September 25

„It's so good to finally see you ." I said hugging my mom and dad. They came home. Finally.

"Oh, sweetie, we've missed you so much. How you've been? How is Edward? "

"I actually haven't talked to him for few days, but as far as I know he's fine. He now has a girlfriend." I said and smirked. Since our little talk ten days ago, we didn't spend so much time together.

"Oh, that's great. Is she pretty?" Rene asked with big grin on her face, but that didn't reach her eyes. Our parents always were hoping that I and Edward will get married.

"Mallory. " Mom sniffed. "But she's totally different. She's really sweet. I like her. And if she makes Edward happy, then I have no problem with her." I smiled. "And you know what? I have a boyfriend too. His name is Jacob and I will invite him to dinner if you want to meet him." I said and mom smiled.

"Oh, is he hot?"

"Mom! "

"Actually, honey, we are going back tomorrow."

"What? No. Why?" I was on the edge of the tears.

"Honey. It's our job. We need to. It's not like we always have fun. Me and your dad are working hard to get you all you have now."

"See you later." I said and walked up to my room. I was angry. I need them. They were always gone, they never were here. I can bet they even won't bother to come to my wedding one day, well – except if I will marry Edward. Which is not going to happen. I sighed and walked to my window. It was almost 6 pm. Weather outside was the same. Cold and wet. That was so depressing. They will be gone tomorrow and I'm up here being angry on them. I'm such a horrible daughter. There were knock on my door. I didn't bother to say something. I knew exactly who the other side of my door was. I heard doors slowly opening. Sweet smell filled the air. He came closer to me wrapping his strong arms around me. I felt more calm. He always had this effect on me. I turned around in his arms and wrapped them around his shoulders. He drew comforting circles on my back.

"Rene said that she told you." He finally spoke.

"Yeah. Are Carlisle and Esme going too?" I tilted my head to see his expression when he didn't respond. "I missed you these days," I said to him. "It feels like history repeats." I backed away from him. He was going to do this to me again. He was going to leave me again.

"Bella." He was again pulling me in to hug. ''I would never, ever do that to you again. I told you everything. That wasn't me. I was high all the time.''

"But-" he cut me off.

"Nu buts, I'll be there for you no matter what. You know that." He said and kissed my forehead. Actually I didn't trusted him anymore. I wanted so badly to trust him, but I just couldn't. And I felt so bad for it.

"Stay with me?" He breathed in and looked down. Jane.

"I can't. I promised my parents that I will be home. They are going away too Bells."

Oh. Forgot. "Right. I just thought that you have to go to Janes."

"Are you…you sounded jealous?" He smirked.

"No." Yes, but I don't know why. That was only because I was afraid to lose him again.

"You don't have to be." He smiled and cupped my face. "You know I'm yours anytime you want." And that was the first time I actually catched what he was saying. Did...did he was in love with me? No, why would he. He had blond girl with killer body and fake boobs.

"Edward. Why you always saying that? That you are mine anytime I want?" he narrowed his eyebrows and then chuckled.

"Because I'm your best friend Bella. What? You thought I'm in love with you?" He said and chuckled. That actually wasn't nice.

"Shut up Edward. Okay, I think you should go. I need some time with my parents." He gave me hug and I walked him to doors.

"I will pick you up tomorrow?" he asked in hopeful voice.

"If you want. But tomorrow is Sunday." I laughed and he pushed his eyebrows together. Then he chuckled. "Forgot" he said and after giving me a quick kiss on the cheek he left.

"Left already?" I saw dad standing in the foyer.

"Yep, his parents are going away too." I sad with hint of sadness in my voice.

"Come here kiddo." I walked and he met me halfway and hugged me tight. "I'm sorry, but it's what we do. But you and Edward have each other. It's not like you two are always alone and now that you both have other halfs its much better, plus, mom told that you two had made new friends too. Is that right?"

"Yes, did you knew Rosalie Hale has a twin brother? Well he moved here. And then there is this girl Alice. I can bet you will love her. She's like little pixie and she's always full of energy. Every one falls for her. She will wrap you around her little finger so easily."I said to him and smiled. "I just hope you will meet someday."

"Bells, why won't you ask all your friend to party at our house when we will be back here? We could send invitations to their parents too. What you say kiddo?" Wow, since when my dad is party people?

"That would be great dad. Thank you."

September 27

It's like they actually never been here. It's cold and quiet. It feels like before. I was all alone in this big house. In this big kitchen. Eating alone like always. Edward is here most of the time but it still feels lonely without my parents.

I heard front door opening and closing. He's here. I grab my bag and walk out of kitchen leaving my loneliness there. I put on my best happy face and smile to him. He smiles back. I know he feels the same. But he didn't show it because he doesn't want to upset me. But he knows I feel the same as he. But he still tries to make me feel better. He loves me too much. He hugs me and holds my hand while we are going to his car. He opens his passanger doors to me like usual. I get in tehcra. The dive there was quiet.

"Bella," he finally spokes "can I stay with you tonight? The silence and loneliness are killing me." It always is like that in first days. No matter how many years we have been through this it's still hurts in first days when their gone.

"You don't have to ask." I said and looked back out the window. We were pulling up in schools parking lot. All eyes were on Edwards car like always. I can see Jake talking to Sam. He's laughing like always. He's so positive. Little farther stands Alice smiling to some guy. I've never seen him here. Jasper is sending him death glares. Edward opens my doors and helps me to get out from his car. I smile and thank him.

"Bella." I hear little pixie screaming my name from a cross the parking lot. I exchange the looks with Edward and we both chuckle. And then it's happening I go to left and he goes to right. I go to meet Alice and Jake, but Edward goes to Jane.

"Hi Pixie." I said and hugged her. She was so tinny. Sometimes I was afraid to hurt her. She smiled a wide smile. "What's up? Why are we so happy in this fucking rainy morning?"

"See that guy over there?" She asked me and pointed to a guy with who she was talking earlier. He was muscular, tanned, his hair was rich color of brown just like mine.

"Yeah. Is he new?"

"Yes, he moved here from California" she paused and looked at him on more time. "He is so cute and sweet. He asked me out on date. " She said squealing.

"Wow, what about Jasper? Giving up already?" I teased her. She glanced at Jasper and frowned.

"I'm not going to wait for him. I will get old till he finally gets the courage to speak to me." She said and linked her hand with mine, but soon I was dragged out of her hand. Jake was holding me tightly.

"I missed you." He said and kissed my lips. I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer, and then I heard someone clearing their throat. That was Alice. She smiled shyly. "Sorry guys, but I'm not enjoying the show." She said and smiled. "Hi, Jake."

"Hey pixie." He said and winked at Alice. "So, meet you at lunch?" he asked holding my hand. We walked in to the school.

"Sure." I said and he kissed my cheek and left for class. I went to locker. People were greeting me like always. Girls trying to act all sweet and boys winking. I opened my locker and took out my biology book and throw it in to my bag.

When I get to the class Edward as already there with Jane in his lap. She was kissing his neck. Edward looked at me and gave me his crooked smile. In that moment I was getting sick. Why he did that? Like I was like the other girls who was chasing after him. I frowned and walked to our desk when someone grabbed my wrist.

"Bella." I looked up and saw Jasper looking at me with worried eyes.

"Jazz?"

"I was chasing you down the hallway and you never looked back. Are you angry at me?" Was he calling my name?

"I'm sorry, I didn't hear that you were calling me. Sorry. So? What's up?"

"Party at my house. This Friday. Tell Edward." He smiled and walked away. I looked at Edward. Jane was gone. I sat down and took out my books ignoring Edwards stare.

"Bella?" He whispered my name.

"Bella!" He was now pulling me by my upper arm.

"What?"

"Are you angry at me?"

I didn't say anything. Teacher walked in the class and I start to take notes. After ten minutes Edward slid little piece of paper in front of me.

Jealous much? ;) -E xxx

Fuck you!-B

He frowned and his smile disappeared.

What did I do?-E

I didn't respond to him. The bell ranged and I stormed out of class. Edward catched me before I could run away from him.

"What's wrong with you? Are you PMSing?" He was still holding my wrist.

"What was that? When I walked in to class? What was that smile for?" He smirked and let go of my hand, but put his hand on my neck and other hand on my waist pulling me closer. That caught few students' attention.

"Are you jealous Isabella?" He asked in smooth, slow voice. Pulling me closer he asked me one more time "Are you?" What was that? This wasn't Edward. He would never dare to do things like that. What now? Now he will be cocky arrogant prick? Two can play this game Cullen.

"Do you want me to be?" I asked in low voice.

"No." He said and pushed me away taking me by surprise. "I don't." He said and walked away.

"What was that?" I heard Jake's voice behind me. I turned around. He looked pissed.

"Nothing." I shook my head and started to walk, but he stopped me and.

"What was that Isabella?" he asked me with voice full of anger and jealousy.

"Hey! She said it was nothing!" Then two stronger arms pulled me back from Jake. It was Emmett. "What's your problem?" Jake didn't say anything but walked away.

I stood there thinking to myself – what was that? Why was he doing this? I wasn't sure what has got in to Edward. In our next classes we didn't talk. After my last period I met him at his car since I ride to school with him and my boyfriend was angry at me.

"Hey." Edward said and came to open my doors, but I pushed his arm away.

"I can do it by myself."I said and got in car.

"I'm sorry." He said breaking silence in the car. "I wasn't thinking." I didn't say anything to him. He pulled in my driveway and we got out of car.

"Since you have gf and I have bf it will be better if we won't share bed anymore. I will make sure spare bedroom is ready for you when you came back from Janes."

"Yeah. I think that's the best thing to do. We shouldn't sleep together anymore."

I walked in to house and took of my shoes and walked up to my room. "Are you still mad at me?" I heard velvet voice coming from my doorway.

"I just don't understand any of it. Why? Why me? I'm not the girl who fallows you around. Why are you trying to make me feel bad or jealous?" I sat down on edge of the bed. He came and sat next to me.

"I just…" His phone rang. "Jane." He said and got up. He walked out of room so I didn't hear the conversation. After her phone call Edward left. I was all alone again. I took a long shower and cleared my thought. Jake was angry at me, Edward was acting weird, I felt weird. All I wanted was my best friend and boyfriend back to normal.

It was 10 pm. I was still alone. There was storm outside. And fucking yes – I was afraid of thunder. I – just like a little girl – was sleeping with my head under the covers. But I could still see the lightning. I was fucking scared. Then I heard front doors slamming. Then I heard his footsteps running up the stairs and my doors flew open.

"Bells I'm sorry." He said and sat on my bed. "I couldn't make it in time. Jane said she's scared and shit. Are you okay? Are you scared?" He said and pulled blanket off of my head. I looked at him with wide eyes and he smiled. "I thought so." He said.

"Do you want me to stay with you until the storm is over or I can go to my room?"

"Go change and dry yourself." I said and pulled blanket back over my head. I heard him laugh and walk out of my room.

After few minutes he was back and under my blankets. "Are you sleeping?" He whispered in my ear.

"No." I said and turned over to face him. "What was going on today?"

"I…"

"Edward what is going on? I need to know. I just can't take it no more. You are acting all weird." He put his arm around my waist and pulled my closer to his chest.

"I'm sorry Bella."

"For what?" I tilted my head to look up at him.

"For cousing you problems with Jake. That is the real reason why are you mad, not because you can't figure out what's going on with me, you are mad because I made Jacob mad." He said with bitternes in his voice. Was he serious? He really thinks I don't give a shit about him?

"It's not true. I care about you more than you think. Edward I love you." He looked away from second then back at me.

"Do you love Jacob?" He asked. Why? Why was he asking me this? Do I love him?

"No." I answered. "Do you love Jane?" And then instead of answering me he pulled me closer and pressed his soft lips against mine. I froze for a second not knowing what to do, but then my instincts said to kiss him back. And I did. I kissed him. His arms traveled up to my neck and he caressed my cheek with his thumb. I run my fingers through his messy hair. Our bodies were so close together that made me moaned. I put one leg over his own and he rolled on top of me holding his weight with one arm and with other he was stroking my hand softly.

I let my hands exploring his body. He wasn't wearing a shirt. I felt his muscles tightening under my touch. I slid my fingers downs his abs. He moaned softly on my lips. I licked his bottom lip begging for entrance. He slowly opened his mouth and our tongues met in our mouths.

My hands were on his lover back. He slid his hand under my tank top. His lips were pulling away from mine. He looked in my eyes for permission. I nodded and he took of my top. I wasn't wearing bra so I blushed and he smiled and whispered "You are beautiful." He kissed me. His lips traveled down my jaw line, they crossed my throat and collar-bone. Now he was kissing his way down to my breasts. He was kissing and licking everywhere. With one hand he cupped my right breast and stroked my nipple with his thumb. Hes lips and tongue was on my left breast. he waslicking mynipple painfully slow causing me moanin bite my nipple and I moaned and pulled his hair a little. His lips made their way down my body step by step. He stopped on the edge of my boy shorts. He kissed the line were my body and fabric met.

Our underwear was gone. He was kissing my neck. And I thought for while – how it comes – my best friend was my first kiss and now he will be my first in this. I smiled – I couldn't wish better. This was much better than lose my virginity to some guy in some stupid party under lot of alcohol. I moaned when he slid two fingers inside of me. He was pumping in and out; his tongue was caressing my hard nipple.

"Edward." I moaned out and he let out breath. His lips traveled up my body when they finally met my lips again. I kissed him with all passion I got. He smiled and pulled away. He sat up and searched for something. He took out condom and put it on. I watched his every move. In the lightning he looked paler. Lightening. I was totally forgotten there was a storm outside.

He comforted himself between my legs and kissed my lips. "I'm sorry." I nodded weakly. He was so sweet. He was apologizing about that it will hurt me. But I can bet it will be all worth it.

I felt his tip touching my entrance. I couldn't wait any longer. I need to feel him. "Edward. Please." He nodded and slowly step by step entered in me. First it hurt like hell. But then the feeling came more enjoyable. He was moving slowly in my trying not to hurt me. And when he looked in my yes and everything just stopped. I felt fucking spark between us. My hand reached out for his neck and I pulled him closer to kiss him.

Our rhythm came faster we both moaned in each other mouths. I felt my body flush and I felt my climax coming. I wrapped my legs around his waist so that could make him go deeper in me. He looked in my eyes and with next thrust I felt my body release and breathing came faster. I've never felt this good in my life until this night. He pressed his lips on mine and moaned. Then he kissed my jaw and traveled down to my neck where he stopped and he whispered in my ear "I hope it answers to your question."

We were lying on my bed and his strong arms were wrapped around me. He was sleeping. His breath was calm and shallow. I was on the edge of tears. I was afraid what will tomorrow bring.