Long one now c: Hope you'll like the plot! :D
Chapter 7
-"Feliciano" I scream as I run towards him, he actually came!
-"Ludwig" he whispers when I throws my arms around him and hugs him tight.
-"I missed you, don't ever leave again" I whisper while I hug him hard afraid of losing him again.
Feliciano realizes me, looks me in the eyes and reach upwards to kiss me. I put my hands on his cheeks and bring his face up to mine. Finally…
Ludwig woke up as usually right before he kisses him.
-"It's not even funny anymore" he whispers to himself and wipes the tears that fell when he slept "what am I doing? I'm the one reading porn and I'm thinking of a guy?! I haven't read one of these magazines for ages… never since… since I met Feliciano… NO! I just haven't got time for it! That's all!"
The house is quiet at night when the dog is sleeping and even quitter when his brother had moved out so when he screamed to himself it echoed through the whole house. To be alone in a huge house like this just mess up your mind even worse.
-"I remembered when Feliciano always makes this house full of energy again" he says to himself but then shakes his head, "what am I thinking? I should get to studying! Just because I've been …" he shakes his head again and almost screams to make his own mind to understand, "I need to study, need to work! Make my mind clear again!"
Days turned into months and school came closer to begin, with no changes. The meetings were held as usual but no Feliciano and Ludwig sitting on his chair, as normal, sharing his opinions like usual. From the day they decided to not interact with this mess Ludwig started to study and work more than usual. His muscles had grown and with that the large black spots under his eyes. He looked even more tired than he has ever done before and the way he behaved… No-one wanted to talk to him anymore when the answer always was said as he did before but with a stare even worse than Ivan's mad stare. Because it was an empty stare. You could see no feelings in it. Eyes blue as glaciers and cold like them too.
One day in one of the meetings his brother Lovino came running in late. His group "The do nothing" group was never at one of those meetings. The door to where they were slammed open and Romano as he's called stood there trying to catch his breath. When he stopped to breathe heavy he stared at Ludwig with eyes which could kill and would. Everyone stared shocked at Romano.
-"You fucking potato bastard, it's all your fault" he sputters and runs towards him. He grabs Ludwig around his neck and strangleholds him. Ludwig couldn't breathe anymore but he didn't defend himself. Everyone stared at them and the only thing that could be heard in the room was Ludwig's attempts to breathe.
Suddenly Kiku runs forward and grabs Romano.
-"Help me baka" he screams to everyone as he tries to pull Romano away without success.
After Kiku called for help, everything happened at once. Ludwig fell down on the floor unconscious with Romano still trying to strangle him to death, Kiku still tried to pull them apart and the others were running up to help the poor Japanese boy. After a while they succeeded to pull them apart the there was something missing.
-"Ludwig!" Kiku calls and bends down to see if he's alive. He felt a small pulse under his skin on the neck confirming he was still alive.
-"And for God's sake why did you to that?" the shocked Frenchman asked Romano who finally had calmed down.
Romano looked on the unconscious Ludwig and understood what he had done.
-"I'm so sorry but he… but Feliciano", Romano's voice shivered as he talked and you could barely understand what he said, "Feliciano left me this" he finally said after a long time staring into Francis eyes. He handed over a hand written letter to Francis who directly after reading it lent it to Roderich with sad eyes. The letter went from hand to hand (except Ivan's) and when everyone had read it Ludwig woke up.
-"What happened" he mutters and sits up. The looks he was given made Ludwig's stomach hurt even more than it did before. They all looked sad as if whatever that had happened it wasn't something that would make someone laugh, rather the opposite.
Without saying anything he was handed the letter and he started to read. It was written with childish letters and he knew right away who've written this, he has seen it so many times.
Brother when you find this I'll probably be gone. I'm going away for a while, maybe forever. Please know that I love you and you know that but I would love to ask a last thing of you. Would you please leave this letter to Ludwig as fast as you can? I know I could just have written to him but I just couldn't make myself send it. Anyway, the rest of the letter is for him. I love you brother! Please don't hurt Ludwig for this…
Ludwig… I don't know where to start – there are too many things I need to tell you. I'm so sorry I haven't told you before but I guess I just couldn't… And I'm so sorry that I have been such a pain for you. I never obey orders and I always flee. There are so many things I've done wrong and I'm truly sorry. And just because I'm such a pain and nothing good for you I'll leave you forever. You don't need to worry about me or think of me at all. I guess you will be glad over it, getting me out of the way haha! Now I maybe shall tell you the reason. It isn't your fault at all, only mine. You remind me of a boy I once knew, you're very much alike! He had the same blue eyes as you and he was blond too! I loved that boy and he disappeared… I see him in you. The feelings I'm having for you are even bigger and deeper than my feelings for that boy. I'm heading to Russia. Ivan told me of a good spot away from everything. So I'll leave, I just wanted you to know.
Bye and take care! I love you.
Always yours: Feliciano Vargas.
The silence that fell over everyone when Ludwig lowered the letter echoed through everyone's mind.
-"Nein" he whispered and started to shake his head, "nein, nein, nein"
The German stood up and the walked straight up to Ivan. He grabs the scarf he's always wearing and lowers his face down to his.
-"Where is he?" he said and his voice shivered of anger.
-"He told me not to tell you" the Russian said and smiled.
-"TELL, ME, WHERE, HE, IS" Ludwig spelled each word, his voice heightened after every word and on the last word he was screaming right in the face of Ivan.
-"I still won't tell you" Ivan said still as calmly with a huge smile.
The second after Ivan said it his smile disappeared and he looked at Ludwig with the look that makes everyone else run for their lives. Everyone else was staring at the scene, terrified over what Ivan would do. The silence after Ludwig screaming was overwhelming but Ludwig stared back at Ivan with the angriest look anyone had ever seen.
-"Okay, I'll tell you, release me" Ivan said after a while of staring. Ivan looked down when Ludwig released him.
-"Now where is he?" the angry voice had disappeared and he sounded worried but he sounded like himself for the first time in a very long time.
-"In Siberia… I can take you there, you need to jump with parachute to get there" Ivan said still looking down.
-"Fine" Ludwig said and turned around.
-"Where are you going?" Kiku asked when he saw how the German was heading to the door.
-"I'm going after him of course" he said shortly and turned around in the doorway.
-"You need help" the Englishman said and everyone in the room (except Ivan of course who's still angry) nods agreeing.
-"Let us help you, we care too!" Francis says.
-"But… I don't want to put any of you guys in danger" Ludwig says and looks sad at all the faces in front of him.
-"We'll be fine and if you get in trouble there's no-one there to save you" the Japanese boy says.
-"And then Feliciano will probably die" Roderich says and looks at Ludwig.
-"Thank you guys" Ludwig says and smiles, "thank you so much!"
-"No problem, what about Ivan then?" Roderich says and looks at the angry Russian.
-"He's going with us, he's from Russia and we need a pro on Siberia to survive" he says and then looked angry at Ivan again, "I can't believe you actually let him go there"
-"First we need plane tickets to Russia, from there we can hire a plane and go to Siberia and a helicopter to go home" Ivan starts without caring of the last thing Ludwig said. Ludwig didn't care either what he said and started to command what everyone should do. No-one could deny that Ludwig who had not been himself since Feliciano started to act weird finally started to be himself, with worried eyes though.
-"Kiku get tickets, Francis you and Roderich will go and get warmwe clothes to us all and extra to Feli, even though it's summer you don't know which weather you'll have, Arthur you shall help Kiku and both of you try to get this plane and helicopter hired, with a pilot! Ivan and I will get food and other things to get ready for whatever will happen"
Everyone ran away without any objections. In less than 30 minutes everything and everyone was ready to go.
-"When will the plane come?" Ludwig asks Kiku when they're all done and stands where they first read the letter.
-"In about 20 minutes" he answers.
-"And you succeeded with the plane later in Russia?"
-"Yes I did, it'll be ready as fast as our plane to Russia touches the ground"
-"Great and Francis I really hope you got some good clothes!" Ludwig continues facing the Frenchman.
-"I got some, they match us all and they're warm" Francis answers and jumps excited with a jacket colored like the French flag in his hand.
After they all planned, changed clothes and decided who would carry what they were ready to go. Everyone was taken by the absolute calmness of Ludwig. He set up everything so everyone had what they needed, and took the heaviest bag for himself to carry.
And they all set off to Russia with hopes that Feliciano still was alive.
