You Are The Moon

Chapter Six: Bonds


When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

-Coldplay, Fix You


As I followed Hermione to our destination I grew more curious with every step. We had walked into the forest quite someways now. Then she stopped, I was so busy wandering about where we were going I walked right into her. "Look!" she instructed me in an excited whisper.

I was in awe at what stood before me.

It was a magnificent creature. The long horn that grew from its crown practically glowed. It stared back at us intensely with bright silver eyes.

What happened next shocked me. Hermione walked up to the unicorn and stroked its pearly mane. "I found her first year when I wandered off into the forest alone. She was only a baby and she was really very thin and helpless. I like to believe her mother was killed rather than think that the poor dear was abandoned. I nursed her back to health and whenever I get the chance I still come to visit with her. She always seems to lift my spirits." Hermione told me smiling to herself. She continued "I thought she might be able to do the same for you."

I felt a tear slide down my cheek. What was wrong with me? I have never been one to cry over anything. "Why are you being so kind to me?" I asked as my voice cracked.

She turned to me and grabbed hold of my hands. "Sabra, I do not know you. So I won't pretend to but I have a strong feeling that you are not the hard shell of girl you lead everybody to believe. Just because you are a Slytherin doesn't make you my enemy. Though your boyfriend is Draco Malfoy, the boy who torments the entire school and you are basically the female version of him, my heart tells me that you are a gentle soul Sabra Fairchild. And I have always listened to my heart rather than my head even though I do like to fool others into believing otherwise." She finished with a smile.

"Hermione" I began now crying "I have to be honest with you. I understand if you hate me after this, but know in advance I am sorry for it. I am so confused with my life right now. All that I ever wanted was to be the perfect little pure blood along with my brother, Draco, and Pansy. I never meant for things to get this far. I am telling you this because I don't mean it, I thought I did. But I don't and now if I told anyone else this I would for sure be killed. I hate it. I don't want it. It's hurts and its awful to look at. And I don't hate muggles, I rather like them actually they're kind of interesting. I hate myself for being so weak and I feel pathetic! I am so disgusted with myself, I don't know what to do anymore!" I sobbed hysterically and if not for the expression on her face I would think that she had not been able to understand me.

Her eyes were so expressive and understanding that it made me fall to my knees in sorrow. I could no longer stand it and so I shoved out my arm and ripped back my sleeve relieving the mark.

She knelt down beside me and gently took hold of my shivering arm and pulled my sleeve back down to cover it. "I already know Sabra. I don't have to look at it." she whispered.

It was then I dared to look at her. She wore a sad smile on her face and her eyes said it all. She accepted me. It made me hate myself even more. How could I have made fun of her so many times for so many years?

"Why aren't you yelling, why aren't you angry or hurt? Or even upset with me in the least? I don't understand." I said weakly.

"I saw you at Borgin and Burkes with Draco. You were wearing a short sleeved dress and I saw the dark mark on the both of you. Luckily Harry nor Ron saw and I did not tell them. You see I hate all this conflict and these days everywhere I look I see the horrid effects of this building war. Frankly I am glad it was you who found me last night before that when I looked at you all that I saw was your perfectly portrayed projection. But last night was I saw in your face was heartfelt compassion and honest empathy. And those are no traits of a true Death Eater." She said now her turn to hold me as I cried into her shirt.

We stayed out there for the entire day, getting to know one an other. When we arrived back at the castle it was sundown and it was beginning to snow.


We entered the great hall together and the roar of voices informed us that dinner had already begun. I hugged her and said "Thank you." We parted and went to our respective tables.

As I approached my table Draco eyed me curiously. When I sat with him he looked at me as if he were about to ask something but then shook his head and thought better of it. Augie sat across from me and Pansy sat rather close to him, closer than friends would.

I began to eat a piece of key lime pie when the pressure of all three of them staring at me became to much. "What?" I demanded.

"We have to talk"

"I need to speak with you"

"There's something I need to tell you"

Three of them spoke all at once. Let's get this over with, I thought to myself. "Okay lets go." I said as I stood and motioned for them to follow, suddenly I'd lost my appetite.

We emerged into the entrance hall and I said "Who's first" and Augie immediately stated "I am." "Okay you two wait in the common room we'll be back soon" I said to Draco and Pansy, they simultaneously nodded.


Augie and I walked to the middle of the long bridge that led out to the grounds. "I am sorry for the way I have been treating you." He said. "I know" I told him even though it was a lie.

"Don't lie to me darling" he said looking at me almost amused but not quite. I smiled at him. "I promise never to act that way again. I missed your company more than you could ever imagine." he siad sadly. I just jumped into his arms and exclaimed "yes I can imagine it you daft fool because I missed you just as much! Now tell what started all of this!" I said into his armpit.

"I am afraid I have to leave that to Pansy." He told me as he pulled away and looked down at me with a relieved expression. I nodded in frustration and relief. Frustrated because I still had no answers and relieved because I finally had my Augie back.

He held me close all the way to the common room where we found Pansy staring into the fire place and Draco asleep on the couch. They were the only two in the room. "Pansy" I said holding my hand out to her.


Pansy and I chose our place to speak in the library. It was the only place that was unoccupied on a Saturday night it seemed.

"Did Augie tell you anything?" she questioned warily. "No, he said you had to tell me. So have at it Pans, tell me." I said cautiously, I didn't want to spook her.

"Well Sabes, you were right we did have sex that night." I knew it! She went on "the reason it has been so awkward up till this point is because afterwords I told him that I love him. He kicked me out of his bed saying that he didn't feel the same way and that we were only ever going to be friends but that I'd ruined that as well. He yelled at me saying I was the only other girl he respected other than you and your mother and that it was ruined, that I had had to be a fool and just ruined everything." She paused staring at me and really looking as if to make sure I was not going to reject her. Then she leaned in and grabbed my hand.

"Sabra yesterday I found out that I am pregnant." My jaw dropped and my eyes bulged from their sockets. She nodded and looked away with shame.

She continued to speak anyways. "I told him as soon as I found out and I said that I was going to get rid of it but I thought he had a right to know. I had expected him to be angry and call me names. But instead, he apologized and told me that by no means was I killing his baby. Then he told me that I was to be his wife and that he loved me but was angry because he did not feel worthy of me, can you believe it? I know that it is not normal or by any means a romantic way for all of this to happen especially at such a young age but...I don't know. I am simply thrilled." Pansy's eyes lit up and she returned her gaze to me.

"I'm going to be an aunt and a maid of honor?" I asked now excited myself even though she was right this was not something we should be celebrating at such an age.

"Oh Pans I am so happy for the two of you, and even more so I am happy you're the girl that is going to marry my brother. You know I had always secretly hoped someday you'd end up together! Have you told anyone else?" I exclaimed.

"No you are the first! But I do believe Augie is telling Draco right about now! Oh we have loads to discuss but right now I think you should talk to your future husband so I can be with mine" She said giggling at the implication that Draco I and I would one day marry.

I grinned and nodded "Okay then let us get back to our boys."


Draco and I sat alone in our pajamas cuddled in his imported black and green down comforter in the common room. He held me close and whispered "I did not mean to act rude this morning. I apologize." He placed a kiss on my shoulder. "You were right I didn't answer your question and so why should you answer mine. So here's my answer; Potter is the only one able to defeat the dark lord. If he and his friends did not exist then you and I and everyone we love would be damned to serve him forever. I have spoken with Dumbledore and we have a plan to bring him down, turns out Snape is not as loyal to the dark lord as we would believe him to be. He is part of this organization called the Order of the Phoenix. I saw you with Granger today, so I hope that I am correct in assuming this was not a mistake telling you." It all came out very rushed but I heard every word and when I shifted to look at him he stiffened and held his breath.

I had tears in my eyes and the look on his face said that he misunderstood my teary eyes and he began to stand up but I did not let him. I grabbed his face and looked up. "Thank Merlin!" I said pushing away my tears when I looked back down at him he was obviously confused but then his face changed in realization that we were still on the same side even though it had switched and the I kissed him.

It was the greatest kiss we had ever shared. It was so many emotions tied up into a tiny expanding ball of electricity. I rose higher pushing my self up on my knees that were on either side of his in order to deepen the kiss. He shoved his tongue into my mouth and I moaned and arched my hips into his stomach at which point he growled and flipped me on to my back and squeezed my arse. I giggled into his mouth and I felt a hard pressure against my inner thigh. Again I arched up but this time grinding against him and he grunted like an animal. He grabbed the elastic of my shorts and started to pull them down in between our hot juicy kisses when I realized where we were and that at any moment any Slthytherin or any teacher for that matter could walk in on the sweaty scene we were displaying. It took all my will power but I pushed him off the couch.

He stood up angry but looked around and then nodded in understanding. He sat down next to me as I reajusted my shorts. "That was close" he groaned and ran his hand through his silky hair. I sighed. "Sometimes I feel like we are much older than sixteen. That was...really..." I said trying to find the word. "Hot, sexy, delicious, intoxicating?" He supplied. "All of the above." I replied with a slight giggle.

I looked at him with still lusty eyes. "Draco you better leave before I try to rape you." He looked at me for a moment before he burst out laughing and I quickly joined him.

"Rape wouldn't be necessary babe. You can have your way with me any where, any time, any way you like." he told me out of breath from laughing so hard.

"If only this wasn't school and besides" I said my thinking returning to normal. " You know I want to be married before I give myself completely."

He grabbed my left hand and kissed it. "I have to ask your father first. If he says yes, can I marry you?" he asked me, surprising me to a point where I did not answer I just stared at him.

Draco turned red and dropped my hand "I'm sorry" he stuttered. I shook my head and hugged him tight.

"OF COURSE I WILL DRACO!" I screamed. It was a good thing the common room had a sound barrier on it or I'd have woken the school. "I LOVE YOU!"

He let out a big sigh of relief as he hugged my back just as tight. I let him go and stood up. "Goodnight Draco Malfoy, my amazing FIANCE to be." I stressed the word fiance happily and he said "You too, you sexy little minx, you."

I blew him a kissed then practically skipped out of the room in glee before I tried to ravish him again. It had been the most emotional and wonderful day of my life but somewhere in the back of my mind I knew there were dangers and obsticals that would soon come to surface in this time of war but at the moment I was just excited to get a good nights sleep and share my news with both Pansy and Hermione.