Sugar Rush 6

Didi finally figured out why Yueyue was acting weird yesterday.

He kind of had an inkling as to why she was grumpy yesterday when Yu Yan, his best friend, came to visit. But everything was made clear to him when he found out that a co-star of Yueyue from A Love So Beautiful would come and visit her today.

Turns out she was jealous towards Yu Yan.

And the infuriating part was that, it's now his turn to be jealous.

"Dude. You okay?" Xize clapped his back. Didi just looked at him.

He was sitting on a director's chair not five meters away from Yueyue's tent. The sun is currently out, but Didi felt like the cold air freezes the sunrays before they even land on earth's surface.

"Di, you haven't said anything in an hour. The heck happened?" Kankan grimaced, bowing down to look at him directly.

"What's his name again?" he inquired gently. He saw the others looking amongst themselves with amused expressions.

"Sun Ning."

"When's he leaving?"

"How would we know?"

Didi sighed and fiddled with his hands. He just wants this day to be over so bad. But it's just 11 in the morning and he doesn't know when this Sun Ning is leaving so he could be with Yueyue again.

"Come on, man. Let's go to lunch." Xize said.

"I think I should go with Yueyue today."

A long silence followed this pronouncement.

"Just go with us, man. It's not like it won't be any more delicious if you're with her." Kankan blurted.

"I don't see what is the matter here. Why don't you just go to Yueyue?" Xize said.

"Because, it's not proper. The guy's only here for a day. Of course Di has to know better that she would dedicate this day for him. Besides, even if he does that, Yueyue will just shoo him away." Kuan commented. Using his foot, he stealthily moved the heater towards his direction.

"Since when did he ever care about what's proper or not?" Xize asked Kuan.

Didi heard a shriek.

It was Yueyue, and her arm was around Sun Ning's shoulder as they waved in front of an iPad.

"Screw it." He shot up from his seat and strode straight to the tent's direction.

"Didi, no!" Kuan caught the hem of his jacket. "You're gonna embarrass yourself."

"I don't care." he sighed, exasperated. "Come on man, let me go." he pulled his jacket off his hands.

Didi knew he was acting up so bad. But his current disposition doesn't allow him any other option. He needs to express himself or he would implode.

His head was swimming with terrible thoughts and dejection when he reached Yueyue's tent. Sun Ning and Yueyue were done talking with someone on the iPad, but they weren't done talking to each other.

"Yeah, I researched a good ramen place here. Do you want to try it?"

"Look at you. You really missed me, huh? Researching a place for us to eat." Yueyue smiled at the guy.

Didi announced his presence by tugging at Yueyue's shirt. Both Sun Ning and Yueyue looked at him.

"Di!" she said, a little surprised. "What's up?"

Didi wasn't sure what to do next. He kind of wished he listened to Kuan a while ago and chilled out. But he was nowhere near chill.

"Didi. What is it?"

"Let's have lunch." he bit his lip and closed his eyes. Lame, man. Fucking lame.

"Oh." she started. "But Sun Ning's here so…"

"Oh no no. Yue. You can have lunch with him. Or he can have lunch with us, I guess?"

Didi tried his very best not to frown towards this Sun Ning's direction. He looked straight at Yueyue, not acknowledging his presence.

"I guess, but…" Yueyue looked at him. "Come on, Di. Let's talk." she pulled him out of the tent.

Once they were out of the tent, Yueyue pushed his arm slightly. "Di, what are you doing?"

"What 'what am I doing?'" he frowned at her. "I want to have lunch now."

"Di, stop pouting!"

Didi huffed indignantly.

"Listen, Di." She took a deep breath. "I'm gonna have to have lunch with Ning alone. He went all the way here to see me."

Didi wrung and un-wrung the hem of his shirt. He wasn't sure how he felt at the exact moment, but the closest word he could make out was abandoned. He felt like a kid again, lost by his own mother in the park.

"But Yueyue…"

He looked straight into her eyes. She was biting her lips and suppressing a smile. Her eyes made a run on his face, and then she burst out, giggling.

"What?!"

"Nothing, nothing." she waved her hand, smiling at him. Didi was more than confused. "Okay, here. I'll take Sun Ning to a quick lunch, I won't eat much, then when I come back, I'm eating lunch with you, is that alright?"

Didi felt like this was fair enough, but he still felt dejected about the fact that she's still going out with the Sun Ning guy.

"Okay."

"Don't sulk, Di. I'm coming back for you. But Ning, he's my friend too, and he came all the way to visit me." she said gently, like how his mom talked to him after she found him crying in the park.

"I'm not sulking!" he shouted. "Okay, you should go back quickly. I'm hungry."

"Promise." she held her palm up as a sign of promise. Didi noticed that she's still biting her lips, so he reached for her chin to free her lower lip.

"Okay. I'll go now."

Yueyue smiled delightedly, waving him goodbye.

She didn't go back until it was three in the afternoon.

Kankan, Xize, Kuan and Jia all persuaded him to eat, but he ultimately ignored all their words and a plate of french fries from Jia.

"Di, you sure you don't wanna eat? It's almost three." said Jia as she stuffed her face with French fries. Didi huffed.

"No." he sighed and just continued playing with his phone.

He was starving. He could literally hear his stomach growling and could feel his intestines tighten and untighten in discomfort. But he waited because she said she would go back soon. But four hours had passed and still no sign of Yueyue and that guy.

He could feel dejection and anger brewing inside his chest.

"Oh there she is." Jia announced and Didi almost snapped his neck turning around.

But it was only Angie Chai.

Jia cackled.

"Dammit, Jia Qi!" he stomped his feet, stood up, and stormed out of the room.

Didi doesn't know where to go.

He finished all his individual scenes for the day in a span of four hours, and they're only waiting for Yueyue to come back and film two scenes with her. But since she's still out, he has to wait.

Only he doesn't want to wait anymore.

"'I'm coming back for you' my ass." he huffed, kicking a stone on the pavement. "You're not even here!"

His feet had brought him to the back of the studio. It was a cold afternoon in mid-December, and Didi could feel the cold envelope his body even with layers after layers of clothing. The sun was out, but the bareness of winter trees coupled with the chilly gusts of wind made everything shades darker.

Or maybe because he was just upset.

He knew it was very childish of him, acting like the jealous git and not wanting her to spend too much time with her friend. But he couldn't help it. He wants all her attention so bad, it's starting to scare him. He wants to see all her smiles and be at the receiving end of all her stares.

He knew he couldn't, but he wants Yueyue all for himself.

Is this still a fucking crush, man?

Didi sighed. It was more than a 'fucking crush'. He knew he's starting to fall in love. He's starting to feel a catastrophic shift in his world, one where it revolves around Yueyue. He's starting to see her in everything he does, think of her in every waking moment, yearn for her whenever she's not around.

It's slowly driving him crazy. But it is both a thrilling and frustrating experience to fall in love, especially to a person like Yueyue.

"Di. I'm here."

And there she was, smiling her apologetic smile, looking at him like he was a puppy she found discarded in a dark alley.

Tragic, but he liked it very much.

"You're back."

Yueyue pursed her lips in an attempt to hide a smile, but she shook her head and broke to a grin when Didi raised a brow at her.

"What's with that face, mister?" she took a step forward.

But since Didi very much admits to his pettiness, he took a step backward. This made the corners of her mouth rise once more.

"Nothing."

"Did you have lunch?"

"No." he growled. He was very upset that Yueyue left for four hours, but he was also equally upset that he's hungry because she left for four hours.

Yueyue smiled. "Then let's eat."

"I'm sure you've eaten. Don't bother, I'm going to grab something myself." he huffed, and turned around on his heels.

But before he could take another step forward, two small arms wrapped itself around his waist, hands overlapping on his belly.

He felt Yueyue's body on his back, the rise and fall of her chest and the warmth emanating from her embrace. He felt her nose poke on his spine, and the shallow breaths she made.

Didi smiled. He wanted to be angry so bad, but he felt like his brain had melted when she hugged him from behind.

"Yue."

"What?"

"What's happening?"

"I'm sorry." she let out a sigh. "I broke my word. I'm sorry, let's eat together, okay?"

Didi smiled. "Alright."

Yueyue chuckled a little. "You're not gonna fight me?"

"Do you want me to?"

She didn't speak for a while. "I guess no. You look like you're ready to cry a while ago."

"I was not!"

"Yes you were! You—" Didi pulled her arms in place when she started loosening her grip.

"We should just stay like this for a while." he whispered.

He heard her sigh, then replied with an airy "Okay."

"Hmm Yueyue?"

"Yeah?"

"I was jealous."

"I know."

"You knew?"

Yueyue squeezed him a little tighter. "Of course I knew, I was jealous yesterday. I would know."

Didi started laughing, and after a while, Yueyue laughed along with him too.

"Yueyue."

"What?"

"What are we gonna do?"

"Be together as much as we can."

In one swift move, Didi turned around without escaping her hug. He heard her gasp, but if she had any contentions, she didn't raise it. Instead she snuggled on his shirt and sighed.

Didi held her tighter. He felt a warm sensation erupt inside him, something that resembled recognition and familiarity. In her embrace, he felt a bizarre calmness he hadn't felt before. And the feeling of finally coming home.

I think I love you. Didi almost whispered.