Hey new chapter for you guys. As always please read and review and also I'm sorry in advance. It will get better soon I promise...hopefully. Here are the songs:
1. Save Rock and Roll - Fall Out Boy
2. The Mighty Fall - Fall Out Boy
3. Hallelujah - Panic! At The Disco
Phil's mom had forced him to take a shower and eat something. It'd been 2 days since he'd heard from Dan. His mother hadn't left since the day he'd called him. She wanted to pack up Dan's things for when he got back but Phil hadn't been able to. Seeing Dan's things in a box had resulted in tears and Phil had vetoed any future attempts. He knew his mom was trying to help by preparing him for the worst but he didn't want to face the fact that he lost his best friend and soul mate all in one swoop. Everything in him hurt and he was glad for his mother being there or…he wasn't sure what would have happened but he knew it wouldn't have been good.
He had called their mutual friends to check if Dan had gone to any of them or even contacted them but nobody had heard from him. He checked with his father relying on the slim chance that Dan had stayed with them but of course he hadn't. His father mentioned the argument that they had and that they hadn't talked since and Phil's worry grew.
"I think we should call the police," Phil said to his mother one night.
"Phil I don't think he's missing," she said gently, "I think he just doesn't want to come home. I doubt he's in any trouble."
"He wouldn't just up and leave. He would have at least called," Phil said fighting back tears.
"I know you two were friends but I think it might be over sweetie. I think you might have to face the fact that he doesn't want you to be a part of his life anymore," she said, "There's something that's wrong with him Phil, I don't want him to take you down with him."
"There's nothing wrong with him," Phil yelled, "Don't say that!"
"Phil you have to face the facts! Dan doesn't want you!," she said, "I know that you don't want to let him go but you are going to have to! He doesn't love you! I'm sorry but I don't think that boy's capable of feeling love Phil! Something broke him well before you got to him and it isn't something you can just fix!"
"I don't care!" Phil said, now fully crying, "I love him! I don't care if he never loves me back! I just want my best friend back! I wish that this had never happened! I wish that I could have just pretended it was a crush! I lost him mom! I didn't want to lose him. I didn't mean to lose him."
"You didn't lose him honey," Phil's mom said, "He lost you."
"He didn't lose me," Phil cried, "He could come back and have me anytime he wants. I lost him. He doesn't want me anymore."
"He's not worth it," his mom tried to tell him.
"Get out," Phil said, "Please. Go home and go see dad and let me sort this out on my own. I'm going to call the police and try to find Dan. I don't care what you say I need him.
"I can't leave you like this," his mom said, "You're my son. I don't want to see you in this much pain Phil. It's breaking my heart. All I ever wanted was what was best for you. I don't ever want to see you hurting."
"I know," Phil said wiping his tears, "but sometimes you have to let me make my own mistakes. I need to find Dan. That's what I want."
"Don't make me go," Phil's mom pleaded, "What if you don't find him?"
"Then I'll just have to look harder," Phil said.
