Chapter 7 – It hurts too much
"Severus…"
Severus kept walking as he heard Remus call his name. He wasn't going to play this game they had anymore, I just hurt too much.
"Severus, stop for a minute." Remus' voice echoed in the halls.
How could he have been so stupid, and he was actually going to confess to Remus… no… Lupin like that. It was obvious that Re.. Lupin was going to do as he pleased without any consideration of his feelings, and after all that planning and dreaming and having to endure… Lucius'… touches…
Severus came to an abrupt stop as he reflected on the whole situation. Didn't he do the exact same thing? Didn't he betray Remus as much as Remus betrayed him?
Warm arms wrapped around his slim waist as Severus was pulled into a tight embrace.
A voice inside his head sighed in relief as he felt Remus take a deep breath into his hair.
Another voice screamed at him to run and get as far away from Remus as possible, that this was all just another broken heart waiting to happen.
But he feels so good Severus thought as he leaned into Remus' warm chest.
Turning Severus around, Remus led him out of the school and into the forbidden forest.
As soon as they were out of eyes reach Remus grabbed him by the neck and kissed him with a passion that brought him to his knees.
As he sank down onto the soft earth, Severus heard a growl deep within Remus' throat as they pulled apart.
"How could you Severus, kissing others, letting their taste pollute your own?"
A sudden wave of rage swept through Severus and suddenly the spell was broken.
"How dare I? Get off me LUPIN! Why don't you take a look in the mirror and ask yourself the same questions."
Getting up off the ground, Severus glared as Remus stared up in infuriating innocents.
"I don't know what you are talking about Severus; I did what I did to punish you. You were being naughty so in order to set you straight I had to show you what would happen if you persisted." Getting up Remus walked closer toward Severus. " So I took another, I kissed and embrased someone else to show you how badly you need me with you. To show you that you can't live without me.
Do you understand now? You are mine and ONLY mine. Now come here so that I can show you. I sill have to punish you for kissing Sirius and James."
Remus smiled as he held out his hand toward him.
Severus just watched Remus with cold black eyes. Did he actually think that he could get away with this? That he, Severus Snape was actually going to buy his bull shit? Didn't he say he loved him? Didn't he want to be with HIM? So why was he sleeping with other people? Why was he hurting the one he was supposed to like so much?
Feeling his heart break all over again, all the fight was drained out of him.
"No Remus, no more." A sad smile cropped up on his lips. "This isn't a game… not anymore. I don't want to see you again, so please leave me alone." Tears welled up in his eyes and ran down his cheeks.
Turning, Severus walked away.
What have you done? Remus asked Mooney as he watched Severus walk away from his life forever.
He will come back, just you watch.
"Severus!" Mooney yelled "Severus come back right now."
A few moments passed without a sound
Where is he?…why isn't he coming back? Mooney's voice took on a note of unease as his calls were not answered.
He isn't coming back Mooney. He isn't coming back and It's all your fault.
No…no he's coming, we just have to think of a new way to get him to understand. Mooney's voice was now full of panic as the consequences of his actions fully sank in.
Didn't you see his face! Didn't you see it! He was crushed and you crushed him! You made him that way. You had to go and sleep with that bimbo blond. You and to go and rub it in his face. Well I hope you are happy and that she was worth it because you made me lose Sev forever.
And with that Remus fell to the floor and burst into tears. Earth shattering sobs escaped his lips as he lay down on the ground. The sound of a gut wrenching howl could be heard as Mooney realized he lost his mate.
Back at the dorms, in the dungeons another boy lay on his bed staring up at the ceiling while silent tears fell onto his already drenched pillow. As he looked into oblivion he could feel the heart wrenching pain that raced through the man he loved. Closing his eyes Severus wrapped his arms around himself trying to understand but being unable. With his last minute of consciousness, Severus, at the same moment as the boy in the forest, wished his life would get better.
Sorry this is sooo short but it had to be done, and also sorry for the minimal smexiness that also was a must. I just can't seem to get them together. Stupid Remus keeps fucking up! Some people asked why Sev kissed Sirius and James and my answer to that is Revenge to Remus and an F-you to the two boys, kinda showing them that "hey I'm just as good a lover as you are now shut up". I thought he got his point across . Anyway hopefully this will take a turn for the better. (I was brought up on Disney so in my reality everyone gets what they want in the end. If anyone can burst my bubble I'll be happy to make sure to prove Disney wrong.) Till next time.
