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first day

Hermione's pov

I simply couldn't concentrate on what professor Binns was saying, my mind kept wandering off to the way Draco's actions had sent tingles up my spine even though we hadn't actually kissed. I hate to admit it but Draco was my first crush and I was simply heartbroken when he had called me Mudblood back in second year then again in third year I couldn't sleep the whole night after punching him because I'd wanted to use the time turner to stop myself from hurting him. Then, in fourth year I was delighted in seeing the wonder on his face when I entered the Great Hall. In fifth year I doubted that he'd sold us out to Umbridge because he'd seen me leaving the Room of Requirement so many times but had always turned away when he saw me so that he could pretend not to have seen me and I can hardly forget that he pretended not to recognize us when we had been brought to Malfoy Manor by the Snatchers. The almost kiss had raised my hopes that maybe, just maybe, Draco didn't hate me after all.

I broke out of my reverie when Draco, sitting between Blaise and me, slid a note across. Opening the scrap of parchment, I read, 'thinking about me granger?

'I told you call me Hermione and I was NOT thinking of your great looks!' I wrote back.

'I never said anything about my great looks… seems that you were thinking about me after all! :D'

'Alright I was… ;p…now what do you want?'

'I don't 'want' anything…just couldn't listen to Binns here without going off to sleep so I thought that this was a better way to stay awake and Blaise is asleep anyways!' he replied and looking across him I saw that Blaise was indeed drooling on the table.

'Eww that's gross! And you're right I was also very sleepy as I've already studied all this during the holidays so now all I can do to pass the time is daydream about you'

'Yay! I am handsome enough for bookworm Granger to daydream about! But jokes aside I too, was thinking of you', he wrote, making me feel confused, so, I wrote my thoughts to him.

'Of me? Why would the great Draco Malfoy think of me…unless you're planning a joke?'

'I was just thinking about why are you being so nice to me when no one except for Blaise even bothers to know whether I'm alive or not…..why are you trying so hard to be nice to me and be my friend when no one else is?', he wrote, making me feel sad for him because I knew how important it was to have friends beside you during times of trouble. So, instead of replying, I reached across to hold his hand and squeezed it.

"What was that for?" he asked me directly not bothering to write that down.

"That was for letting you know that I'll always be here for you even if no one else is." I whispered to him even if everyone in the class was sleeping with their eyes open.

"Again, why are you being so nice to me?" he asked softly, looking at me with those amazingly grey eyes of his.

"Well…" I said, not knowing what to tell him exactly and was spared as the bell rang for the period to end. "Later" I said and left the class.

"Granger wait!" malfoy almost shouted. I just kept on walking…well practically running. A few people stared at us as no one would have imagined Pureblood Draco Malfoy running after old Mudblood me.

Since it was the last class of the day, I headed straight to the dorm and saying a quick "Harmony" to the gargoyle, I bounded up the moving steps. Dumbledore's portrait swung forward as he smiled sadly at me. Walking towards my room's door, I thought of how Draco had talked to me like I was a normal person without any contempt or sign of enmity.

I was about to open my door when Draco rushed in and said, "Hermione…wait."

I turned at the pleading tone of his voice.

"I really want you to finish what you were saying in class", he almost begged.

I relented at his tone and hesitatingly, my voice growing stronger by each word, I said, "well..um..well you see.. I have had a crush on you since first year and since Harry and Ron are not around anymore and there are no existing house barriers between us since we are the heads, I can finally admit my feelings towards you even though I know that nothing will change as you've clearly hated me since day one…."

I stopped as I could feel the tears threatening to pour out. So I just turned and went in my room.

I was just closing the door when I heard him whisper, "I don't hate you". I opened my door and saw his door closing…maybe I had imagined it.


That night, as I lay on my bed after dinner, all I could think was, 'great I told Draco malfoy about my true feelings for him but nothing had changed. What an absolutely lovely way to start a new year become friends with your long time crush, see him shirtless, pass notes in class, almost kiss him, tell him about my feelings and end up saying that I know he hates me anyways. Just bloody wonderful!'

A loud knock on the door interrupted my thoughts.

I opened it and said with a sigh, "If you're here to taunt me about what I said before or even joke about it, you can very well leave because you would be wasting your time as I was pretty much serious about what I said"

"I wasn't here to make fun of you OK? I just wanted to check whether you were ready or not." He asked

"Ready for what?" I was totally confused.

"For patrolling? Don't you remember what happened during the meeting with the prefects? We have patrols Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays and today is Monday or have you forgotten?" he said amusedly.

"Huh? Oh right! I forgot, sorry!" I said, blushing.

"You really are forgetful for a head girl" he smirked.

"Yeah, sorry! You know it's your fault" I complained

"My fault? Just like a girl to blame it on a handsome guy for your shortcomings!"

I smirked, "yeah I was thinking about you"

"See you won't admit….oh you just did" he grinned sheepishly.

"Let's get going then" I said grabbing my cloak and brushing past him.


Patrolling was an interesting experience to say the least.

First we caught two Slytherins making out in the empty Charms classroom, I loved taking away points from them while Draco scared them off by scowling. Then, we found two fifth year Ravenclaws trying to sneak into the library. "Seriously they need to study less!" I commented. "That's rich coming from you" Draco said smiling a little.

After covering the dungeons we were just walking towards the astronomy tower when a thought hit me. "Draco, tell me this. Why were you trying to get away from Pansy on the train? Isn't she your girlfriend?"

"That's what she's been telling everyone since first year and I've been denying it since then but no one listens." He grumbled. "And I wanted to get away from her because she'd been acting weird since the time she came back from saying goodbye to her parents on the train."

"Hmm….do you think something.." I started but stopped when I saw something moving behind a pillar. I placed a finger on my lips to signal Draco and he walked towards it wand ready to use. Suddenly someone came out and before he could say 'Stupefy' Draco collapsed as a blue light hit him. I turned to face the attacker but found him no her crumbling and fainting in front of me.

I quickly sent a patronus message to madam Pomfrey, asking her to come as soon as possible. Then turning the attacker on her back I looked into the face of Pansy Parkinson…

After five long minutes she arrived and seeing them both conjured stretchers and levitating them carried Draco and Pansy to the Hospital Wing with me following close behind.


When she'd finally laid them on separate beds she turned to me and inquired "Miss Granger, Miss Parkinson looks like she has been under the Imperius curse and Mr. Malfoy has been hit by a curse unheard of in the last century, you must tell me what happened."

I recounted the details of the incident and then asked her, "but what does the curse do?" referring to the spell which Pansy had used.

"It duplicates the effect which a hundred Dementors would have on any person. Basically, it sort of sends us to sleep with our worst nightmares replaying again and again until the person is woken up which can take from one day to one week. Even after waking up the person feels depressed as if all the happiness in their life was no longer there." She explained. "I will give him a draught of Dreamless Sleep potion but I doubt it would help him."

"An attack like this when the Headmistress is away, I must inform the ministry…" saying this she turned to go. "Please madam Pomfrey, can I stay with him?" I pleaded. She sighed and said, "Alright, but only because you're the Head Girl. I do hope he gets better soon dear, he is a very fine young man."

I nodded and dragged a chair beside his bed and after giving Pansy a glare, took his hand in mine and whispered, "Do get better soon Draco, I can't live without your sarcastic comments, your rare smiles, your sparkly grey eyes, dammit I can't live without you stupid ferret! You cant do this after I finally confessed! Just…just come back to me…" I sobbed and slept with my head resting on his hand, the sheet wet with my tears…


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