"Did you tell anyone?" Lexa still had her embraced in her arms.
"I couldn't. I was embarrased. And I didn't say no over and over." Clarke pulled away, wipping her face. Her eyes were red and watery. Sniffling she chocked out, "I just said I i didn't want to. But clearly that didn't matter. So I just went with it." Her arm was proped up on the side of the couch. She laid her head on her palm and showed a sarcastic snear.
"Dose anyone else know?" Lexa asked. "And how long ago did this happen?"
"No one else knows!" Her head shot up, "And it's going to stay that way!"
"You didn't answer my second question. I know you were together before school, but from the sounds of it and him knowing where you lived...when Clarke?" Being persistant. She knew she shouldn't push her but she had to. Finn knew where her apartment was and just walked in like he lived there. Something wasn't addign up.
"I said we broke up before I came to University. Well, first semester he shouwed up to appoligize, I let him in so we could talk. He again kissed me and I let him that time. Just didn't think it would go any further. Next thing I know his hands are up my shirt, and he is pushing me down. I said 'I don't want this!' and tried pushing him off. He just said 'It will be ok.'. I just laid there. After he litterally got up and left. I couldn't think straight, didn't really know if that was considered rape. Becasue I didn't tell him no." Clarke's breathing slowed down. She was looking at Lexa, afraid she might have scared her off, said to much.
"You said no and you said you didn't want to. Dose Bellamy know?" Lexa reached for Clarke's hands, rubbing her thumbs across the top of them.
"He dose know. He threatened Finn, hence the reason no one can no he was here today. Bellamy would go bazerk!" Clarke wiped her face again. "Sorry, I didn't mean to be a downer."
"Seriously! I would have been pissed if you didn't tell me. Kind of explains why you stopped with me. I can't beilive him. He won't know what hit him next time I see him. What a .. a.. fuck nugget!" Lexa was frustrated, and upset she didn't know about all this earlier. She would have beat the shit out of him.
"Calm down Rocky! I get you're mad, just don't get crazy. I like you wanting to defend me. It's very... dare I say sexy. It's over. It happened. And I just want to forget it. No more crying tonight, ok?" Clarke gripped her hands tighter.
"Promise me something. If something is bothering you. You will always talk to me. I will always listen, give you my honest thought. Always, Clarke!" Lexa's eyes were wide open, making sure Clarke understood.
"Pinkey promise!" Smiling Clarke stuck out her pinkey to lock it into Lexa's. Leaning in they kissed. Clarke leaned into Lexa's shoulder, their fingers enterlocking.
"Really!? It's not even close to St. Patrick's Day!" Lexa giggled out.
"Hey, it dosen't have to be a holiday to watch it. Boondock Saint's is a classic anytime." Clarke barked, eyes locked on the screen. "Tell me that you have saw this before."
"Once!" Lexa said very quietly. Clarke moved her head and looked in astonishment.
"Dear lord!" They both heard a knock on the door. Lexa snapped her head back. Then looked back at Clarke.
"I sware...he has some nerve!" she stood up so fast Clarke fell over. After getting up, they both walked to the door. Clarke lopoed her arm through Lexa's and took her hand. Unlocking the door, they just stood there.
"Your door is never locked. Ooooooooo, you guys! And why are your eyes all red?" Raven said.
"Who is going to spill the deets!" Octavia shot out, crossing her arms. All of them giggled a little. "I know that music anywhere!" Walking in the door both Raven and Octavia headed to the couch and sat down. Laughing and joking with eachother.
"I am going to change into something more comfortable." Clarke went over to her room. Looking back at Lexa she smiled and disappeared behing the wall. Lexa stood where she was for a moment, unsure of what to do. Turning the couch, she saw the girls staring at her with childish smirks on their faces, nodding towards the room.
"I am not going in there." Lexa laughed out softly.
"Why not?!" Raven said.
"Ummm, for starters you guys are here, and secondly we aren't doing what you think we are doing!" walking over to sit on the couch next to them.
"You mean, you guys haven't..." Raven bobbed her head to insuate her thoughts.
"No! We have only known eachother the weekend." Lexa took a blanket from the back of the couch.
"The other day we saw you walkout of the shower...in a towel... naked." Octavia said.
"You stay the night, and nothing happens!" Raven chimed in.
"Yup, pretty much." Lexa held her breathe, nodding her head.
"Wow! Impressive." they all laughed. Raven and Octavia went back to the movie. Lexa, on the other hand, just sat there with her thoughts. 'Should I go in there?'
"I think I am going to get a blanket." Lexa stood up.
"Ahem!" Raven reached over adn took the edge of the blanket, that she already had.
"Wanna try again?" Octavia questioned, raising her eye brows. Both of them smirking, holding back laughs.
"Shut up!" Lexa threw the blanket on them and they busted out laughing. Walking into the room she shut the door behind her so it was open only a crack. Clarke was standing infront of her window, staring out. Lexa walked up and slid her arms around her waist, resting her chin on Clarke' sshoulder. Turning her head to kiss her neck, "You ok? You've been in here a while."
"Yea, just a lot on my mind." Clarke spund around to face Lexa and wrapped her arms around Lexa' s waist. Clarke moved her head a little closer and pressed her forehead to Lexa's.
"Anything I can help with?" Lexa reached out her lips to kiss Clarke inbetween every word.
"You already have." Clarke smiled and embraced Lexa a big hug. "Just your the first person I have told about Finn, what he did, and it feels like this weight is lifted off my shoulders." Clarke took a deep breathe and let it out. She moved to the side of Lexa's head. Her cheek grazing hers. Slowly, their lips meet. Clarke, parting Lexa's with her tounge. She tilted her head to the left and moved her hands under her shirt, to the small of her back. Lexa crossed her arms around and to the back of Clarke's neck.
"Awwww, aren't you two cute!" The turned their heads, still tangled together, to see Octavia bent down, fingers laces together, with a smile glued on her face. Raven's head popped over top of Octavia;
"Damn, maybe I should have danced with Lexa last weekend!"
"Enjoying the show?" Lexa turned back to plant a kiss on Clarke. At first Clarke didn't know what to do, then just played along.
"Hey O, lets get some popcorn. This is great. Lexa stopped, looked at Clarke and winked.
"Let's get em'" she whispered. They urned around and sprinted towards the door. Raven and O sreamed and bolted to the couch taking the cushions as a shield. That didn't stop them from tackling the two. They wrestled a for a while and then came to a stop. All four of them laughing. "Ok, truce?"
"Truce!" The all said in unison. Getting the couch back in order they all sat back on the couch. Clarke sat next to Lexa, slipping their hands together. The movie was almost over. Lexa was suprised to say she liked it. All of a sudden she heard the girls start to recite parts of the movie, in errible Irish accents.
"We do not ask for your poor...or your hungry" Raven said.
"We do not want your tired and sick!" Octavia shouted.
"It is our corrupt we claim!" Clarke said louder. All three girls were pointing their hand at the tv. Lexa looked around, snickering. She missed what Octavia and Raven said next. Then Clarke jumped up "These are principals in which every man , of every faith can embrace!" Octavia jumped off the couch next and Raven right behind her. Now the girls were all standing infront of Lexa, who was dying laughing. All of a sudden they grabbed her and took her to the ground. She was laughing so hard she could barley breathe. Turning her over to face them, they all recited together;
"And shepards we shall be, for thee my lord, for thee. Power hath descended forth from thy hand, that our feet may swiftly carry out thy command. We shall flow a river forth to thee and teeming with souls shall ever be." Lexa was now crying from laughing so hard. They each said the last part seperatly.
"In nomine parte." Raven said.
"Et felie." Octavia rang out.
"Spiritus scanti." Clarke said lastly. The three of them laughed and Clarke leaned down for a kiss. They all laughed again.
"You guys are too much!" Lexa said, stiting up.
"Told you it was a calssic!" Clarke said helping her up.
"Well, as much fun as this was... we must bid you two adue." Octavia and Raven gave the other two a hug before leaving.
"Are they always like that?"
"Get used to it!" Clarke laughed. "They will never let you live anything down."
"So we really need to do homework. We skipped class, for good reason, and they probly posted everything by now." Lexa took her laptop out to check the college dashboard. "All my stuff was uploaded. What about yours?"
"I'll check it later." Clarke said taking a snack from the cupboard.
"Clarke!"
"What? I had a long day, just want to relax...with my girl!" She walked back over to Lexa, who was leaning up against the couch.
"Your girl?" Lexa said softly, cocking her head slightly to the side.
"That ok?" Clarke put her hands on either side of Lexa.
"I think I can manage." Lexa' s heart was racing, breathing heavy.
"Good." Clarke walked away with a smile strung across her face.
"Seriously! You do all that... all cute and then walk away? You're a piece of work." Lexa huffed playfully. She walked up to Clarke, taking a bite of her snack. "Homework!" Lexa nodded towards the backpacks.
"Shower time!" Clarke shifted her eyes towards the hall.
"Thought we were taking this slow." Lexa squinted.
"We are. I'm simply saying I'm taking a shower. What you do is up to you." she walked down the hall, pulling her shirt over her head, leaving it on the floor. Looking back at Lexa, she disappeared into the hall. The water from the shower started. Clarke's music started to play. Lexa was hesatant on going in. Just this morning Clarke broke down, and things started to get hot and heavy and she stopped abruptly. She wasn't sure what to do or what Clarke wanted.
Clarke turned off the shower, took the towel that was hanging on the door and wrapped it around her. Walking out of the bathroom and into her bedroom she saw Lexa sitting on her bed with her hands in her lap.
"Clarke I have to ask...what do you want?"
"What do you mean?" Clarke took a brush from the night stand and started brushing the snarles out of her hair.
"You go from hot to cold so quick I can't even catch my breathe. This morning you tell me about Finn and break down. Then you are ontop of me, driving me crazy, not wanting you to stop and you do. Now you want me to shower with you. What is it?" Lexa stood up. Clarke finished brushing her hair and looked at Lexa, appoligeticaly.
"I'm afraid. I don't want you to think I am slutty and push you away. Plus you're the first person I have been with. And wanted to be with." Clarke moved a little closer to Lexa.
"I don't think you're slutty at all. If I did I would have tried something the first date. I want you to be comfortable." Lexa took a step towards Clarke.
"I am comfortable. I know what I want. I'm just afraid." Clarke was not standing right infront of Lexa.
"Don't be!"Lexa said quietly. Clarke placed her hands on the girls hips. Slowly moving them up she scrunched her shirt and started to run it up her body. Lexa put her arms up while Clarke pulled her shirt off and tossed it on the floor. Returning one hand to her hips the other to her back, she walked her back to the bed. Lexa sat on the bed looking up at Clarke. She gazed into those green eyes and leaned into her, laying Lexa on the bed.
