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Chapter 7
Dean smiled slightly as he watched Sam happily eating a burger; he could feel Sam's enjoyment, even if the food wasn't doing anything for him. Sam glanced up at him and grinned so Dean grabbed his own burger and started eating. Gabriel watched them eat before shrugging and joining in.
"Come on Cas, eat up." He called to his younger brother and Castiel hesitantly sat down, staring at the food.
"It's okay Cas, go ahead." Sam encouraged and Castiel picked one up, taking a hesitant bite. Dean grinned at the surprised look on the angels face as he began to eat enthusiastically. Bobby just shook his head in amusement but stayed quiet.
"So how'd things go with dear big brother?" Gabriel asked and Sam sighed.
"Well there was no violence. We talked about a lot of things but there's still a lot to go over. He's looking for a vessel so Adam can be released. He also wants to see Castiel about what Zachariah did to him." Sam looked over to see Castiel stiffen, reaching over to gently grasp Cas' hand.
"It's okay; he has sworn you won't be harmed. He wants to look at your case himself and you'll either be left as you are or your Grace restored. He also had a message for you Dean." Sam added and Dean tensed so Sam sent him a wave of comfort.
"He said to tell you he's sorry for what Raphael did to you and he'd undo it if he could." Sam told him and Dean nodded stiffly.
"So what happens now?" He asked softly and Sam gently nudged his leg under the table.
"We track Raphael down and stop him. After that….guess that depends on what I can work out with Michael."
"He….he won't try to send you back there will he?" Dean asked, paling and Sam sighed, getting up to walk over and pull Dean into his arms.
"I'm not going to leave you Dean, ever." Sam promised softly and Dean wrapped his arms around him, clinging to him.
Dean lay against Sam's chest, listening to the steady heartbeat even as he felt himself starting to drift off to sleep. He could feel Sam's hand in his hair, petting it, and the other hand was gently rubbing his back. He felt a flash of self disgust for being so clingy and needy but Sam made him feel so safe and loved, more than he ever had before. He'd always hopped Sam and their Dad loved him and the way Sam had fought to save him form his deal had shown Sam loved him but now he had real proof of it and it felt so good. But even with all that he could feel Sam was keeping something back from him.
"You should be asleep Dean, what's wrong?" Sam whispered gently and Dean raised his head to look at him.
"You…you're keeping something back Sam. What is it? Why?" Dean asked and Sam sighed, hugging him closer.
"Dean I….it's nothing bad, I promise. I just…..you've already been through so much Dean, it can wait." Sam whispered but Dean shook his head.
"Dean please."
"No, no secrets Sam. Not anymore, I can't…." Dean shook his head, body tensing and Sam nodded.
"Okay. Okay Dean, no more secrets." Sam whispered and Dean could feel the fear coming from him, steeling himself for something big and bad. He began panting, scared that Sam would suddenly be the way Dean had expected Lucifer to be, to say it had all been an act.
"Shh Dean calm down, breath. Dean come on, you need to breath." Sam called, sitting up and cradling Dean close. Figuring Dean couldn't panic any more he sealed his lips over Dean's kissing him gently.
Dean was about to start trying to get out of Sam's hold when soft, warm lips covered his own, kissing him gently. He froze and then all Sam's love for him washed over him, more than it ever had before and different too. It was more than brotherly love, it was soul deep, total love of a kind Dean had never thought he'd have and it was too much for him. Green eyes rolled back as he passed out from the overload.
Sam gasped as Dean went limp in his arms but a quick check revealed he'd simply passed out so Sam laid back down, cradling Dean close, waiting for him to wake up. It was nearly an hour before Dean showed signs of waking. Green eyes slowly fluttered open and Sam held his breath, waiting to see how Dean reacted.
"Sam?" Dean whispered as he slowly focused on him.
"Hey, how're you feeling?" Sam asked gently and Dean frowned. He felt groggy, more like he'd been unconscious rather than asleep so what had happened. Then he remembered, asking Sam what he was hiding, the panic and then….Sam had kissed him. He raised a hand to his lips and felt nervousness coming from Sam.
"You…you kissed me." Dean whispered and Sam nodded.
"I….I don't…..why?" He stammered and Sam gently cupped his face, staring at him I a mixture of fear and hope.
"Because I love you Dean. And I'm not talking about brotherly love. I get it if…..I know it probably seems weird to you but I loved you before creating Sam, I loved you from the moment you were conceived. You wanted to know what I was hiding, this is it. I didn't want to scare you or anything, everything's happened so fast I wanted to give you time to adjust before even thinking of mentioning it. I know you probably don't feel the same and I can accept that, no matter what I'll always be your brother." Sam babbled nervously. Dean just stared at him in shock. Sam, no Lucifer, loved him; had since before Sam had existed. He could feel Sam's nervousness turning to fear so he curled in closer, resting his head over his heart again and Sam hugged him.
"Please don't hate me." Sam breathed but Dean heard him and looked up at him.
"I don't. I just….I don't know Sammy."
"It's okay Dean, I'd never do anything unless you wanted me to." Sam promised and Dean nodded, settling down to try and sleep again. Sam went back to rubbing his back and petting his hair, helping him drift off.
Dean gasped and froze as the man appeared but then he saw Adam in his arms and realised who it must be.
"Michael?" He whispered and the archangel stared sadly at him.
TBC…..
