I know this is very long over due, I can't even remember the last time I updated this story. But I got a little motivation tonight and decided I want to try and finish this part of the story off, so here it is the next chapter, sorry it's been so long and thank you for all who have stuck with it, It's a little short as i'm getting back into the swing of things, but I hope you Enjoy it :)

Chapter 7 - Spiral

Buffy sat up suddenly panic racing through her, it was still dark and there was chill that hung in the air, turning to her right she saw him still sleeping. He looked different somehow, he didn't look like the monster everyone painted him to be, he looked still and at peace, and there was something comforting to her about the way he looked.

Taking a deep breath and holding on to the cover that covered her still naked body, she started to climb out of his bed, she didn't even know how she had ended up in here. Quietly she tip toed to the door and creaked it open, she slowly crept into the hallway but came to a sudden halt, taking in the scene before her, broken vases, knocked down paintings and smashed glass lead her all the way back to painting room where she found her clothes thrown to the floor, she couldn't quiet believe the damage they had caused during last night's events.
She sighed she had probably just made the biggest mistake of her life, getting involved with another vampire, but an Original Hybrid with anger and trust issues, what the hell had she been thinking coming here.

She didn't have time to react, it happened so fast. She was pinned up against the wall front first. She felt his heavy breath on the back of her neck as he spoke.
"Going somewhere love?"
She didn't fight him, lowering her head slightly she whispered "Nothing's changed, it was a mistake".
And as if her body was nothing to him, he flipped her over with one hand so she was facing his wolfish eyes that were studying her mouth before they moved up to her eyes.
"Bollocks, you came to me, you felt something last night."
She didn't reply, she couldn't look away from those eyes, and all she could think was how the warmth of his naked body was against hers, pinning her to the wall with only the thin sheet separating them.
"This is wrong". Was all she could muster, feeling her heart quicken as he slowly started to stroke her inner thigh. She held her breath, never had she had so much conflict run through her.

"But you're going to do it anyway". Klaus smirked at her.

There was no more time to argue with him, she wasn't even sure if she would have, she was pretty sure he was right, this was always going to happen from the moment he had laid his eyes on her back in Mystic Falls. He leaned forward so their foreheads were touching, he gently kissed her slowly, tugging the sheet away from her his hands found the wetness between her legs. The kiss deepened , both of them were hungry now, his tongue slide into her mouth, and she clung to him hard demanding him. She pushed him back forcefully and he let out a fierce growl, she pushed him again this time so he fell back into the armchair behind, she straddled him quickly and lowered herself onto him. She took control and soon he moved with her gripping her hips tightly as he sunk in and out of her, she kissed him again holding nothing back, she was letting herself lose control with him. She pulled away and buried her face in his shoulder as he held her, and together they came undone.

It was still dark when Buffy made it home, she was sure it was early morning but no idea what time it was. She and Klaus had been at each other for the last few hours, and after laying in the ground for some time she was sore and her muscles ached from not being used. She smiled it felt good, the soreness of her body made her feel alive.

The living room light was on, quietly Buffy made her way in wondering who was up so early and thinking how the hell she was going to explaining come in at this time, when she should have been in her own bed.

"Giles". Buffy stopped pausing dead in her tracks, he to paused at the sight of her. Eventually he was the first to move walking towards her he took her into his arms. Buffy sunk into him, no matter what was going on Giles always made her feel grounded.

Taking a step back from her he smiled.
"I'm glad you're ok Buffy."
"Thanks". She gave a weak smile and sat on the sofa as he took the seat opposite her.
"Where were you tonight?" He asked her.
"Walking." Buffy said quickly, the guilt coursing through her already. "I needed to clear my head".

"You did well tonight Buffy, I know it must be hard to get back in the fight. I imagine you're feeling very lonely right now".

Buffy looked at him, someone had obviously filled him in on the basement details.
"I don't feel lonely Giles, I feel...lost, I feel like I don't belong here, I shouldn't exist and yet here I 'am again fighting the fight like nothing ever happened, I still feel numb". She was truly honest with Giles, he had always been there for her, and she had always relayed on that.

"I imagine hell would make you feel numb, I don't agree with what Willow did, it was dangerous and she had no idea if it would work or how you would come back not to mention the consequences could of been much worse, it was foolish of her, but saying that I'm glad you here and alive, I couldn't bear the thought of you being stuck in some hell dimension Buffy, sacrifice is a brave thing"

Buffy knew she had to come clean sooner or later and she needed help she didn't want to feel like this anymore and Giles had always understood her, had always helped her through.

"Wherever I was... I was happy. At peace. I knew that everyone I cared about was all right. I knew it. Time... didn't mean anything... nothing had form... but I was still me, you know? And I was warm... and I was loved...and I was finished. Complete. I don't understand about theology or dimensions, or... any of it, really... but I think I was in heaven. And now I'm not. I was torn out of there. Pulled out... by my friends. Everything here is... hard, and bright, and violent. Everything I feel, everything I touch... this is Hell. Just getting through the next moment, and the one after that... knowing what I've lost..."

Buffy looked at Giles, he was stunned into silence, he was in shock. Buffy continued.

"They can never know, where I was, never. Am telling you because I'm numb and am in hell here, I want to feel the good here but all I see is bad and I don't feel like I have the strength to want to fight it, knowing what I've lost, I can never go back"

Buffy looked to the floor "I know I need to be strong, I need to be the slayer again, but am scared, I know it's going to be hard and I can't do it without you, I need you to be my watcher again" Buffy looked at Giles who still seemed in shock.

"Buffy, I had no idea. I know you need stability right now, I will always be your watcher, we'll do this together"

That was all she needed right now, Giles back as her watcher, her getting back to normality as best she could. She had come clean to him, but she had no clue how she would ever tell him about Klaus. She knew what happened had been a mistake she had gone to him because she knew he would make her feel something, and he had. Something she had never felt before, she wasn't sure if she liked it, but she knew by the second time she lost her self to him, it was no longer a mistake, it had been a choice.