The last three days seemed to go by at a snail's pace for Katie. She and Jessie were both very guarded about their emotions over what had happened between them. Jessie had wanted to talk to Katie about it, but was too afraid. Things weren't as awkward between them, and she didn't want to change that. There were moments when she wanted to throw all her doubts away and just hold onto Katie and kiss her and not stop until they were sick of it, which would never happen. How could they get sick of such a thing? But no. She couldn't do that. She had decided that for now, they were better off as friends. Things were starting to get back to normal. Katie even came to watch Jessie's Tae Kwon Do class again yesterday. It was good to not have to deal with that drama for a while. Plus, Katie didn't seem to want to talk about it, either. Maybe she felt the same way.
But she didn't. Katie still wanted Jessie but wouldn't dare tell her. She already sacrificed too much of herself by telling her all that stuff in the first place. And she almost lost Jessie's friendship. She still longed for her friend's touch, but would have pine away for her secretly.
School was just letting out and Jessie met up with Katie at her locker.
"So, you're picking me up at seven, right?" asked Jessie.
"No, I'm thinking I'm gonna have you walk there. It'll be good for you. It builds character," replied Katie.
"Hey, I've got plenty of character. But sadly, what I seem to be lacking is something to wear."
"Oh please. You've got a closet full of stuff. I'm sure you'll find something," said Katie as she shut her locker and they headed out of the building. Grace was already in her car, waiting impatiently for Jessie. Actually getting Jessie into the car after school was always a challenge. She would constantly get caught up in her conversations with Katie.
"So remember, the party's not at Brian's house anymore. His parents decided not to go on their trip after all. So it's moved to Tad's since his parents pretty much don't care what goes on under their roof. They're hardly ever home, anyway." Katie somewhat envied Tad for that reason.
"Okay. I think my parents will be more comfortable with the fact that it's at Tad's anyway, since they know him," said Jessie. "I'll see you tonight."
Jessie got in the car and Katie began the trek to her car.
Grace had no idea what was going on with those two and let her curiosity get the best of her. "So…are you and Katie going to the party together?"
"Yeah. I mean….not "together" together, but you know…as friends. I mean, she's driving me. Why do you even care?"
"I was just wondering what was going on with you two," replied Grace.
"Nothing. There's NOTHING going on with us. Why do you keep saying that?"
"Jessie. You can trust me. I'm not gonna go blab to everyone about it. I do respect your privacy enough to not do that. I'm actually really happy for you. She seems to make you really happy. That's important. I mean, I've NEVER seen you like this before. You're actually….pleasant to be around…sometimes." Grace almost couldn't believe what she was saying, but it was true.
Jessie looked at Grace in disbelief. "Really?"
Grace nodded. "But I mean, hey, if you don't feel comfortable divulging information to me, I understand. I'm just trying to tell you I'm on your side. I think it's great. There are too many idiot's out there who are just hypocrites and I'm not one of them."
Jessie seriously took that comment to heart. She sure as hell wasn't gonna confess anything to Grace any time soon, but if the subject came up again, maybe she wouldn't exactly deny that something had happened.
Seven o'clock rolled around and the doorbell rang right on time. Lilly went to the door and found Katie on the other side of it wearing a skirt, a tank top, and a denim jacket. When Jessie came down the stairs, Katie couldn't take her eyes off of her. She looked beautiful. Jessie couldn't take her eyes off of Katie either. The two girls greeted each other with a slightly awkward hug. Katie didn't let herself put too much effort into it. If she had, Lilly would have had to pry them apart and then there would be a lot of explaining to do. No, thought Katie. She had to control herself. It seems Jessie just wants to be friends and that's the way it's going to be. Though, her heart still ached for Jessie more than ever.
"Is Grace going with you guys?" asked Lilly.
"No, she's driving herself there later, I think. She just got out of the shower a few minutes ago and I don't want to be waiting around for her forever," replied Jessie as she grabbed her jacket.
"Okay, well have fun. Be safe. And don't drink."
Jessie rolled her eyes. "Okay, okay. I know." And they were out the door.
They finally got to the party and Katie opened the door without knocking, as if she'd lived there for years. She looked around and said, "Wow, we must fashionably late because it seems the party has started without us."
There were several people there already, some dancing to the loud, thumping music. Others were talking with their friends or drinking from the beer keg.
"Hell no, the party hasn't started without you. That would be impossible. Katie, you ARE the party," yelled Tad as he came up and gave Katie a bear hug from behind. Jessie smiled, but really didn't know how she felt about Tad man-handling Katie like that. Katie laughed and pushed him off of her.
"Damn straight. Katie's here. Now we can get this party started!" yelled Brian as he rammed his shoulder into Tad.
"Hey Katie!" yelled some other guy Jessie had never seen before. He came up and gave Katie a high five. Some girl, who seemed to be his girlfriend came up with him.
"Katie! I haven't seen you in forever. How have you been?" She made her way over to Katie, unintentionally pushing Jessie out of the way. Jessie just stood there watching as everyone was fawning over her. Katie had always been popular. Everyone just loved her and this was proof. And Jessie found herself asking 'What does she see in me? Why does she hang out with me? I'll never be as popular as her.' She began to get a little depressed as Katie seemed to be getting lost in the crowd of people around her. As tall as she was, Katie found herself having to stand on her toes to look for Jessie. She spotted her, caught her eye and smiled.
"Excuse me everyone. Sorry. Excuse me." She began making her way through the crowd. "We'll talk later. For sure." She finally reached Jessie and let out a sigh. "You scared me. I thought I lost you for a minute."
Jessie tried to fake her best smile. "It's okay. I mean, if you want to hang with them, I'm okay with it. I'll just go get something to drink, or whatever." She started to walk off. Katie grabbed her arm.
"Uh…not without me, you're not. Come on. Let's stake our claim on the couch before someone else does. These shoes are killing my feet." Katie led Jessie over to the couch and they sat down.
When Grace showed up a half hour later, the girls were still on the couch, just talking and laughing and not paying attention to anyone around them. They were lost in each other, yet again. Tad spotted Grace and went up to say hi. His eyes followed where she was looking: Katie and Jessie.
"Oh yeah. Those two have been there for a while just talking. You'd think even at a party they'd branch out and mingle with other people," noted Tad.
Grace just smiled. "Ah, leave 'em alone. Come on. Show me where the food is. I'm starved." She led Tad away into the kitchen.
After about an hour of being lost in conversation with each other, Jessie excused herself to use the restroom. Tad saw that Katie was Jessie-free for the time being and decided to take this opportunity to finally have a chat with his friend.
"Awww…did Jessie leave you all alone? How is your brain going to function?" He taunted.
"Very funny, Tad."
"Well, since I have you alone for a minute, did you want to dance? You're ass must be asleep by now." Tad reached his hand out to Katie.
Katie laughed. "Good point. All right, let's go." She took Tad's hand and led him over to where everyone was dancing, but stayed close enough to the couch so she could see when Jessie got back from the bathroom.
Katie was goofing around with Tad while they were dancing until this one song came on. The song that Katie couldn't resist dancing to, no matter where she was or how ridiculous she looked. The Def Leppard Song: Pour Some Sugar On Me. As soon as she heard those first lyrics: "Love is like a bomb…." she let the song take over her. "Finally some good music!" She yelled. And she wished Jessie would come back soon so she could dance all goofy-like with her. Tad was having fun just laughing at Katie's spastic moves. Katie could be a good dancer if she wanted to be, but now was not the time. Not during Def Leppard. She busted out all the classic moves: the cabbage patch, the running man, even the frug made an appearance. Katie loved making herself laugh. Besides hanging with Jessie and making Jessie laugh, it was her favorite pastime.
Jessie came out of the bathroom and saw that Katie was not longer at the couch. She looked over and saw her dancing….or rather gyrating spastically on the dance floor and she couldn't help but crack up. She stood there just enjoying the view. She couldn't get over how amazing Katie was. Katie looked over and saw Jessie watching her. She waved her over to dance with them and Jessie just shyly shook her head. The song changed and it was now a slow song. Jessie sat back on the couch, just content with watching her best friend moving around to the music. Katie started moving slowly with the music and she had Jessie enthralled. Jessie observed as Katie's hips started swaying, her legs moving seductively as her arms ran up through her hair and back down again. Jessie couldn't take her eyes off of her. It was just like when Katie couldn't stop watching Jessie at her Tae Kwon Do class. Jessie was addicted to every move Katie made. Katie looked over at Jessie and smiled. Jessie took a moment to find her breath again. She had forgotten to breathe. Katie kept dancing as Tad came up behind her and put his arms around her waist and moved with her. He slid his arms up and down Katie's sides and rested his chin on her shoulder, almost nuzzling her.
When Jessie realized what she was seeing, her heart sank. What was this feeling coming over her? Why did she have this knot inside her stomach? Why did she want to run up and give Tad a round kick to the head? She knew Tad and Katie were just friends. Why would she care if they were dancing together? Jealousy. Jessie had felt this feeling once before. It was not a fun feeling. But why was she so jealous? 'Oh fuck it! Stop thinking so much, Jessie!' At that, she ran up to Katie and Tad and grabbed Katie by the hand.
"Sorry, Katie. I need to borrow you for a minute. Sorry Tad, girl stuff." Jessie pulled Katie away from Tad and kept pulling her until they got up the stairs. Tad was left incredibly confused, but has learned not to question anything those two girls do. After all, they were insane.
Jessie pulled Katie through a slew of people and went into the first open bedroom she could find. She hauled Katie into the room and closed the door. She stood there not knowing what to do next. Katie stood there with her eyes fixated on Jessie, not sure of what had gotten into her friend.
"Um…Jess…what---"
"I don't know. I….really don't know. Just give me a minute. I have to think."
Katie waited patiently as her friend paced frantically back and forth.
"Jessie, I think you should sit down. You're starting to---"
"No. No, I'm fine. I just…I don't know what happened. I don't know what came over me. I sat there, watching you and Tad and I began to feel--"
Out of nowhere, there was a loud knock on the door. Someone on the other side yelled, "Hey! Are you guys done in there? We need the room."
Jessie looked at the door and back at Katie.
"No. Ignore him, Jess. What were you going to say?"
Jessie nodded. "I was saying, I was watching you and Tad and this feeling came over me. I don't know what it was, exactly. But it started driving me crazy. I just….I think--"
Knock knock knock. The knocks were louder than before. "Hey! Are you deaf? If you're done in there, we would really like to use this room!"
Jessie turned to open the door, but Katie flew past her and putting her back against the door, blocked Jessie.
"No, Billie. I want to hear this. Something is obviously on your mind. What is it?"
Jessie hesitated and finally began to speak again. "I can't explain what I'm feeling. I don't think there are words for it…just emotions. But when I was watching you dancing, I found myself---"
The knocks grew even louder. "Dude! People are WAITING out here."
At that, Katie completely lost all patience for the moron on the other side of the door. She opened the door and as soon as she opened it up, she came face to face with a very unsuspecting football player and his flavor of the moment. Some tube-top wearing, acrylic nail sporting, gum-chewing snob who was wearing so much makeup, Katie could only assume she had sold her soul to Maybelline. She charged right up in his face, almost pushing him up against the hallway wall. He barely got out a word. "Oh, Hey Katie. I didn't--"
"Look, this room is occupied for the time being. If you are that desperate to get laid, then do what every other classless, dumbass jock would do and take your lady to the back seat of your car. If you don't have a car, borrow a friend's car. If you don't have a friend, then here." She pulled a five dollar bill out of her skirt pocket and threw it at him. "This should cover the price of a motel that would seem to suit the girl you're with. Now leave us the hell alone!" At that, she walked back in and slammed the door. A look of complete shock came over her face as she turned around to face Jessie. "I can NOT believe I just said that."
Jessie, who was shocked herself, was thoroughly impressed. "Neither can I. But it was awesome." The two shared a laugh. And Jessie suddenly felt more at ease with hear friend. Katie stood there with a look of longing on her face. She wanted to know what Jessie was about to tell her.
Jessie obliged. "Anyway, what I was going to say is that…oh hell." She looked into Katie's eyes and realized she just couldn't hold it in any longer. "I think I'm falling in love with you. Every part of me wants every part of you. I can't explain this attraction, but it's strong. And I like it. And I want you. I completely want you. And I know I had my doubts, but this is it. I can't even…I don't even---"
Before Jessie could finish her sentence, Katie violently pulled her into her. With one hand on Jessie's face and the other around her waist, Katie's lips met Jessie's once more. It was a long kiss; passionate and filled with every emotion they had been feeling for the last 5 days. They were sinking deeper and deeper into the kiss, neither wanting to come up for air. Suddenly, Katie realized that she may have come on too strong and started to pull away, but Jessie wouldn't have it. She held on to Katie and would let her break away from their embrace. Jessie ran her hands up and down Katie's sides, just as she had seen Tad do a few minutes ago. That was exactly what she wanted to do at that moment. Jessie's hands wandered up and down Katie's back. She brought her hands lower and lower until they were gripping her backside and she pulled Katie's hips into her. She could not get close enough to Katie, no matter what she did. She just wanted more. Katie ran her soft hands through Jessie's blonde hair, and brought them down to her neck. That soft, sweet neck she had familiarized herself with just 5 days ago. Katie broke away from Jessie's mouth and brought her lips down to her smooth neck. She allowed her lips to search every part of Jessie's neck, occasionally allowing her tongue to run along her skin. Jessie let out a soft cry every time Katie's tongue made an appearance on her neck. She wanted to feel that for the rest of her life.
Jessie couldn't control herself or her body. She wanted Katie. She pushed her friend forward with a powerful kiss and when they hit the bed, Katie sat down and guided Jessie to the spot next to her. Their kiss continued as Katie leaned Jessie backward onto her back. Katie was now in control. She was beside Jessie, but hovering over her, their lips touching and their mouths still breathing life into each other. Katie's hand traveled to Jessie's stomach and she lifted her shirt. She began tracing lines up and down the other girl's abdomen, wanting to explore more, but fighting her urges as hard as she could. Jessie knew Katie was trying to go slow for her, but at this moment, she didn't need that. What she needed right now was Katie. All of Katie. All of them. The two of them, together. She took Katie's hand and guided it under her shirt and placed her hand on her breast. Both girls let out a moan as Katie's hand gripped Jessie's bare breast. Jessie had forgotten that she didn't need a bra with the shirt she was wearing, so of course she didn't wear one. The sensation inexpressible. Neither girl was expecting to feel what they were feeling.
They were enveloped in each other. They didn't hear the noise from the party going on outside that door. They saw nothing and heard nothing but each other. They heard only the sounds their bodies were making. The moaning, the breathing, the sound of the sheets moving around them. Katie began kissing Jessie's stomach and found herself needing to touch more of Jessie. She pulled her head up and looked at Jessie. She didn't need to say a word. Jessie knew. She slowly brought her shirt up over her head as Katie stared in astonishment. At that moment, Katie wanted to cry. The one thing she wanted most was now in her arms. Completely trusting her, wanting her, too. Katie removed her top as well and Jessie pulled herself up and brought her hands up to take off Katie's bra. There they were. In the same situation they were in days before. Only now, the door was locked. No one would be coming in to bother them. Katie lowered herself on to Jessie and the feel of their flesh joining together stimulated each other to no end.
Katie was immersed. She was happy. At that moment, she was the happiest she'd ever been. She pulled away and looked down at Jessie, adoringly. Jessie opened her eyes, realizing something was missing. "Um…any reason we've stopped?" asked Jessie, trying to catch her breath.
"Are you okay?" Katie replied.
Jessie smiled. "Yeah. I'm great."
"Are you sure? I mean, I don't want you to regret anything."
"Katie, I could never regret anything that has to do with you and me. This is it. I swear to you, this is it. You and me. This is all I need. I don't care about anything else."
Katie lowered her head and breathed a sigh of relief. She slowly rolled over off of Jessie, leaving Jessie wanting more. "What happened? I mean…"
Katie interrupted, "I'm sorry. I'm just kind of overwhelmed right now. I mean, I don't want to stop but I think I have to. I want to let this sink in. I want to take in everything about this moment. Maybe we should take this slow. Although, at the rate we're going, I don't think that's a possibility. But I've got all the time in the world when it comes to you. And I….oh God, Jessie. I'm completely in love with you."
By this point, the were laying on their sides facing each other. Jessie pulled Katie over to her and Katie rested her head on Jessie's stomach. She was enthralled a the sight of Jessie's chest just rising and falling as she was breathing. Jessie was enjoying the feeling of Katie's head on her flesh. Katie was running her finger along Jessie's stomach, while grabbing her hand.
Jessie began to speak. "Maybe we should keep this to ourselves for a while."
Katie started kissing Jessie's stomach again. "If that's what you want, it's fine with me."
Jessie was enjoying the attention her stomach was getting from Katie's lips. "It's just…I mean, I'd like to tell people…eventually. But right now, it should just be you and me. This is so new and so amazing. I kind of don't want to share it with anyone else right now. Does that make sense?"
Katie could not pull herself away from Jessie's stomach, but she did anyway and looked up at her friend. "It makes perfect sense. We'll tell people when we're ready."
Jessie leaned back and smiled. Then thought about what they were going to do in public. Jessie knew that from now on, things were going to be different. And she knew that it would be nearly impossible to refrain from grabbing Katie and kissing her whenever she saw her. It might be easy at home, since she definitely doesn't want her family knowing. But…..
"Katie, what are we going to do at school?"
Katie sat up for a moment and thought. "That's a really good question."
To Be Continued…
