AN: like I said before, I lost all my shit to my other story so I wont be able to complete it just yet until I figure out how I wanna change it. it wont be the same as it is now and sorry about that but I gotta do what I gotta do.
Don't like it? oh well. sorry for your loss. Again I don't own any of this shit except the new characters that I put in this story. :]
CHAPTER SEVEN
Edward Came back to the house.
Both me and alice jumped up from the couch and ran to the door only to stop and gasp. He looked horrible. He was leaning against the wall with a beer bottle in his hand, his knuckles were bruised and cut. They were bloody and disgusting, he looked up at us but his eyes were so far away. It was like he wasn't here with us. "Edward?" alice asked, her voice was so small and weak. She reminded me of a little girl, no bigger than seven years old when her voice was that way. He looked at her and shook his head, taking a mouth full of beer before he started walking towards the kitchen.
"Uh..can you let me go to him?" I looked at alice and nodded my head "go ahead. I will go and uh clean up the living room a bit" she rushed towards the kitchen and I went my way to the living room. Five minutes later I heard a few bottles crashing causing me to jump. The house has been quiet since he was gone and that scared the living hell out of me. I rushed to the kitchen, but pressed my back against the wall. "why won't you just let me die?" edward roared loudly, a few more bottles were being thrown and I wondered how alice was doing "I'm nothing like her! I love you..so much!" alice replied as she sobbed. "I can't lose you! not to her! Not to him! I need you! you're my brother!" she had stopped sobbing and when I dared to peek around edward and her were face to face, his hands looked horrible even worse than before. They stared at each other until edward let out a sob and collapsed on the floor with alice hugging him dearly to her.
"I love you al, so fucking much! Please…don't hate me…don't leave me.." he sobbed as he held her tightly. "I won't. I won't ever leave you. I rather die than leave you!" she declared over and over again. This was a bit too emotional, I walked out the front door, grabbed one of Edwards cigarettes and lit it up and took a drag. The slight burn I got in my throat, the dryness of it all, just made me feel so relax and so..down. I wasn't sure what the entire drama that just happened was about but I didn't want to know if it cause this much heart ache. The door opened slowly and alice sat down next to me, taking the cigarette out of my hand. I was going to yell at her but she took a drag out of it, her eyes were red and puffy and her nose reminded me of Rudolph. We were silent together, just sharing the cigarette while one of us got the balls to talk about what just happened. "Edward is sleeping now. He won't remember about tonight. Please..don't remind him" I nodded and took a drag "Does he really have Bi-polar disorder or whatever its called" alice shook her head no. she took a drag then passed it to me. "We don't know what it is. The doctor just said it was that but we all know its much worse than that. He has episodes. Some are more..uh hard to handle and some are easy. He never remembers any of it. he will be his go happy self again tomorrow..well later on when the sun comes up" we both made our way to our rooms, I had let alice stay here with me ever since the whole incident happened. I opened the door slowly and shut it softly behind me. he looked so peaceful, so..calm and relaxed. His hands weren't any better but they were cleaned off and had bandages on them. I got into my pajamas and laid next to him, wrapped him arms around him and laying my head on his chest. His heart was a steady rhythm that I love hearing. It made me slowly drift into sleep. I glanced up at edward before I closed my eyes and smiled. I was so in love with him, it was not even funny.
I was in so deep I knew I was bound to fall sometime soon.
"Give it back dammit!"
"No"
"Mother fucker I will break you!"
"Break me!"
Groaning I got up from my bed to see alice and edward fighting over a game. "Alice, you're gonna die in the game and edward watch your back" they both looked at me and then cringed away when the game said "Game over. Try again" I smiled as I made my way to the kitchen. "so what you guys wanna eat?" edward wrapped his arms around me and kissed my neck, biting it a little too "I want you" he whispered, I moaned a bit as he lifted my chin up and kissed me. his other arm was slowly moving up to my breast as he sucked on my bottom lip. "edward.." I moaned out his name. he was driving me insane. We haven't had sex and I wasn't sure we were going to. we're only friends and I don't ever see myself being like some people.
He squeezed my breast and I groaned loudly.
"Shh, alice will come in. and ruin everything for me" as he said this his hand disappeared into my shorts he played with the top of my underwear before sliding his hand inside. "please" I begged, for what I wasn't even sure. "my pleasure" he whispered into my ear before he kissed me. our tongues were fighting for dominance and I grabbed the back of his neck, holding him in place and pulling his hair. I gasped as I felt his finger touch my clit. I moaned loudly as he pushed one finger in me, then another. "Damn baby" he groaned out. "your so wet for me, I just wanna.." he didn't get to finish as we heard alice running towards the kitchen. We broke away quickly. I looked at edward as he licked his fingers clean and winked at me. I may have whimpered at that. "uh wheres the food?" she asked looking around I blushed and grabbed some plates "uh I'm going to make it now why don't you sit and talk?" I said to both of them. they both sat down and began to argue about who was the winner of the game and who was the loser. I made eggs, ham, bacon and sausage and toast. We started eating and laughing until someone knocked on the door. "I'll get it" I said as I jumped up and went to the door. Swinging the door open I froze. My heart was racing. My palms were sweating. I couldn't breath.
"Bella? Is..is that you?" tears filled my eyes as I opened and closed my mouth. What was I suppose to say to a man who left me when I needed him the most? What do I say to the man who abused my mother until I was fifteen years old? I knew exactly what I had to say. I glared at him , took a step back and slammed the door on his face. Locking the door. Edward was behind me and touched my shoulder, jumping a little he kissed my temple "who was that at the door?" he asked still looking at the door.
"my father"
I often wonder why I carry all this guilt when it was you
That helped me put up all these walls I've built shadows stir at night through a crack in the door. The echo,
Of a broken child screaming "please, no more" daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done?
To you it's just a memory but for me it still lives on
I'm OK –Christina Aguilera
So yeah..uh there u have it.
In the next few chapters their will be flashbacks to her childhood. Some are from my own childhood so uh they might be a bit personal for me but yeah I want this story to have some type of feeling to it.
Anyways glad I got this out the way. Cant wait to do the next chapter!
