They didn't talk anymore about the love bomb but it was implied on both his and her parts and was said whenever without it becoming a big deal. They both were busy with their schedules but made time for each other. I started sending text that were out of my comfort zone to Fitz. It was nice to feel wanted and needed. It has been the best Fitz and Harrison went on a guy bonding trip of some sort and left me and Abby to fend for ourselves. It was the night before Halloween and I could feel that something was about to come to head again in my life.
"So what do we do now that our other halves are gone?" Abby stated while dropping herself on the couch next to me with a bottle of wine and popcorn.
"Anything we want. We are two capable women who don't need their men to have fun," inside I was yearning to hear Fitz voice and his touch.
"Your right. When did we become those girls who spent every moment with their other half?"
I laugh, "the moment we said 'I love you' that's when it happened," they share a laugh knowing that it was true. They still held their own independence but it felt good to know there was someone out their thinking about you and love you and couldn't wait to see you.
"I say we go paint the town red, RED."
"Let's do this."
They turn some music on and start dancing around then raid each other closet for something to wear out for a night that was surely going to be filled with fun.
"Food or straight to the dance floor?"
Being lost in thought she didn't hear Abby.
"Hey are you alright?"
"Yea. My stomach is doing that weird thing again."
"Your bad feeling weird or stomachache weird?"
Shaking her head, "bad feeling, but its probably nothing. What did you ask me?"
"Food or dancing, but if you're not up for it…"
"Abby I'm fine. It's mostly me just missing Fitz and food first."
Both clad in heels and tight dresses that made every curve on their well toned bodies pop out they head to a taco stand down the street from their apartment.
"We stand out like this."
"So what, we can say that we got the night off and need to promote business for tomorrow night," she says sending Liv a wink.
"Abby you always know what to say."
"This is true, I do."
They order and find a place to sit not far from the stand.
"How's it going with you and Fitz?
"Good. It's going….good."
"Just good? From the sounds I heard last night."
"Geez, if you must know he was giving a massage."
"Rightttt, he was massaging that…"
"If you must know we have not had sex in form or fashion."
Cocking her head to the side and giving a look, "seriously Liv?"
"Seriously."
"Like no hand action, tongue, mouth, nothing from either of you?"
"Nothing."
"What's with the wait?"
"It's just every time we get close he gets…. nervous. Then I start thinking it's something I'm doing than I completely shut down, like last night he was giving me the massage and I thought we were about to than he got this serious look in his eyes."
"I need play by play."
"Fine."
Flashback
I had everything situated, light, new sheets, light music, and new night clothes, that consisted of silk barely there booty shorts and a tight grey shirt, it was nothing to special because she didn't want to look like she was trying. Fitz knocked on the door and Liv went running to answer. Before opening the door she took a deep breath. Fitz was first to speak.
"Hi lovely."
"Hi."
"I missed you."
"You just saw me yesterday."
"Yea that was hours ago and I missed you. Take the compliment."
He came fully thru the door and watched her close it before he pushed her up against it and started attacking her neck. She could feel him rising to the occasion. Turning around she led him to her room and the continued where they left off. Before they knew it they were in the bed both with no shirts on and dry humping like they were back in high school. She turned him over and straddled his waist with his back to her.
"Liv what are you doing?"
"I thought I would give you a massage, is that okay?"
"It's more than okay only if you allow me to return the favor my love."
Getting the oil prepared she looked at his board shoulders and started to salivate a little, "why do you call me that?"
Letting a small moan, "call you what?"
"My love?"
"You are and I do. It's fitting. It's something for us and it's my way to show you what you mean to me."
Starting to rub up and down his back she unknowingly started grinding her hips in to him. He let a couple more moans and groans
"Livvie if you keep that up I won't be able to control myself."
Liv was so far gone that she didn't hear him and was just lost in the feeling of the pressure against the place begging for a release. Noticing that she didn't answer him he flips over and thrusts upward to get her attention. Her eyes fly open stopping her movements.
"Now that I have your attention," flipping her over, "my turn."
Unclasping her bra he starts his ministrations of rubbing the knots out and having her grace him with the sounds that made him harder than he already was. Not being to handle it anymore I turn her over and attack her mouth. Somewhere during the process I take her shorts off and I started to guide my hands down her wonderful body but stop myself. I couldn't really pinpoint the reason I stopped but I did.
"Fitz is there something wrong?"
"No…I …can we just…sleep?"
"Are you sure you're okay?"
"Yeah," he climbs off of me and lays on his back staring at the ceiling.
"Okay. Goodnight"
"Night Liv."
"No Livvie or my love, it was back to Liv. I didn't understand what happened but my self confidence flew out the window and it didn't help when he put his hands around me and pulled me close to his chest. I went to move and try to put my bra back on but he kept his grip on me and covered my exposed chest with his hands. I fell asleep more confused than ever.
Present
"Wait he grinds all on you, takes your remaining clothes on, then stops but then has the nerve to cup your boob?"
"I know right confusing. And talk about a hit to the ego."
"First you are beautiful and if I swung that way I would hit that. Second it sounds like it really is him and not you, maybe you guys should have the sex talk."
"Yeah maybe. But enough of the sad stuff lets get going and dance the night away. They come back tomorrow and for damn sure am not waiting any longer than a week to get some."
"That's my girl lets go."
In the woods
"So you just stopped?"
"Yeah. Man I was feeling it and all these memories started rushing back and I panicked."
"What?"
"Look you're my best friend so I'm going to tell you this. My ex use to say all this stuff about me but I already had body issues starting from when I was younger my father use to say that I was never going to be able to get a girl because I was so small and I didn't want to play football the mans sport. From there it lasted all the way thru high school. "
"Fitz are you a virgin?"
"No but my experience in that area is kind of small."
"Alright this is bro talk and I love you like you're my real brother. What are you working wth?"
"Above average, but when I was with Mellie when we use to get in the zone but I couldn't get hard enough. She use to call me out on it. It got to the point where I went to the doctor to get checked out."
"And…"
"Nothing. There's nothing wrong. With Liv man I feel like I'm going to burst open but I'm scared it won't be good for her. This sucks," I drop my face in me hands. I can't believe I was telling Harrison about this.
"Please don't anyone but especially Abby."
"Fitz we are brothers I can't break that code not even for the woman I love. Only if it was something bad then I would break it in a heartbeat," he laughs, "man it just sounds like you're stuck in the past. I believe that what you went thru caused some trauma but I think Liv is the one that can heal you man. From the sound of it Mellie didn't do it for you and Liv does. Your boys didn't like Mellie but they seem to be in love with Liv, as long as you can get it up and hold it I don't see the problem, just try to get out of your head man and fuck your woman. She most likely has some pent up energy that you need to release."
"I get it, I get it. Get out my head, and fuck Livs brains out."
"Hey she will feel better but so will you. I know every time I get Abby to that point it's a boost to my ego plus it's a great release."
"I guess I do need a boost to my ego and it sounds like this might be it. Thanks for the talk man it was kind of weird but it helped."
"Hey I'm always here plus you have been to tense lately."
"Whatever lets get going by the time we get back we are going to be starting our shift."
"One more shift then we start our month long vacation."
They hug it out and start packing up. Little did they know this was the beginning of an emotional night.
