Since I wasn't able to update in a while I am going to give you one long chapter and I am sorry for not updating but finals was last week and I needed to really just focus on my courses. Well its seven pages long. Not the longest chapter I done, 23 pages long-my other story, but its pretty long.

I'm unsure about this chappie, I couldn't determine what the theme of this chapter should do. I did minutes, their game, memories, the killer's tape, and the fast forward/rewind/pause/play of the tape recorder. What I finally chose for the theme of this chapter is conservations of students after hearing about the crime, next chappie theme is video clips, so next chapter on might be a little disturbing…

Warnings for this chapter: Don't you love surprises!


Hey did you hear what happened to that snobby kid…

No which one…

I'll give you a hint. Which one is Hikaru and which one is dead.…

Kaoru? What? Kaoru is dead? what happened to him?

He was murdered…

Hikaru laughed, sanity failing, the tape recorder was tossed off the balcony. He smiled a smile that even scared him as he watched the object smash against the ground. He laughed again, smiling as he realized that the recorder was officially broken, no better yet the fucking tape was destroyed. It took a whole week to get the courage to break the tape but he broke it. He wont have to hear some sick fuck talking about his Kaoru, he wouldn't have to listen to the man's voice, no the tape is destroyed. He let out another chuckle as he watched his parents, followed by three maids, come rushing out of the house, surrounding the recorder. He smiled again as his parents both looked up at him before turning around and heading back into his room, his prison cell, his home now.

An empty room met his sight, only a neatly made bed, a closet with only a third of the clothes that used to be in it, and a sleeping bag was still in the room. The pictures that used to clutter the walls, the gadgets that the twins were so attached to, and the expensive rugs and curtains were all gone. Hikaru's CD player which he used to never go without is in the bathtub under a gallon of water. The mirror that his mom got him was leaning up against the wall in the corner; it was Hikaru's only companion. On the wall above the bed was a large picture of Kaoru, the size of the poster, and Hikaru would spend most of his days staring at it while listening to the dreaded tape he hated so much. Not anymore though, he was free from the tape, he was free…

A knock at the door caused Hikaru to start his round of laughter once again, his spirit unstable, and he found himself collapsing against the ground rocking gently back and forth staring at the poster of his brother. A crazed smile lit up his face as the knocking continued, his eyes watering slightly from the lack of sleep.

The door opens, his mother stands in the doorway, a enraged look upon her face and all Hikaru could do is sigh and bend his head to better study her.

"Hikaru, what the earth was you thinking?" His mother asked, while demanded to know.

Hikaru turned away.

"It had to be destroyed." Hikaru whispered his voice shaky from not being used for so long.

"What had to be destroyed Hikaru?" His mother asked and he could hear the despair in her voice, the way she hadn't even bothered to put on make up, and how her hair lost its shine. She was suffering too.

"The tape."

"What tape?" She asked and Hikaru laughed.

"I had to destroy it, I needed to get away from it, I was losing too much of my sanity." He responded in nothing more than a whisper.

"Hikaru…"

"I'm so fucked up." Hikaru whispered looking at himself in the mirror. His hair was dull and lifeless; the bags under his eyes made him look like he was dead, and the paleness of his skin reminded him to much of how Kaoru looked at his funeral. His mother didn't say anything and Hikaru didn't expect her too, she can't help him, she is too broken. Instead she just turned away before she remembered something.

"Oh, Haruhi went ahead and emptied out his locker and we found something in his locker that was addressed to you. She came by earlier and gave it to me." She said and he could tell how awkward she felt and it only made him hate her.

"The school is letting students come back now?" Hikaru asked without interest, his eyes still drawn to the mirror, watching himself in self-hatred.

"Just started today, the third story is still off limits, they couldn't…the blood wasn't coming off…and…" He froze, blood…Kaoru's blood, the third story was where he was raped, blood…

"You don't need to go back, we are already talking to other schools, you don't even have to go to school, if you want to stay at home than that's okay with us." His mom said handing over the package to him before wiping a tear off her face. He watched her leave, glad to see her go, but frowned at the package.

He was killed in our school…

No, you idiot he died at the hospital, he was just attacked at school…

Really…

Yeah, it was apparently really bloody…

Who did it?

No one knows…

Did he regret killing him? Yes he did. He could have taken him, hidden him somewhere, fucking could be with him right now instead of this fucking slut. He wanted him, wanted him so badly, but he killed him. He will always regret that one, just like he regretted raping his brother's friend, and he regretted killing that fucking bitch as well, but honestly that whore was going to snitch, he wasn't going to let that happen.

He smiled as he remembered the way Kaoru screamed, he screamed so pretty, so fucking pretty…and the slut is now licking the side of his mouth and he is losing himself to her touch and she knew that he wanted her and he knew that she wanted him…

That was why when she asks what gets him turned on he laughed and when she said that she would do anything he smiled even more.

"Before I answer, what gets you hard sweet-cheeks?" He purred into her ear, moving her red hair behind her ear and she smiled.

"Rape." She said before giggling and he smiled widely before whispering back, "Explain yourself?"

"I love to be tied up, to have my clothes torn off of me, and I love when men just thrust into me with no care in the world. Even more, I love watching others get rape, not in real life, I'm not that sick," she explained before laughing nervously but he just laughed and asked her to continue, "I love watching rape porn while I am tied up and 'vulnerable,' it gets me so excited." She said and the guy smiled even more.

"You know what I want to do most in the world, which gets me turned on and makes me go wild?"

"What?"

"I am not going to tell you, I am going to show you." He whispered seductively before kissing her neck. She moaned a little as he stepped back.

"You do the thing I want to do first and then we will spend the rest of the night with you screaming, hands tied up. I might even get a little creative as long as that's okay with you?"

"Oh darling, use anything you like."

They still have no leads about who did this…

No, there are no clues at all…

They are going to catch him right?

I doubt it…

Hikaru was just sitting beside his bed, dazed, staring at himself in the mirror, a knife lying limply at his feet. No, he wasn't suicidal nor was he a cutter, just thought it was necessary…

Haruhi was staring at him from the door, a scared expression on her lovely face, her hands turning white as she gripped the doorknob. He let out a laugh, one of agonizing pain, and she begun to wonder why she came.

"Hellooo Haruhi," Hikaru said with such agony in his voice that it gave her the shivers.

"Hikaru...school started." Haruhi said softy feeling rather uncomfortable, she honestly had no idea what to say, she just came because his parents asked her to.

"How was it?" He asked, the smile rotting off his face and instead he refocused all of his attention back to the mirror.

"It was boring, the teachers just had on videos, and talked to their students about…it was a sad day, no one was really…talking. Students were walking around like zombies everyone was sad." Haruhi said and Hikaru closed his eyes as he heard her fighting back tears.

"The third story of our school is closed, security guards are everywhere now, we even had to stay inside the cafeteria for our whole lunch period, we couldn't go outside in the courtroom or even go and use the hallway bathroom. The teachers…informed us of what happened…that Kaoru was murdered..." She trailed off when she watched a tear escape down Hikaru's pale cheeks.

"Please don't say anymore, I don't want to hear it." Hikaru whispered still staring at the mirror. She bit her lip, "Hikaru, I'm so sorry…"

"I said fucking shut up." Hikaru screamed.

"Hikaru you have to talk about this…"

"Shut the fuck up woman." Hikaru hissed and Haruhi couldn't help but stare at the knife that he picked up.

"Hikaru, your parents are worried about you, the host club is worried, you need to go outside again, you can't just stay in your room."

"I see no reason to leave my bedroom." Hikaru whispered as let go of the knife.

"Hikaru, I think you need help…"

Did you hear about his twin…

Hikaru, what about him…

He wont leave his room now, won't eat, wont sleep, some said that he gone insane…

That makes since, I mean those twins were always a little weird, all they had was each other…

Do you think that Hikaru might have done it?

No, Hikaru isn't sick enough to kill off his own clone. Whoever his murderer was is really sadistic, I mean the bastard chopped off Kaoru's penis…

Really, I didn't hear that…

Oh…well… I heard his friends talking…

He has friends outside of Hikaru…

Yeah, the host club…

They said that the killer chopped off a couple of body parts…

What a sicko…

Yeah, I know…

But who it...

The woman was drinking, red wine disappearing inside her mouth as she watched the man dig up the grave. She was giggling, ditzy, and nearly fell in the dug out grave as she bent over to watch the madman break open the coffin.

"What yu ding o te bdy?" She asked drunkenly, collapsing on the hard ground, crying out as her bottle broke spilling all of her wine. He just laughed.

"I am going to show you something really fun." He added and she just laughed happily.

I can't believe it happened at our school…

Yeah, no one can…

I hear Kaoru only stayed to finish a project for one of his classes…

His teacher Ms. Myers feels really guilty for it; she even said that she doesn't want one student to turn in their projects because she feels so guilty…

Stupid Kaoru, he shouldn't have stayed at school for so long…

The woman was still giggling as he led her to his apartment, the body, heavy, had to be held by both of them, and she wasn't sure she liked being so close to the body. It reeked, and it was starting to decompose and it made her feel sick to her stomach. The man, opening up his door threw the body on the floor before smiling at the woman. The woman meowed seductively and the man drove her into the wall, kissing the side of her mouth.

"You want me lady?" He asked, chewing on her earlobes. She moaned and thrust her hips into his.

"More than you possibly know."

Thirty minutes later the lady was struggling to get on her dress, her hands shaking in disbelief. "Y're sik, ou'r oe sik fuk," she kept saying, actually screaming, grabbing her high heels as she hurried drukily to the door. He was following her, a frown on his face, sweat dripping from his body, screaming off his head, "you're the sick fuck you fucking little whore." She went to open the door and he slammed his body into the door, not letting her escape and she screamed and backed up, nearly falling from her drunkenness.

"Lt m go yu sik fuk." She screamed, afraid for the first time in her life. The man just laughed.

"Miss, there is no reason to be irrational right now."

"Lt me go o ele yo are goig to reget it." She said reaching into her purse, searching for her pepper spray. The man just bit his lip and was silent for a minute before saying, "ma'am it's not going to happen. You promised me sex and you are going to have sex with me. Now, we can do this the easy way or the hard way but I will have you."

"I thik no," she mumbled and sprayed the pepper spray into his eyes. He screamed, his hand curving into a fist, and he went to punch, aiming at her head. She stepped aside barely missing the punch and watched as the man stumbled away from the door, his hands over his stinging eyes. Seizing the opportunity she pushed open the door and ran, stumbling, losing her balance, but she escaped. She was lucky, he would have killed her.

And the man after rinsing out his eyes realized that she escaped kicked the wall and slammed the door shut. Damn it, he really waited Kaoru.

He deserved it…

Who, Kaoru, why…

He was always so closed off, and you even have to admit that he thought him and that twin of his as gods…

I don't think that, I think that they just didn't need anybody else, I mean their bond…

Oh you only say that because you idolize them, they are jackasses, they played on people's feelings…

How, their game? It's just a game…

No, it's not just a game; it's a way for them to make fun of their classmates…

No, it's a game they made up to see if people can tell them apart or not…

They played on feelings, I'm happy he's dead; I only wish that his twin died as well…

Hikaru was staring at the package, the one that was in his locker, there was blood on it. Not wet blood, dried blood, and not a lot, just enough to make him notice it. He scratched at the blood, watching some of it flake. Sighing, he opened the package, carefully, as if the object inside was breakable. What he saw made him turn red, it was a tape recorder, with a sticky note saying play me, over the play button. He didn't realize he was shaky until he tried to press the play button, but he couldn't, just couldn't click the button. He didn't know if he could hear anything else.

But something else had caught his attention. A note. Feeling nauseous he picked it up.

How quickly life changes, how little we adapt, how quickly our sanity ceases. When love rots, and bodies collapse, on such a damaged bed, you find yourself wondering, why or why was it him? Don't despair, my aloof friend, for his death we both regret. I wish this would help you in any way, to help ease you away from him. Listen to the tape, I think it'll help; he spent the whole night making it just for you.

He stopped reading, there was nothing else to read, yet his hands despite his wisdom, was ripping the letter apart. He knew it was important to keep, fingerprints, but didn't seem to care; all he cared about was destroying everything he received from him. The tape recorder was kept, stuffed under his bed and he collapse beside the bed painfully, staring at the recorder underneath his bed.

Five hours later he was still staring, staring at the new object, a new tape recorder, and he couldn't help but think, 'he just got rid of one, how unfair is this?' There was a knock at his door again but he didn't pay any notice, his terrified face staring from underneath his bed to the mirror, mirror to underneath his bed. The knocking started to get frantic and he tried not to pay attention to it, his mouth dry, his eyesight hazy. He didn't know that the words that his mom would scream from the other side of his door would ruin his day.

"Hikaru, the police just called, someone dug up Kaoru's grave."

I wonder if Hikaru is going to come back to school…

After what happened to Kaoru, I think he'll be too scared to come back to school…

Why…

What'll think? He'll be waiting for him…

The man, sweating, lying on his bed, laughed as he rewound the videotape. His homemade videotape. He smiled again, watching the boy on the tape trying to hide himself from the camera. He laughed again as the figure was forced to his knees. He smiled, a idea started, he knew what to give Hikaru tomorrow, the videotape, oh that would be so sweet.


I'm back, sorry if this chapter wasn't as good as the rest, I just am still going though a bit of mind numbness from school so this chapter was kind of hard to finish, I was going though major writing block even though I have a outline, I just seemed to lose my creativeness for a while. Next chapter I'm really looking forward too.

Oh and I forgot but one of you mentioned that I didn't have anything from Mori, honestly it just didn't fit so it will have to be in another chapter. Okay, I admit it I forgot about him. Honestly I was running everyone though my head and he just sort of slipped off

Review Corner:

DeserBlueRose2: Its going to get worse, I'm evil, and the ending is probably not going to be even bittersweet. I cant tell you the ending but I promise Hikaru will not get raped. (that's all I can promise) Goosebumps, I had goosebumps from last chapt too. As you have guessed this chapt reveals the murderer, I did that for you.

Kyoko: Thanks for your kind words. I like how you like how I made Hikaru deal with it, I agree most stories where something happens to Kaoru has Hikaru acting pretty much the same. I'm sorry I cant see Hikaru being strong, I mean the twins were so close, I cant see Kaoru dying and Hikaru acting any less than at the breaking point. Then again I have been wrong before. My stalker fit, Yes, I was afraid he wouldn't. I liked Hunny's part as well. Thanks again, I was a AP student too, I just am really shy when it comes to writing because many people use to bash it. But thanks that means a lot. Video tapes in the next chapter will be worse, I promise.

Sunshine: Yep, he was. I smile!

Butterfly: I wanted to show how the others are doing because many of the Kaoru hurt fics don't show how the others are feeling. There were a lot of signs. From reading real life crimes a lot of times there are a lot of signs that goes sadly unnoticed until too late.

demon's lil angel: Yes we share the same pet peeves. I stopped reading a fic that I loved because a raped person had sex three months after a rape. On a side note-wow, your mom, your cousin, and the cousin of your mom, wow I am amazed at their strengths. I am so sorry to hear about them being raped. Two of my aunts on my mom's side were raped and my mom was almost raped, so I know the pain. On another note any cool torture devices that you could think about that I could use for my next chapt?

queenofspades19: I am breaking your poker face, yes, I am slowly making people emotional…LOL. Thank you for reading, and yes poor Kyoya, I feel for him too. They barely ever show his emotions on these types of things and I wanted to show a little bit.

No name-are you happy now? Kaoru was raped, I was going to wait until I really show the rape to let that knowledge slip but it was fitting. I agree, no raped person wants to have sex right away or even a month later, come on, get logical here. There are probably raped victims who have sex a month or so after getting raped, I wouldn't, and none of the raped people I know do, they haven't had sex yet and its been a year.

xBakuras_lovex: Thanks I know I loved the last chapter as well, but honestly it is all because of you guys. You make me keep trying to outdo the last chapter and force me to really focus on exactly what I want to say during the chapter.