A/N: Thanks for all of the wonderful reviews. I am glad that everyone is enjoying this fic. The super bowl is tomorrow so there will not be an update. I promise to post one on Monday for sure. As always read and review.

Disclaimer: I do not own Grey's Anatomy or the character's

Meredith walked into the hospital. She was starting to feel like her old self again. She finally was able to stop looking over her shoulder. Two weeks had past with no word from Allan. She was beginning to believe that he would leave her alone. Maybe he had found someone else. Or he actually went to get help. Either way she could breathe easier knowing that he would leave her alone.

"Meredith these flowers were delivered for you today." Nurse Betty yelled.

Meredith walked over to her. She didn't know who would be sending her flowers. Mark had finally agreed to remain friends. Friends didn't send flowers.

She took the box from the nurse. As she unwrapped the bow on the top. A wave of nausea overtook her. She felt like she was being paranoid until she opened the box.

Mark walked up to the nurses station. Just as Meredith threw the box that she was looking at. He instantly ran over to her.

"What is it?" he asked as he picked up the box. He looked into the box. He felt sick when he saw the dead flowers.

"Where did these come from?" he asked the nurse.

"Someone delivered them today. They didn't say who they were from." Nurse Betty said.

Mark looked at Meredith. All the color was drained from her face. He took a hold of her hand and lead her into the on call room. Once he shut the door he looked at her.

"Are you okay?" he knew it was a stupid question.

"Why would he do this?" she knew that the flowers were from Allan.

"Allan?" Mark would kill the bastard.

"Who else would do something like that?" she couldn't think of anyone who could be so cruel.

"Meredith I will not let him touch you." Mark would never let him hurt her again.

"How will you stop him? He's not someone that gives up. He told me that before. That he would never let me go. He asked me if I left him for you." Meredith sat down on the bed. She couldn't think straight. Why did she think he would leave her alone.

"Meredith have you talked to him?" Mark didn't think she had talked to him.

"Two weeks ago. He called me and I was going to tell Addison then I found out she was pregnant. I don't want her upset. Please don't tell her about this." Meredith didn't want her sister worried.

"Why didn't you tell me? Meredith why don't you trust me?" he thought that they were gaining ground.

"Please Mark let's not make this about us. It's not your battle it's mine." Meredith cried. She was tired of fighting.

"This is my battle. Anyone that tries to hurt you will deal with me." he sat down next to her.

Meredith looked at him. "I have to get to work." she walked over to the door. She was about to walk out when she turned around. "You hurt me Mark. More than any man I have ever loved. I was so in love with you. Do you know I waited two whole weeks to leave Seattle. I kept thinking that you would..." she stopped talking realizing that she had said to much.

Mark walked over to her. "Finish" he wanted to know what she was going to say.

"Never mind" she rushed out of the room.

Mark watched the door slam behind her.

Meredith got changed into her sweats. She walked downstairs and found Addison, Derek and Mark in the living room. She knew that he had told them about the recent events. She could see it in Addison's eyes.

"He told you" she sat down on the chair.

"Why didn't you tell us?" Addison asked.

"Look it's no big deal. They were just flowers." Meredith glared at Mark.

"They weren't just flowers Mer. They were dead." Mark wasn't going to let her down play the flowers.

"So someone likes to send dead flowers. It's nothing that Addison needs to worry about." she didn't want her sister worried.

"Meredith Grey don't treat me like I am fragile. Your my sister and if someone is sending you dead flowers I want to know about it." Addison yelled.

"Okay I'm sorry. Look Allan is trying to scare me. I'm not scared I have all of you." she lied. The truth was she was terrified.

"You do have all of us. If you stop keeping secrets. When he calls you or sends flowers we need to know about it." Derek said.

"Okay I promise no more secrets." Meredith smiled.

"Alright we are going out to dinner. Mark has agreed to stay with you tonight. Call me if you need anything." Addison grabbed her coat.

"Mark you don't have to stay." Meredith didn't want him around.

"There is no debate Mer. I'm staying we can watch a movie." Mark knew she was mad.

"Fine" she said.

"We'll see you later" Derek took Addison hand.

"Call if you need us" Addison kissed the top of her head before she left.

Meredith sat on the couch. She let Mark pick a movie to watch. Of course he picked "The wedding crasher's" she stared at the screen but paid no attention to the movie.

"Are you ever going to talk?" Mark stared at her. He knew she wasn't watching the movie.

Meredith didn't want to talk to him. "I'm watching the movie" she lied.

"Come on Mer. Don't be mad at me. I want to protect you. That's why I told Addison and Derek." he was only trying to protect her.

Meredith didn't want to hear his excuses. "Please let's not do this." she didn't want to fight with him.

Mark grabbed the remote. He would make her talk. He paused the movie and walked over to sit next to her. "Will it help if I apologize?" he asked.

"I asked you not to tell. You want me to trust you and then you break that trust." she asked.

"Meredith you don't get it. I had no other choice. Allan is a dangerous man. I make no apologies for trying to protect you." he said.

Meredith looked at him. "I can handle him. I didn't want Addison stressed out. I don't want to be the reason she looses that baby." she cried.

"I don't want to lose you." he couldn't lose her again.

"You say that like we have something. Mark there is nothing between us." she said.

"You don't believe that. We have something special Meredith Grey even if you choose to ignore it." he ran his fingers down her face.

Meredith could feel the heat from his finger tips. She had tried to fight the feelings that she had for him. She leaned into him and let him capture her mouth. His tongue invaded her mouth. She wanted to scream in excitement. It felt good to be in his arms. She could feel the warmth from his lips. Her head was screaming to pull away but her heart was begging to let him continue.

Mark leaned her back against the arm of the couch. He had never felt the way he felt for her with any other woman. He fought the urge to tell her just that.

Meredith pushed him off. "We have to stop." she said as she tried to calm her breathing.

"Meredith I lose all control when I am with you." he didn't want to stop. He wanted to take her upstairs.

"Please Mark I can't do this. I don't know if it's the way you say my name. Or simply the butterflies that swim around in my head when you kiss me. Something makes me lose myself when I am with you. I have to stop this before I lose once again." she cried.

"I have never wanted someone as much as I want you. That should be enough Meredith." he would make her happy.

"It's not enough Mark. I want it to be enough but it's not. I want you to love me. Tell me you love me." she said.

Mark stood up. Why did she always have to go back to that. The one thing that made him a coward.

"That's what I thought." she said.

Mark turned around and looked at her. "I feel so many feelings when I am with you. Doesn't that count?" he asked.

"It counts Mark. It's just not enough. You want me to be there in your bed. What about your heart Mark. Why can't you let me in there?" that was all she wanted.

"I don't know Mer. I just don't know." it was the truth too. He didn't know why he couldn't tell her what she needed to hear. Lord knew he felt love for her. Every time he tried to say the words he stuttered. He was going to lose her again if he didn't figure everything out.

"I am tired. See you in the morning." she started for the stairs.

Mark pulled her back into his arms. He captured her lips. He let his tongue dance with hers. "I will not lose you again Mer. I will figure this out I promise." he said letting her go.

"I hope so Mark." she said as she turned to walk upstairs.