Just wanted to say I'm sorry for earlier I was….a little…out of it. Enjoy
I own nothing
General POV
Claire woke up with a blasting headache. She vaguely remembered anything from the night before. She could remember her wonderful dream though. She'd been able to tell Eli everything after finding her when he wouldn't answer her calls and she was able to tell him she loved him. She could hardly wait till that came true. Until she could tell Eli the truth. She loved him so much.
She opened her eyes to find a figure sleeping next to her. She screamed and fell out of the bed. She looked around not looking at the person she woke up with. She didn't recognize the place at all. What the…did I…am I in Fitz…please God, no…. She was scared and desperate.
Eli had woken up to Clare screaming. She looked scared and upset on the floor.
"Clare! It's me, Eli! You're fine!"
She looked up at him in confusion. "Eli! What am I doing in your room waking up in a bed next to you…wait..we didn't…did we!"
He looked appalled. "NO! I would never take advantage of you like that! I found you sleeping in the park."
She began to panic when realization hit her… "Are you saying...that last night…everything that was said…was not a dream?" She said it slowly trying to comprehend what was happening.
He smirked and answered "Nope!" with a pop of the "p."
"SHIT!" His eyes opened wide when Clare cursed.
"Language! St. Clare, cursing, drinking, and seducing the school's biggest bully…what is this world coming to!" He joked.
"Eli…" She looked desperate, which she was. She'd sacrificed so much for her plan to work. She'd sacrificed her happiness with Eli. Eli made her happy. She wanted to smile but could only think of what this could mean…collapse of everything. "Before anything I need an aspirin please." Her head was killing her. He came back quickly with 2 aspirin and a glass of water. "Thanks!" She mumbled.
"Clare, let me say this" he took a deep breath before continuing "I love you! I know you love me too, or at least that's what you said to me last night. Please don't risk your safety. Fitz is really bad news. The wrong move could cause a big problem."
"Eli, you can't stop me! That's why I broke off our friendship. I knew you would try to stop me and I couldn't let you do that." She paused for a minute. "Eli, I'm sorry, but…"
"Clare, just stop." Eli interrupted. He was not letting her walk out of his life again. It hurt too much. She closed her mouth waiting for him to continue. "Clare I said I love you! And I'm not letting you walk out of my life just for Fitz." She was about to tell him to stop and leave her alone, she could figure things out on her own but when she opened her mouth she wasn't able to say a thing. Eli had stopped her from saying anything…with a kiss. She tried to push him away at first but gave into the passion that had been building up for a while. She felt his tongue on her lips and let him enter, each of them learning each other's mouths. She pulled him closer and almost forgot why she was fighting him when her phone went off.
She snapped out of it and went to grab her phone ignoring Eli. Eli was happy they had finally kissed, but when she gave him the cold shoulder and just went to her phone, he was hurt.
Clare woke up and you weren't here! Where are you!
-Mom
I woke up hungry and didn't want to wake you so I went to The Dot. Sorry!
-Clare
Clare had replied quickly and effortlessly. It was easy to come up with an excuse. She'd actually done this a few times the past few weeks. Her mom was either working or sleeping so she didn't notice Clare all that much.
OK just worried for a second. I have to go to work today so you have a great day.
Thanks, mom, I'll do my best.
She sighed…Ya…the way things were going, this day wasn't going to be going so great. Her phone went off again.
Hey! Missed you after you left last night! Hope we can, you know, pick up where we left off. Lol ;)
She unintentionally groaned at the text from Fitz. Eli took the phone before she even knew he had moved next to her. He read the message and his face paled.
"Clare, what happened between you two?"
"We only kissed, it's none of your business!" His eyes showed pain at that. She instantly regretted it but didn't take it back. She needed him to dislike her. She grabbed her phone back and texted Fitz back.
How about we party at the Ravine again tonight? But I'm warning you, we will do nothing more than kiss and hang out. ;p
"Fine, do what you want with Fitz…but I'm not letting you do this alone."
Clare was shocked and rendered speechless when her phone went off again.
Sounds good, babe. And that's fine, we'll take things nice and slow. ;D Can't wait to see you tonight. I'll pick ya up at 9.
Sounds great but I got to go. See you later.
"OK. Eli, we can't be friends. My plan is turning out so well. If we are friends, it will be hard to get him to trust me. And trust is, well, kind of vital for this to work!"
Eli groaned. "Clare…" he plead. He grabbed her and kissed her again. She had control and her headache was beginning to fade away. She pushed him away when her phone went off again.
K but I also have a proposition for you when I see you tonight :D
OK sounds great better be good
Hmm…what kind of proposition could Fitz be talking about…? Clare thought.
OH it is…it is…
"Clare, tell me you don't love me!"
"WHAT!" She couldn't do that…she loved him too much to lie about that. She had wanted to tell him for months. Why did he have to wait so long to tell her how he felt? He picked the worst time to tell her. "I c-can't…"
"Why!" he persisted.
"Eli, I love you too…"
He grabbed her and kissed her again. This time she didn't fight it.
They came up for breath. "Eli, I can't…I have to go home…and get ready to go to the Ravine…"
Pain flashed in his eyes. "Clare…you're not going to drink again, are you?"
"I-I…I don't know…" She admitted. She didn't want to, but getting close to Fitz came with a price. Partying was part of it.
"Come over afterwards…say you're staying at Alli's or something…"
"Eli…what are you saying?" she was really confused.
"I'm saying we may not be able to be together in public, but we can do a secret relationship thing. I can help keep you sane through this. I know you wouldn't be able to do it without losing part of your mind. I'll pick you up at the park down the street from the ravine at 11:30, ok? I don't want you to fall asleep in the park again and risk someone not as nice as me finding you."
She didn't know what to think. "Eli…I…" She looked into his eyes and realized what she had to do. She smiled. "I love you! You are my rock. You have kept me sane through so much. Without you I would have lost it long ago. If you can keep me sane through this, we can survive anything." She stood up and kissed him. "And, yes, I will come over here!" They kissed for a few more minutes and then he took her home. She wanted to sleep a little more to get rid of the headache then get ready for the Ravine with Fitz.
OK! I didn't entirely hate this I started writing this on a caffeine high…when I wrote those terrible author notes at school….yeah…I was in a hurry for each cuz class was about to begin. That is why you don't give sam 3 energy drinks before school, she goes a little…hyper….lol im talking about myself in 3rd person…please tell me what you thought I need to know…what do you guys think I should add to the Ravine chapter next?
