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Chapter 7
I could hear Soul whisper, "babe, wake up. Tsubaki's here."
"Go away, I'm sleeping good." I rolled to the other side of the bed.
"No Tsubaki's here."
"Oh yeah, I should get up eh?" Soul nodded and then I got out of bed. After I got up I went to the washroom and looked at myself, did I ever look tired. My hair was all over the place and I had bags under my eyes. After looking at myself, I splashed some water onto my face and went to the other room.
"Hey Tsubaki."
"Hi Maka." Her eyes look so sad. I saw nothing but despair and lost hope in those eyes. How long has she been acting strong?
"Let's go home Black Star."
"Okay." Black Star jumped in a flash and was almost out the door before he turned towards Soul. "Hey, where's the stash?" For some reason he doesn't look so sick.
"Don't worry about it, you'll get it later. I'll drop by Tsubaki's place later."
"Sure?"
"Yeah."
"Okay."
They left not to long afterwards. Then Soul grabbed my waist and pulled me into a deep kiss.
"Take it easy there." My face is burning. Why does he always have to be like this? Oh yeah, we've barely saw each other since he came back. Foolish me.
"I miss you Maka. My heart is aching for you." Then Soul pulled me in for a heated long kiss. I wanted to pull back for air, but I missed those lips of his. I needed air, so I pulled away and we both locked our eyes onto each other. I could see nothing but the lust in his eyes.
Soul's POV
"Hey Soul are you up?" Black Star was nudging my arm.
"I'm sleeping go away."
"Just give me a little bit. I won't take much, just to stop the shaking." Now that I'm fully awake, thanks Black Star, he really doesn't look to good. His skin is really pale. The sweat is rolling down his face and his hands are shaking uncontrollably.
"Yeah okay. Just a line that's it."
"Thanks Soul."
The powder was a yellowish white colour. It looked so nasty. Who would snort that up the nose? Wouldn't it burn like hell?
"Doesn't that hurt to snort that shit?"
"It does but it makes me forget my feelings." He started to cut the drugs up with some old library card. Slowly forming a line.
"What feelings?" What feelings are making resort to the drugs? I say no feeling is so much to handle to make you take blow.
"The feelings I have for Tsubaki," he paused. "I love her you know. Like I love her more than she loves me. I wanted to see was she would do if I called her sister, right?" I nodded. "All she did was smile. That smile, literally poked knives in my heart. It hurts and all, but whatever." I didn't know what to say, so I stood there and watched him snort that crap up his nose. When he finished, he looked at me.
"What are you gonna do about Tsubaki then?"
"Nothing, I have to deal with the pain myself."
"Well you gotta at least tell her. You'll never know, she might care for you more as well." The way his eyes stared at me I knew that hope alone was too much to handle.
"I wish it was that easy. I really wish it was." Black Star had said that with a little pain in his voice. I sighed and gave him a smile.
"What's stopping you from telling her?"
"I can't hurt her more than I already am. I just can't" His hand started to clutch over his heart.
"You're just so uncool right now."
"Yeah, hey can I get another hit? Just before Tsubaki gets here."
"No." He gave me a shrug and I looked at the time. It was already eleven o'clock. Then I looked back at Black Star and shook my head.
"Come on."
"You don't need it." He glared at me, "whatever."
Beep Beep
Tsubaki
Is Black Star still there?
I replied and told her that he was still here.
"Just pass it here."
"I said no Black Star. Just go and wash your face. Tsubaki is on her way here."
I started walking towards the bedroom where Maka slept so soundly. I didn't want to admit it, but I left her all alone because of Black Star. The way she looked while she was asleep was beautiful. Her body was wrapped in the blanket and she even set the pillows as if I was laying beside her. Why does she have to be so goddamn cute? Right now, this moment, I want nothing but her. Maka is the one I want to be with when everything comes to an end.
Tsubaki's POV
After Black Star and I got back to my apartment, I sat on the couch. I don't know what to do anymore.
"You okay?"
"Just tired," I smiled. I'm always tired.
"Come here for a sec."
"What for?"
"Just come here." I obeyed. I'm just not in the mood to talk or argue. Black Star looks like a mess. He should shower. His blue hair is crazier then usual. I probably don't look any better.
He grabbed me and held me close. "You've been crying?"
"No," my faced started to feel very hot.
"Don't lie to me."
"I cried and what about it?" Don't crack, don't say anything stupid Tsubaki. He is the one who I fear the most, but he's the one I want the most.
"I don't like it when you cry, I love seeing your smile."
"Don't be foolish." My hand was on his chest struggling to push him away. Why is he making me fall for him more?
"Why do you keep doing that Tsubaki? I miss you, why can't I just hug you?" His arms are becoming in a much tighter grasp.
"No, I can't stand it anymore. Black Star you're driving me crazy! You're hurting yourself but you're also hurting me. Just stop." I'm crying again, I don't care though.
"I'm not gonna stop… Because I just can't."
"What are you talking about?" He let go of me and I'm staring clueless at him.
"I love you."
"As your sister right?"
"No, I love you."
"No, go away. No one loves me but him." The voice inside me is back and he's yelling so loud, telling me I shouldn't be talking anymore. I don't care. I start to kneel on the floor.
"Who? I am so much better then that asshole." My arms start to itch and I scratch them. "What's on your arm Tsubaki."
"Go away."
"No, let me see." He grabbed me tightly and pulled up my sleeve. He wasn't suppose to know. Why does he know? This wasn't suppose to happen. Nobody was suppose to find out about my hidden secrets.
"Don't touch me Black Star!" I scream.
"Stop it, I'm not going to hurt you. Just stop pushing me away." He let go of me and put my arm close to his lips. He starts kissing every pain inflicted on myself.
"No, you're making me hurt more."
"What am I doing so wrong?"
"What am I doing anymore?" I'm lost and confused about everything.
He grabbed me and pulled me up. His eyes looked straight into my own for what felt like a very long time. Then he did the unexpected and kissed me.
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