here… closer… that's it. Now lick your thumb and index finger. Get them wet… that's it. Good. Lick the area between them… like this."
She showed me by licking her own hand. "Good… now make a ring with your thumb and index finger… circle the head right under the rim… do not touch the shaft… just the head… good that's it… now jack your head off lightly, up and down from the rim to the tip and back… yeah that's it… back and forth, back and forth… good. Keep your fingers wet. Lick them when you need to."
I started jacking off the way that she instructed me to. The sensations were intense, and I had to keep resisting the urge to squeeze my shaft. It made me moan and thrust my hips.
"Very good, Edward. I love watching you stand there in front of me… jerking off like this." She kept playing with herself as she gazed intently into my eyes. This was really turning me on!
After a while, she continued, "Now keep watching me. Don't take your eyes off me." She got off the desktop and turned around so that her ass was pointing at me. Her skirt had dropped back down to her knees again. She turned a bit so that she could see me over her shoulder.
"Look at my ass, Edward." She wiggled it – taunting me further. "Do you want to see it?"
I was starting to pant a little bit as the pleasure my cock was experiencing became more intense. "Yes... uh huh… I do!" I growled through clenched teeth.
"I thought so. Keep jerking off for me… that's it. Your dick is so nice and hard… I bet it'd feel good inside me. Can you feel the cum boiling in your balls?"
"Yes." I panted.
"Watch my ass." She slowly started raising her skirt. Her leering smile and her teasing, luxurious motions made me even more turned on.
My cock was rigid and throbbing. My stroking was getting more and more intense. I was beginning to pant more deeply and my hips thrust harder and faster. Finally, her skirt was up to her waist revealing her round, full ass. She started playing with the elastic waistband of her panties as she slowly teased them off of her.
After many teasing and agonizing minutes of torture she had her panties down and pulled them all the way off. She slid both her hands between her folds. She pulled her ass cheeks apart and gave herself a slight tap on the rump.
My cock was throbbing and I was furiously thrusting my hips. I was sweating and groaning as I jerked off for her.
"Alright, Edward, enough teasing do it like you'd do it at home." She begged.
I stopped the teasing motions, took my hard shaft into the palm of my hand and started jacking off. She started running her fingers up and down through her folds – inserting two of them into her hole every time she passed it.
"My pussy's so wet, Edward, I wish you could feel just how wet it is for you." She moaned.
My cock twitched. I started jerking off faster. She bent over a little more and wiggled a little closer to me so that her hole was an inch or two from my cock. I was jerking furiously and I could tell my explosion was just a few strokes away when she cried out "Stop!"
I froze in mid-stroke. "Don't cum yet, Edward." I stopped and sighed heavily. My cock was throbbing. She sat on the desk facing me with her legs hanging over the edge. I was breathing heavy but the arousal I felt was a strange mixture of sexual excitement, fear, and something new and unfamiliar. The intense feelings I was experiencing weren't only in my cock but all through my body.
I suddenly became aware of a deep yearning for more of her… I wanted her more than I'd ever wanted anything.
"Your stroking turned me on so fucking much. I want you to smell my arousal between my legs, Edward."
I got on my knees and reached for my cock but she instructed me not to touch it. She tangled her hand in my hair and shoved her pussy in my face. I took deep breaths of her through my nose. Each one smelled so sweet. Each whiff caused hot burning spasms in my cock.
She stood and turned me so that I was now sitting on the desk. She lifted one leg and then the other – inserting herself slowly onto my throbbing member. She sat there unmoving feeling my cock throb inside of her.
She leaned in and kissed my lips softly at first and then with such force that I tugged her hair and pulled her down closer to me. I arched my hips and moaned as the pleasure flowed through me. Soon she started to caress and stroke at her own breasts as she rotated her ass which caused my cock to harden still.
She was a beautiful and sexy woman. I found myself unable to close my eyes. I sat there watching her facial expressions – her biting on her lips as she tried to keep her moans isolated all while she rode my cock brilliantly.
"Oh Edward, I want to cum so bad." She whimpered.
I spun us around knocking all the various papers and knickknacks onto the floor –thrusting into her hard… so hard that her ass was bouncing on the desk making slapping noises which excited me even more.
A realization dawned on me that I was totally out of control. I'd never been even remotely as wild with anyone else other than Bella. I could see the power she held over me and I got scared. The effect she had on me didn't stop me or slow me down, but rather, the fear made me even more aroused.
I felt my cum rising and burning in white, hot waves of intense pleasure. It pulsated in the very tip of my cock every time her muscles squeezed around me. Bella let loose then her cum oozed and dripped down my cock. It turned me on even more.
"Oh, Edward!" She cried as I placed my hand over her mouth to muffle her screams.
I was bucking furiously and couldn't stop… grunting with each spasm. Soon, my cock was covered with her cum… oozing more and more down my shaft. Every time I grunted, she panted in rhythm along with me.
I kept thrusting bringing her orgasm to whole new heights. Her panting became wordless. All she managed to get out were things like "Ah" and "Oh" and "Yeah" with each of my thrusts. Her voice was a seductive, throaty whisper as her eyes disappeared into the back of her head.
I felt my cum burning to be released. I stilled myself and let my own cock muscles do the work for me. With one twitch, small squirts spilled into her canal. My moaning became muffled from biting down on Bella's tit. I stayed still until I'd sent ever single drop of my seed down her love tunnel.
I lay on top of her for a few minutes. I kissed her tender lips and then helped her from the desk. Her hair was a mess and I knew that I couldn't let her walk out there looking like that. She smiled at me – staggering like a drunken person across my office.
I watched as she tried to piece herself back together.
She started to sob then and walked towards my office door then opened it.
"I'm so sorry, Mr. Cullen, I'll try to do better tomorrow." She cried.
I couldn't help but smile at her rather good display of being a very bad mail cart lady. That she was indeed. Fuck! That thought had me wanting to bend her over my desk all over again.
Although I felt spent and satisfied from my orgasm, I was beginning to feel pleasurable sensations again in my cock. Damn, I knew working together would be a good thing, but I never knew just how good it would be.
Bella was all mine… in every sense of the word. She'd finally allowed herself to be free from everyone and finally let herself just live. And if this was the sort of life I'd be living with her… I'd never let her leave the house again. I had enough money. James could run the office. Fuck, I just wanted her. Nothing else mattered except her.
Alright so that's it.
Rec time. There have been a few new stories that I've been reading and just love.
"My Heart's Redemption" by My Daughter Bella
www (dot) fanfiction(dot)net/s/6794147/1/My_Hearts_Redemption
"Beautiful Sorrow" by ToTheDreaming www(dot)fanfiction(dot)net/s/6886175/1/Beautiful_Sorrow
"Outside the box By" SexylexiCullen
www(dot) fanfiction(dot)net/s/6938579/3/
These chapters are taking me a little while and I apologize for that. I know how many of you love this story and I hope that when I produce the chapters they were well worth the wait. Also, remember, if you're on Twitter, I do most of my updates on there so follow my crazy banter parsonsapril
For those of you who are not aware… this story had started out as a one shot and by popular demand became a series. I have no clue as to where these characters are going… I just write and the end will be just as much as a surprise to me as it will be to all of you. Thank you all again so much for your support. Remember to review. I always love to know what you're all thinking... April
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