AN- This chapter took a long time to get out. It was so hard for me to write and I still don't feel 100% happy about it, but here it is. Enjoy.
Chapter 7 - The date
Lily was busy getting ready for the date, already running a bit behind the schedule she had made for herself. She applied a whole face full of make-up then hastily removed it, thinking it was just too much. While she and Sirius had known each other for years, she still felt the pressure to dress up and impress him. She decided on light natural make-up and tied her red hair back off her face, letting most of it hang in curls. It was quite long now, almost making it to her waist, and she made a mental note to get it cut soon. She chose a midnight blue dress which fit nicely but not too revealing, after all, she wasn't 20 anymore.
As 7pm approached, Lily became more and more flustered. She came out of her room with her shoes in her hand and a bracelet in her mouth, stuffing the essentials into a small bag she found shoved in the back of her closet.
"You look fantastic" Remus said, holding a struggling Josie in his arms.
"Too much?" she asked.
"No way, perfect" he said.
"You fed her the broccoli?" she asked.
"Yes, and the stewed apples… Harry had his pasta and is now eating his apple pie" Remus said.
"You're too good Remus" she said.
"It's only been 55 minutes Lily, we'll see how things are in a few hours" he said.
"Oh… Well, do you want me to..." she began.
"No. Go. Have a good time" Remus scolded.
I'm not too sure what time I expect to be back, but if I can I will floo you and let you know" she said.
"Don't even think about it. Just enjoy your night out" he said.
"Thank you again, Remus. I know this must be very strange for you" she said.
"No, it's nice. I'm happy for you both, truly. And I know that James would too, once he got over the shock of it all" he said.
"Yes, I can just imagine his face" she said, smiling to herself.
Outside, was the sound of an engine pulling up. Lily waited until the doorbell sounded and headed for the door, kissing Harry and Josie goodbye as she went.
She pulled open the door and her jaw almost hit the floor when she saw Sirius standing before her. He was a picture of his younger, extremely handsome self. His hair fell into his eyes in a neat, carefree kind of way and when he looked at her, he smiled as though he was seeing her for the first time as someone new.
"Now, don't forget about her curfew mister" came Remus' voice from behind Lily, preventing her from standing there prolonging what had the potential to be a very awkward silence.
"Oh, don't be silly, Remus" Lily said.
Sirius just grinned.
"You ready?" he asked her.
"Absolutely" she said.
Lily put on her coat and stepped outside into the night air. On the driveway stood a smart looking black car.
"Where did you get this from?" she asked.
"I borrowed it" he said, still smiling.
"Well, its lovely" she said, as Sirius opened the passenger door for her. She hesitated before lowering herself into the seat, wondering if it would be ok to kiss him. She decided against it, figuring the opportunity would present itself again later. She fought hard against the primal part of her that so desperately wanted to grab him and kiss him. While he walked around to the driver's door, she checked herself in the mirror and carefully adjusted her lipstick before Sirius got into the car.
"So, what are the plans?" she asked him.
"I thought I would surprise you" he said.
"Oh, I see" she said. "So, not even a clue?" she asked.
"No way" he said, looking to her and smiling.
The two of them sped through the countryside and into the city in half the time it would ordinarily take. Lily understood this to be something similar to the Knight Bus that she and James used frequently before having Harry. A vehicle that muggles cannot see, can drive very fast and make random objects jump out of the way.
The drive was somewhat awkward, with Lily trying to make small talk that was mostly centred around the children. The more she thought about it, the more she realised this date activity might not be the greatest idea. 'Isn't a first date when people take the opportunity to get to know each other?' she thought. 'We know each other better than anyone'. She soon realised that there was no way she was getting out of this night without some serious awkward silences.
As Sirius entered the city and the lights twinkled from buildings where the occupants were busy going about their lives, Lily made a mental list of topics to talk about when things became quiet. She wanted this night to be a success more than anything.
When Sirius parked the car, Lily realised they were outside of a muggle theatre company.
"We're here" he said.
"What is this place?" she asked.
"You'll see" he said, getting out and walking around to her door. Before she could open it, Lily had reached for the handle and opened it herself. Sirius frowned.
"I'm supposed to do that" he said.
"Sirius, this isn't the 50's, I can get the door myself" she said with a smile. "You know, women's rights and all" she added.
"Right. Well…" he said, waiting as Lily put her coat on.
As they walked the short distance from the car to the theatre entrance, Lily could tell that Sirius was nervous.
"Is everything ok?" she asked.
"What? Yes, fine. You?" he asked.
"I'm fine… Look… Sirius, this doesn't have to be like this. Just because it's a date it doesn't mean there's pressure to do something or not to do something. We've been friends for years. It doesn't have to get weird now" she said, hoping it was the right thing.
At this, Sirius nodded in agreement.
"You're right, you're completely right, I'm way overthinking all of this", he said as his shoulders seemed to relax a little. Lily was grateful for that moment, before they really got started, because there would be nothing worse than Sirius feeling pressured to perform some kind of 'first date ritual' for her. Lily held out her hand, which Sirius took eagerly. His hand was warm and slightly rough in hers, which she liked.
They approached the ticket booth and Sirius bought two tickets to the show that was playing. While he paid, struggling with muggle currency, Sirius never let go of Lily's hand, instead, absentmindedly stroked her hand with his thumb. It felt nice to Lily, and so normal and natural. Like the two of them had been together for a long time and they were just out on a date.
They entered the hall, which was grand and mostly dark except for a few candles burning on each table.
"Where do you want to sit?" Sirius asked her.
"Hmm" she looked around, thinking about the table that would have the best view, without being in full view of everyone behind them. "Perhaps somewhere close to the front? On this side" she asked, indicating to one side of the room.
"Good idea" he said, leading the way, not letting go of her hand.
The seating was set out into small round tables, mostly two seats to a table, with the occasional three or four. The pair sat close to the edge of the room off to one side, near to the front so they could see.
"So, are you going to tell me what this is?" she asked, taking off her coat.
"It's a magic show" he said with a grin.
"A muggle magic show?" she whispered, as the room filled with people.
Sirius just nodded, his mischievous grin showing how much fun he thought this was going to be.
"I'm intrigued. I've never been to one before" she said, intrigued by how excited Sirius was for muggle magic.
"Me neither. This has a dinner package as well, so I thought we'd see the show, eat some dinner and maybe get some dessert at a nice little place around the corner" he said.
"Sounds perfect" she said, thinking that this is exactly what they needed. There wouldn't be a need for the 'awkward conversation topic list' that she had come up with, because they wouldn't be talking much during the show and afterwards, they would most likely talk about the show.
As it turned out, while they waited for the show to begin, Lily and Sirius made conversation quite easily, talking about everything they had ever heard about muggle magic, with Lily filling him in from a muggleborn perspective.
As they leant towards each other to talk in whispers and avoid muggle's overhearing, Lily became very aware of how close they were. It was a heady feeling and she wondered if he would mind so much if she just leant a bit closer and kissed him. The more he spoke, the more she watched how his lips moved and wondered if they would feel the same as they did the other night when they kissed or maybe if she kissed him more forcefully than he kissed her, would they feel different? She was dying to know.
It was something she would have done if she had been somewhere with James, just leant forward and kiss him mid-sentence, just because.
She seized the opportunity in a moment of spontaneity and leant closer to him, taking her hand and cupping the side of his face before leading him closer to her and softly pressing her lips to his. When he didn't hesitate, she ever so subtly moved her mouth to find another, more comfortable angle in which to absorb this sensation of kissing Sirius. After what felt like an incredible few moments, where she realised that Sirius Black was an amazing kisser, without actually going right in for a passionate kiss, they parted, breathy and flushed, the both of them.
"I had to do that" she said.
Sirius was about to speak when the lights on the stage lit up and the show began. Instead, he just smiled, a grin that was almost brighter than the lights shining on the stage. It made Lily melt inside. His lips did feel the same, but also different. She wanted more, but for now, she would have to wait.
Throughout the show, their food orders were taken, and their meals brought out. The food was delicious and the show fantastic. Lily didn't know if these people were in fact witches and wizards pretending to do muggle magic, but they sure had her convinced.
When they were finished their meals and their plates taken away, Lily excused herself to go and freshen up. Upon her return, she thought that her chair had been moved, ever so slightly towards Sirius' chair. She didn't mind a bit.
She sat down to enjoy the rest of the show and was delighted when Sirius took her hand in his. As he stroked her hand with his thumb, much the same was as before, Lily was dreadfully aware that he had brushed against her wedding and engagement rings a few times.
She had meant to take them off, she knew that it was most likely inappropriate to leave them on, but out of habit, they had remained on. She tensed up and wondered if she should excuse herself once again to take them off. She wished more than anything that she could take out her wand and banish them to her handbag, wordlessly, but she knew that surely, Sirius would notice. She thought that he was probably thinking similar things to what she was thinking and was feeling foolish for not remembering.
The show came to an end and when the lights came on, Lily stood with everyone else and clapped for the performers.
Helping her with her coat, Sirius stayed very close to Lily as the crowds dispersed from the theatre. He made her feel very safe in an unfamiliar environment, which only made her feelings for him grow. This was now far beyond a friendship, obviously because they had now shared two kisses, there was definitely no turning back, but he was attentive and thoughtful, in a way that friends weren't. She wondered if he treated all his dates this way but closed that idea off in her mind. This was Sirius, he had dated loads of women in the last several years.
He was in fact, quite the ladies' man, which made Lily question briefly, what he wanted with her, a single mother with two small children, when he could have any woman, muggle or witch, that he wanted.
They left the building and stood in the street in the light snow.
"Do you want to drive or are you happy to walk?" he asked.
"It's not too cold, I'm happy to walk" he answered.
"It's not very far anyway" he said, taking her hand and heading down the street.
"That show was incredible, do you think they're muggles or are they wizards? Lily asked him.
"Definitely muggles. None of those tricks were real" he said.
"Of course, but I thought that they were very clever. The muggles were in complete disbelief. And it was funny too" she said.
They chatted casually about the show as they walked the block or so to the restaurant. The conversation flowed nicely and by the time they arrived, it felt like no time had passed.
They entered the restaurant and were directed to a small table next to the window, looking out at the passers-by.
"Would you like the dinner menu?" a lady asked in a thick French accent.
"We would like to see the wine and dessert menu if you please" Lily said.
"Very well" she answered as she left, coming back a short time later with the menus.
They ordered from both menus and sat patiently waiting for it to arrive.
The wine came first, and Lily sipped the bubbling fruity liquid, humming her approval.
"I don't know why I don't drink this more often" she said.
"I'd prefer a butterbeer, just quietly, but this isn't too bad" he said.
Lily held up her glass, and Sirius followed suit.
"To new beginnings?" she said.
"To the future" Sirius said, as they touched their glasses together with a small 'ding'.
"So, given that this is our first date, I think we ought to ask some official first date questions" Sirius said, smiling.
"Oh, really? Go ahead" she said.
"Well, where did you go to school?" he asked.
"I attended a co-educational boarding school. How about you?" she asked.
"I also attended boarding school" he said.
"How did you find it?" she asked.
"It was great. My mates and I were always getting up to no good, annoying the caretaker, that kind of thing" he said.
"Oh, right, well, I had some people like that at my school, they were the most irritating, arrogant group of boys. I bet you weren't anything like that?" she asked.
"Oh, no, me and my friends were not like that at all" he said, grinning.
"I'm pleased" she said, grinning back.
"Do you have siblings?" he asked.
"One. A sister. We don't get along" she said.
"Oh, I see. My brother and I didn't get along either" he said.
"What happened to him?" she asked, feigning curiosity.
"He got caught up in the wrong crowd. Paid with his life" he said.
"Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that" she said placing her hand on his and stroking it gently. Sirius looked down and raised an eye brow in approval.
"I see what you did there" he said.
"I don't know what you're talking about" she said.
"Showing off your moves" he said.
"I don't have any moves, just genuine concern for your feelings" she said, smiling. It was quite fun banter they had going on and Lily enjoyed it.
"So, enough of that sad story, lets talk about something more exciting" he said… "Do you want to have children someday?" he asked.
"Ohh, the heavy stuff?" she asked.
"Of course" he said.
"I already have two children. I hope that won't be a problem" she said.
"Are you kidding? I love kids" he said.
"That's great" she said.
"Any more kids on the cards for you?" he asked.
Suddenly Lily was caught off guard. She never thought of having any more children. But of course, Sirius would want to have children of his own. Why hadn't she thought of that? Was she willing to have more children? Did she want anymore? Would she have them for him if that's what he wanted?
"I uh… I don't know. I hadn't thought about it that much… I'm not too sure" she said. "How about you?" she asked.
"Perhaps if it felt right" he said, shrugging.
"So, what do you do for a job?" she asked, continuing this first date questioning façade.
"I'm in law enforcement. Top secret of course" he said.
"Sounds intriguing" she said.
"Its quite dull at the moment. I already caught most of the bad guys so there's not much else to do. I have loads of time off" he said.
"So, you're a hot shot then?" she asked.
Sirius smiled and shrugged.
"Can't say. If I told you, I'd have to modify your memory" he said.
"What on earth do you mean? How do you modify someone's memory? Is this the top-secret business you were talking about?" she asked, suppressing a giggle.
"Well, yes, quite the government conspiracy" he winked.
Lily and Sirius laughed at this, uncontrollably. It was the best time Lily had had in forever and just to laugh made it amazing.
After many annoyed looks from around the restaurant, the pair managed to calm themselves and finish their wine.
"I think we ought to leave" Lily said.
"I think that if we don't, we'll be asked to" Sirius said.
Lily stood and shrugged on her coat, wondering what could be next. Sirius had told her what his plans had been, however he didn't elaborate beyond dessert.
Lily paid, which was after some convincing on her part. She wasn't a woman who allowed a man to open her door or pay for her every need. With the money from the Ministry and all the Potter money, plus her Evans family money, Lily had more money that she would ever be able to spend.
As the couple left the restaurant, Sirius took Lily by the hand and kissed it gently.
"I've had an amazing time" Lily said.
"Incredible" Sirius said, stopping on the sidewalk to face Lily.
"I'm not ready to go back to my real life" she said, sadly.
Sirius looked into her eyes for a moment and Lily wondered what he was thinking. She had been honest, she wasn't ready to go home, back to reality, but she wasn't ready to go and jump into bed with him either. She wondered how she might convey that to him, when she had just said the line that most people use when they want to shag someone after a date. This wasn't like that though. This was like she was living a different life, like this one magical night was out of a fairy tale and as soon as she went home, it would all end.
"Lil, this is your real life" he said, reaching up and toying with har hair that had been resting on her shoulder. "This can be as real, or not, as you want it to be" he said.
The more she thought about these words, the more she realised that it might not be a good idea if this becomes more real than it is right now. She imagined all the reactions from people in the magical world, when Lily Potter, the woman-who-lived, starts dating her dead husband's best friend, like they were secretly shagging all along. She knew how people's minds worked. She wasn't ready to face that kind of ridicule just yet.
"I want this to be real Sirius. I've had an amazing night" she said, wondering how to convey to Sirius what she needed to say. "I don't want this to end, not tonight, not ever, but what are we going to say to the world when they find out? There will be a lot of talk" she said.
"Let them talk. Now more than ever, I know what it is that I want" he said, stepping closer to her, wrapping his arms around her. Their noses were inches away form each other and Lily could feel that magnetism again. That force that drew her to him.
She looked to his eyes and then to his lips. The lips that she had kissed twice now and desperately wanted to kiss again. She leant forward, tilting her head slightly and kissed him. This time, it wasn't soft or slow or brief. Although it began that way, Lily didn't resist the urges she felt to make it more. Her hands were in his hair and his were on her back, holding her close. The passion was intense, but Lily couldn't pull away. It was the first time she had been kissed like this in a very long time. While James had been a great kisser, he had never been as passionate as she was. After what felt like forever, they parted, both panting and out of breath.
"If you're trying to brush me off, you're not doing it well" Sirius said, not stepping away, keeping the closeness between them.
"Merlin, Sirius, no, that's not what I'm trying to do at all" she said.
"Please Lily, tell me what you want, because whatever it is, I'll do it. I just want to be with you" he said, closing his eyes.
"I want you Sirius. I want to be with you. Its just complicated. I am always watched, no matter where I go, I have people watching me. Can you imagine what they would post in the daily prophet? 'Lily Potter, shacking up with her dead husband's best friend, who knows, maybe they were sleeping together behind his back all along, what if it was a conspiracy to kill James so they could be together'" she said.
"Merlin, Lily, your mind is working overtime. Here's what I think they'll say", he cleared his throat, "'Lily Potter and Sirius Black, find happiness together after tragedy'" he said.
"Could we just… I don't know, stick to the muggle world, not tell anyone. Just yet. Give it time. Give us time to figure out what this all means, before we go telling anyone" she said.
"As much as I want to shout from the rooftops that I am dating you, I will hold off until you're ready" he said. "But eventually, I am going to want to take you to all the magical places I know of, and there may be people there" he said, smiling.
"I suppose at some point, I'll have to take these off" she said, holding up the hand that she wore her rings on.
"That is something that is completely up to you" he said, holding her hand in his and walking in the direction of the car.
"I can't wear them forever. I mean, they are James, they're special. I'll always love him, but somehow it feels wrong now. Kissing you while wearing these rings" she said.
"James is a huge part of both of our lives. Your marriage to him doesn't just cease to exist because he died, Lil" he said.
"I know, but how can I move forward with you, if I still hold onto this symbol of everything that me and James were?" she asked.
"You don't have to let go of James. In fact, I'd prefer that you didn't. Harry and Josie deserve to know how much their mum loved their dad" he said stepping to the side of the road where the car was parked. "If you just stop wearing the ring, stop talking about James or pretend like he wasn't the greatest love of your life, they'll be worse for it" he said.
"Well…" she said, getting into the car, "I suppose you're right. I think that in time, everything will sort of just happen. I'm completely overthinking all of this" she said.
"Yes, I think you are" Sirius said, starting the car.
"So, what now then?" Lily asked, changing the tone of the date.
"Well, to be honest, I only planed up until this point" he said, pulling out onto the road.
"Right" she said, sad that this was about to be over.
"If you want, we can find a bar or something and grab some drinks?" he asked.
"Like, a muggle bar?" she asked.
"The very same" he said.
"I think that sounds great" she said.
Sirius drove part of the way through the city, glancing around continuously for a sign of a bar that looked appropriate.
"Karaoke?" he asked, slowing down as he approached a corner pub with a neon sign that read 'KARAOKE THURSDAYS 9pm TILL LATE'.
"Looks good to me" she said, excited by the thought of staying out late.
Sirius pulled the car into the parking lot beside the pub and looked down at what they were both wearing.
"Not really appropriate for a pub…" he said.
"Never fear" Lily said, reaching into her small bag, completely too far to be possible.
"Undetectable extension?" he asked. "Very clever" he said.
"A girl has to be prepared" she said, pulling out a pair of jeans, a long sleeve shirt and a jumper.
"Well, a guy also has to be prepared…" he said, reaching to the back and getting some jeans of his own out of a bag.
"What on earth were we both planning for?" she asked.
"To be fair, I always keep extra clothes with me, just in case you need me to help with the kids. Now you… I think your plans are far more sinister" he said, smiling.
Perhaps he was right. When Lily packed the extra clothes into her bag, she packed them in case she didn't make it home that night. It had been on a silly whim, wondering how far she might feel like going with this first date in the moment.
"Well, Sirius, it is snowing and what would I have done if I had fallen over and ruined my dress?" she asked, slightly red in the face. She most definitely was planning on going home that night. Not that she wasn't attracted to Sirius, in fact, it was all she could think of for most of the night. She was just concerned with jumping too far too fast and finding herself in over her head.
"Turn around" she said as she slipped off her shoes. Sirius obeyed and turned to look out the window while she slid her jeans on under her dress.
"Could you unzip me?" she asked.
Without a word, he turned around, warmed up his hands and carefully unzipped her dress, from her neck to her waist.
Lily felt a shiver run through her spine, as he slid the zipper down, his fingers brushing against her flesh as he did.
"You're doing that on purpose" she said.
"I am completely innocent" he said.
"Well, turn around again so I can finish"
He turned, and she quickly changed. After she was done, Sirius laid his seat back a bit and leant back to unbutton his pants.
"I'll just…" she began, awkwardly turning herself towards the door.
"You don't have to turn around" he said with a wink as he removed his pants and changed into his jeans.
"Right" Lily said, "After all this struggling and changing, I need a real drink. Shal we?" she said, indicating to the entrance to the pub.
"Please" he said, opening his door to the rush of cold air.
They both put their coats on as quickly as possible and headed for the pub. Inside, it was dark and loud, but Lily was intrigued.
They headed to the bar, which occupied half the left-hand wall, ordered two drinks and went to find a place to sit. On the right side of the room, there were tables with bench seats, where people sat to have conversations away from the music. Beyond the tables and the bar was a more open area with a stage occupying the entire wall at the end. There were small round tables along the walls with a dance floor in the middle.
Lily thought this was a nice place to listen to music, dance a little and have a good time. There was a young girl on the stage slaughtering one of Lily's favourite muggle songs, but she didn't seem to mind. For a small pub, there were a lot of people gathered on the dance floor watching the karaoke, and Lily took Sirius by the hand to join them.
For the next couple of hours, Lily and Sirius danced, drank and had a great time. The singers were mostly atrocious, however it just made it more fun. She lost count of how many times she and Sirius had kissed. Each time, becoming more and more daring. She felt like she was 19 again, happy, carefree and able to do what was fun, instead of what was right or safe.
Eventually, the bar tender made an announcement that the pub would close shortly, and everyone had to leave.
Lily and Sirius, at this point had had too much to drink to drive home, so, when they left, Sirius made sure the car was safe, and the two of them walked a short way down the street to find a place to disapparate.
Standing in an ally, hand in hand, Lily kissed Sirius on the cheek as he turned on the spot, pulling Lily with him into nothingness.
The pair arrived in a place that Lily recognised immediately as Sirius' house.
"What are we doing here, Siri?" she asked.
I don't think either of us are in a fit state to come face to face with Remus and the kids. Do you?" he asked.
"No, I suppose you're right" she said. They were both pretty drunk.
Lily took out her wand, casting a warming spell lazily which heated up the small house instantly.
"Genius" Sirius said, taking off his shoes and throwing them towards the front door.
The living room was small, with an adjoining kitchen and dining room and a bedroom through a door with an ensuite bathroom. Lily remembered it from years ago when she had visited with James to talk about the danger they were in from Voldemort. It was something that Lily didn't want to think of right now, so she looked around for something they could do.
Even though she had said to herself earlier in the night that she did not want to jump straight into bed with Sirius on their first date, in this moment, looking into Sirius' bedroom at his oversize bed, she could think of one thing that she wanted to do right now.
Sirius went over to the kitchen and took two large glasses out of the cupboard. He filled the both with water and took two potions from another cupboard.
"This is a hangover potion. If you drink this now, you will feel very tired, but you won't be hung over in the morning" he said.
"Ok" she said, wondering if he was ready to finish the date and go to sleep or if there was a chance he was thinking along the same lines as she was.
She took the potion from him and held it in her hand for a minute before sitting it on the bench.
"I don't know if I'm ready to be tired. I've had an amazing night Sirius. I don't know if I want to end it" she said, backing him into the bench and beginning to unbutton his shirt. She was no longer the shy Lily she was several hours ago. She was now fuelled by alcohol and lust and the idea of a potion to make her sleepy was not something she was willing to entertain.
"I really truly would love nothing more than to continue this date, well into the morning. Merlin, its all I've thought about at several points through the night. But, Lil, you don't want to do this. Not yet" he said, holding her hands in his, keeping them against his chest.
"I do. You don't know how much I do, Sirius. Its been such a long time, I…" she started.
"I know that you think you want this. I know that it has been a long time since James, but trust me when I say this, we can't do this tonight. When you're sober, if you still feel the same, I'll floo Remus, he can stay with the kids a little longer and you've got me all day tomorrow for whatever you want" he said.
Lily looked at him, her eyes slightly off focus. She knew he was right. She had told herself earlier that night that it wasn't the right time for them. Now because she had several drinks under her belt, she was ready to jump him. She felt so stupid.
"Godric, Sirius, I'm sorry. I'm a stupid woman… I think I just miss the feeling of someone close to me. Will you lay with me, at least?" she asked, picking up the potion.
"Dot be silly, you're not stupid. I mean, look at me. Even I want to shag me. Come, drink your potion and I will lay with you" he said, picking up his own.
They clinked their vials before taking the potion like a shot of alcohol.
"That is vile" she said.
"Here, drink this" he said, handing her the water.
"Thank you" she said, skulling the water almost completely in one go.
"Quite the lady" Sirius said.
"Oh, you've known me far too long for me to be concerned with trying to be ladylike" she said.
"I'll get you something to wear" he said, laughing and heading to his bedroom.
Sirius handed her some trackpants and a shirt before she went into the bathroom to change. Within minutes, she had taken care of business, changed into Sirius' clothes, stopped to smell them and exited back into the bedroom. Sirius had turned out all the lights except for one that Lily used to get into his bed. She was beginning to feel the effects of the potion and found herself to be sobering up as fast as she was feeling tired.
She laid down in the comfort of his bed and he laid behind her, spooning her, with his arm around her. It was intimate and intense and just what she needed. The whole time she felt as though she needed to shag him, it was just intimacy and closeness she was craving. While shagging him was still something that was on the cards, it was definitely not what she needed in that moment.
She closed her eyes, listening to the sound of Sirius breathing, feeling the warmth of his body pressed against her from the top of her back all the way to her feet.
She went over the events of the night in her mind and she knew in this moment, as her head began to clear of the alcohol completely, that she would be lost to him completely. She was pulled right in. She was falling completely head over heels in love with Sirius, the best friend of her husband. The man who had supported her, been there for her, no matter what over the last year and a bit.
She had no idea what their future looked like, but for the first time, she could now see that whatever it was, it was positive.
AN- So, an anxious, drunk all over the place Lily. I hope that date came off as realistic. I liked their first date banter. It was supposed to be a funny take on first date questioning so i really hope it came out that way. Of course they knew all of that stuff already.
Didn't get around to the Snape stuff in this chapter, but the next will have a lot of that in it.
Guest - thank you for pointing out my mistake, that has been changed. Harry is still 2.
a guy 1013 - thank you for your continued reviews. I can assure you I am updating as fast as I can. I have a few things in mind so am keen to get to it soon.
Teagan Lawrence - I'm glad this makes you happy. Keep reading. I hope it continues to do so. James had to die for this to be a thing. Its sad, but all for the greater good.
DeliaDee - I hope your tears are happy ones now as Lily finds her way in this new life. Let me know what you think. There will be some more of James' guidance coming up.
