Some late night confessions.
enjoy!
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chapter 7
Thursday was over in no time, and at the end of the day, the four riders said their good byes for the night and went on home to their dull little apartment.
And dull was a major understatement.
Ever since the four settled down, they were at a loss of anything to do. All they could think about was the past two days, and their two new friends. So much had happened that it seemed unreal.
A dream they were positive that they all wanted to have again.
It was well past midnight when Trowa and Wufei annouced that they were going off to their shared room for bed.
That left Heero and Duo still up. They were in the small kitchen, quietly sitting at the table. Both had a cup of strong hot coffee in their hands, and thoughtful gazes on their faces. So many different things were on their minds, that it was hard to concentrate on just one.
They have been like this for almost an hour, and both were reluctant to start any kind of conversation.
As usual, the silence was too much for the braided rider, so he spoke. "Heero?..." he began, unsure how to finish.
Heero didn't look up, but gave a light 'Hm?'.
"I... What do you think about Chance, and Chase?" he asked, not ready to go into any detail about what he thought.
And Heero was pretty sure he wasn't ready either. "Well... Chance is a very strong willed and confident woman... I'm sure she could help us out a lot if we needed it... I think that she is probably the best person to be with if we go into the city again anytime soon...." he trailed off.
Duo had to agree with that. "Yeah.. She does seem to know her way around things pretty well... But that's what happens when you grow up on the streets... You either learn how to get by or you get left behind..." he mumbled the last part, remembrance in his voice
His friend noticed that, and reached across the table to place his hand on top of Duo's. "Duo, you didn't get left behind. You got adopted by a good family, and they still care for you. Howard's always treated you like his very own son." Heero pointed out. He knew that Duo still had bad memories of those nights when he was all alone as a small child.
"I know that... Howard's great..." Duo smiled and laughed softly. "Actually he's more of a friend than a father, but still... To see that they're people still out there...." His hands gripped the coffee mug tighter. "I can tell that Chance has had it worse, though. She didn't get adopted into a nice family like I did.... Chase said it himself....." He looked straight up into Heero's cobalt blue eyes. "That orphanage is for abused children. No kid gets placed in an abuse shelter unless it was really bad, and the police couldn't ignore it anymore. I know, I've seen it.... But I was only kicked around a little... Howard came around before it turned into something major... Hn, kinda makes ya wonder what happened to her.." Duo grunted as he took a big gulp of his coffee.
His tone caused Heero to wonder. "Duo? You sound like you're worried about her... Like you really want to know what has happened to her... Do you?" he asked curiously.
Violet eyes became wide as he stared into the mug. "I... I don't know... There's just something about her that just... Makes me want to strangle her, and hug her at the same time. It's so fucking confusing that I don't know what to do. I mean, one part of me wants ta kick her ass for showing me up, and doing everything better than me..."
"And the other part?" Heero prompted.
Duo sighed deeply. "And the other part wants me ta just pull her close and kiss her stupid. She's just so... Perfect, ya know? Everything I've ever wanted in a woman is all wrapped up in a nice drop dead sexy package...." he grunted in aggervation. "And I can't tell if she's flirting, or trying to piss me off, and she annoys the hell outta me...."
Heero's mouth twitched into a small smirk. "Sounds like you've fallen pretty hard for her."
Duo laughed with a tired voice. "Like a truck off a ten story building.... I don't know what it is, but something is just telling me to go for it....I don't know what to do... Sure I've been with a lot of different women, but none of them made me feel.. Like there's something out there, something that could really change my life...." He closed his eyes and pictured the daring young woman in his mind. "And I think the only one that can show it to me is Chance..." His eyes opened, and he looked over at his best friend, a weary expression on his face. "What do you think I should do, Hee?"
He could see the lost look in the violet eyes, so Heero decided to share something with him. "Duo, a little after Wufei transferred to our high school, Trowa came to me with pretty much the same question. Now I'm going to give you the same advice I gave him. Follow your emotions. If you feel like Chance might be something important to you, then go for it. If you deny yourself of what you're feeling, then you'll regret it for the rest of your life." he told him calmly.
Then they became silent again as Duo thought over what he said. ~Can I just do that? I mean, I could be making the biggest mistake of my like...~
Suddenly that little voice spoke up again. ~Maybe... But what if it's not a mistake? Are you willing to let her slip by, and never know what could have been? Remember that poem she said yesterday? Chances are rare. Maybe this Chance is meant for you.~
Surprised at how meaningful that was, he couldn't help but smile. "Hm.. Guess I'll hafta take my chances... Or at least that hot one with the black hair and those green eyes that are to die for." he grinned brightly. Now that he thought of green, something else came into his mind. "Speaking of black hair and green eyes, what about you an' Chase? What's going on between you two?"
Heero was startled at the sudden redirection, and he tried to fight off a faint blush. "Uhhhh.... What do you mean?" he coughed out nervously.
"Don't give me that bull shit, Mr. Stonewall Yuy!" Duo stated firmly. "I saw the two of you all cuddly like back at the bar. And I saw you getting very cozy in Neil's office earlier today."
"You what?!" Heero's mouth hung open in shock. "You were spying on me???"
Duo shook his head. "No, not spying. Me and Chance came back to get to get some insurance forms, and the contracts for me to sign, and we caught the two of you playing tongue tango. So tell me.. How was your first kiss???" he asked in a light jeering tone.
Heero became angry at the fact that Duo made a point to remind him that it was the first time anyone had ever kissed him....
But when he remembered the kiss itself his mind became all fuzzy, and his heart felt like melting. "Perfect... Duo... I-I think I've really found someone who'll accept me... Chase... He's not like anyone I've ever met before... He... He doesn't seem to care about me always being so silent, or even gruff. It's almost as if he's looking straight through me, right into my soul..." He shuddered at the thought. "I never liked it when people would try to make me lighten up.. But Chase doesn't make me do anything.. He likes me just the way I am..." he whispered in near awe.
Duo smiled at his friend. "Sounds like you've found that special someone too. I like Chase. He's really kind and giving. Sounds like just what you need...."
Heero nodded in agreement. "He is.. He might be too kind for his own good, but that's why I like him so much.. That kind of gentle personality is so rare..."
"Hm... So we got the kind angel boy, and the reckless wild woman..." Duo mused with a grin. "Kinda hard ta believe that they're related." he chuckled out.
The stoic rider give a slight laugh. "Hm.. Really.... But you can't deny that they deffinately look realated." he pointed out.
"Oh yeah, do they ever! If it wasn't for the fact Chance has that sweet rack and that perfect round ass, I couldn't tell them apart." Duo said rather openly.
Heero quirked a brow. "What's wrong with Chase's ass?"
The two become quiet, then both laugh at the stupid question.
It was a while before they calmed down, and finally returned to looking at their mugs.
"Duo.." Heero suddenly spoke out. "I don't think I've ever thanked you..." He looked up at the braided rider, a distant gaze in his eyes. "You're the only one I've ever been able to open up to... I can't even be this open around my own brother...." he mumbled in shame.
Duo could tell that he was being harsh with himself, so quickly acted to stop him. "Heero, it's okay. You're just not the kind of person that can open up to people. I understand that, and so does Trowa." He reached out to place a hand on his arm. "You're his brother, and no matter what, he's still gonna love and respect you, just like he always has." he told him gently.
Heero placed his hand on top of Duo's. "I know.. You're right.. I just can't help but feel bad for leaving him out of my life. I don't think I've ever really shared anything with him..... I know that's not true, but that's just the way I feel."
Duo was worried for his friend, and knew just what to say. "Hey, Heero.. After Tro got together with Wu, he got a lot more open and easy going. Maybe when you and Chase get together, he'll help you be more open."
That made Heero think. "Maybe... I don't want to hope for too much though...."
"Hey, what did you just get through tellin' me? Follow your emotions? If you're gonna give advice about relationships, you should practice what you preach." Duo pointed out with a laugh.
Again, Heero felt himself give a ghost of a smile to his friend. "Maybe I will.. Thanks, Duo."
"No thanks necessary, buddy. I just hope you and Chase will make it out okay."
"Yeah..." Heero sighed and closed his eyes. Reliving the moment of his first kiss, a more pronounced smile found its way to his lips.
"I do too..."
~*~
While sitting in bed, reading his favorite novel, Quatre felt very at peace with himelf. It was the first time in his entire life that he felt like nothing could go wrong.
And it was a feeling that he absolutely loved.
As he was about to turn the page of his book...
*Knock! Knock! Knock!*
Someone knocked at his bedroom door.
His aqua eyes looked at the door, and he placed his book down beside him. "Come in." he called out to his visitor.
The door came swinging open, and in walked Chance with two mugs of something steaming. "Hey, buddy! I knew you'd still be up, so thought I'd bring ya something." she said as she pushed the door closed with her hip.
He looked at the mugs, then back up at her. "Coffee? Chance, you know that I don't like drinking coffee before I go to bed." he pointed out, not wanting a late night caffine buzz.
"I know that, Q. That's why I brought up some hot coco. Give me a little credit here." Chance stated blandly as she handed him a mug.
"Oh..." Quatre grinned as he takes it. "Sorry."
"That's okay..." Chance looked at the book beside him as she sat on the bed. "So whatcha readin' there?"
Quatre picked up his book, and glanced at the cover for a moment. "Oh, just an old book." he said in dismissal and tossed it on his bedside table. "So what brings you here other than to bring me this?" he asked curiously.
Chance faked an insulted look. "Now what makes you think I wanted anything? Can't a girl bring her best friend something ta drink? God, people are so untrusting, thinking everyone that does something nice wants something in return..." she huffed. She crossed her arms over her chest and stuck her nose up in the air.
He gave her a knowing look. "You wanna know how my first kiss was with Heero."
"Either you tell me, or I'm tickling it out of you." Chance stated plainly.
"Fine..." Quatre took a sip of the warm sweet drink and placed it on the table next to his book. "It was... Nice..."
Chance's jaw dropped. "Nice? You practically throw yourself at the guy, and you were kissing for a full ten minutes, and all you can say is that it was nice???" she exclaimed, hardly believing this.
The blonde laughed at her. "Okay, it was very nice."
She groaned loudly in frustration. "Do you *want* me to smack you?!"
"Not really." he giggled. "Alright, it was increddible... He's just so strong, and calm... And I can tell that he's a very kind and caring person. All of that gruff stuff is just a front. I guess he's just so used to keeping to himself that he always acts that way... But I don't care." Quatre sighed deeply.
Chance now had a smile on her face as she watched him. "So you really like him, huh?"
The blonde nodded. "Yes... But.. Oh, Chance, what am I going to do? Look at me. I'm Quatre, not Chase. Chase is the person that Heero likes.. I have to tell him eventually before it goes too far.. What happens if he rejects me after I tell him the truth??" Quatre cried out, his calm feeling from before completely gone.
Quickly, she sat her mug on the table, and Chance gathered Quatre into her arms to hold him close. "Shhh... Quatre, it's okay... Listen, it doesn't matter if you're Chase, or Quatre. The two of you are the same person, you just look different... And if Heero is the kind and caring person you say he is, then he won't care what you look like...." She pulled away, and made him look at her. "I don't think Heero fell in love with a black wig and some green contact lenses. You are a wonderful person, and Heero would be stupid not to love you no matter what." she told him softly.
After sniffing a few times, Quatre looked at her with big sad aqua eyes. "You think so?"
"I know so. If I'm wrong, and he causes you ta just frown I'll hunt him down, skin him, and replace the seat on your bike."
Quatre blinked. "Ummm.. I don't think you'll hafta do that."
Chance grinned. "I know, I'm just saying that to make you feel better."
"Lovely..." He rolled his eyes. "Hm.. Well, what about you?" he asked suddenly.
This time Chance blinked. "What about me?"
"You know! What about you and Duo? Is anything going on there?" he jeered. He was starting to like the blush that was on her face.
And Chance was blushing brightly. "I... I'm not sure... He is very sexy, but I'm not sure if I want to get into another relationship...." Now her face was turning sad. "Ever since I lost T.K. my ability to judge the people I hook up with is somewhat lacking.... I don't think I can stand to be hurt again.." she mumbled as painful memories flooded back to her.
Now it was Quatre's turn to hold her. "Oh, Chance... You have to let him go.. If you want to have a happy future with someone, you'll have to let T.K. go..." he whispered to her gently.
Chance suddenly shook her head rapidly. "No! I can't let him go! T.K. was everything to me! H-He knew everything about me... I told him everything, but he still wanted me, he still loved me.. I can never replace him, that would mean I'm betraying the love we once had.." She pulled away from him and her teal eyes bore into Quatre's, the pain almost unbearable. "T.K. is the only man that I should have been with, but he's dead because of me... If.. If he hadn't gone to the river side, I just know that he would still be alive... I'm the reason he's dead... His love for me killed him...." she whispered in a broken tone. Her eyes were staring off past her friend as if she could see the dreadful night all over again.
Quatre could see this plainly, and he tried to make her focus on him. "Chance, look at me! That wasn't your fault! None of it was your fault. I know that you and T.K. loved each other, but do you think T.K. would want you to torture yourself over his death? He loved you, and he would want you to be happy. You wouldn't betray him in anyway if you found love with someone else. If anything you would be honoring his memory." he told her firmly, not about to let her slip away in her self guilt again.
"Honoring? How could I possibly be honoring him?" Chance asked in a sad confusion.
The blonde smiled, glad that he got her attention. "Think about it... If you found a love that was just as strong as the one you had with T.K. then you could share everything he shared with you... That's what being in love is about... Being able to share the burden of things you can't handle on your own. Maybe Duo is the person you can open up to... The one you can finally share your secrets with... The only thing you have to do is try. See what might be there." Quatre said honestly in hopes she would follow his advice.
She still had a sad look on her face when she replied. "You think so?"
Quatre smirked at her. "I know so." He reached out and cupped her face in his hand. "And if I'm wrong, and he causes you to even sniffle, I'll hunt him down, bound and gag him, and give him to you for your birthday as a new toy." he laughed.
Chance blinked. "You promise?"
The blonde nodded. "I promise. I'll wrap him up in black and red ribbons, put that ridiculously long hair up in pigtails, and I'll even buy you a leash and collar to put on him.... After we have him nudered, of course." he added with a grin.
That made the woman laugh. "Oh of course, can't have him too frisky." She then went quiet, and looked at Quatre for a moment. "Thanks, Q. You always could make me feel better. Come here, pal!" She then pounced on him and pinned him down on the bed.
Quatre went wide eyed as he stared up at his best friend hovering over him. "Umm... What are you doing?" he asked, unsure if he wanted the answer.
Chance grinned at him, and made herself comfortable by strattling his stomach. "Nothin'. Hmmm... I wonder... You think you'll be on the top or the bottom when ya finally get it on with tall dark and antisocial?" she asked very bluntly with a grin that went from ear to ear.
"Chance!!!" Quatre squeaked, unable to believe what he just heard.
"What?! It's an honest question! You got two options there, ya know." Chance laughed out.
He looked at her blankly. "I can't believe you! You are absolutely awful! How can you joke about something like that???"
She was still grinning at him as she answered. "It's very easy to. I only have one option, really, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna be the submissive one. If Duo and me do go horizontal, he's gonna hafta fight me for control, 'cause I'm not gonna be easy...." She then got a very nasty smile on her face. "Oh, you wouldn't believe the fights me and T.K. would get into... Sometimes we got so roudy that we broke the bed at his apartment... Actually we did that quite a lot."
A tiny drop of blood made itself known from Quatre's nose. "Chance! I do not need to know about your personal... practices with T.K.!"
"Practices? Ha! I'd say we were fucking good experts after our first year together!... Or should it be good fucking experts?...."
"Chance!!!"
"What?!"
~*~*~*~ TBC
Tee hee ^_^
Later
Thursday was over in no time, and at the end of the day, the four riders said their good byes for the night and went on home to their dull little apartment.
And dull was a major understatement.
Ever since the four settled down, they were at a loss of anything to do. All they could think about was the past two days, and their two new friends. So much had happened that it seemed unreal.
A dream they were positive that they all wanted to have again.
It was well past midnight when Trowa and Wufei annouced that they were going off to their shared room for bed.
That left Heero and Duo still up. They were in the small kitchen, quietly sitting at the table. Both had a cup of strong hot coffee in their hands, and thoughtful gazes on their faces. So many different things were on their minds, that it was hard to concentrate on just one.
They have been like this for almost an hour, and both were reluctant to start any kind of conversation.
As usual, the silence was too much for the braided rider, so he spoke. "Heero?..." he began, unsure how to finish.
Heero didn't look up, but gave a light 'Hm?'.
"I... What do you think about Chance, and Chase?" he asked, not ready to go into any detail about what he thought.
And Heero was pretty sure he wasn't ready either. "Well... Chance is a very strong willed and confident woman... I'm sure she could help us out a lot if we needed it... I think that she is probably the best person to be with if we go into the city again anytime soon...." he trailed off.
Duo had to agree with that. "Yeah.. She does seem to know her way around things pretty well... But that's what happens when you grow up on the streets... You either learn how to get by or you get left behind..." he mumbled the last part, remembrance in his voice
His friend noticed that, and reached across the table to place his hand on top of Duo's. "Duo, you didn't get left behind. You got adopted by a good family, and they still care for you. Howard's always treated you like his very own son." Heero pointed out. He knew that Duo still had bad memories of those nights when he was all alone as a small child.
"I know that... Howard's great..." Duo smiled and laughed softly. "Actually he's more of a friend than a father, but still... To see that they're people still out there...." His hands gripped the coffee mug tighter. "I can tell that Chance has had it worse, though. She didn't get adopted into a nice family like I did.... Chase said it himself....." He looked straight up into Heero's cobalt blue eyes. "That orphanage is for abused children. No kid gets placed in an abuse shelter unless it was really bad, and the police couldn't ignore it anymore. I know, I've seen it.... But I was only kicked around a little... Howard came around before it turned into something major... Hn, kinda makes ya wonder what happened to her.." Duo grunted as he took a big gulp of his coffee.
His tone caused Heero to wonder. "Duo? You sound like you're worried about her... Like you really want to know what has happened to her... Do you?" he asked curiously.
Violet eyes became wide as he stared into the mug. "I... I don't know... There's just something about her that just... Makes me want to strangle her, and hug her at the same time. It's so fucking confusing that I don't know what to do. I mean, one part of me wants ta kick her ass for showing me up, and doing everything better than me..."
"And the other part?" Heero prompted.
Duo sighed deeply. "And the other part wants me ta just pull her close and kiss her stupid. She's just so... Perfect, ya know? Everything I've ever wanted in a woman is all wrapped up in a nice drop dead sexy package...." he grunted in aggervation. "And I can't tell if she's flirting, or trying to piss me off, and she annoys the hell outta me...."
Heero's mouth twitched into a small smirk. "Sounds like you've fallen pretty hard for her."
Duo laughed with a tired voice. "Like a truck off a ten story building.... I don't know what it is, but something is just telling me to go for it....I don't know what to do... Sure I've been with a lot of different women, but none of them made me feel.. Like there's something out there, something that could really change my life...." He closed his eyes and pictured the daring young woman in his mind. "And I think the only one that can show it to me is Chance..." His eyes opened, and he looked over at his best friend, a weary expression on his face. "What do you think I should do, Hee?"
He could see the lost look in the violet eyes, so Heero decided to share something with him. "Duo, a little after Wufei transferred to our high school, Trowa came to me with pretty much the same question. Now I'm going to give you the same advice I gave him. Follow your emotions. If you feel like Chance might be something important to you, then go for it. If you deny yourself of what you're feeling, then you'll regret it for the rest of your life." he told him calmly.
Then they became silent again as Duo thought over what he said. ~Can I just do that? I mean, I could be making the biggest mistake of my like...~
Suddenly that little voice spoke up again. ~Maybe... But what if it's not a mistake? Are you willing to let her slip by, and never know what could have been? Remember that poem she said yesterday? Chances are rare. Maybe this Chance is meant for you.~
Surprised at how meaningful that was, he couldn't help but smile. "Hm.. Guess I'll hafta take my chances... Or at least that hot one with the black hair and those green eyes that are to die for." he grinned brightly. Now that he thought of green, something else came into his mind. "Speaking of black hair and green eyes, what about you an' Chase? What's going on between you two?"
Heero was startled at the sudden redirection, and he tried to fight off a faint blush. "Uhhhh.... What do you mean?" he coughed out nervously.
"Don't give me that bull shit, Mr. Stonewall Yuy!" Duo stated firmly. "I saw the two of you all cuddly like back at the bar. And I saw you getting very cozy in Neil's office earlier today."
"You what?!" Heero's mouth hung open in shock. "You were spying on me???"
Duo shook his head. "No, not spying. Me and Chance came back to get to get some insurance forms, and the contracts for me to sign, and we caught the two of you playing tongue tango. So tell me.. How was your first kiss???" he asked in a light jeering tone.
Heero became angry at the fact that Duo made a point to remind him that it was the first time anyone had ever kissed him....
But when he remembered the kiss itself his mind became all fuzzy, and his heart felt like melting. "Perfect... Duo... I-I think I've really found someone who'll accept me... Chase... He's not like anyone I've ever met before... He... He doesn't seem to care about me always being so silent, or even gruff. It's almost as if he's looking straight through me, right into my soul..." He shuddered at the thought. "I never liked it when people would try to make me lighten up.. But Chase doesn't make me do anything.. He likes me just the way I am..." he whispered in near awe.
Duo smiled at his friend. "Sounds like you've found that special someone too. I like Chase. He's really kind and giving. Sounds like just what you need...."
Heero nodded in agreement. "He is.. He might be too kind for his own good, but that's why I like him so much.. That kind of gentle personality is so rare..."
"Hm... So we got the kind angel boy, and the reckless wild woman..." Duo mused with a grin. "Kinda hard ta believe that they're related." he chuckled out.
The stoic rider give a slight laugh. "Hm.. Really.... But you can't deny that they deffinately look realated." he pointed out.
"Oh yeah, do they ever! If it wasn't for the fact Chance has that sweet rack and that perfect round ass, I couldn't tell them apart." Duo said rather openly.
Heero quirked a brow. "What's wrong with Chase's ass?"
The two become quiet, then both laugh at the stupid question.
It was a while before they calmed down, and finally returned to looking at their mugs.
"Duo.." Heero suddenly spoke out. "I don't think I've ever thanked you..." He looked up at the braided rider, a distant gaze in his eyes. "You're the only one I've ever been able to open up to... I can't even be this open around my own brother...." he mumbled in shame.
Duo could tell that he was being harsh with himself, so quickly acted to stop him. "Heero, it's okay. You're just not the kind of person that can open up to people. I understand that, and so does Trowa." He reached out to place a hand on his arm. "You're his brother, and no matter what, he's still gonna love and respect you, just like he always has." he told him gently.
Heero placed his hand on top of Duo's. "I know.. You're right.. I just can't help but feel bad for leaving him out of my life. I don't think I've ever really shared anything with him..... I know that's not true, but that's just the way I feel."
Duo was worried for his friend, and knew just what to say. "Hey, Heero.. After Tro got together with Wu, he got a lot more open and easy going. Maybe when you and Chase get together, he'll help you be more open."
That made Heero think. "Maybe... I don't want to hope for too much though...."
"Hey, what did you just get through tellin' me? Follow your emotions? If you're gonna give advice about relationships, you should practice what you preach." Duo pointed out with a laugh.
Again, Heero felt himself give a ghost of a smile to his friend. "Maybe I will.. Thanks, Duo."
"No thanks necessary, buddy. I just hope you and Chase will make it out okay."
"Yeah..." Heero sighed and closed his eyes. Reliving the moment of his first kiss, a more pronounced smile found its way to his lips.
"I do too..."
~*~
While sitting in bed, reading his favorite novel, Quatre felt very at peace with himelf. It was the first time in his entire life that he felt like nothing could go wrong.
And it was a feeling that he absolutely loved.
As he was about to turn the page of his book...
*Knock! Knock! Knock!*
Someone knocked at his bedroom door.
His aqua eyes looked at the door, and he placed his book down beside him. "Come in." he called out to his visitor.
The door came swinging open, and in walked Chance with two mugs of something steaming. "Hey, buddy! I knew you'd still be up, so thought I'd bring ya something." she said as she pushed the door closed with her hip.
He looked at the mugs, then back up at her. "Coffee? Chance, you know that I don't like drinking coffee before I go to bed." he pointed out, not wanting a late night caffine buzz.
"I know that, Q. That's why I brought up some hot coco. Give me a little credit here." Chance stated blandly as she handed him a mug.
"Oh..." Quatre grinned as he takes it. "Sorry."
"That's okay..." Chance looked at the book beside him as she sat on the bed. "So whatcha readin' there?"
Quatre picked up his book, and glanced at the cover for a moment. "Oh, just an old book." he said in dismissal and tossed it on his bedside table. "So what brings you here other than to bring me this?" he asked curiously.
Chance faked an insulted look. "Now what makes you think I wanted anything? Can't a girl bring her best friend something ta drink? God, people are so untrusting, thinking everyone that does something nice wants something in return..." she huffed. She crossed her arms over her chest and stuck her nose up in the air.
He gave her a knowing look. "You wanna know how my first kiss was with Heero."
"Either you tell me, or I'm tickling it out of you." Chance stated plainly.
"Fine..." Quatre took a sip of the warm sweet drink and placed it on the table next to his book. "It was... Nice..."
Chance's jaw dropped. "Nice? You practically throw yourself at the guy, and you were kissing for a full ten minutes, and all you can say is that it was nice???" she exclaimed, hardly believing this.
The blonde laughed at her. "Okay, it was very nice."
She groaned loudly in frustration. "Do you *want* me to smack you?!"
"Not really." he giggled. "Alright, it was increddible... He's just so strong, and calm... And I can tell that he's a very kind and caring person. All of that gruff stuff is just a front. I guess he's just so used to keeping to himself that he always acts that way... But I don't care." Quatre sighed deeply.
Chance now had a smile on her face as she watched him. "So you really like him, huh?"
The blonde nodded. "Yes... But.. Oh, Chance, what am I going to do? Look at me. I'm Quatre, not Chase. Chase is the person that Heero likes.. I have to tell him eventually before it goes too far.. What happens if he rejects me after I tell him the truth??" Quatre cried out, his calm feeling from before completely gone.
Quickly, she sat her mug on the table, and Chance gathered Quatre into her arms to hold him close. "Shhh... Quatre, it's okay... Listen, it doesn't matter if you're Chase, or Quatre. The two of you are the same person, you just look different... And if Heero is the kind and caring person you say he is, then he won't care what you look like...." She pulled away, and made him look at her. "I don't think Heero fell in love with a black wig and some green contact lenses. You are a wonderful person, and Heero would be stupid not to love you no matter what." she told him softly.
After sniffing a few times, Quatre looked at her with big sad aqua eyes. "You think so?"
"I know so. If I'm wrong, and he causes you ta just frown I'll hunt him down, skin him, and replace the seat on your bike."
Quatre blinked. "Ummm.. I don't think you'll hafta do that."
Chance grinned. "I know, I'm just saying that to make you feel better."
"Lovely..." He rolled his eyes. "Hm.. Well, what about you?" he asked suddenly.
This time Chance blinked. "What about me?"
"You know! What about you and Duo? Is anything going on there?" he jeered. He was starting to like the blush that was on her face.
And Chance was blushing brightly. "I... I'm not sure... He is very sexy, but I'm not sure if I want to get into another relationship...." Now her face was turning sad. "Ever since I lost T.K. my ability to judge the people I hook up with is somewhat lacking.... I don't think I can stand to be hurt again.." she mumbled as painful memories flooded back to her.
Now it was Quatre's turn to hold her. "Oh, Chance... You have to let him go.. If you want to have a happy future with someone, you'll have to let T.K. go..." he whispered to her gently.
Chance suddenly shook her head rapidly. "No! I can't let him go! T.K. was everything to me! H-He knew everything about me... I told him everything, but he still wanted me, he still loved me.. I can never replace him, that would mean I'm betraying the love we once had.." She pulled away from him and her teal eyes bore into Quatre's, the pain almost unbearable. "T.K. is the only man that I should have been with, but he's dead because of me... If.. If he hadn't gone to the river side, I just know that he would still be alive... I'm the reason he's dead... His love for me killed him...." she whispered in a broken tone. Her eyes were staring off past her friend as if she could see the dreadful night all over again.
Quatre could see this plainly, and he tried to make her focus on him. "Chance, look at me! That wasn't your fault! None of it was your fault. I know that you and T.K. loved each other, but do you think T.K. would want you to torture yourself over his death? He loved you, and he would want you to be happy. You wouldn't betray him in anyway if you found love with someone else. If anything you would be honoring his memory." he told her firmly, not about to let her slip away in her self guilt again.
"Honoring? How could I possibly be honoring him?" Chance asked in a sad confusion.
The blonde smiled, glad that he got her attention. "Think about it... If you found a love that was just as strong as the one you had with T.K. then you could share everything he shared with you... That's what being in love is about... Being able to share the burden of things you can't handle on your own. Maybe Duo is the person you can open up to... The one you can finally share your secrets with... The only thing you have to do is try. See what might be there." Quatre said honestly in hopes she would follow his advice.
She still had a sad look on her face when she replied. "You think so?"
Quatre smirked at her. "I know so." He reached out and cupped her face in his hand. "And if I'm wrong, and he causes you to even sniffle, I'll hunt him down, bound and gag him, and give him to you for your birthday as a new toy." he laughed.
Chance blinked. "You promise?"
The blonde nodded. "I promise. I'll wrap him up in black and red ribbons, put that ridiculously long hair up in pigtails, and I'll even buy you a leash and collar to put on him.... After we have him nudered, of course." he added with a grin.
That made the woman laugh. "Oh of course, can't have him too frisky." She then went quiet, and looked at Quatre for a moment. "Thanks, Q. You always could make me feel better. Come here, pal!" She then pounced on him and pinned him down on the bed.
Quatre went wide eyed as he stared up at his best friend hovering over him. "Umm... What are you doing?" he asked, unsure if he wanted the answer.
Chance grinned at him, and made herself comfortable by strattling his stomach. "Nothin'. Hmmm... I wonder... You think you'll be on the top or the bottom when ya finally get it on with tall dark and antisocial?" she asked very bluntly with a grin that went from ear to ear.
"Chance!!!" Quatre squeaked, unable to believe what he just heard.
"What?! It's an honest question! You got two options there, ya know." Chance laughed out.
He looked at her blankly. "I can't believe you! You are absolutely awful! How can you joke about something like that???"
She was still grinning at him as she answered. "It's very easy to. I only have one option, really, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna be the submissive one. If Duo and me do go horizontal, he's gonna hafta fight me for control, 'cause I'm not gonna be easy...." She then got a very nasty smile on her face. "Oh, you wouldn't believe the fights me and T.K. would get into... Sometimes we got so roudy that we broke the bed at his apartment... Actually we did that quite a lot."
A tiny drop of blood made itself known from Quatre's nose. "Chance! I do not need to know about your personal... practices with T.K.!"
"Practices? Ha! I'd say we were fucking good experts after our first year together!... Or should it be good fucking experts?...."
"Chance!!!"
"What?!"
~*~*~*~ TBC
Tee hee ^_^
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