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Chapter six: Port Angeles trip
Janay's P.O.V.
''Hey'' he said looking at me with his intense brown eyes. ''Hey'' I said looking down. ''What are you doing here all by yourself'' he demanded. I frowned. ''Maybe I just wanted to be alone for a moment. What are YOU doing here? That's the question'' I said crossing my arms. He looked startled for a bit by my reaction but smirked a bit. I just huffed. How could he think this was funny. I told him to stay away, completely after what had happened friday. ''What?'' I snapped at him when he kept looking at me and not taking his eyes off me for a second. He chuckled. ''Nothing, you just look cute when you're mad'' he said grinning at me. I blushed when I realized what he had said. I avoided his intense gaze and fumbled with my fingers.
''You still didn't anwser my question you know'' I said looking up at him after a while. ''I was just walking and saw you sitting here so I thought I'd say hi'' he said smiling. I couldn't do anything but smiling back. I just couldn't stop the smile that was on my face. That seemed to brighten his smile even more. I laughed at him. ''You're funny you know that'' I said looking into his eyes. ''Thank you'' he said smiling.
After a while it became kind of an awkward silence and we just stood there. He spoke up; ''So do you want to hang out?'' he asked slowly. I guess it was because he knew I was with Alex. I thought about it. If Alex could be away and doesn't contact me at all, I could have some fun too. And besides, Paul was really nice. I carefully nodded. ''Yeah sure sounds nice, but wait...'' I said holding my hand up. Paul's face fell a bit. ''What's wrong?'' he asked stepping closer to me. I let out a shaky breath and looked down. ''What- what I meant is that we can't hang out...no not like that, but I mean here in La Push'' I said quickly when a look of hurt showed on his face. He nodded. ''You want to go to Port Angeles?'' he asked raising his eyebrows. I nodded. ''Yeah sure'' I said. He smiled. ''Come on then'' he said taking my hand and practically dragging me towards his car.
I couldn't ignore the feeling that went through me when he grabbed my hand. It felt nothing like it when Alex held my hand. This was just like it was meant to be. I shook my head. No, I couldn't think like that. He was just a friend, JUST a friend. I felt kind of empty when he let go of my hand to unlock his car. He held the door open for me and helped me in. He got in on his side and started the car.
This car ride was a lot different than the other one. It wasn't spent in silence, but we were talking. He was really fun and nice to be around, and of course I couldn't ignore the stares he gave me and I couldn't deny that he looked freaking damn hot. I knew this was totally wrong. I shouldn't feel this way about him, but I couldn't do anything but stare as the muscles in his stomach flexed as he laughed. I wish I could just reach my hand out and touc-...No this is not going to happen! I was totally driving myself crazy with this.
I think Paul noticed something was wrong because he reached his hand out and grabbed mine. I looked at him and faintly smiled. ''Is something wrong?'' he asked worried. I shook my head as in no. ''No I'm fine, just thinking'' I said looking out of the window. ''You sure, you can tell me'' he said squeezing my hand. I couldn't do anything but feel relaxed at the touch of his skin against mine. ''Yeah I'm sure'' I said smiling bigger at him. He nodded and continued to watch the road, but he didn't release my hand. I didn't release it either, but I knew I had too. So I wiggled out of his grasp and layed my hands on my lap. I carefully looked through my eyelashes and saw him frowning. I sighed. ''Sorry, but I still have a boyfriend'' I said softly. He looked at me and dropped the frown and smiled. ''I know, I'm sorry'' he said focusing on the road. ''It's okay'' I said lightly touching his arm. He relaxed when our skin made contact.
I must have fallen asleep on the way there, because I felt someone shaking me. ''Janay, you have to wake up. We're here'' Paul said softly. I carefully opened my eyes and stretched my arms. I looked at him and found him grinning at me. ''What?'' I asked confused. He chuckled. ''Nothing, you're funny when you're asleep'' he said helping me out of the car. ''What do you mean?'' I asked looking him in the eyes. He stared back at me not saying anything for a while, but when I thought he wasn't going to say something he spoke; ''Well you laugh in your sleep and said something like 'Take your shirt off''' he said smirking at me. My cheeks flushed red and I ducked my head. OMG that was so embarrassing. Luckily I didn't say anything more embarrassing than this.
We stood there in the parking lot and I was still embarrassed and didn't want to meet his eyes. I felt a warm finger under my chin and Paul turned my head so that I was looking at him. ''It's okay. You don't have to be embarrassed'' he said sincerely. I nodded and swallowed. His face was really beautiful. With a strong jaw line and perfect lips...to kiss. I let my eyes linger on them and then slowly looked back into his eyes. His eyes were really dark and his gaze was so intense that I shivered. ''Are you cold?'' he asked concerned. I shook my head. ''No I'm fine. Where are we going?'' I asked. ''I thought that maybe we could see a movie?'' he asked. I nodded. ''Yeah seems fun'' I said. He smiled and motioned for me to follow him. I guess he understood the hint about not holding hands. I really wanted to hold his hand, but my heart already belonged to someone else.
We walked into the cinema and we stood there looking for a good movie. We finally decided to just go to 'Sherlock Holmes'. I thought it was a really nice movie. Yes there was a lot of action, but funny parts too. We really enjoyed the movie together. I was having so much fun with Paul, it was like we'd known each other for years. He even insisted on buying my popcorn and drink. First I refused, but when he gave me the look I gave in. I felt comfortable with him, like he was keeping me safe. I know that I should slap myself for thinking and feeling this way, but I couldn't stop. He was turning my whole world upside down in just these few hours. And I'd promised myself and Alex that I felt absolutely nothing for him, but I couldn't deny it. I was definitely falling for him and there was nothing I could do about it. I'd just tried to be his friend, because I still cared about Alex very much, even though he was acting strange the last few days.
We were sitting in a little diner to eat something. ''You already know what you want?'' he asked looking away from his menu. I nodded. ''Yes, I think I'm just having a burger and a coke'' I said putting the menu cart away. He nodded. ''Okay, you sure you don't want more?'' he asked. I shook my head. ''No, I'm not that hungry'' I said chuckling. He smirked. ''Okay then'' he said. ''So what are you having?'' I asked. He smirked and winked at me. ''You'll see'' he said putting the menu away too.
Not long after we put our carts away, a blonde slutty waitress came our way. She placed a basket of bread on our table, but made sure to lean forward so that Paul could look right into her shirt. I felt kind of jealous when she did that but controlled myself. I clenched my fists under table and tried to hide my jealousy. Why was I jealous, I already had a boyfriend. I had no right to be. She turned to Paul and smiled seductively. ''What do you want to order'' she asked eyeing him. He didn't smile back at her, but just said what he wanted, what surprised me. ''I'd like to have a burger with extra fries and a steak, medium with extra saus and one grilled cheese'' he said winking at me. My eyes went wide. Was he really going to eat all of that? I had to see that! She didn't seem faced by the huge amount of food he ordered and smiled at him, but he still didn't smile back and only looked at me. She reluctantly turned to me and fake-smiled at me.
''What do you want to order'' she asked a bit annoyed. ''I'd like to have a coke and a burger please'' I said staring into her eyes. ''Are you sure?'' she asked. I frowned. ''Yes'' I said through clenched teeth. She nodded and then turned to Paul again. ''You're food will be ready soon'' she said brushing his shoulder before walking away swaying with her hips. My blood boiled. I so wanted to walk after her and punch her in the face. I hadn't noticed I was holding a piece of bread and squeezing it hard till Paul unlocked my hand and pulled the bread out of it. I relaxed a bit and sighed. ''What a whore'' I said quietly. Paul quirked his eyebrow and gave me an amusing smile. ''What do I hear. Are you jealous?'' he teased. I huffed. ''No of course not! She's just a whore, that's all. Didn't you see she was trying to seduce you'' I said crossing my arms. Paul shook his head. ''No not really'' he said like it was nothing.
After a while he changed the subject and started asking more about my personal life. Like brothers and sisters, but I told him that I was an only child. He said he had one little sister. Anna, she was 6. When he talked about her, he seemed to care about her a lot. He seemed like a really great big brother, even though he was a big player. At the thought of that I frowned. I'd totally forgotten about that. But on the other hand when that blonde whore came bringing our food, he didn't even look at her and I felt the jealousy leave immediately. At least he wasn't interested in her. But I couldn't stop him from dating anybody else, because he wasn't dating me after all.
After a great day of fun Paul drove me home. I'd managed to go through the whole ride without falling asleep. We just talked about silly things. He pulled into my driveway. I wanted to step out of the car, but Paul was already at my side to help me out of the car. ''Thanks'' I said taking his hand as he held it out. He smiled. I let go of his hand when I was out of the car and he walked me to the door. I turned to him. ''I had a really great time today'' I said smiling. He nodded and smiled brightly. ''Yeah me too...so you're going to stop avoiding me'' he asked all serious. I nodded slowly. ''Yeah I guess so. You're not that bad at all'' I said smirking and putting my hands in my pockets. He chuckled. ''Glad you think so. See you tomorrow at school?'' he asked. I nodded. ''Yeah seems fine to me'' I said.
We stood there not knowing what to say. I pulled my hands out of my pockets and looked up into his eyes. I wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him. He seemed startled for a bit but then he hugged me back. I sighed. He was so hot, well you know what I mean. Temperature-wise, but yeah he was handsome too. After about a minute I pulled back. ''So guess it's time to go inside'' I said stepping away from him. He nodded and looked sad for a minute. ''Okay, see you'' he said waving one last time before walking towards his car. I smiled as he walked away. I unlocked my own door and walked in.
I was met by my mother who demanded where I was, but apparently she didn't see the note laying on the table. Which was weird because she was just coming from the living room. I quickly got upstairs after drinking tea, I really love tea, and then I went upstairs. I checked my phone. I had one text from Ange. She was asking how I was. I decided to anwser it later. I layed down on my bed and looked up at the ceiling thinking about today. It had been a really great day and Paul was really great too. Maybe we could hang out some more, but just as friend because of Alex...Just then my phone rang. I sighed and looked at the ID-caller. I sat right up and anwsered it quickly.
''Alex'' I breathed. It was silent for a while. ''We need to talk'' he said through gritted teeth. I frowned. ''What?'' I asked. Is this what I get? 'We need to talk', I haven't heard from him in two days and now he is telling me what to do. ''Meet me at the beach'' he said before hanging up. I looked at my phone. What the hell had just happened. He sounded mad and I didn't know why.
I walked downstairs and said to my mom that I was meeting up with Alex at the beach. She agreed, but she only gave me one hour. I walked to the beach and stood on the sand waiting for Alex. After a while I saw someone coming my way. I looked better and saw that it was Alex. I slowly walked his way, wondering what he had to tell me. He was going to tell me where he was, or he was going to get it.
''Hey'' I said as he stood in front of me. ''Hey'' he mumbled not looking me in the eyes. I sighed. ''Where the hell have you been? You haven't even contacted me. You have never broken a promise Lex. Is something wrong?'' I asked as tears welled up into my eyes. He finally looked up at me. He looked terrible, like he hadn't slept at all. ''I just had to do some stuff okay! More important is where were you all day huh? I heard you went to Port Angeles, with Lahote'' he spat the name, like it was some disease. I started to become angry. ''He's been there more for me than you these last few days. And for your information he really nice. You have to stop being so jealouse. I just want to be his friend and nothing more, okay! Alex...I just missed you'' I said softly. His face became a hard mask. ''I'm not jealous. You see what he's doing to you. He's got you all under his spell and before you know it...You can't just replace me for him'' he said stepping closer to me and grabbed my wrist.
''I'm not replacing you!'' I shouted at him. He squeezed my wrist. I yelped. ''Alex, stop you're hurting me'' I cried. Just then the voice of the person I didn't expect came from behind Alex.
''Let go of her right now!''
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