I own nothing but I can dream... I wasn't going to update so soon but someone (cough, cough) not naming names LOL said to get back here and tell us what happened to Casey so here it is.
Dropping the phone, Casey cried into Olivia's embrace. She wanted to tell her but right now all she could do was cry. Olivia held her for a while then lead her to the bed keeping one arm around her trying to comfort her till Casey felt up to telling her what was wrong when Lizzie knocked on the door. "Can I go to the park for a bit please?" she asked, she just needed some time away from being cooped up, she wasn't planing on running away or anything, but felt like cabin fever was setting in, they had only gone out once since she had gotten there, and wanted some time alone. "Sure honey, but don't be gone to long and go to the one down the street." Olivia knew there was one only four blocks away and it was only 3pm. "Be back by five, no later or I'll come looking for you." She said through the door. "Yeah yeah 5pm no later, bye." Lizzie quickly left before anyone could change their minds.
Casey stiffened up in Olivia's arms. She saw flashes, just images of her as a small child, she was ten and huddled into a corner, the door creaked opened as he walked in. She curled herself up into a tight little ball, if she made herself small enough he couldn't see her, she prayed. 'Make me invisible, please make me invisible.' she used to pray for that every day hopping that this time it would work. He scooped her up walking her to the bed placing her down on it.
She pulled herself back to the present, she tried to shake out the images of her brother, then saying 'Your ok, your not ten anymore,' in her head. Olivia felt her stiffen up and gently rubbed her shoulders trying to sooth her, to get her to feel she was ok and no one was going to hurt her, she didn't know Casey's story but knew something had happened, in this line of work she had seen this before.
She tried to relax into her girl friends touch but couldn't. she suddenly had another flash, she was eleven, she had told her mom finally and was sent away to live with her aunt and cousin. her mom hadn't believed her and sent her away. 'Make me invisible, please make me invisible.' She was praying that same prayer, but this time she slept next to her cousin, her aunt at any moment would come in and take her to her room. Casey shuddered as she heard her aunt's words in her ear, her hand on her back, damn those words, it was only one word one word that all her life she had hated. It made her cringe and always had to stuff it down when it was used. 'lover' her aunt said it every time she touched her back, but how could she tell anyone? Telling your girl friend she couldn't use that word, she had thrown up the first time she heard Olivia say it and lied about why she got sick as soon as she said it while in bed one night.
"Case, baby you with me?" Olivia saw the distant look in her eyes.
"I, I.. huh?" Casey looked at Olivia almost as if she had been speaking french, then realized she had checked out for a moment. "I'm with you." Taking a deep breath she wiped her tears out of her eyes. Olivia planted a small kiss on her cheek, "Want to tell me where you just went? Please baby."
"This stuff with Lizzie, I feel so bad for her, I... Uh, I know what it's like." She held her breath praying Olivia wouldn't think less of her.
"I feel bad for her too, El needs to get it together along with Kathy." Still rubbing her shoulders, noticed Casey's eyes were full of pain, and could feel there was more she wanted or needed to say. "You know what it's like?" She held it together, only a soft look of love in her eyes for her, "Tell me baby, please."
Seeing as she wasn't being pushed away or rejected Casey slowly went on, "I do, when I was ten my.. my..my brother started coming into my room and he, he, well he forced himself on me." She said in stuttering rush, as if unless she said it all in one breath she would explode. Olivia had never met her bother, but knew Casey refused to talk to him or let him know where she was. Olivia's anger for what Casey had been through was raging inside of her, but for Casey sake she took a calming breath steadying herself as she listened.
"I told my mom when I was eleven, my mom called me a liar, slapped me and sent me away to live with my aunt." She swallowed a hard lump in her throat, before going on, "two months later my uncle had a heart attack and passed away. After that..." She felt herself getting sick and ran to the bathroom, Olivia followed her holding back her hair for her as she lost the little bit that was her lunch. sliding down leaning against the tub she finally went on, "after that, my aunt started taking me into her room, she used to rub my back and call me lover." Casey broke out in fresh tears not able to go on, as Olivia finally got why anytime she tried to rub her back she got so tense.
"Oh baby, that's why when I called you that you got so sick, I'm so sorry love, I will never use that word again." Olivia was boiling in anger at the people that hurt Casey, and herself for not getting it sooner, she had hurt her calling her that and never thought about asking why she was so sick over it. She had bought the lie.
Casey shook her head, "I'm sorry I should have told you, I'm sorry. please don't hate me, don't think I'm sick and perverted." She sounded so small, Olivia's heart broke for her, rubbing her shoulders careful of her back at a time like this, she didn't want to make it worse. "Case, look at me." Olivia brought her hand up to her chin lifting her head to look into her eyes, "nothing could make me think that, you were a kid, it was their fault, your not perverted, I couldn't love you more than I do right now." Olivia meant it too.
Casey looked at her questioningly, "You couldn't?"
Olivia shook her head, "not even if I tried, I love you more than ever for trusting me with this, and telling me. Your the strongest woman I know, I love you baby."
Smiling through her tears as they slowly subsided, "I love you too baby." Standing up she washed some cold water over her face, Olivia stood up walking out to give her a moment to gather her thoughts.
It finally dawned on Olivia why the child abuse cases like Shane Mills had gotten to her, the boy that raped his teacher then sent to the inpatient place for juvenile sex offenders that had his arm shattered and was raped himself in there, no wonder she said it 'Why not? I convict kids like Shane all the time, and I have no idea what happens to them afterward. I should have checked before I put Shane into that hole.' Before that there was Teddy Winnock, he had his own apartment, and molested his brother cause his father had touched him. As Olivia thought back over these cases it all fell into place.
Casey came out a few moments later from the bathroom looking into her girl friend's eyes, with a sad but small smile, "lay with me baby? please." Olivia nodded making her way to bed situating herself with her arms open for Casey. Shaking her head, "no please just lay with me." She curled up on the bed needing Olivia close, but couldn't bring herself to say she couldn't be touched. Olivia felt slightly hurt, but only slightly as she realized it had taken so much for her to tell her all of this, she just needed some time. "I love you, if you just need me close then I will just stay close." Casey reached behind her squeezing Olivia's hand to let her know she loved her too and just needed this.
Lizzie was walking back to Olivia's tears in her eyes as she made her way up the stairs and into the apartment. Casey was in the shower and Olivia was watching TV waiting on Lizzie to come home. "Hi honey, have fun?"
Lizzie shrugged, "was fine, anything else you want to know?" she was showing more attitude again.
"Lizzie, we love and care about you, but you've had an attitude for the last few days, this has to stop, I know your hurt but you can't just huff and puff at me when I try to talk to you, want to tell me what's going on?" Olivia's voice was soft but left no room for debate as to how she expected to be treated.
Lizzie went over attaching herself to Olivia's side, tears running down her face, "I'm sorry, it.. it's just my mom and dad hate me! they hate me, they wont believe me wont even call me, why do they hate me?" She spoke so fast Olivia had to try and clam her down so she could understand her, after a few minutes, "Oh honey, they don't hate you, Kathleen's home now and is in the hospital." Olivia told her, explaining what she knew but leaving out details that she knew her parents needed to tell her, like the bruises. Lizzie shrank back pulling her knees into her chest as she rocked herself. "she won't come here will she? please no no I can't I wont you said I was safe."
"That's right, she wont be here, I wont let her hurt you again, we believe you, you are safe here." She was trying to reassure the teen. Lizzie slowly nodded, "good."
Casey walked out of the bedroom, showered changed and feeling better, her stomach rumbled and she knew she was getting hungry, "hey don't know about you two, but I'm starved, what do you say we go for some dinner?"
Lizzie suddenly didn't want to leave the house, she felt safe here, and even if her sister was in the hospital, it scared her to have her back. "Maybe we can just eat here? breakfast for dinner maybe, please?" She wasn't all that hungry but would eat if it meant not going out.
Olivia nodded her agreement, "now that sounds good."
Standing up she went into the kitchen, "ok you two someones helping me cook, Lizzie?"
Elliot went to go back into the room when her words hit him like a ton of bricks. He'd been so wrapped up in thinking how it couldn't happen to them, not his kids. No his kids wouldn't do that, and even after hearing his older daughter tell him how she had been abused, he never even thought that it could be a case of doing as you were taught. He felt all the air rush from his lungs as if he'd had the wind knocked out of him, leaning back against the wall his mind went right to Teddy Winnock. The whole case played out in his head, and he knew then Lizzie was telling the truth, he had to talk to Kathy and his older daughter again, no matter what his wife wanted to believe he knew in the next few days he would have to talk to Lizzie and tell her he believed her.
please R/R the more I get the faster I update, anyone can Review. YES al least Elliot came around with help, now will Kathy? and will Kathleen get help not just for what happened to her but what she did with her sister? poor Lizzie still feels all alone like no one can know because it was another female, will Casey talk to her and help her? maybe or maybe not evil? naw I don't do evil well but stuff to think about for you.
