Phoebe woke up, she looked up to see a sleeping Cole, she smiled and got up she had the urge to just kiss him but resisted. Last night had been nice, all the craziness of that night had been outdone by him holding her and simply sleeping with her in his arms. A part of her couldn't take this game they were playing, she wanted to know what he was thinking when he called her baby, what he was thinking whenever he made a play for her. She sighed and got up. Today was just another day closer to him going back to New York. She stretched and looked down on him, she looked at the time it was still quite early. As she made her way to her room she checked in on her sleeping angel. She still wanted to know what he had said to her. Mystery of Cole turner. Was she really going to allow herself to get lost in it again? Yeahhhhh. She turned on the shower and went around her room; she felt like a light had shone her and brought him back to her. Maybe this was her second chance. Did he see it that way though, could she risk her daughters father for her own relationship. She stepped in the shower letting the pattern of water dropping on her skin present each obstacle and scenario possible for her and Cole.
Cole yawned; he had actually stayed the night. He looked around not seeing her. He sat up, rubbing the back of his neck. More yawns followed. He suddenly felt like something had changed between them. He ran his hands through his hair then got up and walked into the kitchen to see her sitting down going through her two way. She looked up and smiled
"Morning" she said brightly
"Hey"
he said then sat down at the table opposite her
"You sleep ok"
she asked him, he nodded then she laughed
"You nod a lot" she then said
"Bad
habit, you know when your in the big long boring meetings and you've
daydreamed or something and they just snap your out of it you gotta
nod" he said, she smiled
"You look like a baby when you do
it" she then said, he laughed
"So what you doing today" she asked him
"Umm just getting things ready for Sunday, you" he told her
"Normal
day…"
"Don't you cook" he asked, she smirked
"There's food in the fridge but Miss Misha wont be up and she'll probably only eat cereal" she told him in a matter of fact tone. She cooked dinner and cooked on the weekends but she and her daughter were fast paced in the morning so there wasn't a need. However the thought of him in nothing but boxers and a cute little apron was appealing enough to cook to breakfast. She smiled at this and noticed him watching her she laughed slightly trying to hide her embarrassment of being caught in her little day dream.
"So
your going to let me die of hunger, some hospitality" he then told
her, she got up from her seat he followed her with his eyes and she
got a bowl and spoon and put it in front off him, then opened a
cupboard. Putting froot loops and some milk.
"Enjoy" she told
him, he laughed
"Thanks
its appreciated" he said with a fake smile, she did the same and
sat back down. He looked at her and she looked up. The blue eyes
bounced off of hers.
"Yes" she asked him
"Nothing"
he went about setting the cereal in his bowl and looked up to see her
looking at him, why was he catching her out for.
"Yes honey"
he asked sweetly, she pulled another face and blew air at him but her
stomach twisted further in knots when he called her honey, he
shouldn't do that. Why was he doing that? She felt frustrated at
this and decided something should at least be clear.
"Ok.
You need to stop"
"What"
"What are you playing at"
she asked him, he purposely poured the milk and took a spoonful and
looked at her, she looked at him. He didn't even know to be honest
all he knew was that he was falling again. Tell
her then. Cole took
a deep breath and swallowed. She was still looking at him with an
amused expression.
"I don't know, I feel funny" he
pretended to think about how he was feeling
"Funny"
"Yeah,
I thought a lot of things could happen when I come here but seeing
you again was not one of them"
"Have you even thought about
me in the last 8 years" she asked him, he thought about this
"I'm
pretty sure I have, have you" she nodded
"Yeah everyday"
and that was because of Misha he was certain. Tell
her he
"Phoebe
I like you, I really like you" her eyes opened slightly then she
looked away from him
"Do
you even know what your saying, I don't want you to think that you
have to automatically be in like with me because we have a child"
see he thought he knew she would think something like that.
"I
don't, I really feel like im falling for you again and it made me
think about us" he told her shocking him self with what he was
saying. She looked back to him
"Cole we ended so badly I
wouldn't even expect you to want to be in the same room as me"
she then said truthfully
"I
know, that's why it's confusing"
"What"
"I think
I still love you" he couldn't take it back now it was out there,
ok he didn't think he knew, her expression he couldn't read
whether or not she was happy or upset. She went to talk then they saw
Misha walk into the kitchen with a bright smile, she looked at him
then greeted their daughter.
"You sleep ok" she asked her, Misha nodded and got up on the seat, Cole then decided that he might as well tell her now instead of later
"Sweetie
can I tell you something" Cole then said she nodded
"I have
to go back to New York, you my home" he then said, she looked at
him like he spoke another language
"But
I thought you was staying with us" she then said
"Daddy has
to go back to New York for his business and"
"Your leaving
us" she then asked sadly
"Noo I'm not ill be back as soon
as I can"
"When you going"
"Sunday"
"Awww why
do you have to go" she looked at her mom and then at him
"Honey
he has to go home, hes has to see his mom and his dogs and his work"
Phoebe helped to explain a little
"I don't want you to go not yet" she then said upset then she left the kitchen
"Great"
Cole then said,
"Don't worry, she'll be ok" she smiled at
him and he got up
"Im gonna go now, ill come round later and
try again" he told her, she followed him to the door
"Ok"
she said and he left.
He got to his car and his pager went off
"I didn't stop loving you" it read, his heart almost jumped out of his chest. He was torn between going back to the house and kissing her until everything disappeared and going with his head instead of heart he went about securing the surprise he had for her. He had been thinking ever since he was presented with Misha in his life that he would definitely have to make some changes to his lifestyle.
Phoebe felt funny maybe this was the funny he was talking about, she didn't know if it was the right thing to send that message but she had to give him something, just because he thought he still loved her didn't mean that he actually did, it could just be that he loves Misha and loves her for Misha but not actually her. she sighed she was so confused she didn't know he sounded so genuine when he said it and she could tell he was figuring it all out as he talked, she wondered what it would be like to be with him again now that they were adults, would they be different, last night had been one of the best nights. He was just like she remembered playful, sweet, cute, hot-headed, and passionate but on the other hand he was man now no longer a boy and she could tell that straight off. He had taken responsibility and was making things work with Misha when he could have easily left it and allowed Jason to continue playing dad. He could have done a lot of things but he hadn't, she expected him to be bitter and hateful towards her but he wasn't, this might be her second chance. Misha was her only concern.
Misha wasn't happy about her daddy going away but she couldn't do anything about it, he promised to be back real soon and he would bring her a present from their. Her mom was happier when he was around and she liked when they were together she didn't know if this was bad because of her dad, she only saw him on the weekends and this week her mom said she wouldn't be going with him. She didn't know why all of sudden she had to talk to these strangers about her mom and dad, she didn't like it. Her dad really didn't like her daddy and she didn't really like that either because she didn't want them to fight like he had done with her mom. On the upside she got all of her daddies' attention all the time and when she wanted. She smiled and packed the rest of her night bag, she was going to spend the weekend with her cousins Wyatt & Chris they were older than her though. Maybe her daddy and mommy would make her sister. She would ask her mommy to make her sister seeing as her mom could only make her with daddy she could only make her sister with him as well. She smiled at her genius.
Jason rolled out of bed, he felt rotten his head was throbbing; last night had been humiliating his own wife went against him. They couldn't see that even though parental responsibility was always with the mother that phoebe was starting to become neglectful of her own duties she couldn't just dump his daughter on the closet family member to fly out of town. He sighed was this what she reduced him to. Her voice was so detached and cold when she spoke to him, she no longer cared what he thought was best or what he thought in general and all because the boy whom she broke his heart was around. She said she wasn't trying to take anything away from him yet she was doing everything to keep him away. He sighed as he got dressed he was sure he could find a delectable student who would make his problems go away at least for a while. He could honestly say that what he did last night was foolish and only made matters worse he had got a message from her in the early hours of the morning saying that he was not to come and pick her up for her weekend stay, he had no argument he had betrayed her trust.
"What you doing tomorrow" Cole then said into the phone, Phoebe shuffled in her covers
"Umm
I got a meeting at 2 and that's about it, everything's been
filmed for this season" she told him happily
"Wanna help me
with something"
"Depends on what it is" she dragged her
words out,
"Decorating" he then said
"Decorating what,
your bachelor pad" she laughed into the phone, why an earth would
he decorate when he was going back. In less than two days.
"Noo,
look I'll pick you up from your office at lets say 4 and ill show
you" he offered
"Hmmm
why are you always up to something"
"To keep you on your
toes, you in" he asked, she laughed
"I
guess, ill call you when im close to finishing" she told him
"Ok
see you tomorrow"
"Hmmmm" was all she was giving him ,she
could feel him smile and the phone clicked.
Jason had been trying her cell all day and she wasn't answering, he tried her office but he was sure she told her secretary not to put his calls through. This could be seen as avoidance he thought but then again what he did last night was potential kidnapping. He walked up to the woman working at her desk
"Can
I help you"
"Yes Is Miss Halliwell available" the woman
pressed the intercom
"Who
are you" she asked him
"Mr Dean" the woman then looked at
him
"She doesn't want to see you" she then told him, this
annoyed him
"Just buzz her and tell her that I'm here what is
she going to do" he told her quickly, she sighed and buzzed
"He's here" she said dryly, he heard something like a frustrated scream. A few minutes later she emerged from her office. She was wearing nothing more small skirt and fitting shirt he hair was down and straightened, would he even know she was mother by looking at her. No. she glared at him
"Why are you here" she asked him not even giving him the decency of private conversation. He felt slightly embarrassed as some of the workers started to look at heir visibly angry boss. She waited for an answer
"Can we talk in private" he asked her she rolled her eyes in annoyance then turned and walked back towards her office he followed her willingly. Once in her office, he closed the door. she was still shooting him angry looks.
"Phoebe
just let me explain"
"Jason you took Misha in the middle of
the night and then refused to give her back, I don't even know what
I would have done if Cole didn't come back with her" she snapped
"Ok I wasn't thinking, is she ok"
"She's fine she
doesn't know what happened last night" she told him, he sighed
with relief
"I'm
sorry I"
"You threatened me, and now you're here trying to
plead your case" she then said which was true he sighed and took a
step towards her.
"This ice queen act is really starting to wear thin on me" he told her, she
"Good,
do you even know what your putting her through cos I swear any and
everything that those so called psychologists are asking her
analysing her I could do quite easily after all"
"I know I
know, its for the best, maybe now it doesn't make sense but I
promise you that Misha will be better off with me" he believed his
words, it wasn't that she was a bad mother she just didn't want
to be the kind of mother he wanted her to be he needed her be. He
looked at her beautiful face scowling at him.
"Really I really
don't think so, and this is becoming stupid and I think if you want
to see Misha regularly again then you should better hope your
lawyers can get the judge to tell me that because as of now I don't
want you anywhere near my daughter" he was hurt extremely hurt she
was acting as if he had tried to kill her or something.
"That
isn't necessary, you're just being over dramatic ill pick her up
today like usual" he tried to regain some of the power lost
"No
you wont because if you then I'll file for a restraining order"
"You can't do that what will you tell Misha"
"Misha
is too occupied with her real dad at the moment to notice your
absence" she spat, his heart dropped, what had he done. He looked
at the woman in front of him, is this going to be the outcome was she
seriously going to remove his rights to his daughter. One small
mistake, since when did she tell him what and when he couldn't see
his daughter when did she just assert dominance in their
relationship. He was man and this was his child he would not be told
he could not see her.
"Don't be stupid Phoebe; this will do
you no good. I still have an advantage"
"What advantage, ok
apart from the fact that you have been an active part in our lives
from when she was born but that's really about it all you do is
tell me what to do, how to act how to treat my daughter like I cant
look after myself and my child all because of what you have no right
over me or her" she flowed so angrily, he wanted to shake some
sense into her but after the last time he let his emotions get the
better of him he couldn't risk it.
"So you think Cole's
going to be better, the boy has the most inconsistent lifestyle ever"
"Huh" that's what he thought he smiled smugly
"You don't even read up on the father or your child" she rolled her eyes
"What
are you getting at"
"Well Mr Turner has a very lets say
crazed life, his ex girlfriend overdoses and loses his baby, his sex
life is more than in its prime, his erratic and flippant nature has
seen him make some bad enemies in the cooperate world, his firm alone
has the older guys slightly jealous, he seems to have a very dark
circle of friends"
"What are you trying to say" she asked
now she was sounding a little bit more calm and rational
"I'm saying that ask him why he's really here in San Francisco I mean you wouldn't want to be dealing with a potentially dangerous man now would you"
"I mean how many young men at the age of 26 have an established firm and 2 buildings in different states, excelling investments, numerous houses across the board and still have time to take a holiday, it takes 10 years or more to build what hes done in half the time now tell me Phoebe exactly how do you do that when you spent most of your adolescent childhood chasing girls and being a nuisance" He finished smugly. Happy to see her face draw a blank for the first time in their conversation, he had done his research quite thoroughly and found out quite a lot of interesting information about the young man.
"Jason your really starting to sound like scum, why do you hate him so much" she then asked, that was not the reaction he had been hoping for, he looked at her
"In fact would you just leave, Misha is going to be with my sisters this weekend so I will see you next week Wednesday for the first meeting and I would appreciate if you kept away from me in the meantime" she then said coolly. He sighed
"Cant
you see what hes doing"
"Jason leave"
"Fine have it
your way… tell Misha I love her" she went around her desk and sat
down. He opened the door and left. Unsatisfied with that
conversation.
He looked around the place, not bad he thought, he looked at his watch phoebe should be finished by now. He dialled
"Finished"
"Yeah you coming "
"Yup" she dropped and he jumped
into his car and went to pick her up.
"So
what am I decorating"
"Well I thought seeing as I'm going
to have to be in here more often, that if Misha did ever want to stay
over then I don't really think my penthouse is suitable for her"
he then told her, she considered this, he turned the and stopped,
they stepped out of the car
"So I thought maybe ill get a
proper place" he motioned towards the house he had bought two weeks
ago. He saw her surprise she looked at him "
"You bought a
house" she asked in disbelief
"Yeah
come" he took her arm and led her inside the house, she walked in
still in shock. He gave her a brief tour of the place; he could sense
something was up with her. He was watching her carefully throughout
once they came back round to the front room, she looked at him
"If
you don't mind me asking exactly how did you buy this house so
quickly" she asked
"I paid for it" he said simply he was confused
"Yeah
but all of it"
"Yeah"
"How"
"Phoebe I own a law firm"
"So"
"So" they both
looked at each other unsure of what the other was getting at.
"Are
you going to help me decorate" he asked her, she actually smiled
for the first time since him picking her up
"What happened
today" he then asked her, she sighed
"Nothing
why"
"You don't seem yourself"
"Why don't you let
me re arrange this room and you can go and take care of any work you
have to do"
"Are you sure" he was unsure of her motives
"Yeah,
is there any food in this house"
"Umm no"
"Terrible.
Were going shopping" she told him without actually asking him, he
smirked then straightened.
"Still demanding… whats wrong "
"Nothing" she told him again tugging at his arm, he turned
her around to face him and looked at her she shyly smiled and moved
out of his grasp
"Come on" she said quietly and walked
towards the door
Phoebe
moved down the aisle's picking things out for his place, she didn't
really want to fall into Jason trap he already lied to Misha about
Cole what was stopping him from doing the same to her however she was
still slightly curious into exactly what Cole did do apart from being
a successful lawyer. He was pushing the trolley behind her, he been
really quiet now that she thought about it. She stopped and placed
the canned food in the trolley, he followed her with his eyes but
didn't say anything
"what's got your tongue" she tried
lightly and turned back crossing over into the next aisle
"Nothing
yet" he replied, she rolled her tongue along her bottom lip,
"I think were done" she told him, not humouring him with his comment, they went to the checkout and he paid.
Once
they were back at the house, she set about putting the stuff away; he
excused himself to go make a phone call. Typical of a man to just
leave when there was a little work to do. She started to put things
in the sparkling new fridge and finally worked her way to the
cupboards, as she picked up tin to put in the cupboard, she realised
she couldn't reach, she huffed and tip-toed. Ok slightly closer but
still couldn't get the handle that was the thing with tall people
they always had things in high places like the little would just
float up there. She was about to come down from tip-toeing when she
felt another hand on her hers and then one on her waist. Cole had
taken the tin and opened the high cupboard door and placed the tin
inside. She slowly became flat footed, well hardly considering the
small heels she was wearing. Her body became tense as she felt the
warmth of his body behind her. They were still for several moments
before she attempted break the tension his hand was still placed
lightly on her waist.
"You couldn't of had them fitted lower
now could you" she asked in attempt of a joke, she still had not
turned around for some reason her whole body felt like it was
trembling and if she moved she wasn't certain what she would do.
Throw yourself at him.
"Are you going to turn around" he asked and was now the hand
that had been on her waist went to the counter in front of them, as
did his other hand. Now she could see both his arms outstretched
either side of her. She took a deep breath before answering her heart
slammed against her chest, her mind going over the hundred and one
things that could happen if she turned around.
"No…your too
close" she told him quietly
"Too close" he said just as
quietly as her, the atmosphere had become deadly intense she could
feel his hot breath on her neck and wanted more than for him to sweep
her into his arms. What had been 2 months of re-introduction for them
was about to end she could feel it, they flirted, kissed, teased if
it wasn't for Misha she would have thought she was 16 again, when
he first started chasing her. She moved her hands to the counter also
and in an attempt to move his hands put hers on his.
"Cole
I-I don't do this to me" she then told him sadly she couldn't
take any rejection for him she would sleep with him only for him to
reject her and return to New York.
"Do what baby I'm not
going to hurt you" his words were so soft and loving. Her heart was
threaten to pop out of her chest and onto the counter, she looked her
hands on his
"Turn around" he asked again
"No, Cole you
don't know this is going to cause more damage than good"
"What
are you scared of" he asked her,
"Please Cole" his body
pressed right against, he entwined their fingers and she remembered
the feel of his hands tangled with hers along with other parts of his
body.
"What do you think I'll do" she sensed the confusion
in his voice
"Not
you…me" she breathed slowly and try to control the wave of
emotions taking over her.
" I don't want you to be scared of
us"
"Cole, I understand that Misha" she stopped when she
heard him laugh a little. The he stepped back from her she took this
as her cue to get as far away from him as possible but she was
horribly mistaken. When she turned he swooped in and she couldn't
move again her head jus came in under his shoulder and she could feel
his chest against hers.
"Do you want me to let go" he asked her
"Yes"
he looked into her eyes and she was unable to lie to him
"No"
she closed her eyes
"This
is wrong"
"Why" he asked as his lips trailed themselves
across her cheek and brushed her lips lightly her whole body
shuddered with fear, excitement &passion.
"I love you" he
then said, the words that she thought she would never hear again came
so smoothly and strongly.
"You stopped thinking" she said looking deep into his blue eyes she saw a glimmer of amusement then his lips covered hers a hot passionate kiss. He worked his way into her mouth, at first she wanted what was happening between them then she didn't and now, now she wanted it all of it. She was suddenly aware that he was undressing her, they walked back and he picked her up as she wrapped her legs around his waist her shirt drop, she moaned as he placed her against a wall nibbling and kissing her chest, as they sexually assaulted each other all the way to his master bedroom he placed her neatly on his bed, he towered over her
"Do you want this" he asked as he lowered his body on top of her his bare chest rubbing against hers as he spoke into her ear, the friction of his jeans and her bra was causing chaos for her and definitely him, she thought about Misha & about Jason, last time she made love she had lost the love of her life, last time she was with him he hated her, last time they were together they were falling apart. Misha meant everything to her and Cole, well he had been her everything and she ruined it, she couldn't not again not at the expense of her daughter or her own heart, she placed her hands on his chest feeling the hard muscles.
Cole
looked at Phoebe she looked upset for a second, he knew what he
wanted and she was what she wanted, yes it was convenient that a
child had to bring them together but the moment he saw her again she
had taken his heart once again. He had been struggling with the
rising feelings for her and whether they were lust or love, however
after her phone call about Misha and hearing her worried and frantic
he knew it he still loved her and wanted her back.
"Cole I
can't I'm sorry" her brown eyes grew wide with sadness, he then
lifted his body steadying himself in a sit up position above her, she
went to move
"Tell me" he asked her
"Cole
you're leaving tomorrow"
"I'm coming back" he then saw
a small smile come to her lips
"What
are you coming back for" she asked him and he replied
"Misha"
then when he saw the hurt of his comment and knew that she asked him
that for a reason, she slid out from underneath him and he turned on
his back and watched her
"Phoebe
I would come back for you…if you wanted me to" he then told her
he sat on the end of his bed and looked at her. Taking in her every
detail.
"I did want you to…but you never came" she told him
sadly, he saw the tears in her eyes; they had to be something he
didn't know what to do. He could never use logic to figure her out…
he bowed his head. He was a successful lawyer he had all the
arguments and mouth to win his cases amongst other things. Yet he
didn't know what to say to the woman he had unknowingly hurt, the
girl he had loved so effortlessly.
"What do you feel, what did
you feel just a minute ago"
"Like nothing made sense anymore
but me and you" she replied simply,
"We never made sense" he told her
"Exactly
do you know what could happen if we" he got up and cut her off, she
was just scared and he was letting her go
"Trust me" he told,
she blinked
"Trust me" he told her again this time when he
kissed her she responded and her arms went around his neck, whether
it was lust for her it was love for him. He wanted to make love to
her now and answer questions later.
