a/n: HOLY CRAP please don't kill me im so sorry I don't have any time 2 update and stuff =( Im still writing I promise I haven't forgotten =)


The next few days didn't turn out any better, Edward never signed on. I sat on the computer for hours just looking at the AIM bar hoping that a little 'hello' sign would come up with Edward's SN (soccer king) would come online. But it never happened and soon I gave up hope.

Soon I started thinking it was my fault. I started thinking crazy things like 'what if he blocked me?' 'What if he thinks I really love him' 'if I he thinks I love him did he block me because of that?' and started blaming him not coming online because of my stupideness. (not a word I know…)

One day I was writing a persuasive essay for my Language Arts class, and a box appeared saying someone had signed on, ignoring the box I "x'd" out but before I did I got a quick glimpse at who signed on.

IT WAS HIM. I quickly minimized my essay completely forgetting about it and when to AIM and there it was, he was finally on. But he just signed on so I couldn't talk to him already I didn't want to feel desperate. UGH, who even made up these stupid rules? Where they just assumed? Was there a book for all these nonsense rules?

As I was pondering my questions I failed to notice the blinking box with him IM in it.

'EEEEK' I squealed *mentally*

Soccer king: whyy helloo

Life goes on: haha hi

Soccer king: how are you?

Life goes on-ehh fine I guess how bout you

Soccer king- its good…listen sorry I haven't been online in like forever, so busy with the girl friend you know?

As I read the sentence I felt my heart drop, I had forgotten Edward was popular he had a pretty girlfriend. I felt so stupid, I let my self get carried away of course he didn't like me I was just some random person he talked to.

Life goes on-oh haha its fine =) so how's everything

Soccer king-oh everything is great. Im having such a fine time with taylor. She's amazing, she pretty...and sorta smart but its alright

Life goes on- haha yeah I guess. Taylor? As in taylor Mcgovery?

Soccer king- haha yeah. You know her? She's really nice and is nice to people but sometimes she can get egotistic you know?

Life goes on- haha yeah I guess. I really missed talking to you its so fun

Soccer king-haha I like talking to you to. It's like you get away from all the drama and its just us to in this perfect world you know

My heart went soaring, he actually said that. He thought the same thing as me. I felt so happy I couldn't believe he actually also felt that

Life goes on- yeah I know exactly what you mean.

Soccer king- yeah…so how are you? How's everything going

Life goes on- oh its good, nothing special.

Soccer king- oh well that's good. People need normality in their lives you know?

I didn't say anything what was I supposed to reply? After a few minutes of pondering on what to say next I decided to do something risk worthy;;

Life goes on-I like someone….

Soccer king-oh that's good. Do you mind me asking who it iss?

Life goes on- oh I doubt you know him,

Soccer king- well you could tell me and then I'll tell you. You never know I know a lot of things other people don't expect me to know

Life goes on-haha..

Soccer king-I promise I wont tell the dude if u tell me.

OH CRAP. I didn't expect him to ask. So I just said a guy I heard about a little while ago

Life goes on- Aaron jordans

Soccer king- oh wait I've heard his name somewhere. But you're right I don't know him haha crap now I cant harass the kid into making him show me how you look like!

Life goes on- that was your plan all along?

Soccer king- yup =) aren't I devious?

Life goes on-hahah yeah who would have thought

Soccer king- haha I still don't think its fair that you know how I look like but I don't.

Life goes on- sorry. I cant risk it. What if you don't like how I look like or what ever? And then you stop talking to me.

Soccer king- okay im not an idiot. That'd just mean, I promise I wont do that

Life goes on- sorry I just can't take that risk. Im really sorry, I feel bad but ..its just complicated I just cant.

Soccer king- well anyways I got to go

Life goes on- wait because I said I don't want to show you I look like. Oh im so sorry, like I want to but I cant im really sorry don't get mad.

Soccer king- loll calm down. Lol I have to go eat dinner im taking my taylor out.

Life goes on- oh. Well that good

.he had to bring up his girlfriend. He couldn't just leave that out?

Soccer king- BYEE talk to later I'll try to come online more often

Life goes on- haha byee3