Lena POV
I listen as the doctor tells me what happened. "The bullet was a through and through, so we stitched that up but the bullet in her stomach wasn't. We removed it and she's in recovery. There isn't any damage luckily. She's very lucky. Would you like to see her?" I look up and shake my head. I look to Sharon to see if it's okay and I'm met with a smile. "Go see her Lena. It's okay, I'll see her soon. She's going to need you." I follow the doctor to her room and I'm completely in shock. You can see tears down my face and I'm a mess. I could have lost her. I know there were news articles out by now. But I didn't care at the moment. I make my way into the room and see her crying. I go to her immediately and she makes room. "We need to stop meeting like this Stefanie." I gain a laugh from her but she still cries. "When I heard you scream, I thought I was going to lose you Lena. I killed someone tonight." I pull her into my arms and hold her close. "Hey listen, yes things could've gone a lot worse. But I'd fight for our life all the time. You are going to come home in a few days and we will have our happy ever after. We'll get older and have kids and it'll be great. You never have to worry about them again." I lay down beside her and she rolls half way on top of me kissing me. She winces slightly and I make her lay down. We eventually fall asleep in each other's arms.
Stef POV
A week. I spent a week in the hospital with no complications just them making sure I was healing properly. I get to go home and I'm excited. The doctors said I'd be sore for a while but that I'm clear to do most of what I want. My mom's taking me home cause Lena has court and I plan to make the most out of tonight. I smile when we pull up to the house and I thank my mom and walk inside and lock the door. I go upstairs and I'm happy to see there's no stains and a new rug. I sit on the bed thinking about what all I from tonight. I want to cuddle with my love, make love to her, I want to just enjoy my time with her. Since the shooting I've realized how thankful I am to be alive and tonight I feel like celebrating it. I walk into my side of the closet and go to the little corner in the back that I hide stuff in. I grab out a bag and smile when I see my lingerie. I grab the black one and put it on after shaving and putting on lotion. Its lace and see through. I straighten my hair and let it fall over me. I put her robe on knowing it'd make her more curious. walk down stairs and I start on dinner, I'm almost done when she comes in. "Stef?" I smile at her voice and how excited she sounds. "I'm in the kitchen love." I hear her throw her bag down, "I'm going to go change, I'll be right down." A few minutes later she comes back down in hollowed out tanktop and her spandex. I watch as she takes in what I'm wearing and her eyebrow raises like it does when she's curious. She smiles before sitting down at the table. I place the steak and asparagus down in front of her and then take my own seat across from her. We both sit in silence for awhile, just eating. She looks at me and I wink. I watch her as I "absentmindedly" rub my fingers across the top of the robe causing it to loosen a little just enough to where she can slightly see the top of my breasts. I watch as she peaks down slightly and quickly licks her lips. "You like?" I watch as she coughs and blushes. "Excuse me?" She looks back at me and I again I feign innocence while I move my hair over to one side giving her a clear view of the side of my neck she usually goes to. She shifts in her seat and that's how I know its working. "I said do you like it? The dinner?" I wink at her and watch as she takes me in. "oh yeah I definitely do. It's amazing. Thank you." I smile and get up, walking to the kitchen. I turn the radio on low and bring her favorite bottle of wine and two glasses. I pour us some wine and she takes it not taking her eyes off me. I watch as her eyebrow raises again and I smile. She takes a few sips watching me intently. I play with my own wine, I even boldly let some slip out of the corner of my mouth running down my chin dripping onto my chest. I hear her breath hitch and I use my finger to wipe my chest and then my chin, finally putting my wine soaked finger in my mouth licking it. I remove it and take another bite, I watch as her eyes go a little dark and I can immediately tell my plan has succeeded. I take another sip and look at her. She smiles and I smile back. "So tell me Lena, are you going to talk or just stare?" She laughs embarrassed. "Honestly, I'm trying to figure out what's happening." I look at her like I'm confused. "What do you mean?" I take another bite as she begins talking, "Well I come home to an amazing dinner, my fiancée in my robe, and then you do that." I get up and go to the freezer and I reach in to grab desert, while I do this I let my leg slip out far so she can see it. I bring desert to the table and talk. "What do you mean Lena?" She laughs at this. "You really don't see it Stef?" I scoop out one bowl of ice cream and put it back. I bring the whipped cream out and spray it on our ice cream and place two cherries out. I bring two spoons out and hand one to her. "No, I really don't see it Lena. I'm confused." She lets the conversation fall off and we just eat our ice cream. I take one of the cherries out and play with it between my teeth, accidentally spilling whipped cream on my exposed leg. I look down actually quite flushed myself and I wipe it off and before I can put in my mouth she grabs my wrist. I look at her and see her eyes go dark with a slight glimmer in them. "Dammit Stef, if you put your finger in your mouth one more time, I swear.." I look at her innocently and she lets go, I quickly place it in my mouth and just like that the game is over. "Fuck Stefanie." She pushes me against the wall and kisses my neck causing me to squirm.
Lena POV
I watch as she boldly puts her finger in her mouth and sucks it. It clicks then, it's a game. "Fuck Stefanie." I push her against the wall and latch on to her pulse point causing her to squirm under me. I reach down and trace up the back of her leg and I'm shocked when I feel no shorts. I look at her and her eyes are darker than I've ever seen them and she is also proudly smirking. "I win again." I step back and raise my eyebrow. "I bet to myself that you couldn't last an hour, you lasted for 45 minutes." She winks and I smile but I know my eyes go dark as she undoes the robe and let's it fall to the floor. I take her in. She's the most criminally sexy woman I've ever seen. She's in a two part black lace lingerie set. I didn't even know she owned this. I take her whole body in, starting at her perfectly toned legs where there's a bullet scar then find her center and my breath becomes shallow. I find her perfect sixpack abs and there's the other scar. I then find her breasts and then I see her face and my breath get stucks in my throat. I close the distance and kiss her the most passionately I ever have before, both of us moaning. I take her hand and lead her upstairs, I strip once we get to the room and she sits on the bed, "not there." I say it kind of forcefully which only makes her smile. I take her hand and go the bathroom. I step into the shower and pull her in as the hot water falls on us. I push her against the wall and pick her up. "Stef, this is hot. The lingerie, the wine, the cherry, the whipped cream, You. Everything. It's perfect." I trace the lines on the lingerie that she's still wearing and kiss her softly on her collarbone causing her to moan. I unhook the top and she takes it off. I look at her perfect breasts and kiss them. I tease her for awhile letting her feel what it feels like. I let my tongue travel from her earlobe down her neck to her collarbone. I bite carefully and I hear her suck air in. I let my lips lightly trail back up her neck and I kiss it. Her hands wrap themselves in my hair and for the first time since I've known her I hear her beg. Truly beg. "Lena.. please..please." I can't help it as a gutteral moan releases from my throat. I latch on to her neck and her body curls itself into me. I suck on her neck knowing she bruises easy and the more I latch on the more she pushes me into her. She brings my mouth up to hers and I moan at how forceful she's being. It's a side she has rarely shown since her rape and I'm glad she's finding herself again. "Fuck me Lena." I become unglued at her voice at my ear. "Are you sure?" I look at her and I'm in complete awe. I see her hair stuck to her shoulders and neck, the water running down her body. I watch as one drop runs down her face, neck and then breasts. I look at her face and see her the most elated I've ever seen. I set her down and turn off the water. I hand her a towel and we dry off and pull our hair back I take her into the bedroom and sit down on a chair. She straddles me and kiss her as I spread open her legs. I push in three fingers fast and immediately set at a pace that has her moaning the loudest I've ever heard her. Her nails scratch my back and her head is leaning on my shoulder. I know I'm close to my own release just because of how hot this night has been. She explodes around my hand as she screams into my neck. I feel her shaking and I pick her up taking her to the bed. I lay back as she stays hooked to me. She starts to move and I feel her hand find my center and this time its my nails on her back which causes her to moan. She shoves her finger in and within minutes I've hit a high I've never thought imaginable. I smile and kiss her. We lay there together for a few minutes before she excuses herself throwing on an oversized tee of mine and heads down for some water.
I put on a pair of pajamas when I hear a car backfire and then a crash downstairs. I run down the steps turning the light on to find Stef in the kitchen under the table and her glasses of water on the floor. She looks terrified, I grab her and move her away from the glass and wrap her in a hug. "Hey listen you're safe, it was just a car. You're completely safe. I love you." I wrap her in deep hug and I listen as she calms down. I help her up to sit at the table and I clean up the glass. I sit down with warm milk for both of us and I wait until she's ready to talk.
Stef POV
"I don't know what happened Lena. I was fine I even saw the car not even 10 seconds before backing out of the driveway across from us. I know what this means. It's not that I'm scared of getting shot, its not the first time. I'm scared this time for the fact that I shot someone and they died. I'm also scared cause I really thought I lost you. I love you." She gives me a reassuring smile and then takes my hand and we begin talking. "Lena, how are you doing with all this?" She sighs and looks at me. "Well in regards to your rape, I'm angry. I hate that those awful people did that to you. But I'm okay because you're getting better. In regards to the break in and shooting, I'm managing. I've never had a gun pulled on me before so that's been rough. I've also never seen someone I love get shot. Once I found out you would make it, I was relieved and felt like I could breathe but I got scared that you wouldn't be able to have kids if you wanted them but the doctor said you're perfectly fine." I look at her as she says this and I can tell she's hurting. "Stef, you were afraid you'd lose me. I almost lost you. I was terrified but I knew you would fight. I stayed hopeful and you were fine. I love you." I take her hand and lead her back upstairs. I strip her clothes off and then mine. I push her into the bed and I get in behind her. I wrap my arms around her and hold her tightly. We lay like this for hours neither of us saying anything until we fall asleep.
Lena POV
"Assistant District Attorney and her domestic partner rushed to hospital after shots fired. Reports say they are very in love and are taking recovery day by day. That's all we have on this changing situation." I listen as this goes across the television and I scowl. "Sounds like we are famous huh?" I shoot her a disapproving look before beginning, "It's not funny Stef. They didn't say what happened just a simple "shots fired." Which means the public can think I shot one of us or you. This is serious." She shrugs her shoulders like it's not a big deal and that infuriates me. "Honestly Lena they know it's not that. If you had shot someone you wouldn't be the ADA anymore and by now they would know who I am and I wouldn't be a detective If I had shot someone. Okay well I shot someone but it was in self-defense. Its really not that big love." I sip my coffee trying to figure out what to say. "Stef, they may know that but the public wouldn't know that. So it is a big deal! I'm going to be eaten alive by press today and you're not worried one bit! It's infuriating sometimes how you make jokes out of stuff that's important." I watch as she takes in my harshness and I immediately feel bad. I'm just stressed over this and I don't mean to take it out on her. But I immediately see that this conversation isn't going to die over now. "Fine Lena! You act like I don't care that the press will come after you, when I always do. Respond like you would with a case! Give details but not too many. Tell them who I am, what happened! Damn, I made one joke because its what people like our parents would say. Yeah its a small thing and can seem very big when you're the ADA. But if you had listened to it all instead of getting worked up like you always do you would have heard them say that we appear to be very "in love and are taking recovery day by day." So if it's that big of a deal that you're taking it out on me I think I'll take off for work." She looks at me like I need to say something and I just stare back at her, neither of us backing down. She sighs and I can see the hurt in her eyes before she throws up her walls and gets angry, turning around and slamming the front door on the way out. I listen as her car speeds off and I wait for the text that usually tells me she made it and I don't receive it. I think about my life and my job and Stef and what I want. I don't want this big overzealous life where I'm constantly going to be in the news. I want a simple life with the woman I love. But I'm angry at her for walking away. I'm angry at her for not seeing how important this actually is. Most of all I'm worried though because I've never seen her this hurt or angry at me. I head out for work and I see the press waiting on the steps. I walk up and get surrounded, I'm asked thousands of questions and I answer most of them. I head into my office and I'm not surprised that Jordan is sitting in there. "What do you want Jordan?" I sit down and look at my desk which was still a mess from yesterday. "Okay, so you talked to the press? What did you say?" I look at him appalled that'd he ask again after I just explained to him that it has nothing to do with him. "Just so you know Jordan, it still has nothing to do with you. I came clean about my relationship with her. I told what was needed and that was it. I still have my 3 weeks vacation and sick days saved up don't I?" He nods his head yes and that's all I needed. "Good, everything you need to know about the cases I've wrapped up are on your desk. Next time you choose to enter my office call. Its rude to find people waiting in your office without you knowing. I respect you and I care for you but as of the way you've been acting lately you can stay on your side of the office. I'll be back in three weeks."
Stef POV
I look at the time on my dashboard and see that its 9:30 pm. I never went into work instead I found myself sitting at the beach in my car. I think back to the events that happened this morning.
*Flashback*
"Honestly Lena they know it's not that. If you had shot someone you wouldn't be the ADA anymore and by now they would know who I am and I wouldn't be a detective If I had shot someone. Okay well I shot someone but it was in self-defense. Its really not that big love." I watch as she sips her coffee staring at me before she answers. "Stef, they may know that but the public wouldn't know that. So it is a big deal! I'm going to be eaten alive by press today and you're not worried one bit! It's infuriating sometimes how you make jokes out of stuff that's important." I take in how harsh her tone is and I get scared for some reason but more than that I'm hurt. I never thought we'd be arguing like this especially after last night. In that instant I let my walls come up trying to keep her from seeing how hurt I am and I'm angry at her for putting it on me. Before I can try to calm down I snap.
"Fine Lena! You act like I don't care that the press will come after you, when I always do. Respond like you would with a case! Give details but not too many. Tell them who I am, what happened! Damn, I made one joke because its what people like our parents would say. Yeah its a small thing and can seem very big when you're the ADA. But if you had listened to it all instead of getting worked up like you always do you would have heard them say that we appear to be very "in love and are taking recovery day by day." So if it's that big of a deal that you're taking it out on me I think I'll take off for work." I watch her as she stares at me. I'm silently begging her to talk and us fix this. I know she can see how hurt I am and I immediately throw my walls up. I sigh and slam the door on my way out of the house. I speed out of the driveway and down the street. Before I know it I'm at the beach.
*Present Time*
I know I need to head back to the house but I refuse to see her while I'm like this. I'm hurt, she took it out on me instead of talking. I feel my phone vibrate in my jacket and I take it out seeing 5 missed calls from Lena and a couple texts from her.
Stef, we WILL be talking about this later. -Lena (12pm)
Stefanie, you could have at least text me and let me know you made it safely. -Lena (2:30 pm)
Stef, I'm sorry my love. Can we please talk about this? I'm so so sorry. I love you.-Your love (3:15pm)
Stef, I'm headed home please call me. I'm getting worried.- Yours(5pm)
My love where are you?! I called Martinez and she said you didn't even show up today. Something about you not being cleared to return yet. You're emotional and upset where are you?! we need to talk about this. Please know I love you. -Yours always, if you'll still have me( 9:32pm)
I hate that she makes me so emotional, she makes me feel vulnerable and as much as I love her, she was wrong for taking it out on me and I know I was in the wrong for walking away. I wipe away the tears that were falling down hard at this point and I feel sick to my stomach when I see a young man walk by that looks identical to Jackson Olmstead. Blond hair, blue eyes, that grin. I feel my breath get stuck and I quickly shift the car into drive and take off towards the house. I close the door quietly as I'm starting to feel the panic come over me. I make my way upstairs and see Lena passed out on our bed with my sweatshirt on, all the lights on. I can tell she's been crying and I need to go to her but I'm angry and it makes it even worse that I need her. I start to really panic and I start to strip and I close the bathroom door longer than I mean to and get into thefreezing cold shower I ran. He's dead Stef. Snap out of it. I eventually relax and turn on the hot water. I melt under the water and all I can think about is how angry I am at Lena and how hot she looks while she's angry. Before I register what I'm doing, I'm trying to relieve some of the pressure between my legs. I moan and I have to cover my mouth to keep from waking her. I'm angry at her and yet all I want to do is kiss her. I'm almost there when the shower currently slides open in the middle of me moaning.
Lena POV
I hear the bathroom door slam shut and the shower start when I decide I'll wait till she done so we can talk. I'm pretty pissed at this point and my thoughts get muddled when I hear a moan come from the bathroom. I ignore it at first but then as she moans again my own body responds and I curse it for betraying how I feel. I walk into the bathroom and the mirrors are covered from the steam, but I can see her in the shower touching herself. I watch for a second and its hot. She's trying to stifle her moans which only makes my arousal worse. I slam the shower curtain open as a moan escapes her and she sees me and her face instantly goes crimson but there's anger in her eyes. I don't flinch knowing full well she's seeing my own anger reflect in my eyes. "I'm angry at you Stefanie, that was stupid you shouldn't have walked away. You should've let me know you were okay. I thought you left or died or who knows what. I was scared. Then I hear you slam the door and I walk into this... which is, well it's actually kind of hot, but I'm so angry at you." I watch as she takes this in and before she says anything I tell her to get dressed and meet me downstairs.
Ten minutes later she walks into the kitchen wearing a tanktop and her underwear. I sigh because I want nothing more than to cuddle her and fall asleep in her arms. But we need to talk. I hand her coffee and kiss the top of her head receiving a small smile when I go to sit down. "Stef, I'm sorry. I was wrong to take it out on you. We knew that we would eventually hear about us on the news but I didn't want to admit that we would. I took out my frustrations with my job on you. I love you more than anyone I've ever met. I can't wait to marry you, all of you. I'm so sorry." At this point I'm crying and I see tears in her eyes. I watch as she gets up and sits on the stool next to mine and she grabs my hands. "I shouldn't have walked away. I'm sorry. I should have remained calm but between everything else that's my fault I couldn't handle you blaming me for this. I want nothing more than to marry you. I've been waiting my whole life for you, I'd be crazy to let you go. I forgive you and know that I love you please. I hated us fighting, but I know we won't always agree but I promise to never walk away if you promise it too." She looks at me pleading for us to be okay. "I promise not to walk away either. I love you too. Honey I have a question though..."
Stef POV
I look at her as she as internally debates asking. "Why were you upset when you came in? Even when you're mad at me and its been hours you've usually calmed down by now. What happened?" I get up at this and turn to look out our window, trying to keep my panic at bay. "I was just frustrated Lena. That's all. I'm sorry I was so loud." I hear her get up and I lightly flinch at her soft and sudden contact and turn to see her standing next to me. "Talk to me Stef, we can't get through things if you don't let me in." I look up to her eyes and I see nothing but love so I begin.
"I was angry at you, at me, and I went to the beach. I haven't been cleared for work and I didn't know where to go. So I went there, I walked for awhile and eventually went back to my car, where I sat for awhile. Lena I thought I saw Olmstead. There was a guy he had to be around 18-19 years old he looked like him. I panicked and drove here. I know he's dead so I know we are safe but it was just uncanny how much this kid looked like him. I was too angry at you to call you. I was too angry at you being angry, which only made you sexier. So I wanted you which is why you walked in on me in the shower." I feel my face go red but I also feel her holding me because I started to cry. "Hey listen to me, he's gone. I'm right here with you I promise. I'm so sorry, I'm so unbelievably sorry. I took the next three weeks off, you aren't cleared for work and I want to spend time with you. We can go to your moms, or my parents and meet my foster sibling. Whatever you want, but we have to work on us, okay?" I nod and wrap my arms around her. We make our way upstairs before collapsing on the bed holding each other. A few minutes pass before anything is said. "By the way Stef, if I wasn't so mad and worried about you in that moment, I would've took you right there in the shower. It was extremely hot to watch. I waited a couple minutes before interrupting you because well I'm selfish and wanted to watch."I laugh into her neck before placing a light kiss to her neck. "Next time, I'll let you watch." She moans rather loudly at my proclamation and curl up into her as I drift off to sleep.
