October 30th 2007 Tuesday
18:00- a party on Friday night! hurrah.
It's been ages since I last attended a party, I needed it, specially now, and I think it would be splendid, anyway, the party is after work, and it's the chaps from work who're arranging it. I already asked Rose and Alice to come, but Alice and Jasper were already invited b that E-bloody-Colon what's his face.
So I invited Rose and told her to bring Emmet, and of course my boyfriend.
"I'm not sure I would be able to come." James said over the phone.
"why not?" I was disappointed.
"I have an essay on…"
"can't you work on it later?" I interrupted "look, if that's because of Edward Cullen, you know you don't have…"
"It's not him".
"then?"
"alright, I'll be there"
"great!"
hurrah.
Annoyed by people: 3, weight lost: 2 pounds (I should keep that up).
November 2nd 2007 Friday
23:00- I haven't seen Edward Cullen during this week, so I suspected he won't be able to come to the party, it would be easier this way, and James would feel comfortable.
Rose and Emmet came early, which was great, but James haven't arrived with them. I asked them where he was, but they had no clue.
I hoped he would arrive very soon.
And suddenly Edward Cullen was visible to me, I just hate him, why he decided to come? James would be very uncomfortable with him around.
Alice and Jasper joined later, and there was no sign of James yet.
Jasper of course immediately was caught up in conversations with that E-bloody-colon, while the latter was looking at me. What did he want??
I sent a message to James's mobile but he didn't reply. What's going around?
"Why he's not coming?" I lost my patience.
Alice and Rose stood clueless.
"he's late" I continued, "it's only because of that bastard" I said angrily.
"who?" asked Rose.
"Edward Bloody Cullen"
"What he got to do with it?" asked Alice.
"he bloody shagged his girl" I said angrily.
"how do you know that?"
"James told me"
"but, Edward seems like a really nice bloke"
"Apparently he's not" interrupted Rose.
it was really nice when they put some Latin music on (considering we were working on a related film), I seriously love these kind of music, I always wished I should have a dancing course on Latin music and ball room, but I was lazy as ever and forgot.
So at this party people started dancing, and all I wished was that James was here, and asked me to dance, he's American, it's easier for him to have the lead (you know when they have too many Latin people there).
Jasper danced with Alice, he wasn't that good, but Alice was enjoying her time, and I just love watching this couple dancing. They've been together for 2 years, and she already moved in to live with him. Wish James and me would be the same. maybe we would, when he ask me to go to America with him, we would be living in Beverley hills and I would be a famous director, now that would be wicked.
But right then I really wanted to dance, you know when you have this kind of feeling were you have to dance, it just hurt me to see a lot of people dancing this kind of sexy dance, while I'm standing alone just looking at them like an old bag. I would dance with anyone (except my boss of course)
Harry, a really nice bloke works with me asked me to dance with him, he said he didn't know how to dance this dance, but he would really try it with me. Well, the dance wasn't really great, he kept stepping on my feet, and kept apologizing on every single step, until I told him I really have to go to the loo.
I messaged James again and told him that I was so bored and really wished he was there to dance with me or keep me company. I seriously considered leaving but I heard an deep voice behind me.
"Bella?"
"yes" and turned around to find Edward Cullen looking at me.
" would you have the next dance with me?" he asked in a serious voice.
"did Alice told you to do that?"
"no, I'm sorry, I.."
"was it Jasper?"
"no, I just…"
"look, I wasn't begging for a partner" I sad angrily.
"who talked about begging" he laughed, "I just want to dance with you"
"Alright" I said quietly, "but I'm going to the loo first"
I couldn't believe I agreed to dance with him, I swore I was going to loath him for eternity, and now it's me betraying James.
Eventually I danced with him, we danced something I really don't know what it was, on the song sway, the version by Michael Buble, and believe it or not, everybody was looking at us, some of the people just stepped aside and starred, while I was trying to ignore his cold hands on my waist, for some reasons it made me feel warm. He danced like a professional, which really irritated me, caus I thought I can dance and now I can't, he was the lead. and I wish I wouldn't say that, but he's the sexiest dancer I've ever seen.
"wow" said Rose and Alice both at the same time "That was the sexiest dance I've ever seen, since when you dance?"
"it wasn't me" I said trying to ignore what was happening, "it was just that tosser"
"don't call him that" said Alice offended, "he's really nice… and sexy"
"he is" agreed Rose.
"can we go home now" I said.
23:45- I just called James, I know I look obsessive, but I wanted to know why he didn't show up, but he didn't answer neither returned my call.
Called James: 25, Messaged James: 40, Messages from James: 0, missed Call from James: 0, Times the song Sway rang through my head: 10, Times I saw the moving picture of Edward Bloody Dark Dancing: 10, Calories burned from one and a half dance: 200(I guess), Boyfriends: no idea!
