Can love really conquer all?

Chapter 7:

The next morning Kensi pulled her bag higher up onto her shoulder as she walked into the OP centre. She knew everyone had probably already arrived and that she was late. Again. She had never been late to work before and yet it had been nearly three days in a row. She had heard Callen leave that morning, heard the door click close so quietly that if you didn't have the trained ears they had, you wouldn't have heard it. After a restless night she'd been awake any way staring at the alarm clock, the red neon letters ticking over so slowly. He'd come into the room at one point and just as she was about to roll over, hopefully into his arms, she heard the cupboard slide open. He wasn't there for her, he needed clothes. So she had lay there knowing that he knew she was awake and a tear trickled down her cheek gently as she listened to him gather his things together before leaving the room.

Kensi shook her head clearing her mind before she stepped into the office to find...nobody. She frowned glancing at her watch. She wasn't that late. She headed up the stairs after depositing her bag on her desk. She found them standing around the table,

"Good morning Ms Blye. Glad you could join us" She nodded slinking into the room avoiding Sam and Hetty's ...well everyone's eyes. She took a place next to Deeks and it was only then that she realised she wasn't the only late one. Looking up and surveying the team at the table she frowned again,

"Ms Blye you don't happen to know the whereabouts of Mr Callen do you?" Her eyes swept around the table once again shocked that he wasn't there. G was never late to work. She shook her head quickly and pulled out her phone punching the number she knew off by heart into the phone.

This person is not available at this time...please leave a message at th-

Kensi hung up before she could hear the beep. She frowned the embarrassment bubbling inside of her. G always answered his phone. By the time she had turned they were all watching her curiously and she couldn't miss the concern in Sam's eyes. She watched as Hetty raised her phone to her ear,

"Mr. Callen" Kensi closed her eyes and simply turned on her heel and left the room. She couldn't do it. She thought she would be able to walk in there, her workplace, with dignity and ignore everything that was at home. But this...he was ignoring her calls and taking Hettys. Now she looked like an idiot. And she felt like one too.

She dropped down in her chair only to hear footsteps heading down the stairs.

"Kens..." For a moment she thought Sam was going to ask her if she was okay, or defend his best friends actions, or interrogate her about what had happened or something like that. She stood up physically turning her body away from him and headed towards the coffee machine. She pulled out the largest cup and began to fill it.

"Why don't you and Deeks head out to the crime scene. I'll wait here" His voice was soft, unsure, and she nodded from where she was. She turned after placing the lid on the coffee and she headed towards Deeks before turning and heading out alongside him. She didn't fail to notice Nate and Sam watching her every move or the smaller woman on the balcony above who's eyes tracked her as she left the building.

When Kensi headed straight for the passenger seat he knew there was something seriously wrong going on. She sat and leant her head backwards closing her eyes. Deeks drove. He drove and didn't talk instead he just drove. He was her partner, he knew her. Not like Callen, but he knew her. Probably more than anyone else on the team apart from their senior agent. When Kensi turned her head towards the window he prayed she wasn't crying. He'd have no idea what to do with a crying Kensi and if it had been any other guy who had made Kensi upset like this he would have been on his doorstep that morning with something to say. And he was sure Sam and Callen would be standing beside him. But it wasn't any old guy. It was Callen himself. Their relationship had worked seamlessly since they'd been together. It strengthened the team and brought them even closer.

Deeks didn't speak until he drove through the drive through to pick up donuts. As he handed the box to his partner she smiled at him a little and he watched her relax. He accelerated out of the parking lot,

"Thanks Deeks" He grinned at her and replied while flicking on his indicator and checking the rear view mirror before changing lanes.

"You okay?" He caught her nodding as she took a bite of the first chocolate pastry before handing him one,

"Yeah I'm fine it was just a long night. He left before me this morning I thought he'd come to work ...I don't know Deeks"

"You guys will work it out" he didn't pry. She was a private woman and it had taken him a long time to earn her trust. He had spent almost the first year with her proving to her that he knew how to do his job, that he was a good agent and that ...well he wasn't going to die.

"He was married before" It was a simple statement but Deeks almost choked after taking a large bite. Once he managed to force the doughnut down his throat and breathe in some air he replied to his partner with wide eyes,

"What?...Callen...married" Kensi just nodded thankful that finally it was someone who didn't know. Someone who was as surprised as she was, as stunned as she was.

"It's just...he..I feel...egh never mind" She said taking another bite and slumping back into the seat,

"No go ahead Kens, what?" She gulped and stared straight out the front windscreen as she answered,

"It's just I...I tell him everything you know. I've told him everything about my life. About my Dad, Jack everything and I just feel...I feel like I don't know him or something...it's stupid" She waved a hand dismissing her own words but Deeks shook his head,

"It's not stupid Kens" She turned her body towards her partner,

"I...I just...don't know what his prob—not his problem I just...I don't know what he's worried about. If he feels guilty or something, cause that's how I felt at first...you know with Jack and all that but we talked about that so I don't know why he—unless...it's just..." She trailed off sighing again,

"Just what?" Deeks asked prompting her softly even though he had a fair idea of where she was going with the conversation,

"me..I..Maybe he's missing her because of me" Deeks sighed this time and pulled the car over towards the curb of the victims house before turning to face Kensi.

"He loves you Kens and he's lucky to have you. He knows that. There'll be an explanation, you'll just have to be patient with him. It's not you" She stared at him for a second blinking slowly before she nodded,

"Thanks Deeks" She threw him a grin and climbed out of the car. He met her on the footpath and threw his arm around her shoulder giving her a squeeze before they climbed the steps of the front veranda and pulled their guns.

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"So"

"Don't want to talk about it"

"Is that what you're going to tell Hetty when she swoops?"

Callen's jaw clenched as he sat in the passenger seat of the car on their way to pick up the persecutor.

"Why'd you ignore her call?" Callen sighed loudly knowing his partner wasn't going to drop it.

"I just don't want to talk to her right now" he said but even he knew it sounded ridiculous as he said it,

"Bull G. You got to talk...it's not going to work if you don't talk" G nodded

"Well she wants to know everything" he said with exaggeration,

"How much do you know about Jack?" He asked forcefully. Sam knew it was a wake up call. It wasn't his intention to be mean but just to get his partner to understand. Kensi had told Callen all about Jack, everything she had felt. The fact that she didn't not love him. But she wasn't in love with him anymore. He had wanted to know, he had been curious,

"What's the difference G" Callen couldn't answer instead it felt like he'd been smacked in the chest with a ton of bricks,

"It's not my fault" He said quietly and Sam shook his head as they pulled into the street,

"No it's not. But it's not Kens' either"

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The senior agent hadn't seen his junior all day. When he'd got to the office she'd left with Deeks already and he'd been slightly relieved. All he could think of was the way he'd snapped at her the night before and left her to sleep alone. That and the tear he'd caught slip down her bronzed cheek as he'd snuck out of their room that morning. He felt like crap. He felt awful for putting her through what he was. Sam was right, it wasn't Kensi's fault and it wasn't her problem. She shouldn't have to deal with it. It was his.

Thankfully Hetty hadn't approached him that day and he'd left the communication stuff to Sam who it seems had been chatting to Deeks over the radio. He couldn't help but wonder how the woman sitting next to Deeks was and by the end of the day he desperately wanted to see her. Needed to see her. To apologise and explain and rectify the entire mess that he'd caused.

But as he sat three houses down from Kensi's in his car looking at the house he basically lived at now he couldn't bring himself to pull into her driveway. Something was stopping him. Something was stopping him from driving in and facing Kensi and before he knew it he had turned the car around and was driving back the way he had come.

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She waited, she waited until eight. She waited nearly four hours before calling. Giving him his space. Being patient. But she was worried. Worried about where he was, worried about what he'd do, what he was doing. She knew better than most that he could get reckless when he was upset. She was worried that if she didn't confront him now that all of this could blow up in her face and she could lose it all. Lose Callen, lose her newest source of contentment and happiness. She raised her phone to her ear hitting the first speed dial option,

Ring ring ring ring

"Kensi" she stopped her body stilling when she heard Sam's voice,

"Hey Sam" She greeted softly trying to disguise the hurt she was feeling. Now he wasn't even taking her calls.

"Um is G there?" she asked

"Yeah Kens he's here. I think he might crash here tonight you know" A sharp ache radiated through her chest and she cursed herself as moisture welled in her eyes,

"um...ok that's fine. Just wanted to know he's still alive and all" She bit out; a bad taste in her mouth,

"He's fine Kens. You okay" She pressed her lips into a thin line and tried to stop her composed mask from shattering all over the floor beneath her,

"I'll see you tomorrow Sam, thanks for letting him say" She said in one breath and quickly hung up the phone once she heard Sam bid her goodbye. Kensi let her body slide down the wall. It was several moments before she forced her exhausted frame back up and padded back out to the bathroom. She turned the counter and picked up the plate full of food. She spun on her heel and threw the whole thing, plate and all into the bin. She turned back grabbed an identical one before she padded out to the lounge. She flicked the television on and pulled the blanket off the back of the couch down over her body. She chose a movie before settling down. She wasn't going to sleep in her bed. Their bed. Not again. Not alone. Not alone again.

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