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Anyway... yeah. Here is the long awaited Ashley letter!
Disclaimer: Do not own anything in this chapter or the previous.
The Sweetest Perfection is by Depeche Mode. Weird song. But good. :)
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The sweetest
perfection I stop and I stare too much When I need a drug in me The sweetest perfection... Things
you'd expect to be Takes me completely
To call my own
The slightest correction
Couldn't
finely hone
The sweetest infection
Of body and mind
Sweetest
injection
Of any kind
Afraid
that I care too much
And I hardly dare to touch
For fear that
the spell may be broken
And it
brings out the thug in me
Feel something tugging me
Then I want
the real thing not tokens
Having effect on me
Pass undetectedly
But
everyone knows what has got me
Touches
so sweetly
Reaches so deeply
I know that nothing can stop me
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Dear Craig,
Hey. Remember me? Ashley Kerwin.
Ellie has been talking to me. She told me all about you and her, you and Manny, you and drugs.
YOU ARE OUT OF CONTROL. Maybe if you'd taken your bipolar disorder SERIOUSLY you wouldn't be here!
I did some research on it. I'm taking an educated guess here- you took the drugs because you always wanted to be on the highs of your life.
Awhile ago, remember, when I was going to London, you thought "what's wrong with being so happy all the time? I don't need to take my medicine!" But you learned that doesn't work and you end up in a homeless shelter with your guitar stolen.
So now- you continue taking that medicine. But then you're never so high and happy. So that's where the drugs come in.
It's a common problem, actually. Most people with bipolar disorder are into drugs as well.
Oh, god. After reading this, I realized that I sound like such a text book. And I'm doing that thing again- where I don't see you, I see your disorder. Okay. I'm sorry. I'll focus on other stuff.
How about, anything you DIDN'T screw up lately? Just in the 5 years I've known you, there were very few relationships you didn't totally screw over.
Okay. I'm sorry again. That was mean.
You are in rehab. That's good. That you're getting help. Well... just... I don't know what else to say.
I'm dating Jimmy again. Isn't that weird? But I really do care about him.
I still do care about you. I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in a while and I'm sorry I haven't been there for you. But I'm glad I got to know you and that we're still semi-friends. (There's a weak smile here.)
So... I'd love it if you wrote back. Thanks.
Love always,
Ashley
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Dear Craig,
Did you know that I liked you when I first met you? I loved that you said hi to me in the library and in the halls at school, I loved that I could see you when I baby-sat Angela, I loved that I could tell people I knew you.
The whole reason Manny and I crashed that dance? To see you. She knew I liked you, and wanted to help me dance with you.
And then you asked to dance with Manny.
It totally crushed me. What did Manny have that I didn't? You'd never even talked to her! You knew me! Was Manny prettier than me? Didn't I look better than her?
But when you went on that first date... you and Manny were perfect for each other. You look cute together, you like each other... when I saw you together, I realized that you and me never would have worked out, and I totally supported Manny when she told me she liked you.
You always go back to her. So why aren't you now? You know you will always love her, I know you will always love her. Tell her!
What have you got to lose?
Emma
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Sweetest
perfection The sweetest perfection... Takes me
completely
An offer was made
An assorted collection
But I
wouldn't trade
Touches so sweetly
Reaches so deeply
Nothing can
stop me
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The Ashley letter wasn't as good as I imagined. Sorry. Any suggestions?
That was kind of weird- that Emma thing. I guess this part is during "If You Leave" when Emma doesn't like Manny's new boyfriend, so she's trying to convince Craig to take her back without saying that it's only because she doesn't like Damian.
