Some of you were wondering why Jake was mad, I DO have a reason, but it couldn't be revealed just yet. Its like the Harry Potter series. You don't know everything till the end. This story will probably have 10-15 more chappies. ;)
Did I love Jake? I have sat here, on my bed, for the past 7 hours trying to decide. I ignored my stomach rumbling, not wanting food or anything till I decided. I did leave once to go the bathroom, but that was it. I know Charlie must be worried sick, and all my friends wondering where I was, but I didn't care. I just couldn't leave Jake in the shadows about whether I liked him or not. His hurt face was stills sketched into my memory from out last encounter. I have hurt him so much.
My one and only dilemma with Jake was the hole that He left. He said that I would be able to move on and forget Him, but I couldn't. I was still in love with Him. And the worst part about it? Jake knows I love Him. He knows the hole that He left in me, he knows the love I still have for Him, yet he still loves me. I shouldn't have to think about this. I shouldn't love Him after what he did to me. I should love Jake. I should be able to think or say His name without falling apart. I shouldn't worry Charlie like I am. I shouldn't love Him like I did. I should love Jake.
"Ed-" I tried to say his name out loud without falling to pieces. "Edw-" I felt the familiar hole start to come back to me. " I love Jake, not Ed . . . Edward" I finally managed to sputter out. My hole came out as strong as it has aver been "Edward" I pronounced more clearly and fluently this time, struggling against my hole. "I love Jake and not Edward" I said. Every time I said "Edward", I felt the hole slowly start to slip away. It was as if Edward had never come into my life. I was winning the battle against him.
I've got to tell Jake! I finally know for sure that I was over Edward and I love Jake. A wave of relief wept through me. My burden was off of my shoulders. I jumped up off of my bed and ran out the door, and towards the living room.
"Bella?" I heard Charlie call and I stopped suddenly. "Is that you?"
No, its some random creep who just happens to look like your daughter, of course its me! "Yep" I called, trying not to lose my patience with him. This was the biggest news of my life, surely whatever he wants can wait.
"Are you going out?" He called again. I could tell by his voice that he was half listening to this conversation, and half absorbed by the TV. Trying to have a conversation with him while he was in another room was pointless, so I walked calmly into the living room before answering him.
"Ya, I was going to go see jake" I answered, trying hard to not show how bored I was. "Ok, I'll be back later Dad" I began to make a dash for the door, when Charlie called me back. I knew he was worried about me, but this was a little over the top.
"Your not going out to see anyone dressed like that" He said, looking stern. He sounded so overprotective. I looked down at my clothes. A green and black T-shirt and black sweatpants with a white stripe down the side. Yes, they were so inappropriate.
"OK dad, I'll just go change into my mini skirt and low cut, tight fitting shirt. Is that better?" I said sarcastically. He raised his eyebrows at me and opened his mouth like he was going to say something more, but he seemed to realize that it was a battle that was lost. "Now if you will excuse me, I'm going to see Jake." I walked out of the door, ignoring all protests from my dad. I felt bad about talking to him like that, but I just had to tell Jake this news.
I walked out of the front door way and out into the driveway to find . . . no car! Well, Charlie's police cruiser was there, but mine as long gone! "Dad" I called as calmly as I could, grinding my teeth together to keep from yelling at me. He rushed up to the front door and yanked it open, a guilty look already on his face. All of the sudden I don't feel so bad about talking to him like that before. "Where is my car?" I said slowly, still grinding my teeth together to keep from yelling at him.
"Its...uh...you know...I-"
"Dad, where is it?" I asked. He was turning red.
"I...lent it to someone" He finally admitted. How could he do this to my car? Keyword: MY car!!!
"Why would you do that?" I said, exasperated.
"They needed a car and I very well just can't give them mine!" He said it like it made perfect sense. It didn't. Again with the MY car part!!
"Who did you lend it to?" I finally sighed at him after I calmed down.
"One of the guys at the station" He said, not looking me in the eyes. "They will give it back tomorrow. Why do you need to go out tonight? Can't it wait until tomorrow?"
Out of my better judgement, I decided to not tell him why I was going out to see Jake. "I'm going to see Jake." His face was overjoyed. He thought he was going to be able to keep me in the house. "Looks like I'll be walking" I added on and his face fell.
I turned on my heel and quickly walked away from him. I have never acted like that to him before. I was now walking down the road towards Jake's house, all alone, feeling guilty. Life was sucky. No wait, I love Jake, life isn't sucky. My thoughts were swarming around me. I knew how stupid it was for me to try to walk all the way to Jake's house. It was 4 miles away and it was dark. I turned into the park, it was a shortcut. The scenery was beautiful and I couldn't help but gasp.
It was then that I heard the voice i thought I would never hear again. And it changed everything.
"Bella?"
OMG cliffie!!!! And for those who r freaking out about who it is, the next chappie should be up in like 1-2 days.
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