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Chapter seven
At the hospital – 11 Am
Naomi
Yesterday Effy had given me a lot of memories to sort out. When she had left I thought about everything she had said. Some of it made sense, but most of it didn't. I walked through the hallway and on my way back I saw my mum come out of the room I had. She looked worried, but when she saw me she smiled and sighed.
"Where were you?" She asked and gave me a hug.
"I just stretched my legs."
"Are you all right? I saw that someone had visited you." She led me back into the room.
"Yhea. It was Effy. She told me a bunch of stuff…" I smiled at my mum.
"And…?"
"Well I remember that Freddie is dead… But I don't know who he is. And she mentioned a Panda…" I tried to remember, but I just couldn't…
"Oh well love, you will remember everything soon enough. I promise." Mum used her hand and put my hair behind my ear.
My hair was very long. I knew I had short hair before I began collage. And now… it was long.
"Mum… I want to remember. But I don't want it to feel like this when I do…" I looked at her and she looked confused back at me.
"When I remember things it feels as if they are someone else's memories. I don't like that…" I continued.
"Love, it may feel strange at first but when you get all of the pieces I promise that you will remember everything as your own experiences." She smiled at me and kissed me on my forehead.
Suddenly I felt a familiar feeling. My mum had never been the mum that would have a comforting chat with you, at least not what I could remember. But I felt like she had had a conversation about finding yourself with me before. 'Could I ask her what it was about?'
In the Fitch family's caravan -During
Katie
"Could you pack these down?"
"Sure mum." I took the clothes from her hands and packed them down into a cardboard box.
Finally we were on our way to move out from this small idiotic caravan. I had grown so tired of living so close to my fucking family that I would explode if I had to live one day more in the same room as them. I had lived in the same room as Emily my whole life and that was bad enough. Thankfully, last year she had lived with Naomi. But now Emily was back home because the lezzer was in hospital …
I carried the box out to our car where dad put it in the boot. I turned around and saw Emily on her way out of the caravan. She walked pass me and out on the road.
"Hey! Where are you going?" I shouted after her.
"I'm going to get to know my girlfriend." She turned around and said.
'What the fuck?!' What did she mean by that? If I remembered right they had been together for a year now, probably even longer. They had probably had some muff-monkey business behind everyone's back longer than I knew off anyway…
"I'll follow you." She didn't say anything so I ran and caught up with her.
"What did you mean with getting to know her again?"
"You know she lost her memory right?" She said and stared down at her feet as we walked.
Actually I had forgotten that. But now I remembered her saying it to dad yesterday. I took her by the arm and we walked under silence.
When we got to the hospital we met Gina outside Naomi's room. She gave me and my sister a hug.
"She gets to leave the hospital during daytime now. So I suggest you take her somewhere."Gina looked at my sister and smiled lightly.
Emily nodded but didn't say anything.
"Good idea Gina!" I answered for Emily.
"But I just want to see her before they go anywhere." I smiled at Gina and walked into the room, Emily a few steps behind me.
Naomi sat on a chair by the window and it looked like she was in deep thought. When I cleared my throat she looked up at me. Something was not the same…. She used to look at me with a bitchy look on her face. But now she looked as if she was sort of happy to see me… I never realized that memories could build a whole personality…
Somewhere in Bristol -During
Effy
After I had left Naomi yesterday I wondered if I had said too much. She looked as if she had a hard time taking in all the information I had given her. I actually went to Karen after my visit at Naomi. We had talked the whole night and she offered me to sleep on the couch. At the time I didn't feel like going anywhere so I accepted the offer.
"Hello get up it is late!" Karen's voice woke me up from my nightmare.
It was the nightmare I had dreamed every night since I got to know about Freddie's death. It was me running towards Freddie. But when I reach him he disappeared and I was left all alone in the darkness.
"Why?" I grunted and sat up in the sofa.
"It´s midday…" Karen stood at the doorway and looked at me with big eyes and crossed arms.
"Fuck off!" I took the quilt and pulled it over my head.
I didn´t want to go back to sleep because of the nightmares, but it was nice to sleep on something soft for once. My back had got tired of benches.
Someone dragged the quilt off me. I knew it was Karen and she just smiled at me when I gave her the bitch gaze.
"Breakfast." She said and turned around and walked out of the room.
I got up and walked after her. We had never really talked before. The only thing we had in common was, and had always been, Freddie. She thankfully didn't blame me for Freddie´s death. Although she could have, if it wasn't for me he never would have died…
Yesterday she told me something Cook told her, about how he found Dr. John Foster. Apparently John was still in a coma. Cook´s trial was supposed to be in a couple of days and I wanted to be there. But it could be postponed if John didn´t wake up…
At the hospital
Naomi
"How are you Naomi?"
'Emily?' No the girl didn't have the beautiful husky voice Emily had. And she wore clothes that made her look like a whore. But maybe she was my friend so I smiled at her, very confused. The girl looked so much like Emily, but still she didn't. It was very confusing...
I could see Emily come in as well, a few steps behind the other girl. The girl must have seen my confused face because she smiled a sympathetic smile.
"Oh I am sorry. I´m Katie, Emily's twin sister."
It sounded familiar. And the crazy thing was that I could remember Katie. She had attended the same collage as me… But I still didn´t know where I had met Emily. But if they were twins she probably went to the same collage as me as well. I searched in my mind a few seconds. Then I remembered that Katie was a bitch. I didn't know why it just felt like it.
"So you both went to Roundview College?"
They both nodded and then Emily gave Katie a look and Katie turned around and walked out of the room. It must have been one of those 'go away' looks. I couldn´t really see because Emily was facing away from me.
"Nice to see you!" Katie shouted over her shoulder as she walked out.
Emily came up to me and sat down on a chair beside me. I felt a tension in the air and I didn´t like it… But it was something about her…
"Where have I met you before…?" I wanted to know, because it felt as if she had meant something to me…
"I can tell you that later. Want to go for a walk with me?" Emily asked and smiled shy at me.
I nodded and got up. I took some clothes out of a bag and quickly got changed. It was a nice feeling to get rid of the hospital gown and I finally felt a bit more alive.
The sun outside shone and it was a nice summer day, unusually nice for England. England often had these cloudy summer days with rain. And if the sun ever appeared it wasn't for very long.
"Where are we going?" I asked Emily.
"I don't know…" She smiled and started to walk.
I just walked by her side silent. We walked under silence until we reached a park. The park was almost empty. Emily sat down on a bench and I sat down beside her. I looked at her perfect profile, her beautiful red hair and beautiful rosy cheeks. I felt something inside me, it sort of tingled inside, when I looked at her in the sunshine. She was so beautiful and I wanted her to tell me who she was so bad.
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