So here we go with out next installment…hope you enjoy this one as much as me and do the happy dance…reviews make me do the happy dance, did you know that? Anyway let me know by hitting the button. Oh and just a warning, this has Edwards and Bella's POV so it goes back and forth a bit especially at the end. Review? Love Tink. xx
I was already waiting for Edward by the curbside the next morning as he pulled up.
"Guess what, guess what?" I knew I was babbling as I climbed in next to him but I didn't care. I was too excited to share my news with my best friend.
"What?" he asked dully, not looking at me as he pulled away from the sidewalk.
"Jake called me last night, he wants to give me a ride to the bowling alley and then take me for dinner after. I have date," I giggled. I was doing that a lot lately "me… Bella Swan has a real live date"
"That's great" again he didn't sound exactly thrilled. I felt a spurt of annoyance and looked at him. His face was slightly turned away as he concentrated on the road but even in profile he looked pissed. His jaw was clenched and his hands gripped the steering wheel tightly.
"Edward what's wrong? I thought you'd be happy for me" I asked, a little hurt by his lack of interest.
"I am Bells, really"
I wasn't convinced "Well you're doing a good job of fooling me"
EPOV
I didn't even know why he was acting the way I was. Bella was smart she could see I wasn't exactly thrilled for her. It was selfish I know but I was slightly pissed at her. I'd found out last night from Jasper that Bella had a date with Jake. She hadn't even bothered to call me, and I was supposed to be her best friend.
"I'm sorry, I just got a lotta stuff on my mind" I lied, not wanting to hurt her feelings. I didn't want to admit to the jealousy that seethed inside me as I thought about her with Black.
"Not too much to help me prepare for my date I hope…. there's just so much stuff I have to know"
"Like what? Guys are just guys like me"
Bella shook her head with a smile; I felt heat curl inside me "Nope not like you, there's only one of you Edward Cullen"
"Such as shame though, so many chicks so little time" I said with a forced smile so she wouldn't suspect what I really thought, how I really felt.
Bella laughed "You really are the limit… but you're still going to help me right?"
I wasn't sure I wanted to; I didn't like the idea of telling her how to impress another guy. It just felt to wrong to me, I was supposed to be the only guy in her life. I knew it was wrong of me to stand in the way of her happiness because I didn't like the thought of somebody replacing me. I knew then that I would whatever I could to make her happy and if helping her with Black would make her happy… then that's what I would do.
"What do you wanna know?" I sighed, defeated.
"Well just some little things… insider tips. But not here not now, tonight at your place, I'll bring pizza… Your favorite …vegetarian supreme" she said in a singsong voice.
I looked at her pleading expression and couldn't refuse. We shared a smile, my eyes meeting hers "Bella you always know the way to my heart"
Her face froze and something flickered in her eyes for a second before it was gone. I wondered what I had said to put that look there.
BPOV
I wish, I thought, I really wish I did.
The rest of the day may as well have been an eternity for me, as I saw very little of Edward or Jake. It wasn't until last period I spotted him in the hallways, my stomach clenching as he came towards me. I felt a blush begin on my cheeks. He was handsome, so dark and rugged.
"Hey Bella" he called out along the hall, jogging slightly to catch up with me.
I turned with a smile and felt myself blush even more "Hi Jake"
" Is it okay to pick you up about 6:30 tomorrow, the lane is booked for seven"
I nodded with a big grin; this was so exciting "That's fine, you need my address?"
He shook his head and looked a little sheepish. I thought it was the cutest thing. "Nah, Rosalie has already given it to me"
I made a mental note to kill her; she had no right giving my address out.
"Oh that's cool, so I'll see you tomorrow then" I pulled my file close to my chest and bit my lip shyly.
"I'll be looking forward to it, gotta run, I don't wanna be late"
I watched him disappear into the throng of kids in the crowded hallway, it wasn't hard he stood head and shoulders above most of the kids and I think he was at least as tall as Edward, if not taller.
I found I didn't achieve much in last period, except to tie myself in mental knots worrying about tomorrow night. How would it go? What if Jake didn't like me? Would he try to kiss me? Should I let him? Did I want to kiss him?
When the bell finally sounded for the end of the day I breathed a sigh of relief and I hurried to meet Alice who was giving me a ride home. Edward was staying late for practice as they had a big game coming up.
We talked all the way home about the date, what I should wear, things we could talk about and Alice tried to calm me down. She reminded me that for the first part of the date everyone else would be there, so the pressure would be off. All I had to worry about was dinner. Oh God, eating…I couldn't eat when I felt this nervous. Ridiculous that I was seventeen years old and acting like a thirteen year old. I supposed I was quite behind in the dating stakes, by now most of my friends were all involved in heavy sexual relationships and I had yet to have my first kiss.
I didn't count the time I was forced to splay spin the bottle with Eric, Tyler, Mike, Edward and Jasper when I was fourteen. Ugh! That was an experience I would much rather forget, an idea of how not to do it! I smirked as I remembered how pissed I was when Jessica Stanley span the bottle and got Edward. He didn't seem too concerned but I could have killed her where she stood. Ah the innocence of youth. I didn't know until recently that she rigged that bottle and poor Edward never stood a chance. But "poor Edward" looked like he thoroughly enjoyed himself and could handle it.
Once home I caught up on some chores and homework before taking a long hot bath. With a sigh of relief I relaxed into the water and let myself become a prune. I had to relax.
When I could put it off no longer I dried off and changed into a pair of jeans and t-shirt, which said "I love Nerds". I smiled to myself. Edward thought Jake was a nerd, maybe it was a unconscious message. I studied myself in the mirror and was pleased with what I saw. I didn't look too bad these days. The tricks Alice and Rosalie had taught me really paid off. Going downstairs I found the pizza I'd ordered before my bath arrived and after saying bye to Charlie I headed over to Edwards.
Letting myself in as usual I was surprised to find Esme and Carlisle on their way out to dinner. I said a quick hello and headed up the stairs, pizza box in hand. I smiled to myself, as I heard loud music emanating from Edwards room and balancing the pizza box in one hand, I knocked before pushing the door open and walking in . . .
…To see Edward emerging from his bathroom, his shaggy bronze hair mussed and wet, his torso dripping, a tiny white towel around his waist, obviously having just had a shower.
I stared blatantly at perfection personified, my mouth opening and closing like a fish as I took in his body. His shoulders were broad and powerful looking, his smooth chest tautly muscled, his abs ripped to perfection and his towel perilously low on his hips. So low I could see the deep slashes of the muscles of his hips and the collection of dark bronze, almost brown curling hair around his belly button and navel, which tapered away to his . . .
I gulped and squeezed my eyes shut quickly, mortified yet totally entranced. Edward clothed was beautiful but half naked? Fucking amazing. I wanted drop to my knees and- I shook my head fighting the lustful images inside me.
EPOV
I watched as Bella squeezed her eyes shut tight and I would have laughed out loud if it wasn't for the very real flash of longing I had glimpsed in them before they had closed.
I was taken aback, shocked. I know what lust looked like and it had been written all over my Bella's face.
"Edward" she cried, her face cherry red "Could you please put some clothes on?"
I chuckled, absurdly amused and thrilled by this development, not to mention somewhat turned on. I looked down to see the tent forming under the towel as my body reacted so bizarrely to my best friend. "You could have knocked"
"I did" her eyes were still shut and I hurried to pull on a pair of pants before crossing to her side.
"Okay Bells you can open them now" I told her, hoping she couldn't hear the grin in my voice. This was going to be interesting.
BPOV
My eyes popped open to find Edward stood very close to me, so close I could feel the heat from his skin. He was bare foot and wore nothing but a pair of soft jeans. His chest was bare and still damp and I could see he had left the top button undone on his jeans, where he had pulled them on quickly. He was so close to me that I could smell soap and cologne and something else that was uniquely Edward. Something that was so powerful it threatened to buckle my knees.
Our eyes met and caught, he began to lean down towards me with a wicked grin. My heart began to pound in my chest, my pulse skyrocketing and I attempted to step back away from him but the wall blocked my way. I was trapped and yes, I was loving it.
"What? What are you doing Edward" I asked, sounding nervous, shaky. This is what I'd wanted all these years wasn't it?
"Mmm my favorite" he said, his voice was deep and husky as he leant closer still.
I caught the breath that stuck in my throat, was he going to kiss me? His lips were close to mine and I could feel his breath against my skin, smell the sweetness of his breath. It was intoxicating.
"Pizza" he said softly, taking the box from my trembling fingers and stepping away.
"Pi- Pizza?" I stammered, my breath releasing in a whoosh, my pulse slowly returning to normal.
EPOV
I grinned as he took the box from her, I'd not been wrong earlier. Bella had looked at me as though she wanted me, her reaction just now confirming it. What I didn't understand was why? Why now? She'd never given any indication that she wanted more than friendship from me and I didn't really think she did. Maybe it was just her hormones racing out of control because of her date with Jake tomorrow, but I was intrigued.
Id never thought that way about Bella before but now I could feel something stirring inside me, something I had been repressing for a long time. I wanted to have some fun. I wanted to see how far I could take it, how far this thing between us could go.
BPOV
I stared dumbly at him, trying to figure out what had just happened between us. I was flustered, confused, why would Edward do that to me?
"Bells, you want a slice of pizza before we get down to it?"
"Huh?" had he just said 'get down to it'? I blanched at the blatant sexual innuendo. Was he flirting with me? I shook my head to myself to clear it. I didn't think so, he wouldn't.
Edward chuckled "What's with you today? This guy sure has you in a mess"
I shook my head again to get of the images of me and Edward "getting down to it", I was here to think about Jake, not Edward. I didn't feel that way about Edward anymore…liar, a little voice inside me whispered.
"Sorry" I mumbled taking a slice of pizza and sliding down onto the floor, as far away from Edward and his bare chest as I could get. We ate quietly lost in our thoughts and I suddenly wished I knew what he was thinking and what had caused this naughty playful Edward to appear. I wouldn't lie, I liked it more than I should but it was more than that I was… curious.
EPOV
We ate in silence for a few minutes; I was pondering this new information about my best friend. Never before had I seen Bella look at me that way and it had shocked me. She didn't see me that way, did she? Maybe she'd reacted the way she had because I was half naked and she was all hyped up about her date tomorrow.
I had just been in the right place at the right time; there was no real mystery to it. Now Bella had realized she was a girl, she was just finding her feet, playing with her new identity as Fork's Highs newest sex bomb. I shook my head a little to clear the image of Bella as a sex bomb. She was my best friend, nothing more.
After demolishing most of the pizza I wiped my hands and picked up my shirt. I shrugged into it and was about to button it when I decided to leave it loose, a kind of experiment. I could see she was trying not to stare but she was failing miserably and I tucked that piece of information away for later, so she liked to look at my body. Well that suited me fine because there was a part of me and I wasn't sure how big a part that was, which wanted to look at her too. Yes this was going to be a very interesting evening.
BPOV
I not to stare but I wasn't having too much luck with that. He was just so fucking perfect and beautiful and sexy. Yes I said sexy. No longer content just to be in love with Edward I now found myself with a bad case of raging hormones and lust. I felt squirmy inside and on edge as though I couldn't get comfortable. I pressed my legs closer together trying to ignore the dull throb that movement produced, but strangely I wanted to do it again.
"See something you like?" he quipped, and my face burned. Oh God he had noticed.
"Ha Ha, very funny" I stuck out my tongue and watched him warily as he crossed the room and slid down to sit next to me. He was so close his leg brushed mine and I could feel the heat of him through his jeans and my pants. I tried not to tremble but didn't quite manage it.
"So tell me what is it you want to know?" his voice was smooth and rough at the same time.
I shrugged "I'm not really sure, I just… don't know anything about guys"
"Sure you do, I'm a guy and you know tons of stuff about me"
"Not you, and not stuff like that"
"Like what?" He must be teasing me.
"Just stuff, you know between a girl and a guy… you know what I mean"
He shook his head, water droplets from his still wet hair dropping onto my skin. I'm surprised they didn't sizzle.
"I don't know what you mean, tell me" he looked the picture of innocence, but when his eyes met mine they were teasing, knowing,
I gritted my teeth in exasperation "flirting, touching, stuff"
"Oh you mean about kissing, making out…fuc-"
"-Kinda" I blurted…I didn't want to deal with hearing Edward talk dirty.
My blush returned, "I mean how will I know if he likes me?"
Edward gave me a slow but very wicked grin, which set my pulse racing a mile a minute. I wanted to fan myself but that would be a give away.
"Well there is one obvious way…you've been in Biology class you know what happens…want me to show you?"
I made a strangled sound and prayed for mercy. This was too much!
"Edward! Quit trying to embarrass me"
He chuckled "I'm sorry Bells; it's just so much fun"
EPOV
I truly couldn't help myself; this was the most fun I had had in ages. Bella was so easy to tease and I loved the blush that sprung to her cheeks. And I'd meant what I said. I would gladly show her, from the way I felt at the moment towards my best friend, it wouldn't be too hard…if you'll pardon the pun.
I slid my eyes over her and was struck again by how pretty she was, her soft skin pulsing with color, her wide brown eyes so deep. I could see the tiny spattering of freckles on her nose and had to fight the impulse to pepper them with little kisses! Kisses!
This had to stop, Bella was my friend and I was treating her like a sex object. She wasn't to know the sudden chemistry between us was because of her new awareness of herself. I had to be the sensible one; I had to be in control because this could lead somewhere it shouldn't especially given that she actually wanted Black and not me.
."Edward, please be serious, I'd help you," she was pleading but faintly accusing. I tried not to look at her soft pink lips as she spoke.
I couldn't fight the sigh that escaped, knowing my game was up "Okay it's pretty simple, if he's asked you out, then he already likes you"
She rolled her eyes at me and I could tell that she was getting pissed "No shit Sherlock! How will I know what to do?"
"In what way?"
"Well do I touch him, hold his hand, kiss his-"
"Ass" I laughed, this was too easy!
"I was going to say cheek"
"Same thing" I pointed out "Listen Bells, just let him do all the chasing, all the work, trust me, guys love the chase"
BPOV
My heart thudded inside me.
"Do you?" the words slipped out before I could stop them.
Edward turned his head and looked at me sideways "yeah" he replied so softly I almost didn't hear him.
"Do I let him catch me?" I asked staring into his eyes, wanting to get lost in his golden gaze.
"Depends if you wanna be caught" there was a wealth of meaning behind those words "and what the guy does, when he catches you"
"You're a guy, what do you do?" I asked before I could think better of it. It was his fault- he dazzled me!
The air around us suddenly became thick and still, charged with electricity. I felt my pulse speed up once more and my heart began to pound as I waited for his answer, all thoughts of Jacob now long gone. He shrugged and turned his body to the side, so he now faced me, his eyes never leaving mine.
"You want the honest answer?"
"Yeah" I breathed. I had never wanted anything so much in my life.
His beautiful amber eyes dropped to my mouth and then back up again. I gulped.
"Kiss"
He made the word sound so carnal, I felt my insides twist. That throb began between my legs again. This was desire? This was what it felt like to want some one so badly you could taste it?
"Kiss" I repeated quietly, unable to help myself, feeling a shiver of response flow through my body at his words.
"Then touch" his voice sounded rougher, deeper than I had ever heard.
"Where?" I asked, my body tingling all over with the need to be touched by him, my breath coming quickly in little gasping pants.
Edward reached out a hand and touched my neck where my pulse fluttered wildly at the nape.
EPOV
Her skin was soft and smooth and hot to my touch, it felt so good. I could feel her pulse racing. A thrill coursed through me. I had done that to her. I alone had made her feel this way. I slid my hand along her collarbone and watched Bella's eye shut with a sigh that stopped as I removed his hand. I could feel her trembling. Bad Edward, bad Edward, I told myself.
"Then what?" she asked me, her voice barely a whisper, her eyes still firmly closed.
"I'd kiss her again" I muttered, my voice sounded harsh to my ears. I was fighting the urge to give in and do just that.
Bella was my best friend, I shouldn't be doing this, shouldn't be feeling this way towards her. But I couldn't help it, my body reacted to her and I was over come with the urge to kiss her, hold her, and touch her. It was as though I was possessed. I needed to do this.
BPOV
I opened my eyes slowly, to see the heat in his, turning them a deep, dark brown, I shivered and felt as though my entire body was trembling with need. I shifted again, trying to ignore the strange feeling between my thighs. I felt like I was melting, heat coiling inside me.
"How?" I whispered, unable to help my self, too caught up in his seductive spell "Slow and soft or hard and fast"
EPOV
My whole body clenched at her words and blood pooled in my erection making me hard but I could not stop myself from replying, from gritting out
"Long and slow and then hot and wet and deep" I rasped rising to my knees, to ease the pressure of my jeans against my throbbing hardness. This was madness. I had never felt so turned on in my life and it was sweet little innocent Bella and her questions that had brought me to my knees.
BPOV
I felt his words deep inside me, making me tremble. I couldn't believe this was happening, with Edward. He made me want, want so much more than a simple kiss. I had waited so long for this moment but now I was scared, should I follow my heart? In a heartbeat I made my choice. I wasn't going to question the wisdom of it; I was just going to do it.
"Show me" I whispered a broken plea, taking my breath away with it.
EPOV
I cursed under my breath, did I give in and give them both what they wanted and needed? Or did I stop this now?
My breath came in ragged gasps and I let out a little groan as Bella parted her lips unconsciously and licked them nervously. Once glimpse of her pink tongue and I was a goner. I ached to touch her, craved the taste of her. Wanted to hold her to me…. and that was what I was going to do, be it right or wrong.
BPOV
Slowly he lowered his head to mine and covered my mouth with his. It was hot and damp as it ate at mine, his lips soft yet firm at the same time. I saw shooting stars behind my eyes, as the kiss continued for long seconds. He stroked his tongue along my bottom lip, making me gasp, giving him access to my mouth, my tongue. My breath was coming in odd little pants and I felt as though I couldn't get close enough to him.
As our tongues met and caressed, we both moaned sounds of pleasure as we explored each other's mouths. I brought my arms up and wrapped them around his neck tangling my hands in his still damp hair. Edward wrapped his around my waist and pulled me into him as he began to lower us both to the floor.
EPOV
I lay on my back, Bella across me, her magnificent chest heaving against mine, our hips flush. And the kiss went on; Bella inquisitive as she rocked herself against me experimentally, as I thrust against her. I groaned harshly into her mouth, wanting to roll her over and bury myself deeply inside her but I couldn't. My entire body was on fire; I had never felt this way before. Never felt such raging need from a simple kiss.
When the need for oxygen became too much I tore my mouth away from hers, panting, looking up at her. Bella eyes were shut tightly her face flushed She looked so pretty, so beautiful and I desperately wanted to strip us both so I could sate my need inside her warm body. To make her cry out my name, to make her moan and come for me.
But it was wrong; this wasn't what Bella had come to me for, not a quick fuck to relieve a need. She had come to me because I was her best friend and she trusted me. I couldn't break her trust. I couldn't do this to her it wasn't fair, she deserved better, She wanted Black. I couldn't get in the way of that, no matter how much I wanted to. I had to be unselfish for once in my life and giver her what she wanted. Black.
BPOV
"We have to stop Bella, this isn't right, this isn't us" Edward gasped out, panting beneath me.
I felt the pain of rejection and slowly opened my eyes to see Edward looking up at me, his eyes dark with desire, so dark they were almost black. He wanted me, I could feel the evidence of that against my hip but I was embarrassed. I had done it again, made a fool of myself, thrown myself at him. He didn't want me really; he was just reacting to the biological need I had provoked in him. I rolled of him and stumbled unsteadily to my feet.
"Oh God, you're right Edward, I'd better go, I'll see you tomorrow" I mumbled not looking at him, rushing from the room on legs which shook so badly I thought I would collapse.
EPOV
I lay staring at the ceiling unable to believe what had just happened. I'd just experienced the hottest kiss I'd had in along time, with my best friend. My body was taut with need, still throbbing begging for release, begging for Bella. I wanted her. But it was so much more than that. . I needed her. But what the hell was I going to do about it? She wanted Black not me and I swore, punching the wall in frustration, wanting the physical pain to distract me from the emotional one. I think I am in love with my best friend…Holy Fuck!
