Warning: Yaoi. Mpreg.

Disclaimer: No, I don't own Inuyasha.


As the fall turned into winter, things were peaceful again. No arguments, no fighting, and no mention of becoming mates.

Until one afternoon when everything drastically changed. All it took was one day to mess things up. At least, that was how it seemed at first.

Inuyasha wasn't sure what had possessed him to check in on his brother. Boredom, mainly. Although he enjoyed living here, things became boring a little too easily. It usually led him to go outside and roam the forest, but this time he felt compelled to talk to his brother. They had been talking more lately and it wasn't entirely unpleasant.

Besides, it was daytime. Sesshomaru wouldn't be resting most likely.

As he slid open the door, he didn't smell any unusual scents meaning he wouldn't see anything disturbing. His hand paused though, remembering that unlike him, his brother knew how to wipe out his scent completely. Shrugging a moment later, he slid it open anyway.

What he saw made his heart skip a beat and his member harden just enough to become uncomfortable. He knew that had to be the wrong reaction. Revulsion should have been the right reaction. His own response to seeing...that left him taken aback and confused. His stomach twisted, yet not from nausea.

It was completely bright in the room, the curtains drawn back so he could see everything. No shadows to cover the pale, writhing body on the futon. Not that it was such a bad thing. Sesshomaru was obviously so lost in the pleasure that even he with his keen demonic senses didn't notice him, either that or he didn't care. His back was arched against the pillows, his eyes closed tightly. A hand was furiously working his cock while heavy pants escaped his lips.

Inuyasha's mouth became dry as he watched, his face burning slightly. He could feel his pulse quicken and he grabbed the doorway subconsciously as he took in the sight before him.

That small movement caused the room to become entirely too silent. Inuyasha's ear flickered as he finally became fully aware of those angry, crimson eyes. Sesshomaru propped himself up by his elbows, closing his legs to shield himself as he glowered at the other man.

"Uh...sorry." That was the only things his overheated mind could come up with at the time.

"Indeed." The other agreed, the red in his eyes fading away as he moved to sit up further.

Inuyasha turned to leave, a mortified feeling settling in his chest. He couldn't believe he had stood there and watched like some pervert. The half demon was no pervert, so what had caused him to blatantly look like that? Truthfully, he knew why and the reason was horribly shallow. So shallow it almost made him sigh. The guy was gorgeous, even though he would never admit that out loud. He couldn't not look, brothers or not. He realized that all this assimilating into demon culture was strangely making him much more open-minded than he was before.

A hand on his shoulder made him turn around with widened eyes. Sesshomaru thankfully had clothes on this time, but his face was blank rather than furious much to his relief. The older male looked at him expectantly as though waiting for some clarification.

"I said sorry already." He mumbled, rolling his eyes. "I didn't know you were...until I opened the door. It's not my fault that you can't control your hormones."

"Childish response as usual." Sesshomaru smirked. "Well, in any case, I will see you later on the sparring grounds I assume?"

"I'm not up for it." Inuyasha disagreed. After what he just witnessed, he'd rather train and exercise by himself for weeks. No, months.

The other male seemed to see right through him as always. "You are uncomfortable. Yet, you watched. So I can assume-!"

"You can't assume crap! You don't know what I'm thinking, okay?" He yelled, clenching his fists as he walked down the hallway.

"Did you not enjoy what you saw?" The smell of arousal was thick on Inuyasha, he couldn't fool someone like him. A mere mortal, perhaps.

The half demon paused abruptly, almost stumbling at those words. If he didn't know better, he would say Sesshomaru was teasing him. And not in the typical sibling way, in the 'you know you want me' manner. It was infuriating that the demon lord was so presumptuous, so arrogant as to think Inuyasha wanted him all because he'd lingered at his doorway too long. He was also irritatingly correct.

"Enjoy? What the hell is wrong with you?" He sneered.

Again, a pale hand caught his wrist before he could leave. He turned to stare into eyes much like his own, yet so dissimilar. They seemed to be deep in thought. Finally after a few seconds, the older male released him.

"Do you still miss Kagome?"

The hanyou had no idea where he was going with that question, but he decided to humor him anyhow. Inuyasha's ears flattened against his skull, his eyes widening at those words. "Yeah, sometimes. But it doesn't matter anymore. Both our relationship and the quest for those damn shards are over. Why do you care anyway?"

"Curious, that's all." He seemed to think a moment, before adding quietly, "Perhaps you could still find her."

The hanyou distanced himself from the other, turning to go back to his room. "Give me a break! I don't know what you're trying to pull, but like I said, it was over." His voice softened, words that never meant to slip out escaping him, "Besides, it ain't like I got anything to live for really. Everyone has moved on and I'm still..." He seemed to catch himself, gritting his teeth, "Look, just leave me alone."

Sesshomaru shook his head slowly, the words seeming to piss him off for some reason the hanyou couldn't understand. The older male walked towards him, their faces only inches apart. "Pitiful. You do have things to live for, you fool."

"Like what? My strength, my power? That might suit you, but it doesn't mean anything to me if I can't..." 'If I can't protect someone, if I have nobody to care for.' Inuyasha's glare only grew more intense, refusing to fully reveal his feelings. Although maybe that wasn't such a bad idea. Kagome had taught him being 'weak' sometimes led to being that much closer.

He highly doubted it would work with his damn brother though.

"You are wrong yet again. I am not merely-!" Unable to put into words what he felt, he leaned forward and captured the other's mouth in a rough kiss.

The two froze in shock for a few long, strained moments. Then Sesshomaru pulled back as quickly as he'd begun, his fingers curling elegantly against his mouth as he stepped back as though ashamed.

"I suppose I should apologize to you." His deep voice sounded loud in the deafening quiet.

He searched the hanyou's face for a reaction and couldn't find one. For once, Inuyasha's expression was unreadable and eerily blank. The demon lord narrowed his eyes, suddenly deciding he didn't wish to see any reaction. With that, he turned and left quickly down the hallway leaving the younger male standing there with his arms listlessly hanging at his sides.

Unfortunately, the hanyou's moment of quiet to think about what just occurred was ruined when Jaken scurried down the hallway with two kimonos in his arms. He turned the corner to Sesshomaru's room and only thirty seconds later ran back towards the hanyou with a startled look.

"Goodness, he's in a foul mood. I wonder what happened?" Jaken murmured to the hanyou, although it sounded more like he was talking to himself.

"You don't wanna know..." Inuyasha said faintly, letting out a half-hearted laugh. "Anyway, what the hell do you want?"

"Not that I should explain myself to you, but Lord Sesshomaru was supposed to choose one of these to send to Rin. I suppose I could ask you as you seem to have decent taste." Jaken sneered.

"Doesn't he send her enough crap?" Inuyasha muttered, realizing he sounded jealous but couldn't care less about it.

"You don't like Rin?"

"I'm impartial...I mean, I don't hate the kid." The hanyou shrugged, sitting next to Jaken.

"She's no child anymore, as you know." Jaken said, holding up the two outfits, "So, which one?"

Inuyasha studied them, realizing they both looked alike. "Does he always make you pick out stuff?"

"No, he usually buys them himself. However, he told me he was busy so I attended to it." The imp explained, looking annoyed that he had to even speak to Inuyasha.

"Oh, he was busy alright..." Puppy ears flickered as he blushed, thoughts of what he saw earlier invading his mind.

"Pardon?"

"Nothing...so, uh, too bad about Kaori." Changing the subject would hopefully clear Sesshomaru from his mind.

"That princess was a good choice."

"She was kind of pretty, too. Not that it matters."

"Yes, well, face powder does miracles."

"...okay." Inuyasha looked at him strangely, before rolling his eyes.

o

Inevitably, the two saw each other again later on that day. Inuyasha hadn't left again much to the demon lord's shock. It seemed the kiss wasn't entirely unwelcomed. This confused him immensely. Surely, things had been ruined between them. They were completely unsalvageable in his mind.

"Hey." The greeting was shockingly casual.

Sesshomaru only stared at him, unblinkingly.

"Here. Rin's gift." He held out a beautiful green kimono.

Sesshomaru nodded, taking it and examining the material closely. Silently, he placed it into his haori. He walked past him towards the balcony which confused the other male.

"You're leaving already?" He walked up to him, raising a brow. "Damn it, you can't pretend that didn't happen!"

"I will be back in two days. Unless, you wish to accompany me?"

"No, I saw my friends not too long ago..." Inuyasha glowered at him, but dropped the subject. "See you, then."

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Those two, painfully long days felt torturous to the hanyou. He didn't understand what the hell was going on with his stupid body. He had felt frustration and lust before, but not to this extent. After reflecting on it more, he had to admit that the kiss wasn't entirely terrible. It had felt warm, pleasant, and...it didn't feel like he had expected it to. Inuyasha had been prepared for it to be disgusting and vomit-inducing, but neither were the case.

As he awoke from another disturbing dream, he let out a rattled sigh. Inuyasha opened the window immediately, letting the chilly winter air in the room. His little problem needed to be taken care of, again. He bit his lip, preparing to rub one out in order to alleviate this need he had. Hopefully, the need would vanish soon. It was only a matter of time before his mind relaxed, allowing him to forget about steamy, incestuous affairs. They could go back to being what they were - brothers.

"Inuyasha? Can I come in?"

His hand rested on the bulge in his hakama and he scowled, gnashing his teeth. "What for?"

"Never mind. I only came to tell you that I have returned."

"Who cares?" The hanyou spat before he could stop himself.

The door slid open, the other looking a bit put off. "I can see you were fine during my absence."

"Of course I was. I'm not helpless." He scoffed, trying to cover up his arousal but he knew the other could smell it easily.

Sesshomaru frowned deeply. Sharp, amber eyes studied him for a moment before traveling lower. Inuyasha growled, practically wrapping the curtains around his body by this point. "What the hell are you starin' at? Weirdo!"

"I apologize for the kiss." He said it so blasé, like it was nothing. "I was presumptuous, acting on impulse."

"It's..." The hanyou realized how childish he was being right now, unwrapping the material from his form, "It's fine, really. I just wasn't expecting it."

Sesshomaru moved to sit down on his bed, much to the other's shock. Clearing his throat, he also walked over to the futon and sat down. Their bodies were close, probably too close considering the hanyou needed to take care of his minor issue.

It was subtle, but the atmosphere seemed to be changing far too rapidly for Inuyasha's comfort. The silence wasn't awkward at all - it was thick, yes, but with something much more pleasant. Lust, maybe. Inuyasha realized his arousal was doing all the thinking for him right now and he should distance himself from the other until he calmed the hell down.

"Look, uh, I don't mind talking to you but right now I need some privacy..." The hanyou cursed male hormones, wishing he had his brother's self-control for once.

Interestingly though, Sesshomaru didn't move. He didn't seem to mind their closeness, if anything he shifted closer. That was when the hanyou noticed he didn't seem at all like his normal self. His eyes were tinted slightly red, his breathing seemed heavier, and his gaze was a bit glazed over like he was daydreaming.

"Hey, are you oka-?"

The red in his eyes abruptly dimmed back to white, but he still seemed to be acting on instinct. "Yes, I did not realize that my inner beast was...that was the first time I have lost control of it in a calm state."

"Oh...you mean your demonic instincts?"

Sesshomaru only nodded. "You have them too, but I suppose the human half subdues them immensely along with Tetsusaiga sealing your blood to tame your beast."

Inuyasha swallowed thickly. If he lost his control for a moment, then that meant the demon lord wanted him as well. It was the only explanation. The half demon wasn't sure how to feel about that. He had only recently accepted the idea that they could be together that way and even now he was wary about it.

"You should go." The hanyou muttered gruffly.

Sesshomaru's eyes flickered over to him. "No, perhaps you should leave."

Shock jolted through the younger man's body and he turned to give the other a piece of his mind until he saw the slightly conflicted look on his face. Sesshomaru seemed to be thinking deeply about something.

"I have never reacted to someone in such a way." He admitted, "I do not understand it, and I do not like what I cannot understand."

"You like me, then?"

In typical fashion, the demon lord didn't say one word. He only looked at him as though he should know the answer and denied nothing, which really was an answer in itself. This left him unable to respond, staring at the older male with wide, confused eyes. Even sitting casually on the bed, there was something intimidating about him. The poise he always carried, the slight upwards tilt of his head as though to show he was superior, those sharp and beautiful amber orbs - they would make a lesser man look away but not the half demon.

Inuyasha swallowed heavily once more, somehow realizing that his response would drastically change their relationship. If he took off, he and Sesshomaru would never have to deal with these rapidly changing feelings they were having. They could remain brothers, just not under the same roof as it appeared they lacked the ability to retain a normal bond. If it wasn't fighting, it was...well, apparently the complete and utter opposite.

'Why me? What did I ever do to the universe to deserve this? As if being a half breed and mistreated weren't bad enough, all my relationships had to be crappy too. It's my fault though that Kikyo died...Naraku's too. And it's my fault that Kagome left.'

Something seemed to strike inside him, like a bell being hit by a gong. He straightened up, eyes wide. It was all so simple: there was no need to overcomplicate this any longer. The gods clearly did not want him in a relationship, that much was very clear to him. Every time he fell for someone, it ended up...

"You know what? I'm staying. I'm pretty sure you'll be able to control yourself." Inuyasha said casually, though his aura was heavy with authority. He was staying his ass right here, hormones be damned.

"What?" Sesshomaru actually looked confused, but it didn't deter him.

"You could do much better, let's be honest here." Inuyasha picked at a puppy ear, glancing at him suddenly. "Why would you want a half demon for a mate in the first place? We'll always be brothers anyway, so that's the end of it."

"What are you doing?" The demon lord sneered, snatching the hand that was still picking at his ear roughly and forced it down onto the bed.

"What the hell's it look like? Talking to you, idiot!" He barked, trying to move his hand but the other male had a damn good grip on it.

"Inuyasha..." For the first time in his life, he saw something vaguely akin to sympathy in the other's gaze. Pity, possibly. "Then, if that is all, we will see each other at dinner. I will work on controlling my inner demon in the meantime. I suppose then that there is nothing to be concerned over."

"I'm not worried." He said nonchalantly. "I just don't see the point of doing anything. Seeing as how stuff like that ain't meant for me."

"What exactly do you mean by that?"

Sesshomaru still hadn't released his hand. Inuyasha tugged on it roughly, causing the demon lord to relinquish his grip.

"Ah, don't make me say it. You know I don't like getting sappy. Just drop it." He muttered, gazing down at his hands.

"You appear to have lost the one thing I used to admire you for." This caused the half demon's head to snap over towards him bewilderedly, "That is, you are not one to give up. How pathetic can you be?"

Those words ignited a fury inside of him that he couldn't handle. His heart started racing, a low growl reverberating through his chest as he glared at the other male. Standing up, he leveled that glare on him directly as he tried to gather some semblance of an answer. He was too furious to think.

"Shut the hell up." He seethed lowly. "I'm just trying to be realistic here. That's not giving up."

"Realistic." The older male repeated monotonously. "Hn, interesting."

"You got something more to say, then say it!"

"I know you have been through much, but keeping your mind in the past will not aid you."

Inuyasha's resolve to stay angry wilted a little, his fist unclenching somewhat. He lowered his head, unable to come up with anything to more to say. He felt numb, but not necessarily in a bad way. Honestly, he didn't really know what to do. A hand tilted his chin up and he felt a gentle kiss pressed against his mouth. This time, he responded back. The kiss deepened, their tongues met briefly, before they had to pull back for air. Inuyasha smirked, shaking his head. Nothing about this relationship made any damn sense. At least, to his human half. He supposed, however, that all his relationships had always been 'forbidden' in a sense. Demons and priestesses weren't exactly supposed to be together, after all.

And this...

Inuyasha scoffed amusedly, unable to even think it much less speak it.

"What is so humorous?"

"My life." The hanyou answered simply, miscalculating his strength when he moved to grasp his hands in the other's hair, sending them down harshly onto the futon.

"I think you have led an interesting life, as have I."

"That's an understatement." Inuyasha silenced him, wanting nothing else but to enjoy this moment. The body under him was surprisingly warm considering he acted like a living ice statue. Both of their pulses began to race as the hanyou kissed at the other's neck, causing Sesshomaru to stiffen and turn his head away, subconsciously revealing more of his neck to him.

'What in the hell is going on...this is really...' He thought, only to be interrupted when he felt a hand on his chin, coaxing him lower.


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