hey guys I know it's been awhile since I updated this story! School is almost over and I'm cramming for finals, but this next chapter just kept bugging me so here it is.

A lot of you (Victoria) want to know more about the background of some of the characters and what happened too them, this next chapter should answer some of those questions for you!

Please read and review I can always use your opinion thanks!

Here it is:

*Time Skip*

Chapter 7 *3 Months later*


Tris POV

The train makes a loud screeching sound as it enters the factionless section of the city. The Abnegation numbers have dwindled in past years meaning there aren't enough to complete all the jobs so the tracks for the trains haven't been cleaned. A lot of things in the city has changed since the Abnegation no longer clean up after everyone.

80% of the recent kidnapping have involved those from Abnegation. The people are terrified, going against their beliefs an hiding inside. Locking their doors and keeping their children from school. Other parents read the obituaries everyday hoping it's not their son or daughter.

I sit next to Tobias leaning into his shoulder. We sit in a shadowy corner of the train watching the city fly by.

"Do you think this is a good idea?" He turns his face towards me search for some doubt in my eyes. Finding none he turns back to watching the city roll by

"She might know something. Her son Lucas was taken too." Susan and I were once childhood friends, but that was before.

"Tris she might not even want to see us, remember last time we went over she wouldn't even open the door! She's completely paranoid!" Tobias voice gets louder, there isn't anger in it just frustration.

"Don't you think I don't know that! You know that I blame myself for what happened to her everyday," the words keep spilling out of my mouth, "God Tobias the same thing could be happening to our daughter. Because I'm not fast enough or smart enough or strong enough to get there on time! I can't help her. I can't protect her, I can't do anything" My voice is filled with panic like I'm back in my fear landscape drowning in that glass box because I couldn't break it. I can't get free.

"Hey, come here" Tobias voice smooth yet rough pulls me back to reality. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me against his chest. He strokes my hair willing me to calm down. I let him, not because it will solve all the problems, and not because it will help us find Natalie. I let him hold me because I need to feel safe, his arms feel like safety.


SPOV

I hear the train rush by before I see them leaping from it. Even after all these years their silhouettes are burned into my brain. My heart rate picks up and my shoulder throbs. I have learned not to rub it, rubbing makes it hurt more.

Why are they here anyway? Of corse I heard about their daughter and how half of Dauntless has been mobilized into finding her.

Two sets of heavy footsteps approach my door. My shoulder begins throbbing again I want to scratch to make it stop do anything, but I don't i remain completely still.

Bang bang a fist pound on my door. I don't move just continue to stare forwards lost in a forgotten world. A place I haven't seen in many years.

I'm young again maybe 14 or 15 standing in a field filled with flowers as long as the eye can see. The sun beats down on my face and the flowers bend with the billowing wind. Soft music from someplace far away drifts into my ears.

I'm not alone anymore, Robert grabs my hand. He's just as young as I remember him to be. Tall and lean with a bright smile on his face, he was always more out spoken then me. He's laughing at something i can't hear. Then he pulls at my hand and dips his head towards the hill. At first I'm puzzled, and then Robert laughs again and tugs me to follow him.

I hear a distant crash, but pay no attention and follow Robert up the hill. After all it's been such a long time since I've seen him, it's good to have him back. He just looks so happy.

Once we reach the top of the hill the scent of flowers over powers me. Sweet and sugary. It makes me feel happy and joyful not a care in the world. Robert says something again, something I can't hear. Then he shakes his shoulders and laughs.

Suddenly the heat is gone from my face. I look up and find the sky has gone dark, too dark. The unsettling part is that not a single star rests in the sky just black nothingness.

I hear a laugh, and look to see Robert standing a top the hill far away from me. I call out to him but he can't hear me. Everything has gone deathly cold.

"Susan" a voice whispers to me, short and sharp like a snakes teeth. It's enough to send shivers up my spine, no she can't be here! This is my safe place, she's not suppose to be here.

"Susan" the voice whispers again, the same voice that haunts my nightmares. Robert laughs again seeming oblivious to his surroundings. The hill Roberts been standing on begins to crumble away.

I shout out to him, but I can't seem to find my voice. He just keeps laughing, as more of the hill crumples away.

"Susan Susan Susan Susan Susan" the icy voice keeps whispering in my ear. I want to scream to yell to run, but i can't move I can't speak.

Roberts still laughing atop his hill. i want to yell at him tell him to run away from this place to get off the hill, but nothing come out.

"Susan Susan Susan Susan Susan" again and again the voice repeats my name. Taunting me with it. I cover my head with my hands and will this to be over, will her to stop.

She doesn't stop. The speaks louder and harsher every time she speaks my name. I look back up at the hill just in time to see the last rocks crumble down dragging Robert with them. I scream and reach my arms out towards him, but he's already buried under all the rocks.

"Susan!" This a new voice one full of concern.

Suddenly I'm back in my living room in my grey house. Only I'm not sitting on the chair anymore, no I'm on the ground. A pair of bright blue eyes are staring back at me. I scream and sit up straight.

The eyes belong to Tris. She looks shocked and very scared. This time I look around the room, everything seems normal why is she so upset. I look out into the hallway where my front doors lays thrown against the ground. What happened?

"Whats going on?" I ask Tris, but she seems unable to answer.

"You were trapped inside your own head. Don't you remember?" It's not Tris who answers, this voice is rough. Tobias steps out from a shadowy corner of the room.

I do remember something like a dream. Flowery fields and Robert and sunshine. I also remember the dark sky and the icy voice whispering in my ear. An involuntary shudder runs through me.

"That's not important. Susan we heard about your son and we need you to tell us what happened." Tris's voice is even and calm although the look on her face says other wise.

I don't want to tell them anything. I want them to leave so I can go back to my dreamland and see Robert again, and feel the sun and smell the flowers. I most certainly don't want to tell them about Lucas being kidnapped.

"Leave, I want you both to leave, now" My voice sounds cold and distant. No one moves.

"Did you not just hear me? GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!" I sound crazed like I might burst any second.

"Hold on we just want-" Tobias moves to put his hands on my shoulder. i push them away and cut him off

"I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU WANT GET OUT NOW" I'm screaming now and pointing towards my open doorway. Tris still hasn't moved from her place on the floor. Tobias helps her up, she still seems lost although her eyes follow me on her way out the door.

"Were sorry" I hear her call from the hallway. It's after their footsteps have long since faded away that I let myself fall to the ground and curl into a ball. The tears come and go. I cry for my son, and my brother but mostly for myself.


So what you guys think? Sorry it's taking me so long to update I have just been really busy lately. It's also almost the end of the school year and that means final exams. I promise to update as soon as possible. Please R&R thanks! :)