I'm baaaaaaaaccck! I hope you missed me! I sure missed yall! It's so weird not being able to write down all the writing thoughts you have, the minute you have them. I had so many ideas on this story, and by the time I had a chance to write them down, I forgot them. So, I'm starting with a blank brainstorm page for chapter 7 and on…
Sorry for such a short update... have to get my creative SAMCRO juices flowing again. They'll be back to normal in no time.
Here we go, back to good 'ole Charming, California…
Ever since that first day at school, when we were officially a couple, it's all been a blur. Suddenly, without me ever realizing, we've been together for four months. And that first day at school still feels like yesterday, sometimes I still feel the butterflies when Jax put his arm around my shoulder the first time, publicly…
Opie had just called us the Royal Couple of Charming. I remember laughing at his joke, and then suddenly got quiet. I was thinking, what does that mean? are people going to treat me differently? has any other girl been the Princess of Charming? am I now starting to become his Old Lady? It was way too much to think about. We had just started dating, and today was our first official public declarative of a couple…
I was filled with insecurity and doubt, and I looked up at Jax, who had his arm around me, and smiled. I wasn't in love with him, yet. But with that smirk, I knew I would be soon.
I had ridden on the back of his bike before, countless times already. But none of those times, had it been to school, in front of all of our peers. That Friday, we were supposed to go to school, but took a detour and spent the whole day making out instead. Not many people here knew my name or were my friend, but suddenly they saw a girl on the back of Jackson Teller's motorcycle, and they wanted to know my name.
Jackson wrapped his arm around me made our way toward the front doors of Charming High School.
I didn't know what to think. All my life I'd been the quiet girl, the smart girl, the weird girl, the 'my mother is dead' girl, and now I would be Jax Teller's girl. And that was finally a name I wanted to be called, one that I liked, and one I never wanted to change.
A few of our classmates stopped walking and stared. Jax was known as the Playboy of the school, the most eligible teenage bachelor of Charming, the infamous hookup guy, the guy most likely to never get serious about a girl, yet here he was walking to school with his arm around a girl, kissing her. I know I've never send him to do this with anyone. It made me think, what do I have that they don't?
Apparently, others thought so too because a few girls were asking each other that out loud, in front us, very loudly.
It was in this moment, that I knew how serious Jax thought of us:
"Well she certainly doesn't have as shitty as a reputation that you do. And she definitely isn't as big as a bitch as you are. Next time you talk shit about my girlfriend like that, you'll pay for it."
He then kissed my cheek. No one has ever defended me like that, I felt honored to have someone so protective and defensive as my boyfriend. If your boyfriend doesn't do that for you, do you really have a boyfriend? Here we were on our first official day as a couple, and people were already doubting us, little did we know they would be our whole lives. But, here was Jax defending us and our choices. My heart swooned.
He led me to the stairwell inside the campus, which was empty this morning, five minutes before school started, "Are you okay? Sorry those girls were such bitches."
"It's okay, I'm fine Jax. Thank you for defending me."
"I'll do it a million times for you, babe. You already know that though."
"Yes I do, but I want to thank you. It means a lot to me, having someone to stand up for me."
"As long as you're okay, I'm okay."
I nodded, "I'm good, promise." I gave him my pinky.
He kissed my forehead then, and we made our way to the mass of students in the school lobby.
I would never admit it, but I had butterflies walking with him front of everyone. He gave me butterflies, and I loved it.
That day feels like yesterday and also a million years ago at the same time. We are still that same couple, but yet different in so many ways. Here we are, Jax and I still together after four months. Four months doesn't feel like a long time, but to me it feels like a lifetime. I never thought I'd be here today, sitting across from a man who defends me, who respects me, who wants me. I never thought I could ever be this happy.
After my mom died, I was in this constant depressed mood. It was school, homework, reading, and school. Those were the only things I focused on. School and books were my life. Those two things got me through the toughest years of my life. It wasn't until Jax found me, that I truly understood what it was like to have someone to depend on. Someone who will listen to your every complaint and annoyance, someone who was there for you and wanted to protect you from all that was evil in the world. Ever since that day at my house with Jax and my dad, I knew Jackson would never let anyone harm me. I knew from then on that I would be safe with him, that I could confide in him. That I could trust him with my heart. I think I knew I was in love with him the weekend he took me back to his place and comforted me; when he promised that everything was alright, that he wasn't leaving my side.
I still can't believe it's only been four months of dating Jax Teller.
