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Chapter 7: Tear You Apart

Dear Veronica,

I'm not sure where to start, but I guess the best place would be to tell you that Lilly and I are no longer together. I didn't break up with her for you. I did it because it was the best thing for me. I wasn't happy with her, but I am happy with you. Believe it or not I don't care, but it's the truth.

I'm sorry about the day at the beach when I lashed out at you. I was angry about what you said after we kissed and I shouldn't have done what I did. I'm sorry for how I acted and how I got back together with Lilly. I am just really sorry. I know it doesn't make up for the things I've done, but I just want you to know that I am sorry.

Do you remember that night when we were thirteen and Lilly convinced us all to camp out in the backyard? She didn't last the night, but the two of us did. It was one of the few times we were together just us. Duncan, I think was sick or something, but it was fun just the two of us. I think I realized then that you make me happier than Lilly ever did, but Lilly had mentioned you liked Duncan so I didn't make a move. I know things are different now and you probably want nothing to do with me, but I just need you to know that I want a chance. I made a mistake getting back with Lilly, but now I know what I really want. I want you. I want a chance to be with you and I know you don't want to hurt Lilly or Duncan even with the circumstances, but I think we should try.

Always,

Logan

After reading the letter Veronica tucked it securely in her desk in her room and went to bed with a smile on her face. She was willing to try for Logan. Come Monday morning she would tell him. She knew that things wouldn't be easy, but at least she would be happy with him because Logan made her happy too.


Monday at school Logan was parking his car when a familiar blonde was standing by her large black SUV biting her lip. He sighed as he got out of the car hoping to God, that Lilly wasn't waiting for him, but when he emerged from the car and Lilly was immediately at his side he knew that luck was not on his side today.

"What?" Logan snapped tightening his hold on his bag.

Lilly sighed dramatically and moved closer to him. "I have a problem." She stated.

"If it's red and itchy I think only a doctor can help you." Logan quipped.

Lilly rolled her eyes. "It's not that kind of problem. Besides if I did have a disease I know exactly who gave it to me." She gave him a pointed look and he rolled his eyes.

"Who? The pool boy?"

"I'm not talking about my sex life with you, Logan. I'm here for Veronica." Lilly stated trying to keep the smile off her face when she saw Logan stiffen and stop at the magic word.

"What about Veronica?" he asked looking down at Lilly with narrowed eyes.

Lilly looked away and around the parking lot spying the black LeBaron as it pulled into the lot.

"Is she ok?" Logan asked ripping Lilly's gaze away from the car.

"Yeah…well I mean…I need your help." She stuttered.

Logan frowned conflicted by Lilly stuttering. Lilly didn't stutter, she was confident and forthright, but she was never unsure and she definitely didn't stutter. Immediately he was put on alert wondering what her problem was for her to willingly come to him and be unsure about anything.

"If she doesn't want to be friends with you again that's on you. I'm staying out of the drama." Logan said eventually.

"Oh come on, Logan. You're the center of the drama. Just listen, so I was hanging with Shelly and Madison—"

"Were you practicing how to suck souls away from innocent victims? I saw Dick this weekend and he was looking a little green around the gills. "

"Logan! Be serious! This is Veronica! Veronica who is innocent and still a virgin."

Logan raised an eyebrow at her. "Why are you—?"

"I heard a rumor and I want to find out of it's true." Lilly said.

Logan bit the inside of his cheek and felt a wave of nervousness crash into him. Had Lilly found out about him and Veronica? If she had he knew he shouldn't care, but he did for Veronica's sake since he knew first hand out vicious Lilly could be.

"I heard she was seeing someone and I just…I want her to be careful." Lilly said quietly her eyes darting across the lot where Veronica was getting her things from the car.

"You want her to be careful? What's supposedly going to happen to her? She's a big girl, you know. She can take care of herself." Logan said rolling his eyes.

"But the person she's seeing is really…he has a bad reputation." Lilly said quietly.

Logan scowled feeling confused. His reputation wasn't that bad, sure he could be a jackass, but for the most part people liked him. He was the King of Neptune High and if people couldn't respect that then he'd show them, but for the most part he didn't do anything that wasn't warranted. He wondered why Lilly was so concerned for Veronica's well fair too when they hadn't talked in a few weeks and she had gone out of her way to mock her.

"What are you talking about?" Logan asked wondering why Lilly didn't just accuse him and Veronica of being together right then.

Just then he noticed Veronica leaving her car and coming across the parking lot. She was slowly nearing them a frown on her face when a tan bald headed leather wearing PCHer stopped her. Logan recognized the PCHer as the head of the gang, Weevil. He had been over to the house a few times to pick up his grandmother, but the most Logan had said to him was 'don't steal anything.'

Logan watched as Weevil started talking to her and Veronica stopped to listen to what he had to say. Logan couldn't help, but wonder what they were talking about. He felt the familiar jealous feeling rising in his chest at how close Weevil was to her. He took a step towards them, but felt Lilly's hand wrap around his arm trying to get his attention.

"Veronica is seeing a PCHer." Lilly said into his ear.

"What?" Logan asked tearing his eyes away from Veronica and looking at Lilly.

"Veronica is seeing the head PCHer, Weevil Navarro." Lilly said looking up at him with innocent eyes.

"What? Mrs. Navarro's grandson? No…that's…no. Veronica wouldn't do that. She's…she would've said something." Logan said shaking his head and looking back over at Veronica. As Lilly's words slowly penetrated his skull he refused to acknowledge them. Lilly was wrong. She had to be. Veronica would've said something to him. He had just seen her the Friday before and she had been into the idea of them trying out a relationship, hadn't she? He thought she'd been receptive, but seeing Weevil and her together now he wasn't so sure.

"I saw them at the beach this weekend, looking pretty cozy. I wanted to say something to her then, but she ran away when she saw me. I think she's embarrassed." Lilly whispered into his ear. She watched with glee as his jaw clenched as he watched them.

Weevil was close to her. His hand was on her shoulder and his head was a few inches from hers. Suddenly he took another step closer and Veronica was blocked by his body. His head leaned to the side and Logan swore they were kissing, from his angle they looked as if they were at least. His blood ran cold at the sight and he looked down at Lilly who had a curious look on her face.

"I want someone to talk to her. I don't think she should be with such a dangerous guy. Especially after Duncan, I mean I know she probably is just trying to get over Duncan and move on, but I've heard the PCHers just use girls and even if Veronica and I are on bad terms I think we should do something." Lilly rambled watching Logan carefully.

Logan for his part wasn't paying attention to anything she was saying and was currently feeling as if his world was exploding. Veronica and Weevil?

His vision was blurring around the edges, his heart was hammering in his chest, and he felt sick to his stomach. He felt as if he was about to have a mental breakdown at watching Veronica and Weevil. He wasn't sure if he should stomp over there and rip her away from him or if he should take Lilly into the backseat of his car and fuck her until he could make Veronica feel as shitty as he did. He was leaning towards the former option when the bell rang and Weevil pulled away from Veronica and grinned at her.

Even from the distance Logan could see the lecherous look in his eyes. Logan felt his blood roaring in his ears and his hands turned into fists. He turned away before he could resort to violence knowing that the last thing he needed was a suspension especially with his dad home. He hurried into the building wondering what exactly was going on between Veronica and Weevil. He didn't want to believe what Lilly said was true, but the image he'd just seen was burned into his brain and the jealousy he felt was all too real.


Veronica was really confused by the head PCHer Weevil. He had stopped her while she was walking towards the building to ask her some questions about homework for History, which seemed really out of character for him. First of all Veronica had never seen him in her History class and second she didn't even think he'd really ever care about History homework. He was part of a gang. From the rumors she heard he didn't seem like the type to care about homework, let alone ask her the school social pariah about it. What she found the oddest was how close he leaned in to talk to her. She wanted to step back, but she figured that stepping back showed weakness and if there was one thing she wasn't anymore it was weak. So she stood her ground and talked to Weevil about the History homework that was due today even if she didn't think he was listening. He nodded along and put his arm on her shoulder as if they were best friends. Again she didn't back down though, she wasn't going to show the PCHer that his close proximity freaked her out.

Once he was done grilling her about the homework he began to ask her about Lilly and Veronica had to stop herself from rolling her eyes. Granted she had heard that Lilly and him had a thing going on, but since she wasn't friends with her she didn't really care.

Thankfully the bell rang and she had a chance to scurry out of there. It was then that she noticed that Logan had been standing beside Lilly and she felt her heart sink at the sight. She tried to keep in mind the letter, but she couldn't help but wonder whether they were getting back together. Again.

She walked across the parking lot and watched as Logan stalked into the building looking pissed off. She was so busy watching Logan she didn't notice Lilly saddle up beside her and loop an arm around her shoulder.

"Hey, best friend." Lilly said grinning at her.

Veronica frowned, "Not today Lilly. I'm—"

"I know, you're still mad at me. I got that when you didn't call me this weekend, but I was wondering if maybe you wanted to go to a party next weekend. It's in the desert. Costume rave party." Lilly said gleefully.

Veronica ducked out from under her arm and glared at her. "What's with you and Weevil?" she asked curiously ignoring Lilly's question.

Lilly's smile widened. "What do you mean?"

Veronica rolled her eyes all too familiar with Lilly's games. "He just came up to me asking me a bunch of questions about you. Are you guys a thing?"

Lilly smirked at her and shrugged. "So what about the desert?"

"What's going on with Weevil?"

The two stared at each other willing the other one to break first. The bell rang again signaling a warning to be in class and Lilly winked at her before disappearing into the school. Veronica watched her go with narrowed eyes feeling suspicious of her ex best friend's behavior. Regardless if they were friends or not Veronica knew her better than anyone and the glint she saw in Lilly's eyes signified she was up to something. Veronica was willing to bet that, that something was no good.


Once Lilly left Veronica she went into the school and into the janitor's closest where she knew Weevil would be waiting. He was casually leaning against the wall and she landed a large smooch on his lips in greeting.

"You're blonde friend is weird." Weevil said when they pulled apart.

"You did good though. Did she buy it?" Lilly asked curiously.

Weevil shrugged and wrapped his arms around her waist. "I don't know. I asked about some homework shit then you."

Lilly frowned, "I know she was asking what was going on between us."

"What'd you tell her?"

Lilly shrugged, "Nothing."

"Isn't she supposed to be your best friend?"

"Yeah. So what?"

"So why are you doing this? I know the white boy is your ex and everything, but do you still have feelings for him? Is that why you're doing this?" Weevil asked suspiciously.

Lilly laughed. "Of course not, lover."

"Then why? Why make Logan think Veronica and I are a thing? Why make Logan jealous?"

Lilly was quiet for a minute. "Because I don't want them together."

"Because you still have feelings for him?"

"Because he doesn't deserve her. Logan's…going to hurt her and I don't want to see her hurt. She's my best friend and I know it doesn't seem like what I'm doing is right, but she can't be with just anyone." Lilly said quietly.

She looked away from Weevil and concentrated on the mop behind him. What she told Weevil was true, but it wasn't the whole truth. She wasn't ready to face the whole truth as to why she didn't want them together yet. Granted, she didn't have feelings for Logan anymore, that ship had long since sailed, but there was something else she wasn't ready to analyze or admit yet. So the easiest way to explain why she was doing this was because she didn't want Veronica hurt, which was true just not the whole truth.


Veronica had been trying to track down Logan all day. It was lunch-time before she finally saw him and when she did she felt an icy coldness in the pit of her belly. Logan was at his usual spot at the 09er table, but beside him sat Caitlyn Ford and they were closer than Veronica would really like them to be.

She bit her lip trying to decide if she should go confront him or just ignore him and sit by herself at her usual table. She tried to explain away he was ignoring her and sitting with Caitlyn, but nothing she told herself helped. Eventually she decided to sit at her own table. Right as she sat down she watched Caitlyn lean into Logan and whisper into his ear, he smirked and they got up leaving the Quad together.

"What are you looking at?" Lilly asked sitting down across from her.

Veronica ripped her eyes from Logan and looked over at Lilly who grinned at her.

"Nothing." Veronica mumbled sipping on her water.

Lilly looked over to wear she saw Logan and Caitlyn walking across the Quad together and she made a disgusted noise.

"Ew. I can't believe he's hanging around Caitlyn Ford. She's such a skank." Lilly said rolling her eyes.

Veronica looked at her with raised eyebrows.

"I mean, he's totally slumming it, don't you think?" Lilly asked.

Veronica sighed, "what do you want, Lilly?"

"Just to chat. See if you changed your mind about the rave in the desert."

Veronica bit her lip and shrugged her eyes returning to where Logan had disappeared to.

"So what's going on with Logan and Caitlyn?" Veronica asked knowing as she asked it she would definitely regret it.

Lilly frowned, "who knows. I mean, I saw them earlier in the hall making out, but I figured he was just doing it to get a rise out of me. You know how he is. When I asked Madison she said they'd been hanging out all weekend, she said they're dating now or fooling around. Who knows with him. Anyway, so the desert?" Lilly asked hopefully.

Veronica felt a hot cord of anger coil around her stomach and the jealousy soon followed. She tightened her grip on the water bottle she had and she felt her stomach twist around in a sick feeling she knew all to well when she saw Logan with other girls.

"T-they're dating?" Veronica mumbled biting the inside of her cheek to keep the tears she wanted to shed in check. Why would Logan write her a letter and say what he said when he was just going to get with another bimbo? Why had Logan come to the car wash to talk to her when he was had been fooling around with Caitlyn Ford? She felt like she had after they kissed and he got back together with Lilly. She felt betrayed by him and angry that he spoke such caring words and turned his back on her so easily.

"I guess. I don't really care. Logan and I broke up and I'm totally done with that. Enough about Logan though what about us? I want us to be friends again and the perfect way to do it will be to go to this rave. There's no one I'd rather go with than you." Lilly said reaching across the table and taking Veronica's hand.

She looked down at their entangled fingers and the image of Logan and Caitlyn then Lilly and Logan came to mind.

"Sure. Sounds fun." She bit out knowing that at least for one night she wanted to pretend Logan Echolls didn't exist. She needed that at the very least.

(A/n: So what do you think? Happy holidays! More soon!)