winterkaguya: Well, let's just say that something happened but it wasn't rape.

She suspects something went on but doesn't really know what happened. No, she'd still leave him in if he was rapped.

Yeah, I think he kind of fits as Hinata's right hand man, I was going to create a character but I decided not to so I just went for Sai because I wanted him in the story, I'm real glad you like him!

Okay, let's see first is Jessica, then Gaara and back to Jessica, Gaara takes over again, Jessica starts again, then Hinata takes over after the end of Gaara and Jessica's story. Shikamaru narrates for a bit, and Hinata starts again, then it's kind of none of the characters narrate it's me then TenTen gives the reins over to Naruto who let's Hinata take over once more and she ends it and starts off where we left off, I'm so sorry it's so confusing, I never make it to be that confusing but it just ends up like that, so sorry.

And you were so right Shikamaru gives his perspective on everything also and I'm thinking that during the next chapter I'll start with this chapter's end and begin the cute love story between Shikamaru and Temari, I'm really looking forward to writing their story, I think it might be a bit funny but a whole mess of fluff!! Please look forward to that!!

Oh yeah, there is a story behind Itachi but I'm afraid to let him narrate, don't really know why? But I hope you like this chapter and not to worry only three people guide us through this chapter this time!! I'm so sorry for taking forever!! Thank you so much for the review and I promise to work on the story so it won't be so confusing!!

Danimals21: Did you really?? Thank you, were you confused also? And like always I take forever to update but I hope you love this one just as much!!

Yeah, I read some of it and saw when she recommend my story in one of the chapters, I wrote her a PM to thank her but she never replied but I look forward to sitting down one weekend to read her story Guns and Roses but I have to update my other stories so it'll be a while before I get to read what I'm sure it's going be a awesome story! I hope she writes a review for this chapter but I don't get why it doesn't let her, but then again babyspice939 wrote me an awesome review for my other story so I'm happy!! I hope you didn't just send me the awesome review just because of her?! You must give me a review on how you feel about the chapter, because you are just as important!! But thanks a million for the review!!

Lunnatic Angel: I know right! Do you accept cats? I know for the last chapter but not so much for this one, I was going to update on the weekend but I decided to sleep instead, so sorry! Did you really like the last chapter, well then you better like this one just as much!!(J/K!!) So sorry it took me so long to update, so sorry, I really have no excuse except I was reallllllllyyyyyyyy sleepy…I'm so happy you found the soccer game funny, I wanted to describe it further but the chapter was already long so if I did it'd be way longer so I decided to cut it short. Once again I find myself asking for forgiveness…but I must write much thanks for the awesome review, you rock (throwing you twenty-pounds of rubber) I hope it lasts you until I update again, which I hope is soon!

Alfredragon120: Do you really think so? Is it deep?! Don't worry I will! Well he is in the story but do you mean when he'll see more action or more interaction between him and Hinata or am I way off? Thanks for the review!!

HiN4-cH4n: I know right? It was really long.

Well that's easy he's an ass. Do you really think he's bipolar, I mean Hinata just has as many mood swings…He really is so weird in this story but I guess it's just my hate that I write him like this in the story.

You liked the soccer match? I loved writing it!! Thanks so much!!

Yeah, he is a bastard! Yup he really does, I know poor puppy, but not to worry no real puppies were harmed during this story! I know I wanted Pein to be a little bit over the top but also that you feel a little fear because he might just be as crazy as you think.

No, No, I'm going to do an emotionless Hinata it wasn't in the last chapter and I kind of know during what part I'm going to write it in…so please look forward to that!

Sorry, I failed…I didn't do it sooner instead it was a way longer wait then the last one, so sorry…Not to worry you'll find out what happens in this one, and so much awesome thanks for the cookies and review, you so rock Gigi!!


I was going to wait until tomorrow because I'm going to update my other story Gossip is never true but I was like what the hey! Might as well do it today for you guys! So much thanks and I hope you like this chapter because I liked writing it and not for the reasons you are thinking…you dirty minded girls…so please enjoy…

Chapter 9: Going out for a ride

"So then I was 'Dude, you have got to be shitting me!' but before he could answer me I shot his brains out!" Pein tells me with a laugh and some of the food he was chewing on flew out of his mouth.

I look down at my almost full plate of shrimp alfredo, I push it away from me as I sit back in my chair. I look over at Pein and see him stuff his face and Itachi keeps eating looking down at his plate taking small bites of his dinner. He eats like a girl, I smile at my thought.

"What do you find amusing?" Pein asks me with his mouth full.

"Something you wouldn't understand," I say with a secretive smile.

"You really are cute!" Pein says to me leaning forward and resting his elbows on the table and putting his chin on his open hands. "It almost makes me feel like a pervert for finding you attractive."

I laugh, throwing my head back. "Instead of being the Leader of mass murders you should've become a comedian."

"Actually that wasn't meant to be a joke," Pein says turning serious as he looks at me with a hurt expression. My hand covers my open mouth, faking my surprise.

"I'm so sorry," I tell him looking down at my lap trying to hide my smile.

"Why did you decide to betray them now?" Itachi asks as I feel him watching me. I raise my head to look over at me.

"We haven't even ordered dessert yet and you want to ask those kinds of questions? Tch! Itachi really!" I lightly tease him.

"You seem to have gotten quite comfortable," Pein says I nod; I reach out to get my glass of water and take a sip trying to give some moisture to my dry mouth.

"What can I say knowing we are going to form an alliance between us has changed me," I tell them taking a long sip this time.

"You should really try the wine its good," Pein says offering his glass to me; I put out my hand and shake my head.

"Now it seems you wish to get me drunk to take advantage of me," I tsk at him as I shake my head looking accusingly at Pein. "Who would've thought that a twenty-five year old would have a thing for an underage girl? If I didn't know you better I would've thought you have a thing for girls my age which by the way is illegal in our country, but you do have Konan so you must like women your own age."

He laughs throwing his head back while Itachi looks at me closely.

"That's funny! Instead of being a ballerina you should have been a comedian, you have a real knack for it," Pein tells me continuing to laugh.

"It wasn't meant as a joke," I tell him but he keeps laughing, I twirl the water in my glass. "As for a being a ballerina I only took the classes because mom wanted to have a ballerina for a daughter."

"Yet after her death you continued to study ballet," Itachi speaks up.

"Because I knew she would want me to become a Prima ballerina! I wanted to make her happy unlike her ungrateful eldest child!" I shout pissed at Itachi.

He was about to respond but Pein stops him.

"You guys sound like two bickering siblings," Pein says with a laugh, I look at him, we all stay silent as someone knocks on the door, none of us answer and they decide to come in the waitress comes to our table to take away the plates we wait until she's gone to continue our conversation.

"Do you still love him?" Pein asks turning serious I look at him as I lean back and cross my left leg over my right the dress ridding up on my thigh.

"Sasuke?" I ask him folding my arms under my breasts, he shakes his head I raise my eyebrow then I get it I act surprised as I say his name, "Naruto?" I ask, Pein slowly nods, I stay silent for a bit as I look at the wall in back of him that has a mural of a man with hundreds of naked women around him. "No, I don't," I lie an ironic smile comes onto my mouth. "I think I never did it was just some kind of fantasy I had," I say looking into his eyes.

He examines me with a gaze that is trying to figure me out but he gives up as he sighs and leans back. Pein looks over at Itachi and Itachi meets his eyes they both shrug their shoulders slightly, I raise my eyebrows at them.

"So do you want to start our talks of the alliance, I came to you guys for?" I ask them leaning forward and bringing my elbows on the table.

"You scolded Itachi for asking about it before dessert and here you are doing the same thing, tch!" Pein says with a smile.

"For some unknown reason my appetite just vanished," I tell him in a light tone and a wave with my hand.

"Just so you know I don't like my women skinny, I like them with a little meat on their bones," a small smile comes onto his mouth as he looks down at my breasts.

"Please!" I say with a laugh, "I never agreed to be that with you! I came to you as equals, I'm with Sasuke until one of us dies, and you better not even think of harming him, if you do I'll kill you," I say turning serious.

"You still defend the guy that made your life hell, shit I wonder what kind of spell he has over you to have you so obedient," then he turns to look at Itachi, "Do you posses that kind of power too?" he asks truly intrigued to find out his answer as he gives him all his attention.

"I don't know unlike my brother I don't have bitches at my beak and call all day long. It's weird that he hasn't put a collar and leash on her to keep him at his side at all times," I quietly steam to myself as I look at Itachi through slit eyes.

"For your information I'm not just some girl to Sasuke, I'm the girl he gave an engagement ring to, he has other girls he calls bitches, I' am not one, you got that ass?" I ask him keeping my voice down.

"Now, now," Pein intervenes as he looks at both of us with disapproving eyes, "you guys are acting like cats and dogs, can't we all just get along?" he asks sounding like a kid.

Neither Itachi nor I speak we wait for Pein to say something but he also keeps quiet, I suck up my pride to continue but then the door behind us slams open, I look back to see a calm Sai.

"Hinata they followed us!" he shouts keeping his calm, I quickly stand and look back at the two men at the table.

"Sorry, I've got to go," I tell them before they say anything I dash towards the door and Sai grabs my hand as we run out of the private room and into the restaurant then the entrance opens and I see everyone I came here with out by the car. Sai and I get in the back the rest following except Anko who went to the driver's seat, I start to laugh as Sai laughs with me the rest just look at us as if we've gone crazy Sai is the only one I told the truth behind this meeting I notice a car in the alley, I stop laughing as I grab my katana and open the car door to go to it, Sai follows me.

Once I near it I see Kiba at the driver's seat, Naruto next to him and Shino in the back. I watch as they scramble and I take off one shoe at a time and throw them behind me knowing Sai will catch them, then run at the car and stand in front of it which is turned on.

They look scared except Shino, I look at Kiba angrily and his guilty face looks down at the steering wheel, I ignore Naruto. I go to the back seat and Shino lowers the window.

"Did you?" I ask knowing he doesn't need me to explain any further.

"Naruto did," he says in a secretive tone.

"How did…" I ask quietly.

"Threw it," is what Shino answers.

"Shit," I whisper under my breath. "So if I…"

"Be even more…" Shino says I look over at the two guys in the car; they look at each other not understanding what we are talking about.

"I'll be home late," I tell him, he gives me one curt nod and I walk away only to crash into Sai.

"You shouldn't walk without shoes on in an alley, you never know what you could step on," he tells me.

"Then give them back," I tell him but instead he bends down and puts one arm under my thighs and the other behind my back and lifts me up in his arms, my arms automatically circle around his neck.

I hear a car door open but don't look to see who came out.

"Put her down!" Naruto yells, Sai stops walking and turns his head to the side to look at Naruto.

"Look here ass wipe, mind your own fucken business, Hinata is her own women and if she doesn't like it she'll tell me," he says becoming angry.

"She is…" but he stops, I look back at him and notice that bewildered look on his face.

"No, she isn't," Sai says quietly knowing what Naruto was going to say but stopped himself.

"Let's just go," I tell Sai, he doesn't say anything as he continues to walk away this time Naruto doesn't stop us.

"I don't know why you fell in love with him, he's an idiot," Sai tells me, I look up at the night sky.

"He is," I tell him quietly, I feel his gaze on me but I don't look down at him and he doesn't say anything more.




"You should've defended me!" I shout at the two guys who are in the car, they both look at me and in a deadpan voice they say.

"He's right."

I so want to slam my forehead against the dashboard.

"You guys are such asses!" I shout, "After everything I've done for you two idiots and this is how you treat me!" I continue shouting at the guys I thought were my friends.

"Whatever drama queen," Kiba says and I slap him behind the head, I ignore him as he starts to call me even more names and I look back at Shino.

"What was that all about?" I ask him, he doesn't even turn to look at me.

"Something that doesn't concern you," he answers me and puts his hand in his jacket pocket and a bug comes onto his hand. How the hell did he leave it in there and didn't even kill it? Always since we first met each other in elementary school he's always had bugs hidden on his body.

"Actually it does because you mentioned me in your talk," I say peeved at his indifference.

"It…" he starts again this time going slower and his voice has a slight edge to it, "doesn't concern you," he tells me slowly like he's talking to a kid who doesn't understand.

I turn around to look forward, everyone has been hostile towards me, the only ones who aren't are; Kankuro, Chouji, and Lee. I open the car door and get out, I walk towards the car that the other three are in and go to them, I open the door behind Temari and sit down and close the door.

"They really piss me off," I tell them.

"Those two hate you," Chouji says.

"What about me?" Temari asks looking back at Chouji angrily.

"You say you hate him but you are kind of happy he's back," Chouji says, she then unbuckles her seat belt to hit him going on her knees and the side of her face against the headrest, one side is all flat against it and the other is fine, she makes an angry face and noises as she hits him the blows landing on his arms or stomach.

"Don't lie Chouji!" she shouts some of the letters are muffled by the headrest.

"Ahh, Temari I didn't know you felt that way," I tell her as she still tries to hit Chouji and she slaps me on the forehead.

"Don't be an idiot, Uzumaki!" she shouts.

"He can't help it Temari, that's the way he was born," Kankuro says, she stops to look over at him; she then turns forward to sit back down giving us her back.

"True," she says calming down. Kankuro secretly looks back at us and winks, Chouji gives him the thumbs up and she turns around real fast slitting her eyes as she looks at Chouji who whistles as Kankuro puts the key in the ignition and starts the car.

"Almost everyone was against letting you back in," Kankuro tells me truthfully. I stay silent looking out the tinted window, he continues. "Sasuke didn't listen to anyone but he asked Hinata what she thought and do you know what she responded?" he asks me looking at me through the rearview mirror, I shrug my shoulders. "That Sasuke needed you and that she knew how he felt about you, Hinata knew that Sasuke regretted what happened and now he has a chance to undo the past and that Sasuke should take advantage of it." He finishes with an ironic smile on his lips.

"But we all knew she was lying," Chouji says, "I think she was the one who hated to have you back the most." I look over at him to find Chouji looking out the windshield. "She didn't want to be close to you anymore," he finishes but what he doesn't say is the real reason is because she still loves me and doesn't want to be near me because it'll just anger Sasuke more.

The car stays silent as no one speaks, the radio volume is low we all keep to ourselves lost in our thoughts.

The air feels heavy in the car; I push the button to roll down my window. I watch as the guys that are drunk walk in the streets, couples avoid them as they bring their girlfriends closer to them and mad dog the drunks.

I wish I could walk out in the streets with my arm around Hinata's small shoulders, and then look down at her to find a slight blush on those cheeks, and a big happy smile on her lips; the same kind she always used to have when we were kids. I'd find her so cute and tell her then she'd turn redder and I'd bring her closer and kiss her on those red cheeks, she'd giggle and lean against me a small happy sigh would come out of those rosy lips, she'd look up at me and say she's happy; then to make her happier I'd stop and bring her into my arms and kiss her softly then when she'd start to moan I'd kiss her harder and she'd kiss me back with passion. I'd hold her tighter telling her that I'm going to protect her…

"Naruto!" Chouji shouts, I look over at him to find us already in the driveway of the mansion. "Are you coming in?" he asks me opening his door. It felt so real, did I dream it?

"Y-yeah," I answer as I open my door and get out, we walk together in silence as I think back to her reaction to my telling her I don't have feelings for her. We walk in the door only to find an agitated Sasuke pacing the entrance.

"Where is she?" he asks me as soon as I step into view.

"She left with Sai," I confess to him, he walks to the wall to punch it, my eyes widen at his reaction, I've never seen him this angry.

Someone pushes me out of the way I look back to find four of our classmates and they are all girls: Sakura was the one who shoved me, Ino is behind her and Karin plus Tayuya, I raise my eyebrow and look on shocked as every girl goes to Sasuke kissing him, he leaves and they follow behind him actually it's more like chasing after him and fight with each other to see who gets to be next to him and all that. My jaw drops, Chouji closes it with his finger pushing my lack jaw up, I turn my head to look over at a calm Chouji.

"Aren't you…has he done this before?" I shout at him.

He nods as he walks away from me and I follow after him; he walks into the formal living room, I close the door after I go in.

"Whenever he's angry at Hinata, he'll call them over and of course they always run over here," Chouji says sitting in one of the chairs.

"And you guys don't say anything?" I ask him feeling shocked.

"What could we say? 'Sasuke stop being a slut' or 'don't sleep around?' Is that what you want us to say to him? Hinata doesn't speak up so why should we? He does it in front of her and she just turns the other cheek," he tells me looking up at me. I'm stunned into silence as I absently look down at him.

"What about her pride or her dignity don't you guys take that into consideration?" I shout at him feeling angry they never thought of that. He stays silent as he looks down at the imported carpet with a guilty expression.

"I asked her once why she never said anything," I hear Shikamaru's voice, I look around to find him in a sofa that's in front of the window he sits up, his hair messy as he yawns still groggy, I wait for him to go on, he closes his eyes as he continues. "She said she had no right to complain because she betrayed him, by falling in love with his best friend the guy Sasuke always trusted to have his back. So to her it doesn't matter because she lost his trust and says she can never regain it back," he tells me as he wipes the slobber that stayed on his lip as he slept with his mouth open. "Man, you guys never give me a break do you? This is my favorite spot to sleep and you come in here all loud, can't a guy just take a nap?" he asks us getting up and walking out. I sit down next to Chouji thinking over Shikamaru's words. Chouji pats me on the back as he gets up to leave.

So it's my fault Hinata doesn't say anything, her pride is gone.

I throw my body back, man there's lots of stuff I've got to finish before I can even think of having Hinata fall in love with me again.


I shut the front door and lean against the door, its one in the morning already; my shaking hands touch the wood. I feel as if I'm going to throw-up that churning feeling in my stomach makes me feel sick. I take slow cautious steps towards the stairs. I'm scared, I really am more scared then I thought it feels the same as four years ago when I was going to leave with Naruto that same fear has crept up on me.

I walk up the stairs, is everyone asleep already? That's weird on a Friday night they usually sleep until 3am or even later. Are they all hiding in their rooms? I find myself at the top of the stairs and I take small steps as I walk down the hall. The house is too quiet, something is definitely up.

This silence is too loud, I could hear everything clearly and what I hear is that I was wrong, what I did was stupid.

I stand before his bedroom door, my fist automatically goes up ready to knock on the door but I bring it back down to my side. My forehead rests on the door, why do I feel so guilty? The tears I was holding in start to fall, it was thanks to Sasuke…he was the one who gave me the strength to live through it all. He gave me the will to continue and to have hope, if he hadn't saved me…that day I decided to end it all, I wouldn't be standing here.

"Hinata…I love you, please continue living for me, I need you in my life," Sasuke says to me with tears in his young sad eyes.

That was the first time someone told me sincerely how they felt for me. That day is still very present in my mind, when that feeling I get of giving up starts to creep up on me all I have to do is think back to that fateful day.

I wipe away the few tears that fell out of my eyes, I put my hand on the door knob and turn it as I open it a bit and slide in, I drop my katana and clutch on to the door and lightly close it behind me, I feel something slither at my feet and I smile as I reach down to hold it, I hear it hiss and my smile widens as it curls around my arm, I feel his tail grab tightly around my elbow with my other hand I circle around his neck and kiss his forehead I feel his long tongue on my wrist.

"You never like it when I kiss you, do you Manda?" I ask the ball python that is slithering around my neck. It's pretty small about only three feet long. I glance at the bed to see four different bodies on the bed, I sigh as I turn to look at the chair in front of the ceiling to floor window, he must have had an all-night orgy. I forcefully take Manda off around my neck and put him back on the floor he quickly slithers away.

Has he been watching the window all this time?

I walk over to the chair and softly call out his name, "Sasuke?" so I won't scare him. I stand behind the high-back chair to see a sleeping Sasuke.

A peaceful smile is on his lips as he sleeps, my hand goes up to caress his cheek, he looks like a child so innocent looking as he sleeps.

When I first came to live with his family I used to sleep in this room with Sasuke, he'd put a pillow between us, saying that he wouldn't cross that pillow. I'd look over to find him smile at me, I would just stare at him wondering where this kid is from, he would fall asleep so easily, and he'd sleep with a small teasing grin on those lips. I would watch him sleep, if he slept facing me he'd stay like that all night and wouldn't move, which I found weird because I'd toss and turn all night. But when he slept his front to me, I'd stay wide-awake just to watch him. Then when I'd get sleepy he'd open his eyes that teasing grin would grow then he'd rest his hand on the pillow and my hand would automatically go up to hold onto his always warm hand. "Don't watch me sleep…" he'd say softly as he feel back into his dream world leaving me behind, then I'd find myself tired and would also close my eyes and began my dreamless slumber then I'd wake up to his deep onyx eyes watching me, I always asked him how long he'd been awake and he'd just smile saying he forgot what time he opened his eyes at. My cheeks would turn bright pink as I looked at our joined hands and he'd laugh that magical light-airy laugh would come out of his happy smiling mouth then I'd turn red and he'd lean over the pillow to kiss me on my nose and whisper. "You are too cute!" My face would feel real hot as I'd bury my embarrassed face on the pillow that was under me. I'd hear his light teasing laugh but I knew he wasn't laughing at me, he was laughing because he was happy to have me in his life.

Now I look down at his older more mature face, the one all the girls find irresistible, the one I'm slightly frightened of. God, how I wish I could go back to those days, to those happy days that were filled with rainbows and sunshine.

I fall to my knees next to the right armrest, my forehead hits it and I clutch onto the leather fabric, my short nails dig into it.

"What happened to us? How did it all change? When was it that the love we felt for each other became our prison? Why do you hate me so much, what is wrong with falling in love with someone else?" I whisper with my head bent down towards the floor.

"What do you expect after what you did? Do you want me to open my arms wide to welcome you back? Is that what Hinata wants? You broke your promise to me the one, the only one I wanted you to keep. Is that asking for a lot?" he whispers into the silent room. A small surprised gasp escapes through my slightly open lips, my forehead lifts off the arm rest to look up into those cold-merciless eyes. Those eyes are the ones I fear the most.

"You are always the same, faking sleep to listen in on what I say. I never broke my promise to you, I'm here aren't I? I'm still by your side am I not? I still love you even though you don't anymore," I confess to him feeling stupid for taking the bait because we've been through this so many times before.

"You didn't break it? Please! You did you were going to run off with Naruto!" he shouts angrily.

"'Were' and 'did' are two completely different words both are irrelevant I didn't actually do it, now did I?" I ask him wiping the tears with my fingers as I stand up next to the chair. He looks at me to see what I wore under my white coat and I watch his face change, the passive blank look is gone replaced by anger, I step away not sure what he's capable of , I've never seen him this angry.

"Is that how you went to go talk to Pein and Itachi?!" he shouts, he turns his body on the chair to face away from me, "God you are a fucken whore!" I take the few steps needed to stand in front of him the tears roll down my cheeks as I slap him across his face falling to my knees in front of him after striking him, I sob as I lay my head on his thighs.

"Don't call me that!" I yell angrily but then my anger leaves me as I turn my head up to look at him. "Anyone but you can call me that but not you! Don't say those words! Please Sasuke don't believe it, I'm not! I'm not!" I yell louder as I rest my forehead on his knees. "If anyone else says those words it won't hurt but when you say them everything in me hurts," I confess, not knowing how coherent words are coming out of my trembling lips whimpers escape my mouth, my teeth clatter against one another, why is it so cold?

He pulls me up on his lap and rubs his hands on my arms and he rests my head on his chest, I try to get closer to him as he hugs me tightly and kisses the top of my head I cry on his chest.

"I'm such an ass, I'm sorry Hinata, I never want to make you cry but it seems in the end I do. I know you don't like those words to come out of my mouth, please forgive me," he whispers. "I don't think that about you and never will you are as pure as snow in my eyes. This love I feel is only meant for you and will always only be for you, you are my love," he tells me in that sweet low voice. I find my arms clutching his back as I keep sobbing.

"I'm standing on the edge, Sasuke, I can't take much more of this, I think if it continues like this you'll leave me on choice but to end my li.." I stopped because he cut me off.

"Don't say that!" he tells me with a desperate tone to his scared voice, his hold on me tightens; it's so tight that I can't breathe; he rests his chin on my shoulder. "Don't ever let those words your of your mouth again! If you die so will I!" he says to me in a loud-shaky voice, I gasp closing my eyes, the tears fall out of the corners, he's still that small needy child that hated when I played with other kids; the very same one that made me promise never to leave his side.

I hold onto him as he desperately clutches onto me, I always regret wanting to leave him when he gets like this, I feel I have to stay by his side. I wait until he's calmed down I was going to tell him I'm going down to the kitchen to make myself something to eat but my stomach spoke before I could.

He looks up at me with a grin as I blush embarrassed, "I'm going to go make something to eat do you want anything?" I offer him keeping my gaze down on my lap.

"No, I'm fine just come back soon, I'll tell them to leave," he says kissing me in my hair, I get up off of him and walk towards the door and open it, I leave the room shutting the door behind me.

I go down the stairs with a little hop in my steps, I whistle to myself as I skip towards the kitchen but then my face looses it's color when I walk into it to find Naruto sitting at the counter with a bowl of cereal in front of him, his jaw drops and the milk plus the corn pops he was chewing on spill out of his open mouth. I offer him a fake smile as I walk to the refrigerator and ignore him. I take out a few things to make my sandwich and put them on the counter next to the fridge so that my back is to Naruto. I go over to the pantry and take out the bread and on my way back I get a knife. I hum to myself as I prepare my two sandwiches.

I feel the air get heavy with tension as I silently prepare my food and I hear him scrap the bottom of the bowl with the spoon. He chews with his mouth open knowing it annoys the hell out of me, my eyebrow twitches, I ignore it but I really want to whirl around and yell at him but I know him well enough to know that he'd just laugh.


Her stiff shoulders give away her annoyance with me, it's so easy to provoke her, I smirk because I hear her teeth grind into each other.

I guess something's never change, I grin as I bring the bowl to my lips, I drink the milk slurping it, I see her shoulder twitch at her frustration with me, I finish and get up to take the bowl to the sink and rinse it with water. I stay by the sink and look out the bay window and keep my gaze on the backyard.

I want to ask her why but I can't bring myself to do it, I can't bring myself to ask her how come she's acting this reckless. What's going on through that usually sane mind? Before I could stop myself I find my mouth open and my voice asks.

"Why are you acting so stupid?" my mouth moved on its own accord, I walk towards the entrance and exit of the kitchen hoping I get away before she could yell at me, I shouldn't have let it out like that. The real stupid one here is me. I hear her shut the refrigerator door shut, I turn my head to look at her, I sense her anger as she goes to the sink and throws the knife in there, she walks towards me with a plate and two sandwiches on it she keeps her gaze on the ground, the anger she feels towards me is real strong. So strong that it's making the air heavy, I feel I can't breathe.

She bumps into me as she starts to leave but then stops her back to me.

"Why the fuck do you give a shit?" she asks me the anger comes out of her mouth, my jaw drops once more as I look at Hinata's still back to me.


I turn around to look at him as I hide my anger, I clutch onto the ceramic plate, I want to cry, his words cut into my heart. But I don't show it as I just let him see my anger.

"How dare you call my actions stupid compared to yourself!" I shout I feel the tears prickle in my eyes, I blink them away. "You have no right to say that! You've been gone all this time so you don't know what we've been through!" I yell at him, how can he and Sasuke treat me like this?

How can they play with my emotions acting as if I'm a yo-yo and pull on my stings to either make me go down or up towards them! God, they act as if I'm not actually living but as a doll for them to play with.

"You who have been away for so long pretending to be dead, you knew that's what I believed and you never once called, you never called or wrote to me to tell me you were still alive! Couldn't you have at least tried?" I cry out to him. His face gives away the guilt and pain he feels. He doesn't look up at me anymore and doesn't give me any excuses; I leave feeling like I just won a great victory.

I hear the front door close and smile to myself; I go up the stairs and take a bite of one of my sandwiches.

Hmm, it feels like I've never eaten in my life, I take a huge bite even though my mouth is full. I walk down the hall chewing my food.

Was I too mean to Naruto? I stop maybe I should apologize to him. I grab my sandwich and take another huge bite out of it, a huge glob of sour cream falls out I smile as my index finger goes down to it and I open my mouth to lick off the sour cream.

But did he have to call me stupid? I mean he has no right to say that! He was a jerk about it and gave me an attitude and I did not appreciate it.

I stand in front of Sasuke's bedroom door I was about to knock but then decided not to, my hand goes down to the knob and I turn it opening the door and I take a step in, I look over at the chair he was in but then I take a whiff of the air in here and its familiar then I hear the moan and panting.

I keep my eyes forward not sure if I should turn my head to look over at the bed but it moves of its own free will. What I see leaves me absolutely sick.

I see Sakura there on the bed on all fours, she looks back at me as she moans louder and bites down on her bottom lip then licking it, Sasuke is on his knees behind her his hands on her hips as he holds her in place, the plate slips out of my fingers and I feel what I just ate come back up I run out of the door the tears flowing out of my red eyes, I run to the door in front of Sasuke's room I open it and lock it behind me, I make it just in time as I vomit into the toilet.


I look over at the open door then down at a smiling Sakura.

"Who was it?" I ask grunting as I go deeper inside of her.

"N-no one," she answers moaning, "harder!" she tells me but then I stop as I look back over at the door and notice on the threshold of the open door on the ground is a plate with sandwiches, I stop all my movement as I look at the plate my face becomes cold as my jaw drops.

"Sasuke?" Sakura calls out to me over her shoulder, I remove myself from inside her and sit on the edge of the bed bending forward to grab my boxers; I shove them on as I stand up and run towards the door forgetting all about the girl on the bed with her legs spread wide open just for me.

I run out the door and was about to go to Hinata's room except I hear something and look over at the bathroom, I run to it and knock hard on the door.

"Hinata!" I call out to her, "Hinata let me in! I want to explain it to you!" I shout but stop knocking to listen in, and I hear her cough. I think back to the days Hinata first started living with us, I'd wake up to find her spot next to me empty; then I'd hear her throw-up in the bathroom that's in my room. It hears just like those days, I hear her hiccup and sob between vomiting. I just stand here outside the bathroom door to listen in remembering back to those days, I used to think that her dad was a bastard for doing those things to her and now I'm doing it to Hinata.

Not the same way but I'm hurting her, hurting her just like her dad, shit! I'm the bastard now. Why am I treating her like this, my heart feels swallowing with sorrow how could I treat her like this, could it be that I don't feel the same way I did before? Could my love for her have stopped and just became hate?

No, these feelings I feel are real, I would die if she wasn't next to me. I wouldn't be able to tell left from right, I need her and she needs me in order to survive, I'm her strength that's what she told me the day I saved her.

I walk back to my open bedroom door and look over at Sakura who is lying on my bed naked as she smiles seductively at me, she goes up on her knees and opens her arms to me, I hear a door open then another one opens and it hears next door. I direct my pissed off gaze at the naked happy girl.

"You saw didn't you?" I ask her walking closer to my bed, I look at her neck wondering if I can snap it, she'd be dead and I wouldn't make a mess that I would have to clean up after. I direct my gaze down again to see her look confused by my words, she looks too confused, this is an act and she is not a very good actress, I bend down picking up her clothing then go to her and grab her forearm forcing her off the bed she flies a bit and falls to her knees I pull her up and drag her with me.

"Sasuke you're hurting me," she cries out.

"Shut up! This is all your fucken fault if you hadn't lied to me and told me all that bullshit, Hinata wouldn't be crying! You conniving bitch get out!" I yell at her as I throw her out of my room; then throwing her clothing at her, I close the door and turn the lock.

I lean against the door wondering how I can make it up to her, God; I feel like a fucken asshole.


I walk up the stairs to go to my room and stopped as I heard Sasuke yell. I continue back up as I hear him slam his door, then at the top of the stairs I see a girl completely naked on the floor, she stands as she sees me, her face doesn't show her embarrassment, it's almost as if she's used to guys seeing her naked.

I give her my back to give her some privacy, I lean against my bedroom door, I keep quiet as I hear her put on her clothing.

"Why do you do this to yourself?" I ask her really interested in hearing her response. "You know that Sasuke is only using you and doesn't love you. So why do you keep running whenever he calls you?" I ask her softly as I look at the huge portrait of Sasuke as a kid with Hinata in a pale pink girly dress, his mom holding Hinata on her lap with his dad behind them both and Sasuke to the side, his dad's hand on his shoulder and Sasuke holding onto Hinata's hand; Itachi used to be in the painting but Sasuke had him painted over. She keeps to herself as she starts to change back into her clothing.

For a minute or two I thought she wouldn't answer me, I was reaching for the doorknob as she spoke up.

"Because I love him, I love him more than Hinata ever could," she tells me, something in her voice tells me that she believes it, I snicker, I turn around to look at her, and she's putting her shirt over her head as I face her leaning my side on the door. She straightens her shirt as she looks at my smiling face I laugh at her, she slits her eyes as she angrily glares at me.

"Oh, you are serious?" I ask her still laughing. "You can't possibly love Sasuke more than Hinata it's just not probable, because I've been with them most of my life so I have witnessed the love they have. Sasuke honestly does love Hinata and Hinata shares his feelings. They have a connection that no one but themselves understands that connection is what unites them and they won't separate because of it, none of us are let in. Plus those feeling you feel are probably also because of his money, looks, the act he puts on and the power he has," I confess to her, she just watches me that expression on her face thinks I'm full of shit.

"What about you don't you love her?" she asks me walking closer to me.

"Nah," I answer her question, "what I felt for Hinata was fake, I thought what I felt for her was love but it wasn't. Neither of us had real feelings it was just a dream, a stupid fantasy I had about her…my feelings were that of how a son feels for his mother," I lie to her.

"So that's what your into?" she purrs to me seductively as she stands next to me and rests her arm on my shoulders, I shrug. She pats my right cheek as she lets go of me, "call me and I'll role play for you, I'll spank you if you're into that." Sakura says as she climbs down the stairs, I watch her go and wonder if she's one of the girls that have been hired to be a prostitute in the gang's ring.

I suddenly feel drained as I go into my room, could Hinata have caught them in bed together or something? If so that must have been traumatic for her, I take off my clothes and stay in my boxers, I lay my head on my folded hands looking up at the ceiling wondering what she was really thinking about as she met with Itachi and Pein, what is going through her head?




I lay in bed even though I've been awake for five hours, I've counted, I'm bored just laying here on the bed, I want to get out of my room but I'm scared that I might do something to Sasuke.

Ah, who cares, is what I think as I sit up on the bed, knowing how his mood changes frequently he's probably already forgotten I haven't but he has. I go change out of my PJ's and into a bright neon blue mini-skirt with a white Swiss-dot camisole that is tied in the back and it's loose around my stomach like a baby doll shirt, I get some yellow flat leather sandals, I go to my bathroom to brush my teeth, my gaze goes up to look into the mirror I notice right away the redness in my eyes from crying to sleep last night. I have black bags under them also, and my face looks a bit swollen, I sigh. I grab the brush on the sink and brush through my hair; I part my hair in half and use two clips on each side of my head to hold up my hair.

I stay in here a bit longer looking down at the marble sink, should I just stay in here?

Man I was stupid to say that no one is allowed a TV or computer in our rooms, now in order to watch the marathon of my favorite show I have to go out there, I really don't want to miss it!

I sigh feeling stupid and insecure as I slowly make my way to my bedroom door, should I make a run for it, I know a few people who would let me crash at their place for a bit but no that's the cowards way out, and I'm not a coward.

At least that's what I chant to myself as I go to my door and turn the knob, I stick my head out first to make sure I won't bump into anyone as I go to the girls gathering room which is next to the library and that's down the hall and into the other corridor a few doors down the hall, I suck in a breath as I go for it and run, I get lucky and don't come across anyone as I stand before our private room, I open the door and close it behind me.

I don't look around to see the bright pink walls or the overly stuffy sofas with floral designs all I see is the flat screen on the wall, I go to the remote that's located in the middle of room and I turn on the 

TV and change the channel just in time to see Mike Rowe the star of my all-time favorite show Dirty Jobs, it's just the best thing on TV period!

I start to laugh as I watch Mike mess up again and that was when I heard a snore, I look over at the window seat to see a sleeping Shikamaru there, I sigh. Temari has beat him up countless times, telling him that he isn't allowed to enter the room, none of the boys are allowed to come in here; we respect their private room for guys only, which we have never set foot in! I ignore him as I turn up the volume to drown out his snores, I giggle as Mike looks into the camera with that dumb expression on his face.

God, I love that man!

"Turn in down," I hear him mumble, instead I turn it up as I bring my feet up on the sofa and hug my knees to my chest and watch the TV even though I've seen all the episodes I still love watching them.

"Shikamaru, if you're found out you'll get your ass kicked by Temari again!" Chouji shouts as he barges in the room, I don't turn around to look at him instead I keep my gaze on the TV.

"Chouji did you find him? Hurry I saw Temari over at the other hall," Kiba says as he follows in, I turn the volume up even more as I don't acknowledge either of the boys.

"Oh, the marathon is on today!" Lee shouts at the doorway, "My dear Hinata may you please grant me the permission to enter your beautiful room to watch the wonderfully hilarious Mike Rowe on TV?" he says loudly at the doorway.

"Fine but no talking," I tell him after a long period of silence he runs over to me and sits on the same sofa as me and sits next to me.

"Can the TV be any louder?" I hear a groggy Shikamaru complain, I nod into the screen.

"It could if you don't shut the hell up," I tell him turning it up.

"Eeeee, that's harsh!" Kiba says with a laugh, I look back at him.

"You either shut the fuck up so that Lee and I may watch TV or you get the hell out of here, I really don't want any trouble today but if you provoke me I will kick ass, you got it?" I ask them they all nod looking at me with fear; Chouji sits next to my right and Kiba takes one of the suede white club chairs of the room. They all stay quiet as they watch TV with me, I smile feeling happy they finally shut up and are letting me enjoy the show.

"Shikamaru I swear to God if you are taking a nap in here, I will kick your ass so hard that you won't be able to take a shit!" Temari shouts as she makes her way to us, I ignore her and she gasps noticing the guys in here; I feel her accusing gaze directed at me.

"I gave them permission, do you have a problem with it?" I ask her with a tone, she says nothing as she sits next to Lee, with a frown on her mouth.

"Just because you've giving them permission doesn't mean I'm not going to kick their ass," she mumbles.

"Guys?" I say.

"Shut the hell up!" they all shout, she leans back on the sofa gasping, I grin into the TV, at least that shut her up. Now I can finally watch my show in peace.

"Hey," I hear Neji's voice at the doorway, "have you guys seen Hina…" but he stops as he notices me on the sofa between Chouji and Lee, if he's here then she shouldn't be far behind.

"Neji what the hell! We were just getting to the good part…" but she stops as everyone except me look over at her, out of the corner of my eye I see her blush and look to the ground trying to hide her swollen mouth and fixes the bottom of her messed up shirt, oh great if I know the guys they'll totally got on this right about…

"Oh, really TenTen, I didn't know you were that kind of girl," Kiba starts.

"TenTen is that kind of girl she has been for a while if what she's told me is true," Temari can't let a chance like this pass.

"Neji! I did not know you and our dear TenTen did those kinds of things!! You are youthful but that does not mean you must partake in them!!" Lee shouts outraged, Temari hits him behind the head.

"TenTen and Neji sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g, first comes love then comes marriage-" but he stops as I punch him in the stomach.

"Everyone get the hell out if you are going to be fucken talking did I not just warn you? Do you asshole's really want to mess with me because I'm so in the mood to kick some ass!" I scream out as I stand up and glare at them all, they take a step back or lean back on the sofa, I sigh, "so shut the fuck up already or get the hell out!" I tell them, Neji and TenTen take a seat in front of me, Neji throws two big pillows on the floor and they sit on them. I look over at a hurting Chouji, "Sorry," I tell him, he nods not being able to speak.

I turn my attention back to the TV then we get another interruption and the name is Kankuro.

"Oh! So all the bitches are in here? Haha! You guys are a bunch of sissy's to be in this pink room! Ah don't you all look so cute!" he gushes at us all, I get up keeping my gaze on the TV as I walk over to a laughing Kankuro I near him, and he looks at me and notices the look in my eyes as I look up at him, he takes a precautionary step back but I take two forward as I lean down a bit and elbow him in the stomach as I look back over at the TV and laugh at something Mike says; Kankuro falls to his knees gasping and I just walk back to my spot on the sofa, he just stays there. Kiba goes over to him and whispers if he's okay I don't listen as they have their conversation then I hear some more noises and a loud booming voice.

"Hey you guys ho-" but his words are muffled by someone's hand, I look back to find Kiba covering Naruto's mouth and he whispers in his ear, Naruto nods as he looks over at me and our eyes connect, he knows about last night, I can tell by the look in his eye, I look back at the TV thinking about the look in his eyes as I watch as some poop falls on the lens and everyone says ewww and begin to laugh.

I just remember back to last night seeing Sasuke going into Sakura and I close my eyes against the memory, something comes back up my throat, I gag covering my mouth, the tears fall out of my eyes.

"I know it's disgusting but it's nothing to throw-up over," Temari tells me, I nod but I feel a certain pair of eyes watch my back with concern.

Do they know? I mean they must've heard something last night? Or is Naruto the only one who found out?

God, why is this pain in my heart so constant? Why is it that this pain is the only thing I can count on? I hold back my tears and keep my gaze up on the TV watching as Mike Rowe drops a huge bag of organic rice on the ground. I feel everyone's eyes on me, as the tears start to fall, Chouji puts his arm around my shoulders and I rest my head on his chest, I put up the volume and Naruto takes the other white suede club chair across from Kiba, I cry a bit more, but then Shikamaru speaks up.

"We deserve an answer," he says, I look over at him and his back is to us, he keeps his front to the window, Gaara comes in then.

"No, we don't," he says as he walks in, I look back at him, "it's her decision and her choice to keep it to herself, no one is to pressure her into telling them, you got that?" he asks them all.

"No, I don't! You got it? I want to know what is going through her fucken mind!" Shikamaru shouts out as he turns around to face us, then he turns to look at me, "we have been with you through everything! We did what we have done for you! So you have got to tell us why you chose to betray us!" he shouts as he gets up.

"I understand him," I hear Shino say at the door I look over at him, "you haven't let me in on your whole plan have you?" he asks with his voice low, I look down at my lap.

"I can't tell you, this is something I have decided for myself," I whisper into the room.

"Are we not your family?" I hear Kiba ask, I keep my gaze on my lap knowing if I look up I'll tell them everything and I can't not yet. "Weren't you the one who told us that we are your real family, that all of us share a bond that can't be broken because we are all a part of it?" he asks.

"We do share it, we have it but if I tell you, all of you will be in danger so you must trust me for the time being and just please believe in me," I tell them as I sit up on my own, the room stays silent only the loud TV is heard, will they believe me?

"Fine," I hear Neji say, I look over at him and he smiles up at me, "I will always believe in you," he tells me as he rests his hand on my knee, I look up to everyone's face and they nod, I make it a point not to look at Naruto's face to get his approval. Then I wipe my tears away as I look at the TV.

"Don't worry you guys won't be harmed in any way," I tell them watching as Mike is being taught by a kid how to clean cow's feet.

I feel Shikamaru's doubtful gaze on my back before he goes back to his bed, if I have to tell anyone my plan it's got to be him, he'll tell me if he thinks it'll work or if it'll fail.

We watch a few more episodes before it's ruined by one person, I ignore him as he walks in the room, I feel this warning chill go up my spine as I sense those dark and drowning eyes on my back.

"Get ready, we're going out for a ride," he tells me, I ignore him as I feel my stomach churn, I feel his anger as he walks out of the room again, everyone looks up at my angry face, they watch me.

"Do you have something to say then say it, don't fucken watch me!" I warn them, they look back at the TV, he walks back in, he comes in front of me and I notice the leather jacket he has on, he only wears it when he's going out for a ride on his motorcycle.

Wait, could this mean he's taking me for a ride on it? He hasn't let me on that bike since Naruto died, he hasn't let me on it since then, I look up at him and notice his blank face he doesn't give away what he's feeling, I wonder what's going on through his head, I scoot forward a bit, for some reason my head moves to the side and I look over at Naruto who is watching me, he looks surprised that I looked over at him, then out of the corner of my eye I see Sasuke lean forward and he grabs my middle and throws me over his shoulder, I clutch onto his jacket from the back, his hand goes to my butt.

"We are leaving and don't know when we'll be back," he tells everyone.

"Sasuke put me down! I don't want to go on that stupid bike!! Let me go!" I shout but he ignores me.

"Don't wait up for us," he tells the silent room.

"Help! Don't let this slut take me! You guys?!" I shout at them but none of them speak up as we leave the room, I punch him on his butt. "You are such an asshole! How dare you? I was watching TV, I love Mike Rowe, don't take me away from him!!" I shout punching his butt and anywhere else it might hurt, he doesn't say anything and does anything to stop me, I want to cry again. "How could you," I ask him in a whisper, "you knew I was coming back up so how could you keep on fucking her when I was on my way?" I shout my answer, he doesn't say anything he keeps to himself, and I let out an ironic laugh. "Oh now you are silent yet last night I heard you moaning, God you are such a bastard!"


He keeps silent not defending himself or his actions, and that just makes me feel worse for some reason, I clutch onto his jacket afraid to let go.

Everyone in the room stays silent, we don't know how to react or what to say, I look over at a stunned group of people most of them have their jaw hanging down.

"He's never taken her out on the bike since 'the incident' isn't that right?" TenTen asks looking over at Neji.

"Yeah," he answers looking at her.

"Do you think?" Temari starts off.

"He wouldn't…" answers Gaara.

"He would…" Kankuro says.

"No, I doubt it…" Kiba tells with a fake small laugh.

"You never know he has…you know…" Shikamaru says from over at the window.

"What are you guys talking about?" Lee asks the question I was about to ask.

"He might…he might take care of her…" Chouji says with emphasis on the last four words, I look at them wondering what they are talking about then it clicks I jump off the chair.

"He wouldn't!!" I shout, every single one of them turn their gazes on me, "he wouldn't kill her," I lower my voice trying to sound so sure in what I'm saying but I don't really believe my words.

"Don't lie to yourself," Shino says, "should we follow them?" he asks everyone, Neji stands up and leaves the room with his cell phone out and he starts to dial some number, TenTen stands up off of the floor to follow after him.




I hear her scream as I take a turn, I chuckle and feel her tighten her hold on me, I chuckle. It's been too long since I've last had her on the bike; it feels great to have her hold onto me so tight. I turn my head to the side to look back at her, Hinata's eyes are tightly shut like she's afraid to see the speed we are going in, I grin.

I look forward my foot goes down harder on the speed pedal and we go faster, she screams again.

"Don't Hinata, don't ever let go of me hold onto me tighter. I don't want you to get strong because I'm your strength; rely on my strength because that will be enough for the both of us. Lean on my back it's big enough to support you and carry you forward, so continue to stay with me. Stay by my side and everything will turn out fine just stay and don't seek out strength let me be your strength forever." I tell Hinata with my back to her, I could never tell her this facing her because she would be against it she'd tell me that she should have her own strength and shouldn't rely on me, I pick up the speed even further as I go into the tunnel, I hear her scream echo in it. She maybe a bit scared but she's happy to be back on my motorcycle, she loves to feel the wind surround her.


The wind feels so refreshing, I've wanted to get on Sasuke's motorcycle for some time now but I've always been too afraid to ask him. I look at his strong back and find myself leaning on it as I close my eyes and hear some of his words but I only hear some not all.

I've always imagined he's wanted to tell me this, I sometimes hear him murmur them in my ear as I sleep I thought I was dreaming but his words and plea's seemed too real.

The old me would've just given up and relied on him and needed his strength but now I can't; I can't keep being this weak girl that everyone sacrifices themselves for!

I can't keep being that girl, which needs everyone! The new me needs my own strength; I must make it with my own two hands.

The helmet muffled some of his words, I turn my head to the side and notice that we are nearing the beach some people are still there even though it's dark; bonfires are starting and I see college students with coolers that are sure to be filled with beers, I raise the protective plastic over my eyes as Sasuke slows down, I let go of him and raise my hands up to the sky. He keeps going until we come to the most secluded part of the beach, I wonder if he would kill me here and now.

Is that the reason he wanted to take me out for a ride, should I make a run for it? But then he looks back at me and I notice the shine in his eyes and it says to me that I wasn't even close, all he wanted was to spend some time with me and to explain what really happened last night.


What was it that Sasuke wanted to tell Hinata? Will they make up and will Hinata forgive Sasuke's stupid actions? Will she rely on him, and wait who's that at the front door and why is Shikamaru hiding in his room and refuses to come out until that guy leaves the house? And what about Temari did she finally tell Shikamaru about her boyfriend and is that why Shikamaru is sleeping all the time? All these answers will be answered in the next chapter so until then I hope you enjoyed it!! So many thanks to all my loyal reader and even more to all my friends that leave their awesome reviews, you guys rule the world!!