Chapter 7
All disclaimers still exist
Olivia made her way down stairs and didn't see Natalia in the living room so she headed for the kitchen and she sees that the younger woman had both of their jackets hanging from one of the kitchen chairs while she was making two cups of coffee.
Natalia sensing that was no longer alone turned around to find Olivia standing in the door way of the kitchen and says "I thought we would sit on our bench with our coffee."
"Sounds good" the older woman says as she reaches for her coat and puts it on. She then reaches for Natalia's coat and holds it out and helps her put it on. They each grabbed a cup of coffee and headed out to the porch and left the kitchen door open just in case Emma gets up while they are outside.
They both settled on their bench sitting close and finally comfortable with being able to sit this close to each other now that everything is out in the open. Before they would love sitting out on the bench in the evening but were always conscious of not sitting too close for fear of figuring each other out. Now they can sit close and just enjoy being together and just be.
"I hope it was ok that I told Emma yes that we would be sharing a room" the younger woman says. "I know that we hadn't discussed it but I don't want to wait anymore. I just want to be near you and be able to hold you…"
"Natalia, I …"
"No Olivia, please hear me out because I need to say this."
"Ok."
Natalia takes her coffee and sets it down beside the bench and then takes Olivia's and sets it down beside hers and then she takes Olivia's hands in hers. She takes a moment to gather her thoughts. She begins to rub her thumbs over the older woman's hands and thinks to herself…they are so soft. She looks into those beautiful green orbs that have kept her captivated for so long. Wow, you have such beautiful eyes she thinks, I could just sit here and stare into them all night. She takes a deep breath and says "what I want to say is that we began this dance around our feelings a long time ago. We both know it. When Frank proposed to me is when I really knew deep down in my heart that it is you that I want to be with, it is you that I want to spend every night with for the rest of my life. I love you Olivia and only you and now I have finally realized that it has always been you Olivia."
"And I love you Natalia. You changed me and made me want to be a better person. I want to share everything with you and no one else. Natalia, you are everything to me and Emma. You take such good care of our little girl and you saved my life. I will never be able to thank you enough for that, and I want to spend the rest of my life thanking you and loving you. So, no I am not upset that you told Emma that we would be sharing a room, cuz lord knows I want that more than anything, but are you really ready for this? What about your faith?"
"What about my faith? My faith is in God and I honestly feel that he led me to you and you to me."
"Your church says that this is wrong and that it is a sin."
"Olivia, I have thought about all of this and prayed about it so many times. Yes the church says this is a sin, but my faith is in God and God is love and if God brought us together how can it be a sin. It would be a sin not to accept and cherish god's gift."
"I just needed to know that you are absolutely sure" the older woman says.
"I have though about all of this and what being together would mean for us, it's all I have been able to think about especially over the last couple of weeks. So yes my love, I am sure about us being together and having what every couple in love has." Natalia reaches up and caresses Olivia's cheek and jaw while looking into those beautiful eyes and says "I love you Olivia and I am not ashamed of it. I refuse to hide or fight my feelings for you any longer. We have danced around this and each other for far too long. It's time we dance together to our own music and new beginning."
As a tear starts to run down the older woman's cheek, she grabs the hand that was caressing her cheek and turns her head to place soft kisses in the palm of her loves hand and says "god I love you!"
Natalia leans in and kisses Olivia. It was sweet and sensual and passionate. It was everything they both had wanted and dreamed of for so long. Natalia licked Olivia's bottom lip seeking entry because she simply could not get enough of kissing Olivia Spencer. Olivia instantly parted her lips granting Natalia access. Immediately Natalia's tongue entered Olivia's and they both moaned into the kiss sending shivers down both women's spines. The kiss quickly became heated and neither woman wanted to stop, but soon needing air became too much and it was Olivia that broke the kiss leaning her forehead against Natalia's. Both women were breathing hard and unable to speak. They just sat their enjoying being close to each other.
Olivia shivered a little and Natalia felt it and asks "are you cold sweetheart?"
"Yeah, a little…just got a chill is all."
"I noticed" the younger woman said.
"Ya think" Olivia says playfully with a smile "it is still technically winter ya know."
"Yeah I know smartass, let's go inside."
"Swear jar" Olivia says laughing. Natalia frowned. "Hey it's not that often that you swear and I can make you pay up."
"Yeah, yeah" Natalia says reaching for their coffee cups to bring them inside, "let's go freeze baby" the younger woman teases.
Natalia is at the sink and rinses out their coffee cups and turns to Olivia and says "are you ready to go to bed?"
"Yeah" the older woman breathes. "It's been a long and stressful day and I am exhausted."
"I know sweetheart." Natalia dries off her hands and reaches out to her love offering her hand "shall we?" the Latin says.
Olivia takes the offered hand and turns the kitchen light out as she reaches the doorway as she is being lead by a beautiful woman to head up stairs.
Once they reach the stairs Olivia's mind and heart are racing as the Latina still has a hold of her hand leading the way. Geez I am so nervous, she is leading me up the stairs and to do what…? Sleep? Or does she have something else in mind cuz god knows I have thought about this and dreamed about this but is she ready? Am I ready? Spencer you really need to get a grip.
Natalia feels the older woman hesitate once they have reached the top of the stairs and walking past Olivia's room. She stops and turns around "are you ok?"
"Yeah, I'm just… are you sure about this?"
Natalia takes both of the older woman's hands in hers and says "yes, I am sure. I don't want to waste any more time. Now that we have confessed our feelings I know that I would not be able to sleep knowing that you are in your room just a few feet away. I just want to be close to you and there isn't any rush for anything else right now."
"Ok as long as you are sure" Olivia says.
"I'm sure."
"Ok but I need to grab my toothbrush and my jammies."
"Oh yeah that is probably a good idea."
"I'll be right back then" the older woman says as she disappears into her room to get her things.
Natalia just waited there for her and Olivia was back in a flash… "Ok, I'm ready."
Natalia gave Olivia one of her big dimpled smiles and grabs Olivia's hand again and leads her to her bedroom. Once inside Natalia closes the door and says to the older woman "you go ahead and use the bathroom first and I'll get my stuff together and use the bathroom when you are done."
"Ok, be right out" the older woman says as she goes into the bathroom and closes the door. Natalia in the mean time goes to her dresser and grabs her jammies and sits on the edge of the bed waiting for the hotelier to finish up in the bathroom. She didn't have to wait too long before the door opened and her love walked out and said "it's all yours" with a shy smile.
"Ok, thank you. I'll be back in a few minutes" Natalia says as she disappears into the bathroom.
While her love is in the bathroom changing and brushing her teeth, Olivia goes over to the window leans against the wall and is looking out the window as it is a full moon and it is beautiful how bright it is with the moon is shining over the last of the snow covered yard in the back of the house.
Natalia comes out of the bathroom and sees her love looking out the window instead of being in bed. "Olivia, are you ok?"
Olivia still looking out the window enjoying the view outside says "yeah, just waiting for you love; I wasn't sure what side of the bed you usually sleep on and decided it would be best to wait for you" she says as she turns around to look at the Latina. When she turns around the sight in front of her is so beautiful she is left speechless. Oh my god, Olivia is thinking to herself as Natalia is standing there in a gray tank top and gray shorts. I think you need to where stuff like that all the time. Look at all that tan skin showing and wow, just look those slender tan legs…Olivia's heart is racing.
Natalia is asking Olivia a question but the older woman seems to be off in her own world and when she realizes that Olivia is staring at her she blushes a bit and says "Olivia" a little louder to get the woman's attention.
"Huh?"
"Do you have a preference to which side?"
"Not really" the older woman says "I just didn't want to intrude on your space incase you did."
"Oh Liv, I am not that picky; I just want to be close to you" Natalia says reaching a hand out for Olivia to follow her to the bed. Natalia reaches back and pulls the covers down and the she climbs in the bed kneeling and backing up while guiding her love with her, "come here sweetheart" she says to Olivia and guides her down "is this ok with you?"
"Yeah, this works for me" the older woman says.
"Good" Natalia says.
Olivia gets comfortable and lies on her back and Natalia cuddles up beside her laying her head in the older woman's chest and Olivia wraps her arm around her love and moves her hand up and down the Latina's shoulder and arm. "This feels so good being able to hold you" Olivia says in a soft voice; "I could get used to this."
"Mmm this does feel good" the younger woman says as she leans up to look at her love to say "I love you" as she leans in to kiss Olivia. It was a soft and sensual kiss until Natalia moves up a little more almost laying on top over the older woman and then the kiss quickly deepens into a very passionate kiss. They continued on kissing for what seemed like for ever. Both feeling the need to be closer to each other as things are definitely getting heated, tongues exploring each other's mouths and hands are starting to roam until Olivia reaches and grabs Natalia's face with both hands and then breaks the kiss. Olivia is feeling the result of her arousal flow between her legs and is thinking oh my god if I can get this turned on with just you kissing me, how in the world am I going to handle it when we finally make love. Damn I am so screwed!
Natalia leans her head against Olivia's both breathing hard.
"I think we should stop before this gets too far and I can't stop myself cuz god knows I want this more than anything" the older woman manages to say in between breaths.
"You are right" the younger woman says as she lays back into the position she was in before cuddling up to her love.
As Olivia continues to rub Natalia's arm and shoulder she tells the younger woman "I love you too and I just don't want to rush anything with you. I have said that if I were lucky enough to fall in love again that I want to do things right and that means that I want to do right by you and not rush you or rush things with us."
"There is no rush my love. We have all the time in the world to figure things out now that we are finally here together. And tonight I just want you to hold me. I want to enjoy finally being in your arms and not worry about what ever is ahead of us."
"I think I can do that" the older woman says as she places a kiss on top of the younger woman's head.
They lay there in silence just enjoying being in each other's arms for a while and then Natalia says "Liv?"
"Hmm"
"I want us to go and see Rafe tomorrow morning."
"You do?"
"Yes, I think we should be up front with him about us a soon as possible."
"Ok, are you sure?"
"Yes, I don't want to wait. We have waited long enough don't you think?"
"I do, but what if he isn't ok with this? With us?"
"The sooner we tell him the better. With everything that you have done for him, he should be getting out of jail soon and then he will have to go to the half way house for at least 6 months according to what Mel said. This should give him some time to adjust to the fact that we are together and I am pretty sure that he will be happy that I am not marrying Frank."
"Yeah" Olivia says "he isn't really fond of Frank but you can tell that he was at least trying to be supportive of you in wanting you to be happy."
"But it is you that makes me happy" the Latina says matter of factly. "And he knows you have been here for me and that you have helped him in getting out of that other prison before he got seriously hurt. He knows that you were protecting him as best as you could in everything that you have done for him. So deep down I think he will be ok with this, with us because he knows that you have been there for the both of us and really when you think about it he can't argue with the facts."
"True enough" Olivia says. "Ok we will go by the police station tomorrow to sign and pick up our statements and then we will go and see Rafe."
Natalia leans up again looking at her love and says "sounds good to me" with a big dimpled smile.
Olivia says "you know I can't say no to you especially when you flash those dimples at me."
Natalia smiles an even bigger smile flashing those dimples and says "have I told you I love you lately?"
"Hmmm" the older woman says thinking about it…."nope, not in the last 10 or 15 minutes or so."
"Well Olivia Spencer, I do love you!" she says as she leans in and kisses her love once more. It was a soft and sensual but chaste kiss as she lies back down and snuggles into her love even more draping a leg over the older woman's.
Olivia groans at the contact and says "you certainly aren't going to make this easy one me."
"I'm sorry is this too much? Do you want me to move my leg?"
"No sweetheart, I just love holding you like this and as much as I really want to take this a step further, my will to do right by you is stronger than my growing need or want to be that much more closer to you. I love this and wouldn't want to be any where else than right here with you. Like you said we have plenty of time and you're exactly right. Having you cuddled up to me and in my arms is perfect and this is how I want to fall asleep content and happy."
"Sounds good to me, good night Liv; I love you!"
"Good night sweetheart, I love you too!" And then both women drifted off to sleep.
