I'm so sorry for the lack of updates! But my life was a mess and I had to focus on another things... I want to thank a lot to DaniHabisky for helping me being my beta-reader. I'm really, really sorry... But for now on the updates will be faster. Please, give me reviews.
Headache. Again. Regret. Again.
Keeping his eyes open was painful, but he couldn't deny that the sight before him was good, even if he felt guilty. Resting on his bed, Remus was observing Sirius' chest moving in a light breathing. He was sound asleep, hugging his pillow and covered by a warm blanket. So serene.
He was beautiful, he was perfect.
His body was a temptation.
But he was drunk and Remus touched him again, taking advantage of his situation. He felt so dirty when he washed him after they touched...mostly when he couldn't stop looking at his body whilst drying him with the towel to put his pajamas, before carrying him to his bed.
He was such a pervert.
Remus grimaced, sitting on his bed. He was thinking about finding Madam Pomfrey. It was Saturday and he had so much homework to do, he couldn't allow himself to procrastinate it. Grabbing his bathrobe, he was tying the knot when he heard a noise. Almost panicking thinking about Sirius, he noticed Peter walking inside the dorm, his face tired.
"Morning, Moons."
"Hey" Remus gulped "Why are you awake so early?"
"McGonagall saw me last night."
"What?"
"After I left you, Frank and his friends went to his dorm and I thought that it would be nice to sneak to the kitchen."
"And she found you?" He watched Peter nod, opening his trunk "Detention?"
"Yeah, with professor Sprout, cleaning the greenhouses" Peter shrugged "I forgot my gloves."
"I'm sorry..."
"It wasn't your fault. It could be worse. She could have found Sirius drunk."
"Yeah..."
"By the way... I didn't see you two coming back".
"Oh, he was...um...it was hard to, uh, bath him."
"I can imagine. He is okay though?"
"Yeah, he's fine..."
"You look tired" Peter frowned "Are you feeling okay?"
"Just a headache...I was going to see Poppy."
"Like that?" Peter pointed to Remus' clothes.
"Yeah"
"McGonagall won't approve. Besides, you're a prefect".
"I don't care...whatever..."
Rushing outside before Peter could continue, Remus breathed deeply. He was a mess.
The mattress was comfy, as was his pillow. And his blanket was warm and soft. But somehow he wasn't comfortable. His body was aching. Groaning, Sirius rubbed his eyes, yawning.
"Finally" a voice reached his ears. "I thought you were dead".
"Morning, Prongs."
"Afternoon, you mean."
"Hm?"
"It's 2AM."
"WHAT?" He abruptly sat up, feeling his head. "Fuck."
"Headache?"
"Probably. You should've woken me up."
"You seemed happy sleeping" James shrugged, writing on a piece of parchment.
"I missed breakfast and lunch".
"So?"
"What kind of friend are you? Why didn't Remus wake me up?"
"I don't know. When I woke he was gone already. Wormy told me that he went to Madam Pomfrey early this morning".
"And he's still in the infirmary?" Suddenly, Sirius felt pretty awake.
"Nope, I went there to check on him. He's not there".
"He left in the morning and disappeared? And you're okay with this?"
"He must be avoiding you" James shrugged, with a grin. "You were awful to him last night."
"What have I done?"
"Well, you got drunk again. We were having fun, you know? But then you began to scream his name, and he wasn't here... do you remember? He packed his things and went to another dorm".
"Yeah, and?"
"Well, you got really desperate and ran away, screaming for him. I tried to follow you, but I was throwing up my guts, know what I mean?" He grimaced. "After a while Pete went to look for you. Apparently, Evans told him that you were running in the gardens, crying and screaming Remus' name. You were accusing the squid, screaming that he had kidnapped Moony." James giggled "I would've paid to have seen that."
"I did that?!"
"Yeah. Wormtail almost drowned trying to prevent you from picking a fight with the squid. Then he brought you back and you tried to walk to the girls dorms, screaming that Remus couldn't procreate with them...that you were his official bitch." James laughed hard.
"I didn't... I couldn't have done that!"
"You did! And I heard those screams from the bathroom on the first floor".
"Crap..."
"Then I fainted in my own puke. That was awful".
"Ew."
"Yeah, pretty bad. But Prewett and Evans helped me. I will never be able to look at her anymore..."
"But what about me?"
"Well, Wormy told me that after Evans yelled at you and the girls went back to their dorms, you went knocking on every dorm, the boys' dorm, searching for Moony. Prewett, the other Prewett, almost punched you when you insisted that he was hiding Moony beneath his blankets. Then you started to cry again. Wormtail said it was pretty hilarious."
"Is it all true?" Sirius was feeling dizzy again.
"Yeah, it is. But it gets worse," tossing his homework aside, James smiled "You knocked on Longbottom's dorm. And Moony was there".
"Moony was sleeping in Frank's dorm? Why?!"
"Don't know. Probably trying to avoiding both of us."
"He's not even that close with Frank!"
"Whatever. Moony was there. You ran straight to his lap and clutched onto him crying like a baby with a dirty nappy."
"I didn't."
"You did."
"I fucking didn't!"
"Yeah, Padfoot, you did. Frank asked me during breakfast if you were okay."
"Fuck, James" hiding his head on his hands, Sirius cursed.
"I know."
"You're enjoying this!"
"No I'm not. I missed all the fun" he grinned. "But let me continue. You started to cry louder, asking Moony why he had abandoned you..."
"I asked him that?!"
"Yes, you did. And he yelled at you. And then you run away like a girl with a broken heart, locking yourself in one of the bathrooms."
"And what about Moony?"
"Well, you know Robins, right? The beater that looks like a troll? He told Wormtail, after all that confusion, that he threatened Moony, telling him that he would choke the life out of him if he refused to go to you to apologise."
"He touched Remus?! That bloody ogre touched Remus, James?!"
"No, no, calm down" James reassured, as Sirius started to look pissed. "Moony wasn't a fool. He went to the bathroom. Frank and his friends were there, Wormy also. They tried to make you open the door, but you refused until Moony came. Then he helped you with your bath..."
"Wait, everyone saw me naked?!"
"No, no, just Moony. When he entered the bathroom he told the others to leave, he said that he would take care of you. Frank and his friends went back to sleep, and Wormy tried to smuggle food from the kitchens, but McGonagall saw him. He's been in detention with professor Sprout since this morning."
"And Remus?"
"I've told you, I don't know about Moony. Wormtail told me that he had a headache or something. He must have been pretty bad, because he went to Madam Pomfrey wearing a bathrobe."
"Moony did that?"
"Yeah, it's weird."
Sirius frowned, standing up, looking for a pair of trousers.
"If you go to the kitchens maybe the elves would feed you".
"Fuck that, I'm not hungry" Sirius stated, even if his stomach was aching. "I need to find Remus."
"Man, I looked for Remus the whole morning and I couldn't find a glimpse of him."
"And you're that calm when one of your friends is missing?!"
"Obviously not, but Moony knows how to take care of himself."
"The map, where's the map?"
"Here" James handled him and old piece of parchment. "I'm not stupid, I looked at the map."
"He's not on the map?!" Sirius felt the panic rising.
"Nope, you know that this map just show the places we know. Hogwarts is full of her own secrets. Relax."
"I'll look for him and if I couldn't find him I'll go to Dumbledore for help!" said Sirius, resolute, searching for his shoes.
"Moony is pissed with you. You should accept it."
"Accept what? That he's missing?"
"Sort of. You should accept that after all the trouble you had caused him he needs some space" James shrugged.
"Are you trying to say that Remus is avoiding me?"
"Pretty much."
"He would never do this to me."
"Why not?"
"Because...he was always there for me."
"Yeah, he must be pretty exhausted of cleaning up your shit all the time, Sirius".
"Shut up! You were the one that got me drunk last night!"
"I didn't force you."
"Shut up, James" glaring at his friend, Sirius left the dorm.
He was absolutely masochist.
The enchanted roof was showing him constellations, specifically the dog's constellation. And there she was. Sirius. The brightest star on the sky.
Lying on the floor of the Room of Requirement, his head resting on his crossed arms, Remus sighed. If Sirius figured out what he had done their friendship would be ruined. James was close to Sirius, if the Marauders would ever split up it would be because of Sirius' loathing for Remus... James would surely follow Sirius. Peter also, as he would not find it amusing to have a nerdy werewolf as a friend rather than two popular funny guys. Regarding his werewolf condition, he would be all alone now. Even worse, Sirius could tell everybody at school about his 'furry problem'.
No, he would not be that extreme.
His eyes were looking randomly at the enchanted galaxy. It was a blessing that he never spoke with the others about the secret room. Now Sirius couldn't find him. The room would provide everything he needed; he would never more feel the reasons to go away. He could stay there during the full moon, the room would help him…
"Such Gryffindor courage, Remus..."
But it felt so nice...having Sirius next to him, kissing him, listening to his voice begging...it felt wonderful. To have someone showing that kind of need for him, making him feel sexy, beautiful... And it was Sirius Black craving for him, one of the best looking boys at Hogwarts.
Shaking his head Remus whined, clutching on one of the cushions, his eyes gazing at the bright star above him.
Sighing in frustration, Sirius opened the door, staring at Peter and James playing chess. It angered him.
"So? Any trace of Moons?"
"None. I need your cloak."
"Why?" James frowned. "You're looking sulky".
"Such a good day, uh?" Sirius scowled, grabbing his coat. "Give me the cloak."
"What are you planning to do?"
"Hogsmeade. I will go to Hogsmeade look for Remus."
"Are you insane?" Peter gazed at him, his eyes wide "We can't go to Hogsmeade. None of us, not even Remus. You heard McGonagall about the last prank with Snivellus. We're not allowed to go to Hogsmeade until the end of the term."
"Besides, Dumbledore only agreed to not taking off my cloak if I promise to not use it to go Hogsmeade."
"I don't care about McGonagall or Dumbledore! Screw them!" Sirius glared at his friends. "Moony is missing. I searched the whole school looking for him! And you're here, playing chess like nothing happened!"
"Nothing happened" James shrugged. "He's mad at you. Accept it."
"You were a git to him yesterday."
"Shut up, Peter!" Running his hands nervously through his hair, Sirius gulped. It was an awful feeling to know that Remus was so pissed off with him that he was not even inclined to look at him. "I never meant to..."
"We know" Peter threw a box of chocolate frogs at him. "I know. I saw you yesterday. You were miserable screaming and crying for him. Pretty much like now, but with tears."
"He screamed at me, right? In Frank's dorm" biting the chocolate, Sirius felt his stomach ache. "James told me. What did he say?"
"Well, he said that you were selfish and stupid" Peter watched Sirius grimace. "He asked you to leave, to go back to your dorm and leave him there. He was sleeping in a sleeping bag next to Frank's bed."
"Why would he ever be in Frank's dorm, to begin with?" Sirius asked, sulkily. "They're not even close."
"They're both nerds" James shrugged.
"Whatever, what else, Worms?"
"Well, then you began to cry even more, begging him to come with you. You said that he abandoned you. When he refused, you ran away and locked yourself in a bathroom. Frank and his friends ran to you, me too. We couldn't get you to come out. Frank didn't want to use a spell as you were too frightened and emotional."
"How thoughtful" Sirius mocked, rolling his eyes.
"Then Remus came. And you let him in. He said that he would take care of you."
"And he did. You woke up bathed and covered with your blanket. Moony was almost a mum to you. As always" James grinned.
"Maybe he's tired of you" Peter watched Sirius choke on the chocolate. "I mean, maybe he's tired of taking care of you every time you do something stupid."
"He couldn't be tired of me!" Sirius squealed, massaging his throat. "Remus loves me!"
At the same time, the door opened and Remus stood in the doorway, eyes wide and cheeks blushing.
Sirius looked from his friends to Remus. Tossing aside his chocolate frog, he ran to Remus, hugging him. Remus gasped.
"Where were you?!" Looking carefully at Remus' face and arms, Sirius was sounding paranoid. "Are you hurt? Are you sick? Robins touched you?"
"No..." Remus mumbled, scared, whilst Sirius was checking his chest and arms, apparently searching for broken bones. "I'm fine..."
"Then where were you? You almost killed me!"
"Sorry..."
Remus avoided Sirius gaze. He was dizzy, regretting his decision to come back. Walking to his bed, he noticed Sirius following him.
"Moony, you're weird" his tone was insecure. "It was... something that I did...? Last night?"
"Hm?" Feeling his heartbeat becoming irregular, Remus gazed at him. He was clearly worried, his brow furrowed.
"I did something to annoy you? Last night?"
"No..." Wondering how much Sirius remembered, Remus kept looking at him, waiting for the explosion that didn't come. "You...you don't remember? Nothing?"
"Nothing" Sirius gulped. "Tell me...was I too stressful for you? Because whatever I've done, I'm sorry."
"No...i-it's fine..." trying to smile at him, Remus felt even guiltier. "I, hm, I need to go..."
"Where?!" Sirius interrupted him, abruptly.
"... Take a bath" looking for his trunk, Remus tried to pick his clothes as quick as possible. He had to think on how to tell Sirius everything about the night before.
"Are you okay? For sure?" Peter asked, watching Remus.
"Yeah..." staring at James and Peter, Remus smiled nervously "I'm fine."
"You're mad at me" Sirius mumbled, looking miserable. "I can tell when you're pissed off with me."
"I'm not..."
"You can barely look at me."
Remus bit his lip, feeling even worse. Sirius was so worried. If he knew what Remus had done…
"I'm fine... I'm not mad at you." He tried to smile, feeling like he was failing miserably.
"Are you sure?" Sirius watched Remus nod. "Hm, are you hungry? You skipped lunch, I guess."
"I'm okay"
"Take it" handling him one chocolate frog, Sirius tried to smile too, biting the corner of his lip.
"Thanks... I will be right back."
Nodding, Sirius watched Remus walk out of the room and down the corridor.
Rolling uncomfortably on his bed, Sirius gave up on his homework. Remus was taking too long in his bath. When the door swung open, he almost jumped off of the mattress. But it was Marlene McKinnon. James shouted, covering his legs with the duvet.
"What are you doing here?!"
"Like I wanted to see your pale thighs, Potter" she rolled her eyes, annoyed. "Bad news, boys. Remus Lupin just seized your drinks. And he's very pissed off."
"What?" Sirius was terrified. "What drinks?"
"The ones my brother gave me today at Hogsmeade. He told me that you send him an owl for more." She looked at James "Pretty addicted you, uh?"
"You said that Remus..."
"Yeah, no drinks tonight, boys" she shrugged, "At least not for you."
"What do you mean?" James asked, clearly nervous.
"Well, he was walking here, I think he took a bath, his hair was wet...he was gorgeous, as always" she smirked, dreamily.
"Marlene, please."
"Sorry, Potter" she giggled. "Well, I asked him if he could do a favor for me and bring you the drinks my brother smuggled. I told him that you were pretty eager to have them, as you two" she pointed to Sirius and James, "were desperately searching for someone in the castle today. Dorcas told my brother, and he thought it was him that you were looking for. As he wasn't in the mood to hear you complaining, Potter, he asked me to give you your order."
"And how did Remus seize it?!"
"Well... I saw him , and as he's your friend... and he's bloody attractive... I was thinking about talking to him, using the drinks as an excuse...to finally ask him out."
"You fancy Remus?" Peter asked, furrowing his brow.
"Obviously, are you blind? He's fucking perfect. I won't finish Hogwarts without snogging him first."
"I thought that you fancied me" Sirius mumbled, looking wroth.
"Sorry, Black, you're handsome, but in a vulgar way... Remus is pure, alluring...it makes you want to pin him to a wall and-"
"Enough!" James hissed, looking scared at Marlene "What did Remus do?"
"Well, he got pretty angry when I told him about the drinks. Honestly, it made him sexier...ok, sorry, Potter. He muttered some spell and almost all the bottles faded away. Except one, which he took with him."
"Dammit, he'll show it to McGonagall!"
"I don't think so. He said it was time for him to have some fun. When he left the common room he was opening the bottle."
"What the fuck?!" Sirius pulled at a of his hair. "James, Moony isn't used to alcohol!"
"He stole my bottles! Let's get him!"
Leaving Marlene behind, James, Sirius and Peter ran away.
It was a worthless task. They couldn't find Remus.
James head was almost exploding with fear and stress. Madam Pomfrey gave him a potion for his nerves and now he was sleeping, snoring more than ever. Peter was also sound asleep, after eating two boxes of chocolate frogs and liquorice wands. Only Sirius was awake, sitting on his bed, worried. After James gave up on their search for Remus, he did it alone, hidden beneath the cloak past curfew. He was tired and stressed, but he couldn't sleep. Not when Remus wasn't here. Closing his eyes and sighing, he heard a noise. When he opened his eyes he saw that the bulb of his lampshade was no longer turned on. And the door was open, giving way to a shambling figure.
"Moony?"
Trying to grab his wand to cast a spell to illuminate the room more efficiently, the wooden object flew from his hand. He could hear Remus' voice mumbling 'Expelliarmus."
"Moony, are you okay?"
Walking slowly to him, Remus climbed on Sirius' bed, wobbling. He cast another three spells and the curtains locked themselves. Small lights floating in the air illuminated the two of them. Sirius looked at Remus. Dilated pupils, flushed cheeks and a maniac glimpse on his eyes.
"M-moony? Don't hit me..."
"I have better ways to hurt you" he mumbled on a husky voice, shoving Sirius away, and climbing on him "Pleasurable ways."
"What?" scared and lying on the mattress he watched Remus smile, a wide smile.
"Moony... is up to mischief."
