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Chapter 7: Breathe Me
Nico di Angelo really doesn't care if 'The Downloader' comes to upload a song onto his iPod. Actually, he would prefer he or she skips over him. He is perfectly fine without some random song that could make him understand his whole life story. Plus he likes all the songs that Nico himself downloaded.
He walks in his cabin after sword-fighting class and immediately flops on his bed. He feels a lump under his back, and then reaches and feels around. He finally finds an iPod.
This was weird since he hid that in his sock drawer so 'The Downloader' WOULDN'T find it.
Nico scrolls through his songs and finds one that he's never seen before.
Breathe Me by Sia. Oh, great. Let's hear this life-changing song.
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Nico can relates to those lyrics. Thinking about, trying to reach out to and bring back Bianca did nothing but hurt him. And even after he stopped blaming Percy for letting Bianca go, the fact that he kept reaching back out for her broke him down the most and there was no one to blame but Nico.
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
All Nico really needs is a friend. He's too young to go through all the loss he has. He needs comfort, a support system.
Warm me up
And breathe me
Nico wishes someone understood at least a little of what has gone on in his life. Stuck in time, losing his only family, living more with the dead than the living and having people turn their backs on him because he was different.
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
When Percy arrived at Camp Jupiter and Nico pretended he didn't know him, he felt like he lost himself. This was his best friend. Nico lost himself.
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
After Nico returned from Tartarus, he was fragile. A single prick and he would break. He lost himself once again and he knows some of it might never come back. Nico di Angelo will be forever paranoid.
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
All the sympathy after the incident, no empathy. No one knows how Nico feels. Not even Percy or Annabeth. He is too small, too innocent. Occasionally, all he wants to do is curl up and cry. Nico has no faith anything will get better.
Warm me up
And breathe me
Nico feels so cold. Physically and emotionally. He's committed so many sins in his short twelve years. He regrets it now, but that can't take the pain he's caused away. He just wants to be warm.
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
All in all, he misses Bianca. He misses the way she would hold him and talk to him. She was his everything.
Nico di Angelo still thinks that the song wasn't life changing. But he is now curious to find out who could know him so well, who could understand him so much.
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