Hello again guys. So, French exam went terrible. Stupid phone rang in the middle of it and messed up my flow I also stuttered, which does not help.
I want to send out my apologies to Demi and Dallas on the devastating news about Patrick Lovato. It pains me that I couldn't physically hug her and tell her it will be okay, but our Demi is stronger than she gets credit for. I love her so much. I posted the last chapter just before Dallas tweeted. Not going to lie, It made me think of my dad - but that's basically bullshit our 'Father-Daughter' relationship.
Also, I have taken a lot of thought and I am thinking of not writing at all any more due to Patrick Lovatos death. It made me realise how much I cared about Demi and how important she is too me, and It actually scares me how much of a hold she has on my life. I just...love her so much. No-one knows I've been thinking about this, so I will make a decision, and you'll know in the next two maybe four days If I don't update, you've your answer. Review for this chapter please, it means a lot to me. Again, I own nothing.
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(THE LINK OF WHAT DEMI AND SELENA LOOKS LIKE)
Demis POV
I am so nervous for this date. I think me and Selenas relationship; if you would even call it that, has moved a bit quick. So, I don't feel comfortable with this speed and I'm going to ask her can we slow down a bit. Look at me, I'm not even her girlfriend and I'm already a mess. I guess it's just her affect upon me. You know in twilight when Edward says, 'What if I'm the bad guy?' to Bella; that quote has been playing on my mind the whole week leading up to this week. What if I am the bad guy? I destroyed Alex and Selenas relationship and I left her best friend heartbroken and confused, what if I hurt Selena the same way? I in no way discourage the fact that I would treat her like a queen, but what if I push her away? I've pushed enough people away to know it hurts me more than it could hurt the other person. So maybe I am the bad guy. Or girl, in this case.
As I said I am so nervous, I didn't even expect her to ask me if I am being completely honest.
*Ring*
Oh god, that's the door. It's like the door bell ring in An Inspector Calls when it interrupts Birlings Speech and is of great importance to the play, I was a bad ass girl but I wasn't stupid you know. I checked my appearance in the mirror before going out. I was wearing a leather jacket (wow, what a surprise), I had side bangs, I wore my hair down for once which was even a shock to me and a simple necklace and a blue dress. Alongside, light make up but eye liner to bring out my eyes a bit.
Authors Note; Link of both Selena and Demis outfit at the bottom of the page.
I opened the door and I swear I was taken aback by Selenas beauty. She wore her hair down, loosely curled. She wore jeans, a blue t-shirt with a beautiful necklace and a white blazer. I looked down at her legs and they seemed to go on forever. It was just then I noticed the older girl was actually taller than me, well, that wasn't hard. I was pretty short.
'Demi, I know you want to eat but we have to go out to dinner first' I looked back up to her eyes and she had the biggest smirk ever on her face, two can play at that game.
'Aw, but can we not skip dinner babe?' I winked at her and the normal-cocky Selena I seen blushed. 'Oh babe you're so cute when you blush'
'Ar...Ar...Are you re...ready you go?' I just smirked and walked out letting her follow behind. We got in her GT Mustang 2010, which she absolutely adores, and began to drive. In the background of her driving The Veronicas new CD Life on Mars was on, then Sugar Daddy came on and I began to belt out those notes. I didn't believe I could sing, I had always wanted to play guitar and write music- but I had friends that were much better at music than me. When I listen to music I swear I go in my own world, no-one can get in and no-one understands how certain lyrics mean to me.
We finally after about 20 minute's drive we arrived, I reached to take off my seatbelt, looked up and met the McDonalds sign. Some girls may be 'insulted' but I really couldn't care less, it was a casual first date which made me more comfortable and less conscious. See, this is where guys fail. They either don't make an effort at all or make too much of an effort, but Selena made the right call.
We walked in and I sat down in a booth and left Selena to order. I got bored while waiting and was playing with my phone, I felt like such a bad ass playing GTA running from the cops, vandalising cars and stabbing random people in the street. Call me weird but I felt some power behind it. I was just about to leave those damn stars and then I had my phone snatched away from me. I smiled cutely at Selena and apologised.
'Its cool babe, I understand; like really I do. Once I spent a full summer playing in on Justin's PlayStation, BEST SUMMER EVER'
We just had general conversation from on then and there was no awkwardness, not like any date with a guy. The girls just left to make conversation and the guy grunts every now and then to show he's 'paying attention'. I keep comparing guys to Selena, yes, but you have to understand I've never felt this attraction to a guy before.
'You ready to go Dems? I've another surprise for you.'
'Okay, I just want to get another drink. Go out to the car, I'll only be a minute' I kissed her on the cheek and she stood there love struck. I walked up to the counter and met a quite pretty girl; she had chocolate brown hair, bright blue eyes and really cute dimples.
'Hiya, Can I get a coke please?'
'Yes of course. Do you have a card?'
'Yeah, sure thing. Here you go'
'Thank you. So, does beautiful have a name?'
'Em, Demi.'
'Does Demi want to go out with me? I'd make you feel good baby'
'No, she's out with me. And she's not a Justin Bieber song, don't call her baby. Thank you for the drink, bye. ' For the second time Selena had spoken for me, and god was she hot when she was jealous. Just as we were going to leave through the door she grabbed my waist and kissed me with so much passion than I've ever seen. We pulled away and she took me by the hand and took me out into the car.
'Wow, that was...Just...'
'Perfect' Selena said it while looking at me, and I couldn't help but think there was a double meaning and truth behind what she was saying. 'I've also got another surprise for you.'
Another surprise? Wow, she is going all out on this date. I didn't even ask what it was this time or annoy her to see if she would spill any information, because I done that before we went to Mac's and it still didn't work. She drove for not too long, but turned off the road into a dirt track.
'You're not going to kill and sexually assault me are you?'
'Ha, no. It's not sexual assault because you'd enjoy it!'
'So, if you're not going to kill or sexually assault me. What are we going to do?'
She didn't answer; she simply just jumped out of the car with a blanket and told me to follow. I don't know whether you've ever been walking around in sand but it's pretty hard to keep up with a girl with ongoing length legs when you've short legs. Just when I thought the walk was never going to end, she stopped dead in her tracks and I walked right into her knocking us both over. Of course I landed right on top of her because I'm clumsy. We laughed but then both stopped. My heart skipped when I seen her eyes piercing into mine, and her thumb grazing across my cheek. I could slightly hear the waves around me and that's when I noticed Selena and me where on a beach, but that didn't even matter. What mattered was the girl below me that made me question myself like no other girl had done before, she was my crush but my only true friend at the same time. Her eyes now moved to my lips and I swear my heart was in my mouth and the butterflies in my stomach laid eggs of baby butterflies and now they hatched and were going mental in my stomach. I couldn't handle this anymore; I kissed her before they got any worse. It wasn't a passionate kiss, but a loving one. I could feel her emotion and soul in the kiss, and it was so refreshing from kissing a guy. *Cough* Joe *Cough*
We finally stopped just in time to see the sun set, I looked over at Selena and the light paved her face so beautifully and made her eyes glisten like stars in the sky. That's when I knew I had fell for the girl beside me, and hard. I was so inspired at that moment, by her head strong quality and her attitudes to life. Once she seen something she wanted, she worked so hard and continued to work hard until she got it, it worked every time for her. I was living proof.
'Demi, as much as I don't wanna say this we have to go home. It's getting dark.'
'Okay. Let's go'
The ride home was sat in comfortable silence; we didn't feel the urge to talk. We were engrossed by how perfect this evening was and I think we both realised at that point that this was more than just a short relationship; and I'm not going to lie, that scared me. Absolutely scared me.
We arrived at my house and she walked me up to my door, she seemed like a lost school girl. She didn't know where to look, this was definitely a change from the normal Selena I seen but I guess this is the real Selena, and I liked the real her. Finally she looked in my eyes, I could see her eyes with a mixture of emotions- I was sure of none.
'I had a really good night Dems. I just wanted to ask, can we do it again sometime? I mean only if you want to because if you don't want to its totally okay and I...'
'Selena stop! Breath. I'd love too. Goodnight, I had an absolutely fantastic time, thank you.'
With that I kissed her on the lips softly and went into my house. As soon as I closed the door, I leaned on it and let out the breathe I didn't know I was holding. I noticed I still had her blazer from when she gave it to me on the beach, it still smelt of her perfume and it warmed my heart.
'So, how'd it go? Tell me all the details!' I jumped up at least 6 foot in the air at the voice.
'PATRICK, DON'T DO THAT TO ME'
'Sorry! I let myself in the side door once Selena left; she stood there for like 5 minutes after the kiss. Much like you did. You're so whipped by her! Tell me the details, NOW!'
'You um, saw me kiss her?'
'Duh! You're so sweet. Now, I've hot chocolate and Camp Rock on TV waiting. Put on your pyjamas and meet me in the living room!'
God, I love my best friend.
Also, send your best wishes to Demi, it does go appreciated. Love you guys.
