CHAPTER 7

two weeks later she was sitting in the doctors office watching as the doctor probed around looking at both babies "ok ms benson your baby boy looks healthy and I just may be able to tell the sex of the of baby b." the doctor taped the keys and zoomed in on the sonogram. "There you are sweet baby girl. Nothing to be shy about." The doctor smiled "A girl. Oh god im having a beautiful baby girl." Olivia could no longer hold back the tears that were forming in her eyes.

"I know it's none of my business but I couldn't help but notice that your partner hasn't been here for the last two appointments. He was so excited the last time I thought maybe he would want to be here with you. I see the way he looks at you when he comes in here. If someone didnt know you guys were work partners they would think you were married. You make a cute couple" Olivia was trying her hardest not to give this doctor a black eye. Damn right it wasn't her business and she had no right making a comment like that. "There is nothing going on between Detective Amaro and I, he was just a work friend helping me out in the time of need. Now if you would excuse me I would like to get dressed now." The doctor was taken aback by one of her favorite patient's harsh behavior. "I am so sorry Ms. Benson if I offended you in any way. Me and my big mouth is going to get me in trouble someday. I will print the photos and you can schedule the next appointment with the secretary." Olivia watched as the doctor left the room. She just didn't want to hear anything else about her and Nick. She just wanted to get home and rest her body.

When she pulled up to her drive way, she saw Brian's F150 parked on the side. She drove up to the house and got out of her car. She looked around for Brian but didn't see him. "where the hell is he." She didn't feel like looking for him any longer. But she failed to realize that he might already be in the house. Opening her front door she sat her keys down on the table in the foyer and hung up her coat.

"Hi" Olivia felt like her heart had skipped a beat from the sudden scare

"what the hell are you doing here you can't just walk up to me like that. Shit I think I pissed myself." Olivia said walking towards her bedroom so she could change.

"Im sorry I had my key, I thought that I would just let myself in and wait for you. We never had that talk two weeks ago and ever since then you have been avoiding my calls."

"You cant just invite yourself into my house. And did you ever stop to think that maybe I didn't want to talk anymore."

"It is my house too you know and I don't care if you don't want to talk anymore. You have to stop shutting me out. Just tell me."

"The day you moved out was the day this became my house and can you please move so I can change into something more comfortable." Olivia took off her sweater leaving her in just a white almost transparent t-shirt. He starred at her stomach. It had gotten bigger since he last saw her two weeks ago and he was sure she could pop any minute now. He reached out his hand and looked up at her.

"Can I" she nodded her head and took his hand and placed it where one of the babies were kicking. "Does it hurt?" "No it just feels weird having your organs being kicked like a soccer ball." They both laughed and when it was silent again she removed his hand. "umm can you wait In the living room. I will be right out" Brian nodded and walked into the kitchen and took out a bottle of water. He looked at the sonogram that was posted on the refrigerator. "Are you stalking my children now." Brian turned around and smiled at Olivia. She had changed into some yoga pants and a strap camisole. "Where is the father of your children? I don't see any pictures and you haven't talked about him. I hope he didn't walk out on you like I did because you deserve better." She looked down at the ground "Brian can you not please. I didn't tell you what you needed to know because when I called you two weeks ago I overheard another woman in the back ground and I figured you had moved on and you wouldn't care anyway."

"What woman- oh no it's not what you think. That was my sister Teresa, her and her husband are going through a divorce and she wanted me to take Alyssa to the zoo to have some fun and when I was going to drop her off, Teresa called told me that she needed to move asap so I helped her move into a hotel-long story- but what you heard was not me moving on, I just forgot that I was supposed to come here so we could talk. But that's why I'm here now." A tear fell down her face

"Brian I am so sorry"

"Sorry about what."

"I didn't want to tell… you but you have the right to know."

"Olivia what are you telling me. Just tell me, it can't be that bad right."

"You told me you didn't want to grow old with me and have a family."

"I did and I regret it so much you know that. If I could take it back I would. But you are in a relationship and I can't do anything about it now"

Olivia sat down and put her head in her hands.

"There is no relationship."

"Ok well your doctor boyfriend or whatever."

"Brian there is no fucking doctor boyfriend…I lied about it all there was never anyone after you...you were the last person I was with."

Brian felt like the room had tilted on its side. He could not believe what he was hearing. He starred at her with such anger in his eyes that Olivia feared what he would do.

"Are you telling me that these are my babies?"

"I am sorry"

"You said that already. Just tell me this. Were you going to tell me at all if I hadn't come over here or were you just going to continue to LIE TO ME." He yelled at her causing more tears to fall "you weren't huh. I know what I said hurt you but I wouldn't have said it if I knew you were pregnant. Who else knew." She just stared at him like he had two heads "Tell me Dammit."

"Just Nick and Amanda. Brian please don't hate me. I already feel guilty enough that I kept you away from this entire pregnancy. Please don't leave me. I feel lonely and I could have these babies any day now, I don't want to be alone.

"I...I...I….have you ever thought about how I felt. These are my babies too I should have been here for everything...-"

"Brian we have no time to talk about the past... you know that they are yours now, it's a matter of whether you be a part of their lives or not."

"That's low."

"Well I call it how I see it. This is partially your fault too."

They stood toe to toe waiting on the other to respond. Brian looked down at his children and touched them. Thought after thought ran through his head and they were all becoming over whelming for him to process.

Olivia was about to say something else but stopped when someone knocked at her door. She looked back over to Brian who had sat down on the couch staring at her

She opened the door and the least person she wanted to talk to was standing on her door step.

"What do you want?"

"We should talk about what happened between us. I haven't talked to you in weeks. We can still be friends. That stuff I said does not have to come between us. I want to be here for you anyway I can."

"Now is not a good time"

"He's here isn't he" as soon as those words left Nick's mouth, Brian came up behind Olivia and put his hand on her waist.

"Is there something we can help you with detective?"

Nick looked at Olivia and shook his head "I guess you told him huh. Im surprised he's still here…I will give you two days and you will be gone"

Brian tried to push past Olivia to punch nick but was pushed back himself by Olivia. "Mind your own fucking business weak ass boy. You will never have her you get that huh. She is mine and will always be. If you don't stay away from her and my kids I swear to god I will kill you."

Nick began to laugh at what Brian had said. "Your kids, where were you when her head was deep into the toilet or when she was so sick she couldn't stand for hours…or when the doctor first told her there were two instead of one. I was there for it all and you call me weak... you should try looking into the mirror. You selfish bastard."

"Nick shut up and go home. We are never going to be more then coworkers or friends... you was just there in the time that I needed you that's all. You knew that I still loved Brian."

"Fine. You can have him but Do Not call my phone when he has broken your heart again because I will not answer." Nick looked between the two and stormed off.

Brian was the first to speak "how far did it go between you two."

"What the hell. Were you not just listening, nothing happened. Ok I might have gave him an idea that I was into him but that was it I don't want him I swear." She said closing the door and walking after him

"Did you kiss him?" Olivia walked into the kitchen "Olivia Benson so help me god"

"No Brian"

A wave of relief washed over his face. He hated that man's guts so much that it made his stomach turn. He didn't want the mother of his children going anywhere near him. "Ok I believe you" he walked over to Olivia and cuffed her face

"I will always love you and our kids. I will never walk out on you, I want you to know that. Any second thoughts you had about us needs to be gone because I'm here to stay. You can't get rid of me if you tried."

She kissed him as a tear rolled down her face "I love you Brian and I am sorry I lied to you." She mumbled on his lips

"I am just happy you told me before they came into this world. I can't wait to hold my son and-"

"Daughter I found out today" she smiled

"You just made me the happiest man on this planet. I love you three with all my heart." He kissed her every passion he had in his body.