...Hey Ladies and Gents I know I have been gone for a while but I hope to be back at this story, I finally think I know where I want it to go so here is a short update but tell me what you think and to all those reviewers who kept asking for me to bring it back here it is and I hope you like it, if not tell me - love you all
The club was overpopulated with half drunk college kids and business men taking there tie down a little. I felt out of place and a little foolish for being here, Spencer was on the dance floor swaying as close as she could to her lover Huh Lover. It hurt to see this and I just wanted to run, I can't if I want here back and that I do.
"Ash come on let's boogie" Kyla rushed up to me grabbing my arm
I pulled my arm away "Not now Ky"
Her face turns into a frown as she realized what all this was doing to me, "You want to call it a night?" she asked with a bit of concern
"No I think I just need a drink" I smiled and turned to go back to the table where Aiden sat, my eyes scanning to make sure Spencer was still there remembering when we were first at a club together as a couple.
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"Dance Ash come on please for me" Spencer bounced up and down with my hand, a pout on her lips.
"I am having a conversation babe can't you go dance with… I scanned the club for …her I pointed to a nerdy girl standing in the corner.
"Uhhh Ashley come on I only have eyes for you" Spencer smiled and I couldn't help not resisting that smile and she knew this all along.
Her hands drifted up my sides sending a shock up my back and into my heart, I knew then in that moment that I was in trouble. I smiled our eyes never left each others, we were in love happy for the first of many.
"Want something to drink babe?" I asked as the song came to an end. I could see her getting ready to agree until a slow song came on.
"Oh can it wait till after this one" I didn't speak just grabbed her waist pulling her closer, it felt like we were the only ones in the room at that point I felt as if I was floating.
The smell of her is still on the tip of my nose, a sweet vanilla mixed with a smidge of Red Door her favorite. I can feel the air from her on my neck as she whispered in my air how much she loved me and how we would be forever.
"I want to spend all my days with you even when I'm old we can get lots of cats and have cocoa on the porch as we swing with them all around us meowing their happiness, pretend we are the only ones in it." She had an imagination I'll give her that and back then I believed her I would play along.
"Yeah, we can have names for all ninety nine of them" I laughed as she kissed my neck, making me moan as a shock flew through my body. "We won't have to pretend Spence you are the only one that is here with me, you will only be the one." We continued to dance even after the music had stopped
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I can't say now that I believe her anymore, as I watch her dance or shall I say grind with her new girlfriend. I can feel as though I need another shot of something stronger. Well that is until I catch her eyes on me, for the first time in fifteen years I am whole, that's all I need to know she still wants and needs me just those baby blues.
I feel a tap on my shoulder I turn to see a nice looking blond standing smiling at me.
"Want to dance?" she asks and I immediately look toward Spencer who is not staring but glaring at me now, I think what gives her the right to judge as she practically has sex on the floor.
"Nah can't but thanks" I knew as I spoke I wanted to take it all back and make her cringe at the thought of me with another girl as she has made me. I turn to see her with a smile and that thought drifts away as easy as it came.
I take a step back and go toward Kyla and Aiden who are throwing back the shots like twenty one year olds with no cares.
"Don't kids wake up all early" I ask as I grab a shoot swallowing down before I sat
"Nah, well not to early anyway" Aiden smiled "Plus she's gettin up with them"
Kyla practically chocked on her beer "Oh it's so your turn buddy"
Aiden started laughing and so did I but my mind was else where. I couldn't help but look and in didn't go unnoticed by Aiden or my sister.
"Stop Ash it will only make it worse!" Kyla commented as her hand came to rub my shoulder. "Why didn't you dance with that girl she was cute"
I turned my head letting it fall, I felt Aiden's hand come to my side. I felt to many emotions ones I haven't felt in forever. I needed her and it had to be soon
"I have to find a way to get her back in my arms like that" I said looking up expecting them to be still dancing but they were gone off the floor and right in front of us.
Danielle had her hand wrapped around Spencer's waist and the other in Spencer's front pocket. She looked uncomfortable maybe it was because I was here, but I beg to think it isn't at all an insecurity that maybe she just isn't happy.
Spencer spoke first not to me but to Kyla "We're gonna go, Danielle is tired…" The way she said that I know that voice that tilt in her head.
I kicked Kyla under the table making her jump but not noticeable to anyone other then me. She gave me the WHAT….OWWW!!!!! face, making me smile. I put my hands too my face cupping my mouth so the sound I thought would funnel to Kyla.
"Make her stay" I whispered.
Kyla made another what face and Aiden leaned over and whispered something to her which made her nod.
"Stay Spencer have a drink with us you barely said two words since we got her." She paused as Spencer turned back to ask Danielle if it was ok.
I can't describe what came over me but the notion of Spencer having to ask permission to stay out made me burst.
"Does she wipe your ass too?" I think I surprised myself as I blurted that out, I couldn't stop there I had to make a point even if I've been gone for so long.
"Ashley" Spencer spoke shocked in her own way
"No it's ok hunny, you can stay out you know that t is all up to you" Danielle spoke looking directly at me
"Oh reverse psychology nice maybe that will work" I was on a roll and it felt good "You know she doesn't love you right I mean when I kissed her she kissed right back." I even know I went overboard on that one but it had to get out.
Danielle looked at Spencer with a hurt expression, she thinks a second before she shoved Spencer away and took off for the door, but not before she came to my face.
"You think you can come here and take her from me, you must be on something. I know everything there is to know about you, she told me everything and believe me when I say this is not what you want. I can break you with my pinky finger…Miss big shot! You don't scare me." I laughed as she backed away; she walked out and didn't turn back
Spencer was now in my face, her eyes hurt and full off emotions. She never spoke but her eyes told me volumes along with the stinging in my face from her hand. I turned my head raising my hand to my face.
"I deserve that" I shook my head nodding my eyes
She tried to walk off, but my hand reached for her pulling her back. I could here Kyla telling this wasn't the place and she was right but this was my only chance.
"I love you I haven't stopped ever, I can't stand here and watch you dance with her like you were, it hurts." I spoke as a tear threatened my eye
"So you hurt me because you hurt, I see you've changed" She spoke harshly ripping her hand away from mine
"Maybe we should stop now guys" Aiden stepped in the middle of us facing me, I gave him my I'm psycho right now eyes and he willing backed out from in between us.
"I have changed, I can prove it if you give me a chance"
"No you don't get it that easily fifteen years and you think what…" she pauses for a second to catch her breathe and anger "You can come back here and have me back, I know it was my fault we broke up, I did it for you and I want you to leave me and my life alone for me this time can you do that? Take a little bit of your pride and sit on it for me the person you proclaim to love?"
She was done and I was hanging on the words she had said proclaim to love her. My whole life up into this point was for her, every breathe I took was because of her. I can see her eyes have changed and now her heart too. I never thought it would hurt so much having her tell me that I didn't love her. I wanted to run, get far away from her but something in my chest told me to stay, it wasn't my pride like she said I have too much of, it was my heart and it was dying to explode.
A tear ran down my cheek as I reached for her and she pulled back,
"Spencer please there is no pride here just a girl wanting you to dance with her for a last time."
I don't know why she let me take her hand and lead her onto the floor and I wasn't going to ask or even question it. I just went and rested my head on her shoulder as we floated alone.
