Helloo Lovies :D Here is Chapter 7 and this is more of a diary/ filler chapter. I was asked by a FF friend of mine,AmalieCullenXD, that she wouldn't mind some more Diary entries so this chappie's dedicated to you all, Amalie especially! :D

So I have some good news for some of you... but you will have to wait until the A/N at the bottom :) Please remember to review, they seriously make my day! :D I got 8 reviews for Chapter 6 for me thats quite a lot :D could we possibly get it to 10?

Ooh well Enjoy!

DISCLAIMER: Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight and the character's, I own the plot and little mashup :D


The Cullen/Swan Wedding Diaries

Dear Baby...

Dear Baby,

It's now a fortnight to go until your Auntie Ali and Uncle Jazz's wedding. She's been quite stressed and nervous ever since her phone call to me about the change of date. At first I didn't think there was any need for it but ever since you're Daddy and I have came to Seattle to help finish last-minute things before the big day, I've started to feel the exact same. It's as if she's projecting her emotions out into the room. Jasper and Edward are still as happy and carefree as they were before...

I'm actually going to if I can find the perfect wedding dress for my big day tomorrow, I might as well take advantage of all the travelling to places with a larger choice of shops. I think that the reason why I am so eager to be ready so quickly is that I'm panicking that the exact same thing will happen to Edward and I that have happened to Ali and Jazz. Thank God you're Aunt Rose and Uncle Em is back though! Rose stops Alice and I when we have our panic attacks and Em joins with your Daddy and Jazz to lighten up the mood and make us laugh so much when we need it. Not only do I have the theory that I'm panicking as well because this sudden change of plan may happen to me but I've also thought that maybe I just want the best day ever for your Auntie and Uncle.

Apart from the nerves and worries of the wedding, other things have been going through my thoughts. One day, when you are older, you possibly may even know as I may have explained before you received this diary but if not, I will explain now. You see, what with all the weddings and planning and even the plans to start a family, the fact that I don't know much about my Mother, Renee has appeared in my thoughts. What used to be something I didn't really care or think about has all of a sudden been thought about a lot. My mother or your Grandma wasn't a part of my life when I grew up.

She left me and your Auntie Alice with my Dad or your Grand-Daddy Swan when we were very young. I have thought about contacting her or at least try to since Alice and I will be married soon but I don't see why I should. Normally I am a fast-forgiving person and rush to try and solve things but this time I don't want to be the one to make the first move. I can wait for her to actually make the effort, wherever she may be. She obviously didn't want me to be her daughter, so why will she now? I'm sorry if this upsets you, I guess it's just me releasing my thoughts.

Right, I'll change the subject. Well you Daddy and I decided on our main colour...a dark Royal Blue I guess you could simply say navy. Of course you're Daddy and the guy's will be wearing black tuxes but hopefully some of the flowers and dresses will have it. I did have the idea of emerald green for you Daddy's eyes and maybe even yours but after he told Alice the idea of blue because he loved me with that colour, they teamed up and turned on me. Now don't get me wrong because now I love the idea of blue.

Along with finding my wedding gown, we are having our final fittings of the bridesmaid dresses for you Auntie's wedding. They're longer than the one I wore for Rose's wedding so unfortunately, it increases the risk of me falling flat on my face.

Alice is set on making me choose a long wedding gown for my big day and even though I would love to disagree, I'm kinda feeling giddy at the fact that I will be like a princess for the day (yeah I'm not all anti-pink) and besides, she is being pretty scary as she is serious that she will not change her mind.

So do I or do I not try to find Renee...

Well hopefully you will know what I decide, maybe I should talk about it to your Aunt or even you're Daddy.

Your Grand-Daddy will be here in a few more days as we're having a family meal out. Alice and I don't really have many relatives, maybe a few cousins and an Aunt and Uncle here and there but most of all there is Grandma-Swan a.k.a Great Grandma-Swan to you. Your Grand-Daddy is bringing her with him when he comes for the meal beforehand and then we will see our other relatives on Alice's big day. I think most of Alice's guests are friends of her, Jazz, Em and Rose and then Jasper's is more his family as we know from Rose's wedding, there were plenty of them...

So when my Dad and Grandma Swan make it, the night after we will all be going out for the meal. However tonight, Alice, Rose, I and the guys will be having another Bachelor/Bachelorette party because quoted by a very sweet Jasper "the usual bachelor party is like bidding farewell to your final day of freedom but I can't wait for when Ali will be my wife". Jazz and Ali just wanted us all to celebrate together just like we did for Rose and Em. This time-due to Edward giving me a hint-"The guys have a surprise up their sleeves". Still no idea what it may be but oh well remind me to let you know once you read this.

I best go now as I have the weird feeling that at any moment, your Aunt Alice will burst through the door, your Daddy's away with the guys getting stuff for tonight so I have no one to help me.

I will write again soon, (if I survive), I Love you...

Momma.X

~~~TC/SWD~~~

Dear Renee,

It's me your daughter –No that seriously can't work...

Dear Renee.

You probably won't recognise whose font this is and if I spoke to your face but hopefully if I told you this you would remember. It's me, your youngest daughter Bella. I have been questioning the fact of why I wanted to contact you but the fact is this, I thought I would just let you know that your "daughters" are going to be married woman by the end of the year.

I apologize if I appear to be harsh just then but the reason for my harshness is that you left us. I am writing this before I go on the search for your contact details but yeah the fact that this year is filled with weddings and plans and both Alice and I both have no mother to turn to sucks. I can't forgive you just now for leaving us and not being the mother you should have been even if you were "too young" – you left us with Dad which was worse because he became a single parent to a toddler and a baby, he didn't have the support of a wife, he was lucky he had plenty of friends in town. One thing I can do is ask for answers, why? Why did you leave us? Because you were too young to have kids? I need a better reason for why I had to grow up without a mother.

So I'm eighteen now, engaged and planning to start a family next year. You probably don't remember him or his family but I'm happily in love with Edward Cullen. He's helped me through things a lot and of course there's Alice, she'll be married probably by the time you read this but his name's Jasper. They met in a summer camp years ago and now they're almost finished college. I forgot to tell you that I graduated high school, college plans are put on hold for now for me. Maybe when I'm older I'll go. I don't know why I'm telling you all of this... maybe I just want to speak to my mother.

So the return address will be on the envelope just please give me some answers so I have closure and move on from my dwellings over so many years. I don't think I can have a mother as I already have a perfect one that cares for me...Esme, Edward's mom.

Yeah sorry for the harshness but all of this is true usually I'm a quick forgiver, but this time I can't forgive that fast.

From, Bella

"Ali?" I called from the room she was letting Edward and I stay in, in her and Jazz's apartment.

"Uh Huh?" she said almost bursting through the door. Ooh! I have psychic powers like Alice now! Aah I crack myself up sometimes...

"Have you ever thought of trying to contact Renee" I couldn't call her Mom it just didn't feel right.

"Erm well yeah once or twice but I never sent them, how come?" she asked moving to sit beside me on the bed.

"Well I think I want a sense of closure, did you look for her address when you were writing them?" I asked. She nodded and walked out to return with a sealed letter and a small sheet with an address written on it.

"If you send your one I'll send one with it too" she said putting her arm round my shoulders to give me a squeeze.

"Okay...Florida?" I asked looking at the address card.

"Yeah supposingly she married this baseball player called Phil after she left Forks" she said smiling sadly.

"We've survived almost eighteen years without her Ali so we can survive the rest of our lives without her" I said giving her a hug.
"You were always the strong one Bellaroo must be all the times you've fell over" she giggle squeezing me tighter to her, "Okay so I'm gonna get ready for tonight and then you're next! Here's my letter, I think I've got a bigger one to put both of them in" she said skipping out the room.

I laughed and shook my head hearing her sing to Taylor Swift in the shower, I grabbed my robe and toiletries so I was ready to go in straight after her. Even though we had hours left and it was a night-in not a night-out, Alice wanted me ready and tonight I wasn't going to ruin her pixie mood and not disagree with her.

I grabbed the letters and placed them on top of the drawers and sat outside the bathroom waiting on Alice to be out of the bathroom. The singing had stopped and soon my pixie of a big sister walked out the room filled with steam, she started singing again when she got in her room and I couldn't help from giggling again. I couldn't help but find myself in the shower singing like Alice too, I was singing Dido though. Yep we were definitely related...


Soo, what did we think? :D I know Bella is pretty harsh but maybe you could understand where she's coming from? I can promise you that our Evil Pixie's big day will not be ruined and will be A-okay well hopefully if Emmett behaves ;) :D

BIG NEWS: To all who speak Russian and read the fanfics in Russian, I have news for you! :D The Cullen/Swan Diaries is being translated by...Anny Cullen Girl :) So Thank You to her! :D

Now I was wondering who dressed up as anything Twi related for Halloween? :P I remember last year I actually got my hair cut and spiked just like our favourite vamp who can see the future ;) :D I even went dressed up as her to see New Moon on the first night it was out :P :D Good times... :P

Well Anywhoo hope you enjoyed this chappie, next will be the party! :D and hopefully I will have a preview ready a week before my update day :D sorry I took my time getting you all who reviewed in Chapter 6, I hope it was worth the wait :D xx

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Byee for now!

Becca x