I don't own NCIS. Stop making me say it!
I also don't own "Tik Tok", or "Vanilla Twilight"
Chapter 7
"There is nothing to do here!"
Ziva threw herself down on the couch.
"What do you expect?" Ari asked. "We are wanted people. We can't just go out and do whatever we want."
"Yes, I know that, but I'm used to doing something. It's been a week. When are we going to go on with the mission?"
"These things take time, Ziva. It took years for me to start this mission. Since Gibbs killed my doppelganger. I had nobody know I was alive. Not even father."
"I don't blame you not telling father."
Ari mock gasped. "Daddy's girl dare says that?"
"I am not a Daddy's girl anymore."
"Ah, you have seen the light."
"Yes, I have."
Ari sat down on the couch, and leaned ready to listen intently. "How did you find out that he is not as perfect as you thought he was?"
"I do not have to tell you."
"Ziva," he said. "I am your brother. I know you do not like to talk about your feelings, but I want to know how you saw the light."
"Fine," Ziva said. "This summer, I went back to Mossad, and I went on an anti-terrorist mission in Africa. I was captured, and was held prisoner for months. After a while, I knew he wasn't coming. I thought I was going to die there, and I would never see anyone I loved ever again. But I was saved. By Tony, and McGee, and Gibbs. Tony and McGee infiltrated, and got captured themselves. We got away and busted the terrorist cell. I decided to go back to NCIS, and father didn't like it. He tried to get me deported back to Israel by framing for murder. Didn't work, Gibbs told him through someone else that I was off-limits, and I resigned from Mossad and became an NCIS agent."
"Interesting," Ari said. "If they saved your life, and you feel so close to them, why did you join me in my mission?"
Oh, crap, she thought. "Because, they might be my co-workers, but you are my family. My flesh and blood."
"Well," Ari said. "That makes perfect sense." He stood up from the couch and stretched. "I have to go to the meeting place to check on everything. Would you like to come?"
"No," she said. "I think I'll just stay here. I don't' want to be in the middle of the planning."
"Ziva, you need to get out of the house."
"I'll take a walk or something. Incognito, of course."
"Fine. I'll be back later tonight."
"Okay"
And with that, Ari shut the front door. She heard the car start, and drive away, and she sighed.
She hated lying to Ari like that. But she had to keep telling herself that it wasn't the real Ari. Not the old Ari. Not the fun, sweet, kind Ari. She saw the old Ari in him, but only rarely. This was a criminal, and she had to stop him from killing Gibbs, and this was the only way she knew how.
"So, Mcgoo, What are you going to do this weekend?"
Tony was sitting at his desk, leaning back in his chair.
"Why do you ask?" McGee said. "You never ask me."
"Well, Probie, the person I usually ask isn't here, so I'd thought I'd ask you for a change."
"Tony," McGee said. "You can say Zi"-
"I can but you can't," Tony interrupted in a bitter, hushed tone, getting up and walking towards him. "If you don't believe her, you can't. She was your friend, your co-worker, your family." Tony was right up in McGee's face by now. McGee's eyes were as big as saucers. "You abandoned her when she needed you the most. She is with a criminal, a killer. And you just sit there like nothing has happened. Well something has happened McGee. She needs us, and I can't help her and you won't." His voice started getting a little bit louder with each word. "You don't care about her anymore. None of you do. It's pathetic. How you can just throw away a friendship like it's week old take-out." Tony was yelling now, his eyes brimming with tears. Gibbs walked into the bull-pen and Tony turned to him. "How dare you do that to her! How dare you throw her away when she was trying to save your life! She felt like she had no choice but to help him, so she could save your ass!" He stood right up to Gibbs. Gibbs just stood there in shock. "I know you don't believe her, but I do. You didn't leave me when I needed you, you didn't leave McGee when he needed you, you didn't leave Ducky, Abby, or Jenny when they needed you," Tony paused for a second. "And you didn't dare leave Cate when she needed you." Tony went to his desk and grabbed his gear. "It's five o' clock, we just finished a case, and I'm going home." He started walking towards the elevator. "See you Monday."
He left Gibbs and McGee in shock.
Ziva was listening to music on the radio. She was thinking about Tony and how he was probably having fun with the team. Ari was at yet another "meeting" to go forward with the plan. Her favorite song, "Tik Tok" by ke$ha had just ended when the DJ came on.
"Hey," the DJ said. An unfamiliar song started playing. "Here's a song request, "Vanilla Twilight" by Owl City.
Ziva laid down on the couch and listened.
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
Cause I wish you were here
Ziva cocked her head so she could listen better.
I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
Ziva looked down at her hands. Tony's hands did fit perfectly into hers. Tears filled her eyes as she thought about him. Yet she smiled at the thought of him also.
Tony was looking out the window of his apartment, listening to a song he had just discovered a couple days ago. He had downloaded it upon hearing it.
He felt so lost without Ziva in his life. He couldn't believe that he blew up like that because of it. The first thing he was gonna get Monday would be the hardest Gibbsing, or head- slap, he had ever gotten. He couldn't even sleep cause he wasn't tired even though he had barely slept since the night of the "betrayal."
I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when
I think of you I don't feel so alone
This song was so true of his feelings for Ziva. He always thought of her just so would feel whole.
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
(Tonight, tonight, tonight...)
I'll think of you tonight
It was true. Every time he blinked, he thought of her beautiful smile, the way she would always threaten him that she could kill him eighteen different ways with a paperclip, her beautiful curly hair running down her back when it was down.
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear:
"Oh darling I wish you were here"
And he did wish she was here.
The song ended with the cheesy sounding pop beat, yet it was still nice. He sat down on the couch and buried his face in his hands. He had to see Ziva. He didn't care what Gibbs said. He had to see Ziva.
