I had the sensation that someone was dragging their fingers up and down my thigh but paid no attention to it.

Until those fingers started to drum over my waist.

"Ughh, Kol stop" I moaned, burying my head into my pillow, only to find that my head wasn't on my pillow but on something warm that was breathing.

I pried my eyes open to see that I was lying on Kol's chest.

"Morning darling" Kol said, I looked over to him and he smiled at me. But it wasn't his usual cocky grin or sarcastic smirk, it was his genuine smile that I loved so much.

"Hm, morning" I yawned, resting my head back on his chest.

"Happy birthday Violet"

"Don't. I feel old" I sighed, wrapping my arm over Kol's body and pulling him closer towards me.

"18 isn't that old" Kol commented. Being the annoying person that he was he decided to lift me up and place me on top of him so I was once again straddling his hips.

"It is for me" I grumbled, lying down on top of his chest "I'm technically older than my sister"

Kol didn't reply, just kissed the top of my head as it was close eough for him to kiss. I had my arms wrapped under his shoulders so I could snuggle closer into his chest.

I sighed and closed my eyes as I felt Kol's chest lightly rising and falling.

"What are you thinking?" Kol asked, I drew my hand out from underneath him and started drawing light circles on his chest with my fingertips.

"How I'm breaking all my ruled by being here with you" I admitted "Everyone is going to hate me. Caroline is going to hate me"

"I don't hate you" Kol said

"But it's ok for you because your in the receiving end. Everyone else are just bystanders who think they know better"

"So if they told you to not love me, would you?"

I thought or a moment, thinking about how true Kol was.

It doesn't matter if people tell me not to love him because that can't change me.

"No. No I wouldn't stop loving you" I agreed "You could do or be anything and that wouldn't change it"

"But I'm a monster. I hurt you the other week and yet, here you are. Because I've trapped you"

"You're not a monster Kol-"

"Yes I am" Kol argued, making me sit up so he was reaching up to me.

"Well then you're my monster. And I wouldn't change you for the world because I love you and nothing could ever change that"

Kol looked almost elated at my words a smile tugged up onto his once practically frowning lips.

"No ones ever said they loved me before. Not even most of my family" Kol admitted, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear

"But you're like, over a thousand years old? Surely there was someone?" Kol shook his head

"No one. Until you"

I lent forward and kissed him gently, knowing that right now Kol was pretty unstable.

I pulled away and grinned.

"Come on, let's have a shower" I smiled, knowing he would understand my meaning.

Shower sex. Kol's favourite.

He didn't even need to agree with me, just easily picked me up and walked me into the bathroom. He promptly placed me on the counter before turning on the shower.

Kol took no time at all before his boxers were off his body and he was hastily pulling me towards the now lightly steaming shower.

I managed to wriggle out of his grip and pull of my bra and undies before joining him under the blast of warm water.

I know that I was going against everything that I felt the other week but... I'm the type of person who one they fall in love... Are fallen forever. I couldn't shift Kol and now I had the chance to be back with him?

I'm obviously going to take it, no matter how much I'm gonna hate myself for it.

We finally managed to finish off and get ready before heading downstairs to the kitchen.

Considering Kol has a thing for ripping my clothes off I had to borrow a top and boxers of his.

The top was way to big for me and the boxers hung so loosely on my hips that I needed to tie a knot in the waist band.

I sat at the kitchen counter as Kol started making me breakfast. I told him to surprise me and I wanted to test to see if he could remember my favourite breakfast.

I smiled to myself as he glided around the kitchen, obviously making some pancakes. There was a noise from beside me and I looked around to see Elijah joining me at the counter as Kol worked.

I felt kind of embarrassed considering the last time I saw Elijah I was making out with his brother which then lead to sex. Which he could probably have heard by the way.

"It's a rare sight seeing Kol slave away over a girl" He chimed, pulling out his phone and tapping the screen. I looked back to Kol who was now pouring the pancake mix into the pan.

"But Violet isn't just any girl Lijah'. Plus its my honour to cook the birthday girls meal" Kol answered smirking at me.

"Kol" I whined

"It's your birthday?" Elijah asked with a certain curiosity in his eye

"Yea, might as well spread the word, people are going to find ot sooner or later. I hoped for a maybe a few weeks from me"

"And your present?"

"From who?"

"Kol of course" Elijah answered

"She hasn't had it yet" Kol answered, winking when I looked over to him. He slide over a plate of steaming hot pancakes.

It took not time for me to grab the nearby fork and dive into the food. Kol was the most amazing cook, he never showed it to anyone apart from me of course.

"One thing I am certain of, Niklaus will not be happy about your newly awakened relationship" Elijah said, giving Kol a knowing look.

"What? Why not?" I asked before chomping down on some more pancake.

"You don't see it?" Elijah asked with an eyebrow raised

"See what?"

"The painting in Niklaus' art room. Go and look at it" Elijah instructed, looking back over to Kol who now looked a tad pissed off.

Giving Kol a confused look I slowly slid off my stool and made my way to the art room.

My eyes scanned around until I found the canvas that I presumed Elijah was talking about.

My breath hitched as I moved closer to it. The face of the girl had been filled in.

It was me.

Klaus was drawing me all this time. What was it he said? "I don't know, I haven't found anyone beautiful enough to fill it in"

He was talking about me. Wait, did Klaus... fancy me? Actually, I don't blame him considering I kissed him twice but surely not.

I mean, he must have known that I would still have feelings for Kol.

Shaking my head I walked back to the kitchen to find that Klaus had joined Elijah and Kol. All three men looked up upon my arrival to which I shook my head again.

Deciding it was awkward enough, instead of coming back the counter I travelled to the staircase and into Kol's bedroom.

It didn't take anytime for me to be lying on Kol's bed, curled up in a ball on my side. I had a feeling that someone had now joined me in the room

"And to think I would have a nice birthday" I sighed, feeling some tears welling up in my eyes but I blinked them away, not wanting to look weak in a house full of vampires.

"I'm sorry Violet" I recognized the voice as Elijah's "I thought you knew of Nikluas'... feelings"

"No, I didn't. To be honest I knew something like this would happen. Nothing ever goes smoothly in my life so I was expecting something to mess it up" I replied with a bitter laugh.

"I will leave you to your thoughts" Elijah said, the sound of the door closing indicating he had left the room.

What I said was true, everything in my life was one big screw up. Nothing went right and if it did, it wouldn't be long until something went wrong.

Like mine and Kol's previous relationship? It was fine for a year, until Kol left. So many situations in my life have just let me down so much.

I closed my eyes willingly and left out a shaky breath. Why couldn't my life just be simple. I was a good person, I never done anything to hurt anybody and this is how life repays me.

Countless times I had always felt of even ending my life because of how depressing it got, but then I would think about Caroline and my Mom and... my Dad when he was still alive.

Thinking about how selfish it would be if I did go. They were my hope in life, Kol also became one of my hopes. To be honest he still is.

I felt sleep creep up on me as I lay there, I would rather sleep than face the situation downstairs. Just as I was about to drift off, there was a crashing sound from downstairs which made me bolt upright in bed.

Some shouting followed afterwards but I couldn't make out who it was or what they were saying. I had a feeling that it was probably about me so I jumped out the bed and practically ran down the stairs.

There wasn't anyone in the kitchen so I listened to where the noise was coming from and I found myself at the lounge doors.

There was more crashing so I ripped to door open only to fall back from a sharp pain in my stomach. The only thing I managed to see was Klaus on one side of the room and Kol ducking from in front of me.

I shakily looked down to see a wooden stake sticking out of my stomach. Klaus had the face of absolute horror on his face as I collapsed onto the floor.

The pain from the stake surged through me, I went to cry out but my airway was blocked, my blood filling my mouth.

I was sitting propped up against the door so it was uncomfortable for me to attempt to breath.

Kol was in front of me in an instant, ripping the stake out of my abdomen. I gasped as he did so, feeling the rough stake scratch through my skin made me want to gag.

There was shouting in the room that I think came from Kol but I wasn't focusing on it. Kol bit into his wrist and pushed it to my mouth.

I willingly drank his blood, knowing it was the only way to live. Kol let out a sigh of relief when my stomach felt like it was healing.

My eyes drooped slightly as the pain left me body and I felt an arm wrap around my back and another under my legs.

Kol was obviously carrying me and it wasn't long until I felt the cool mattress of his bed underneath me.

"I'm so sorry Violet" Kol whispered in my ear, kissing my forehead lightly. I shook my head at him and pulled him closer to me

"Don't apologize. It wasn't your fault. Just stay here, please" I breathed, not finding the energy to talk properly. I felt him nod from underneath me and his arms wrapped around me tighter, holding me in place on his chest.

I let sleep overcome me instantly, wanting to try to forget everything that had happened.