"Maybe we shouldn't. I'm sorry I let it go this far. I should have just left you alone like you asked." Loki turned and walked away. No! Loki come back! I didn't mean it! I woke up, my heart racing and dripping with sweat. It was just a dream none of this really happened, it was just a dream. I smiled to myself I relief and began to look around. Where was I? I was laying in what seemed to be a forest. It was not an Asgardian forest. Asgards forests were lush and beautiful. This forest was a bit pitiful. The grass was hard and rough and the trees looked sickly. Well where ever I was I didn't want to be here for long. I tried to get up but a searing pain shot through my back. I lay back down. My eyes watering with pain. Why did my back hurt? I don't remember straining it at all. I tried to get up again but felt the pain again. I looked around for something to help and saw a fallen branch on the ground next to me. I grabbed the branch and used it to help support me. I managed to get up and started to walk. I wasn't truly walking it was more like stumbling. I made it to a tree and felt exhausted. What was wrong with me? I was panting and sweating as if I just ran six miles. I had to sit down. I slid down the tree and plopped on the ground. I felt so tired. Was I sick? My vision started to blur and the woods began to move. Not this again. I tried to stand up but I felt my self falling. The last I remember was a pair of hands holding me up.

I woke up to a crackling fire. The warmth felt so nice. I was back on the ground again. How did I get here again and why can't I remember? It was driving me crazy that I couldn't remember. I have to focus and try to remember. I laid there trying to remember what happened. I kept drawing a blank but then it hit me. There was someone with me. They were the one who brought me here. I began to look around. Where was this person? I couldn't see anything it was pitch dark out and the only light was the diming fire and the moon. I tried to get up again when the forest started to move. Ugh! This again! I decided it would be a good idea to just stay still and wait for the person to show them selves. I started staring at the stars and began to wonder who would help me. Maybe it was Freja. I know I was a bit of a jerk last time we talked but she wouldn't leave me to die. But I did say some horrible things last time we talked or more like shouted. I would leave me if I was her. So maybe it wasn't Freja. Hmmm maybe it was Thor. Ha! Why did his name even cross my mind? He hated me! I laughed to myself at my own foolishness. For some reason my small chuckle turned into a hysterical laugh. Why was I laughing so hard? I was laughing so hard that my sides started to hurt and I was having trouble breathing. I started to roll on the ground with laughter when I heard a different laugh that wasn't mine.

I stopped laughing immediately. I began to look around to try to find the source of the other laugh. I looked around straining my eyes in the dark but I couldn't see anyone. Maybe it was just an echo or something. I laid my head back down and closed my eyes. I began to think of how I was going to get out of these woods in the morning when I heard the laugh again. I sat up quickly. There's something out there but what was it? I reach for my sword but realized I didn't have it with me. Crap! The one time I don't have it I need it. The forest began to move again. No! This was not the time for me to pass out. "Who's there? Show your self!" I strained my ears, trying to hear the slightest movement. (Crack) I moved my head to where the fire was. Something was near it and it had fallen out of a tree. I saw movement and then the laugh again. "Who's there?" I shouted again. "Calm down Loviisa. There is no need to shout." Loki stepped forward into the fire light. I beamed at him. I was happy not to be alone anymore. "Loki, why didn't you just show your self?" Loki stood there looking at me. He looked disappointed. "What's wrong?" Loki kept looking at me standing in silence. I stared back but gave up after a few minutes. I laid my head back down and closed my eyes. "You don't remember do you?" I opened my eyes. Loki was sitting right next to me. "I remember you stopping me from falling. Thanks by the way." He shook his head. He looked so angry. "Loviisa what is wrong with you?" "I'm not sure actually. I can't figure out why my back hurts and the forest keeps spinning. Which is a whole other problem." Loki gave me a stern look. "This isn't the time for your sarcasm. This is serious; some one is dyeing because of you!" Dyeing? Who the hell was dyeing? "Loki, who is dyeing? Is it your father?" "No it is not my father! He is perfectly fine! Siff is the one dyeing. Don't you remember anything?" Siff was dyeing? But how and why was involved? "Loki the last thing I remember was us reading in the forest. Speaking of forests where are we?" He sighed. "We are in Midgard in one of there forests. I couldn't risk hiding you in Asgard." He shook his head, "That dagger must have made a deeper cut then I thought. The loss of blood must have affected your memory." I stared at him. What the hell was he talking about? A dagger? "Loki what dagger? I don't remember a dagger." "Of course you don't lov…" He let the word trail off. Why didn't he finish his sentence? I liked when he called me love. "Loki. Is everything ok?" Loki smirked at me and shook his head. "No everything is not ok but we shall worry about that later. Let's check your injury shall we?" He began to roll me on my stomach when I pushed back. "Injury? I don't have any injuries Loki." He smiled. "You have seemed to have forgotten quite a bit. I shall explain it to you after I check your shoulder. Now be a good little Asgardian and roll over onto your stomach." I obeyed and rolled over. I could feel Loki pulling off the bandages. Then I felt a sudden chill down my back when his hands touched my skin. "It has improved quite a bit since I last checked it. It should be healed by tomorrow." I started to roll over when he gently pushed me back. "I have to change the bandage. Be patient." I smirked and let him continue his work. After a few minutes he said, "Ok you can roll over now." I rolled over and smiled at him. "Thank you." He nodded and turned his back to me. "Get some sleep. I'll explain everything in the morning." I fell asleep rather quickly but not for long. I kept seeing Siff's face contorted with pain and Freja's warning voice, "I told you it was unwise to seek trouble." I woke up shouting in pain. "Loviisa what is it? Is it your back?" Loki's voice sounded worried. It wasn't my back. My back was bothering me but it was the image of Siff that was truly bothering me. "Hush my love, everything will be fine." Loki moved close to me and began rubbing my back. It felt so nice. The chill of his hands against my warm skin. I soon stopped screaming but tears started to stream down my face. I wiped my tears away and began to calm down. Why was I screaming? It was just a dream, nothing more. Loki was still messaging my back. "Thank you Loki." I felt his hand trying to roll me over. I rolled over to find his face inches from mine. "Is your back bothering you that much? I could take you to the healers." I smiled at him. He was always good to me. "No my back is fine. I just had a terrible dream." Loki's face looked a little relieved but I could tell he was still concerned. "Would you like to tell me about it?" "No it was a terrible dream and I rather not repeat it." He smiled and nodded his head. Loki continued to rub my back and lay next to me. I was staring into his beautiful green eyes. They were so different from everyone else's. Loki smirked at me, "I think you should go back to sleep." "I rather not, I don't want that dream coming back again." He smiled, "I would never let that happen. I shall stop that dream from returning. You will only have sweet dreams while I'm around." I smiled at him. He was so sweet. I brought my face closer to his and kissed him. He responded back for a few minutes then pushed me away. I was about to ask him why when he said, "As I said I think you should go to sleep." I gave him a weak smile and closed my eyes. Loki was right I didn't have that dream. I didn't dream at all.

I woke up to the sound of crackling wood and the smell of eggs and bacon. I opened my eyes to Loki cooking and smiling at me. "You're awake. Good I need to tell you something important. You'll need a good meal before I tell you." He handed me a plate of food and we ate in silence. After breakfast I accomplished sitting up on my own. Not without difficulty, I sweating like a pig. I started to laugh, "Well that wasn't so hard." Loki smiled at me and stared into the fire. What was wrong with him? I wanted to ask him but he seemed so different around me. I cleared my throat remembering he wanted to tell me something. "Um, Loki didn't you want to tell me something?" He nodded his head still looking into the fire. "Loviisa, you seem to be suffering from memory loss. I wish to fill in the blanks for you." I smiled. Finally I'll get some answers. I've been feeling like the dreams I've had have to do with my memory loss. "To start I would like you to tell me what you last remember so I know where to start?" "The last thing I remember was you and me lying in the forest. You were reading a book and I was lying on your chest. I think we fell asleep and I feel like Odin has to do something in this." Loki smiled, "Good at least you remember that. Do you remember anything about an argument?" An argument? Didn't I just tell him what I remembered? "I just told you what I remembered. Was there an argument between me and Odin?" Loki started to laugh, "No you didn't get into an argument with my father. The argument was between you and me." What? An argument between me and Loki? How could that have happened? We always enjoyed each other's company, we never argued. "Why did we argue? What was it about?" Loki's face hardened. "It was more my fault then yours. I was…I was not properly defending you." "I needed defending?" He smiled, "Yes, for once you needed someone else to defend you and I didn't do you justice and I'm deeply sorry for that." I smiled. I honestly had no idea what he was apologizing for but I accepted it anyway. "Thanks Loki but you don't have to apologize for something I don't even remember." He smiled, "Well to be honest I was not apologizing to you. I'm sorry that I mentioned it to you and that it led to such horrible events." My smile left my face. "What did I do?" Loki frowned. "You did something quite horrible. I wish I got to you before it happened." "What was it Loki?" His face looked grave. I must have done something horrible. "Loki tell me." He looked me right in the eyes. "You killed someone Loviisa. Because of me and your temper a life was taken." My world was spinning. I lost my temper so bad that I killed someone? A memory came to me, "You're a monster Loviisa and you always will be." Siff was right I was a monster. I killed someone but who was it? I looked up at Loki, my eyes starting to tear. "Loki, who was it?" He looked me right in the eye, "It was Siff." The world started spinning faster. Siff? I killed Siff? I killed my old best friend? I know we didn't get along but that was no need to kill anyone! I had to lye down. Memories of my child hood flashed through my head. Me, Siff, and Freja running around pretending we were warriors. Laughing, enjoying ourselves, so innocent. I started to cry. Loki moved over to me and pulled me close. He rocked me back and forth as I cried. "It's going to be ok. I fixed everything." He fixed everything? "W what did you do to fix-x it?" "I used my magic; I made Siff's death seem like an accident. Everyone believes she was killed by accident. There were a few archers practicing a field over and I snuck an arrow and made it seem like a stray arrow killed her. Nobody knows you were involved." He blamed it on someone else? No, I couldn't let that happen. "Loki, you blamed someone else for Siff's death? I can't allow that, we need to go back to Asgard so I can tell everyone I was the one who did it." I tried to get up but fell back into Loki's lap. "Loviisa do you realize how detrimental that would be? Odin would be furious. Forget about banishment, he would have you put to death." "I deserve death. I should pay for what I did." Loki's grip tightened, "No. Loviisa please I don't think you realize how much you mean to me. I would be a mess if you were killed. I would probably die of a broken heart." I looked at him. "Loki I can't just walk away from this like nothing happened." He smiled, "Technically you can't walk at the moment." I gave him a dirty look. "Loki this is serious! I killed one of my best friends! I took a life!" Loki's face hardened. "I realize this is serious but you can't really say Siff was your best friend. You and her constantly but heads. You haven't been friends since you were ten." This was true; Siff and I didn't get along. I couldn't stand the site of her half the time. I remember being angry at her for ruining something. What was it? "Loki did we break up?" His smile turned into a frown. "Yes, yes we did." That explains why he's so distant. I started to remember everything. Loki and I arguing about him not defending me, me laying on the ground crying after the break up, running after Siff and attacking her, falling to the ground the world spinning around me, Loki picking me up and crying. "You found me when I killed Siff. You were crying." "Yes I was. I found you bleeding and mumbling about getting help. I picked you up and brought you to the to the forest. I ran back to Siff trying to figure out what to do with her. I saw the archers and stole an arrow and planted it on Siff. I then ran back to the forest to find you pale and non responsive. I wrapped you in bandages and took you to Midgard so no one could find you." He risked everything for me. But why? We broke up he could of left me there. "Loki why did you risk everything? You could have just left me there and how did you know I was with Siff?" Loki shook his head. "I thought you knew me better than that. Didn't I tell that I loved you? When someone says that it means they'll do anything for you, no matter what. And I knew you were in trouble because a concerned friend told me." Freja, she must have run to Loki right after I let her go. "I think you know who it is? She told me you were making the biggest mistake of your life and that I should stop you. So naturally I used magic to find you just in time to help you." I smiled at Loki but I saw the flaw in his plan. "Loki, you do realize people will notice that I am missing and wont your father realize you're not around either?" A big smile spread across his face and he started to laugh. What was so funny? I didn't say anything funny. Loki stopped laughing and smirked at me. "Confused?" he said with a slight chuckle. "Yeah, why are you laughing?" "I am laughing at your lack of confidence in me. Do you think I would try to disappear without telling my father? All of Asgard would be looking for me." "So does that mean you have an alibi?" Loki smiled and nodded his head. "Yes of course I do and we have an alibi not just me." I smiled at him, "Well what is it?" Loki's face started to turn red but the smirk remained. "You can't be happy with the fact that we have an alibi and that we won't get in trouble?" I shook my head. "Of course your not." He started to laugh. "Well I told Odin we needed some alone time." Alone time, did he mean what I think he meant? "Alone time?" Loki smiled, "Yes alone time. We have been dating for a few months and Odin was completely fine with it. Being the god of mischief people knew it would be a matter of time till I whisked you away." I smiled at him. That was a good alibi I'll give him that but wasn't it a bit risky? "Loki, your father honestly believed you? He didn't hear about the break up?" "Yes he did. I told him because of the break up I wanted to take you away to prove to you how much I cared for you." I blushed that was so sweat of him. How could I have broken up with him when he said things like that? I sat there staring at him in silence. He looked at me and smiled turning towards the fire. "So let me get this straight, people believe were having some alone time in order for you to prove your love to me?" Loki nodded his head still looking at the fire. "Do you approve?" "Yes I do but I have an idea that would make the alibi even better." Loki turned and looked at me. "Oh, you think my alibi needs improvement?" I smirked, "Yes I do." His eyebrows rose, "Oh really? Do tell." My face felt hot. I knew what I wanted to do but I didn't want to say it out loud. "Well I can show you better than I can tell you." Loki's face hardened, "What do you mean?" Ugh! Why wasn't he getting what I was suggesting? "Don't ask questions, just come over here." He looked at me for a few moments and slowly inched over to me. "Ok I'm here what do u want to show me?" I smiled and leaned forward. No! I couldn't reach him and it didn't help that he was leaning backwards smiling at me. "Stop moving." He smirked, "What are you trying to do?" Why was he playing dumb? He knew exactly what I was trying to do. I moved myself closer to him. I reached my arm out and started pulling him towards me. Loki started to pull away, "Loviisa please, I don't think we should be doing this." I smiled, "Loki I'm just trying to prove how much I care for you." With that Loki smiled and blushed and didn't resist me anymore.