A/N- Sorry it's been a while I've been busy and stuff D:

Wednesday, September 9

Mom had me stay home again yesterday because she thought I was still sick, and didn't want me to infect anyone at school, but I wasn't complaining. I went back to school today instead, and as I figured, everyone was rushing up to me to tell me what a good job I had done. I took these compliments modestly, only bragging most of the time. Heather told me she hadn't had that much fun since she got drunk for the first time after her middle school graduation. I consider this the biggest accomplishment. On the bad side, Brendan was complaining to me that he didn't get invited. I told him I thought he wouldn't come because he was at his grandma's house, but he said he would have ditched them if I had called him. Then I made the mistake of reminding him that I didn't have his number, so he gave it to me, and I had no choice but to give him mine. After that he asked me to go bowling with him this Saturday

I went to Starbucks with Heather after school again, and she said that Bowling would be our "first date". The prospect of having a first date with a fellow male who actually likes me like that is utterly terrifying. Not horror-movie-terrifying (even though it sort of is), but like… holy-fucking-mother-of-god-im-going-on-a-gay-date-even-though-I'm-straight terrifying. I'm not stupid, I know what happens between gay dudes, and it's freaky. Who in their right mind would want ANYTHING up their ass, dick or otherwise? I wouldn't even do that with a chick. I tried to ask Heather all my questions so that I could brace myself for the weekend. I only asked about the things that really concerned me. I found out that I'm one of many boyfriends he's had. When she told me he was a total virgin, I was relived. Then she said that he's been trying to lose his virginity since he was a sophomore, and I nearly shit a brick. Then she was telling me all these things I really didn't want to hear. She said Brendan was "ecstatic" that I said yes, and "he was sure I'd say no", and "he's liked me for the longest time". Then it dawned on me what exactly I've gotten myself in to.

This isn't fake to him the way it is to me. For Brendan, this is one hundred percent real, which sucks, because you would think he'd know me by now, and that this is very unlike me. Anyway, I've been on the brink of blowing my cover a few times already, and now I have to go on a date with him on Saturdaym and pretend to be having the time of my freaking life. I asked Heather to come with us, and she said it was sweet that I offered, but if she came it would ruin the "date" part. She then proceeded to give me a speech about how I didn't need to be nervous. Oh God, I don't think I can get out of this…

Greg told me he's getting pretty popular at school because of the party, and at first I couldn't understand how he was getting popular from MY party. Then I realized that like, half my friends have younger siblings, and actually LIKE them, and tell them things. Weird, right?

The band is gonna be here in an hour or something to practice. We still majorly suck… I've been practicing the Drum parts myself, but creating your own beat is way easier than copying someone else's, so I've made minimal progress, sadly. Jack keeps trying to convince me to let him do drums for one song just because he wants me to sing one. It's sort of creepy, because he's ALWAYS trying to get me to sing. I'm not a Bad singer, in fact, I'd say I'm pretty good, I just don't like to do it. Screwing up song lyrics is more obvious than screwing up a drum beat, especially when you're playing songs that everyone will recognize and know the words to. I told him there's no way I'm gonna sin anything, but he's not giving up. I'm kinda scared though, because Jack's a smart dude. Who knows what he'll do.

FINAL SUMMATION: Brace myself for the… date… *gag*. Be awesome (or rather, more awesome) at drums, and Jack is a dumbass.