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Anyway on with the show me thinks….
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Castiel pulled back from the kiss and before Dean could respond he found himself back in the driver's seat of the impala what the hell?
"Thank you Dean that was than acceptable experience for now." Castiel said from the passenger seat, completely unruffled by what they had just been doing.
Dean on the other hand had a raging hard-on and couldn't quite switch his brain from bliss filled kissing to quite conversation.
"What the hell Cas?" he demanded when he was finally able to speak.
"I do not understand. You agreed to help me with kissing did you not?" Castiel asked. He was confused, had Dean not enjoyed it? It seemed like he had while they were in the room.
"Not want I was referring to." Dean replied with a sigh. Trust him to want the one person he ever met who didn't seem to understand the concept of finishing what you started.
"Then what were you 'referring to' Dean?" Castiel replied snarkily. He was getting fed up with this human and his constant moaning, the bad kind not the good. He rather enjoyed the noises he could get Dean to make. (Yeah I bet.)
"You can't just kiss someone like that then pretend nothing happened." Dean replied wearily. At least this conversation was decreasing his erection. Though as Cas was still there he didn't think it would go away completely any time soon.
"Why not?" Castiel replied honestly intrigued by this suggestion.
"Cos you can't just make a guy feel like you're about to throw him on a bed and fuck him senseless then walk away god damn it. That is what is known as being a cock-tease Cas." Dean exploded at the angel next to him. He didn't really want to shout at the guy but damn was he frustrated.
"I am sorry but I did explain I wasn't sure if I wished to have sexual intercourse with you Dean." Castiel replied in a contrite tone which caused Dean to calm down. It wasn't Cas' fault that his dick had a mind of its own. Though thinking that he wondered if that kiss had done the same to Cas? Defiantly something he was going to investigate the next time his was pushed against something and kissed senseless. He got the distinct impression that Cas was most certainly the dominate one in this … whatever it was. (So true.)
"it's okay Cas. I get it…just give me a minute and then I'll be good to go." With that sentence Dean closed his eyes and tried to think of the most unsexy thing he could imagine and tried really hard to block out any images of piercing blue eyes.
Once he had finally managed to subdue little Dean he turned to his angel. "So what now?" he asked.
"Now we continue down your road to your next memory. Though we should also discuss how you feel about your visit to your family to see if your memories of them will be in your heaven." Castiel replied looking at his human, he did not understand why Dean had asked to give him a minute and then just sat there with his eyes closed. Humans where so confusing. (I bet we are.)
Dena just sighed as he tried to get his mind back to what he was thinking of before the interruption. How he had felt seeing his family.
He really didn't know how to answer that question, I mean he loved them and had spent most of his life missing them, but now he had seen them again it was as if he didn't know them anymore, and they didn't know him. What he had become, a lowlife alcoholic that had sex with pretty much anything that moved. He didn't want them knowing him like that, but neither could he imagine having them in his heaven, not anymore.
One day and he was kinda glad to leave. Though that made him feel bad. It wasn't their fault that he was a screw up or that they weren't with him throughout his life. It's just, he couldn't keep pretending to be something he wasn't. He realised that he had made his decision, though he felt extreme guilt about it.
"I don't think I want any of them in my heaven Cas." He whispered to the angel next to him.
Castiel had been following Dean's train of thought as he remembered his family and felt that Dean had made the right decision, but he needed to help him get over the guilt he felt about it.
"That is fine Dean. It is your heaven and should be as you chose it to be." He replied to his charge.
"Yeah, doesn't stop the guilt though does it?" Dean asked almost to himself.
"You need to think of you rather than others Dean. It is your heaven were you will be spending eternity. You need to find who it is you want to share that with from your memories."
Unbidden by those words the image of the angel next to him in his arms came to his head. With the accompanying thought, now that would be heaven. He shook his head the only reason he thought that was cos he hadn't fucked the guy yet. Once that had happened he would go off him soon enough, or at least that was the way it had always happened to him he didn't expect this time to be any different. (Well we'll just have to see wouldn't we?)
Castiel listened to these thoughts and decided it was time to redirect Dean attention to what they should be doing.
"It is time for your next memory Dean." He said though he did add with a smile. "Though I request if it is similar to your first one I feel I would be more comfortable waiting on the road for you to finish."
"Don't worry Cas, I'll be good this time." Dean replied with a cheeky smile. There was no way he was taking Cas to another brothel and getting off with another man. No one in any of his memories was a patch on the angel next to him. With that in mind he thought about his next happy memory.
