Chapter 7
September 21st 2030
Daddy had a session of Chemo yesterday; mom said it was like a family outing as I insisted on going with them as did Grandma Grace, I think last time really shook us all up, even Grandma Grace, but thankfully yesterday went off without incident, daddy just got really tired and he started to sleep just after lunch. Jason helped us get dad home and mom helped him to bed while I cried on my Grandma's shoulder. I really don't want to leave today; it's so hard seeing my strong, full of life daddy like this.
We have all had a lovely morning where I am sure I have gained half a stone from Gail's fantastic breakfast, I'm sure she thinks I won't eat properly again before thanksgiving, when I am next home.
Dad and I have a bit of a cuddle after we finally finish eating, when he tells me if anyone upsets me he will send Jason after them, I'm sure that was a coded message for me to pass on to Samuel, I shake my head at him smiling and say "daddy no one would dare upset me they know my daddy is bigger than their daddy" and we both start to laugh, I love to hear my daddy laugh, he hasn't done much of that lately, usually the only one who can get a half giggle out of him at the moment is my mother.
It's time to leave for the plane, mom is going with me and dad is going back to bed just that couple of hours with me has exhausted him, I feel myself tearing up but I swallow them back down, I will not let daddy see me upset.
It's not a long drive to the plane, and once there, mom and I are sort of holding each other up and sobbing and promising to ring as soon as I get there and please be careful, I think that sentence has about three or four meanings, especially as mom went with me to get contraception sorted, she didn't push, I asked her to come with me, we talked about her and dad, the future, me, school, Samuel, just everything really, by be careful I know she means not just she doesn't want grandchildren the same age as her babies, but be sure he is the one, protect my heart. I know he is the one, my one and only, my happy ever after.
I arrive at Pullman alone, the original plan was that mom would come with me and stay at least tonight, but with dad having to have a Chemo session yesterday she didn't want to leave him and in all truthfulness I didn't want her to leave him either. With everything that has gone on the last few months I don't have my own CPO in place yet, Jason has done initial assessments of three or four but then dad wants to interview them himself before I finally get to do the final interview and choose, so I have been asked to please take one of Aunt Mia's with me and please give it till Christmas and then we will review it, so I am not really alone, Kit my CPO will be posing as a house mother and driver and we have one of those ugly SUV's I can't use my beautiful sports car, why the hell did he buy me it I've driven it maybe four times and two of those times he was in the passenger seat.
We leave the airport behind and it's not long before we are at the house, I eventually decided to give Monica and Arthur the whole of the basement, Kit will have the two double bedrooms one of which I have furnished as a lounge for her on the same floor as our suit, and that hopefully will give us all our own space and privacy, Samuel, Monica and Arthur are driving down, Samuel's grandfather bought him a car for achieving a GPA in the top 3% in the country. I can't wait for tonight, I almost dragged him into my room at dad's house in Boise that week-end I went up there but I didn't trust Mrs Peter's not to report that back to dad so we are still waiting.
Kit and I do a walk through of the house and all access point's she is happy that there are no obvious security holes, but they shouldn't be as Jason has been here and had cameras installed, watching the exterior doors and the garage as well as the garden, I forbid them to have any actually watching any of the living space, what if I want to make out while watching the TV, I will not be watched, how the hell my mother puts up with it I don't know, then we go to the supermarket where I do a huge shop for groceries before going back to the house to wait for the other to arrive.
Samuel text's 'we are an hour out, home in your arms soon, baby" my heart starts fluttering as I then start to put a meal together for us all, I am going to show everyone around the house once they arrive, and we will all eat together, then I'm not sure how the rest of the evening will pan out, Monica and Arthur have been having sex for ages, in the back of his car, at hers when her parents are at work or his when his parents are out, and that's fine for them, but we want it to be really special, not distracted, one ear listening out for someone coming through the door, terrified of being caught every time.
It's not long before I hear a car pull onto the drive, I pull my apron off and run to the door where I throw myself into his arms and I'm been swung round and then thoroughly kissed while he hold's me so tightly but so gently at the same time, I show them round the house and they all love what I have done with it and how I have shared the living space out, I say "I have made a Pasta Carbonara for tonight and I thought we could all eat together in the main dining room including Kit, then we can either spread out in our own parts of the house of we could move into the lounge and watch TV, listen to music, whatever everyone wants to do"
The meal went well, everyone loved it, I think if I'm not careful I will end up doing the bulk of the cooking as Monica freely admits she can't cook for toffee, after we all clean up after our meal, Monica and Arthur decide they will make there way downstairs and get settled in properly.
Samuel and I sort of look at each other before he pulls me into his arms saying "we are taking this at your pace, If I sleep on the sofa in our lounge for six months, a year, forever, that's fine" God could I love him any more, as it's a pleasant evening out we decide to go into the garden and sit on the swing, as we sit gently swinging holding hands, I warn him about the camera's so we can't get carried away in the garden he asks will this always be our lives, being watched, never truly having privacy, I feel the tears welling up, what if he can't live like that, what if I loose him because of who my biological parents are, he notices the tears and wipes them away asking "why are you crying baby", I swallow and say "what if you can't live like this, I will loose you" he replies "hey, I'm going nowhere I. Love. You" and my mind wanders back to the conversation with my mother "what do I tell Samuel and Monica" and her reply "as much or as little as you want to angel"
I made the decision to be totally honest with Samuel right up to what dad's estimated worth was and because of that and if anyone ever found out about me I would be a target and so once I move out from Ted and Rose's in away my life won't be my own, I will always have to have security with me, living with me, following me. He assured me he would learn to live with that, it was a small price to pay to be with me, loving me and having me love him in return, but maybe the reality is hitting him, not being able to do something simple like making out in your own private back yard while on a swing because your being watched.
We make our way back inside the mood a little spoilt, we sit in the lounge Samuel picks my I-Pad up and scrolls through till he find one of our favourite songs Keith Urban's Your Everything and pulls me into his arms whispering "you are my everything"
"Your Everything" Lyrics
The first time I looked in your eyes I knew
That I would do anything for you
The first time you touched my face I felt
Like I've never felt with anyone else
I wana give back what you've givin' to me
And I wanna witness all of your dreams
Now that you've shown me who I really am
I wanna be more then just your man
I wanna be the wind that fills your sails
And be the hand that lifts your veil
And be the moon that moves your tide
The sun coming up in your eyes
Be the wheels that never rust
And be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more
So much more, I wanna be your everything...
When you wake up, I'll be the first thing you see
And when it gets dark you can reach out for me
I'll cherish your words and I'll finish your thoughts
And I'll be your compass baby, when you get lost
I wanna be the wind that fills your sails
And be the hand that lifts your veil
And be the moon that moves your tide
The sun coming up in your eyes
Be the wheels that never rust
And be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more
So much more, I wanna be your everything...
Be the wheels that never rust
And be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more
So much more, I wanna be your everything...
I wanna be your everything
